Pavlov and the White Moonlight

Love really wears people's minds away. He said that he was homesick. I wish I could move my family to Tianjin. The two of us were so excited that I almost bought a plane ticket to Tianjin. After we talked about what we were going to do tomorrow, We finally calmed down.The two of us fell asleep with the mic hooked up that night. When we woke up the next morning, we looked at our phone. The guy was on the phone for more than 470 minutes.

Tang Shuhe's voice was clear and refreshing: "Just woke up? I'm already in the car."

"Wake up," I yawned, "Get in the car? Is there anyone else in the car?"

He hummed, and I woke up a little bit, probably all of them were in the car, and I said, "Okay, then I'll hang up."

"Remember to have breakfast, I bought some bread, milk, and fruit before I left," he said.

I said okay, and then I realized with a bang—isn't there someone in the car?

After I hung up the phone, I sent him a message while walking towards the kitchen: "What's the matter with you? Are you going to expose your de facto marriage with the handsome guy?"

He replied quickly: "It has been exposed long ago."

I was wide awake, standing in front of the refrigerator, looking fucking stupid.I asked Tang Shuhe: "What do you mean, do your leaders know?"

He said, "Well. I didn't intend to hide it, nor did I say it on purpose."

"??? When did you know?"

He replied: "Before I went to Tianjin this time, I said I had a family here. They asked where the girl was, and I said it wasn't a girl."

He added: "I'm afraid they will transfer me to Tianjin."

I held the mobile phone, raised my eyes and turned my head to smile, the words were all stuck in my Adam's apple, after digesting for a while, I said to him:

"What's the reaction from the school? Come out so early, aren't you afraid it will affect your development?"

"It's okay," he replied, "They didn't say anything, the environment here is relatively relaxed. Besides, if I can't stay here any longer, I'm not afraid of changing jobs."

"Brother Huai," he said, "I won't let what happened back then happen again."

I feel a little complicated.Back then we were like the two little mice in the story of the little pony crossing the river. We almost drowned in the river. If such a tragic thing happened again with blood and blood, both of us would go crazy, but today is different, Tang Shuhe and I are no longer teenagers who can only rely on our parents. We are fully capable of disclosing our sexual orientation at any time. Everything is different from before.

Now we are two water mice.

I pressed my forehead against the refrigerator door and replied, "Okay."

He said so, of course I believe it.

That week was so hard, it was fine when I was busy, but when I got home I was in a trance, once I was so tired that I even forgot to walk the dog, and I just sat on the sofa in a daze. They are all made of wood. I want to lie on Tang Shuhe's legs, think of his flat glasses, think of his eyes that bend more when looking from bottom to top, I'm going crazy thinking about it, Lu Bowen and Xiao Ke are here The door groaned for a long time before I came back to my senses. I sat up and saw the two brothers squatting on the door, one on the left and one on the right, humming like the two generals, staring at this out-of-control human being on the sofa.

I put a leash on them, the phone rang, and Tang Shuhe sent me a message.

"It's a bit annoying." He said, "In a meeting, this director can speak better than our department head."

I tugged on the leash and sent him a row of kissing emojis, and he sent me another panicked message: "We're not talking anymore."

Was this discovered by the head of the department?

I laughed for a long time, thinking that this person had gradually recovered his original appearance, so I happily went for a walk with the dog, smiling even though I shoveled double amounts of shit on the way.

On the day he came back, I drove to the airport to pick him up. I remembered that the first flower I gave him was a paper rose, so I bought a bunch of roses and put them in the back seat of the car. Tang Shuhe stood on tiptoe when he saw me from a long distance away. He waved at me with his feet, and the old professor walking side by side patted him on the shoulder and said something with a smile, Tang Shuhe lowered his head and laughed, his ears were still red when he pulled the suitcase and walked in front of me. In the face of an old professor and a school leader, the two of us looked like individuals, like an old married couple. We greeted each other politely, and when we got back in the car, the two of us immediately showed our original shape. Me, rubbing my forehead on the side of my neck, I buried my face on his shoulder and took a deep breath, then patted his waist: "I miss you so much."

He snorted, hugged me and didn't let go, I asked him to look back, he glanced at it, and smiled all of a sudden, I said: "Do you smell the fragrance of love?" He turned his head and said: "The next time I buy flowers, I will buy them at the flower shop in front of my house. If I become a member, I can get a discount if I give my phone number."

Me: "...Okay, let me take out the flowers for you, and there are chocolate bears under it."

He held my head and wouldn't let me go, his face was very close to mine, he looked at me for a while, then suddenly bent his eyes and laughed.It was a very simple smile, even a little heartless. The morning sun filtered in through the windshield, and his eyes were cleaner than snow.

"I won't go on a business trip again." He said stupidly.

"No, I have to do business." I said, and the two ate a chocolate bear separately.

A small farewell is better than a newlywed, the ancients are sincere and do not deceive me.When we first met, a group of people were there, and the greasy and crooked energy was suppressed. On the way back, Tang Shuhe sat in the co-pilot, ate chocolates with a box in his arms, and tilted his head when he waited for the red light. Stick it on my face.

"Pay attention to the traffic rules," I laughed, feeling itchy in my heart, "Don't take pictures against the rules and then take a photo of the two of us next to each other."

He was amused, and I asked him if he had eaten, and he nodded, having eaten on the plane.I turned down the volume of the car stereo and said, "It's the same as not eating anything on the plane. Are you hungry? Do you want to eat something?"

He still held the chocolate box with his arms crossed, shook his head, and tapped his fingers back and forth on the edge of the iron box. This way, he didn’t stick to me anymore. We chatted one after another. The feeling of staying in a small space with him without doing it.When I entered the community, when I drove the car to the garage, he said, "Lu Huai, I think today can be..."

His voice was too low, I couldn't hear him clearly, he said something, I simply turned off the sound and said: "What treasure?"

Tang Shuhe gritted his teeth, with an unnatural expression on his face, choked up, and said in a low voice, "Today, I think I can..."

...Fuck, I got it, he wouldn't be so hesitant when he said anything else, my heart warmed up, and I pinched the steering wheel: "What are you doing today, aren't you afraid?"

"Don't be afraid," he said, "I miss you."

It's too late and then it's fast. Fuck, I feel my lower half swish... Ah, it's not that fast, and it's not inflated, it's just a bang, I stand up, and my blood goes to my temples for a while All jumping and jumping, I gritted my teeth and tried not to be so impatient: "Okay, let's do it when we get back."

"Don't do that," he said.

"Huh?" I froze for a moment, then suddenly realized.

"Fuck," I said, "do you mean it?"

He nodded with red ears.

The blood was running to my head, but fortunately the car drove into the garage, otherwise I was afraid that I would not be able to see the steps clearly, so I said: "You... no, can you do it? Last time you... ..."

"Last time," he was a little anxious, "I didn't expect it to be like that last time. This time, I try to control it as much as possible. If it really doesn't work, it's ok. You can fix it."

"What?" I asked dazedly.

He went all out and said, "It can be tied up."

Oh shit.

There was a tendon in the back of my head that exploded and jumped up, and the back of my head was so painful that I said Tang Shuhe, you are going to die, you are going to die, I couldn't hold it back, and slammed He smashed the horn: "Fuck."

He was so red that he exploded, and he even hummed.

I'm on fire.

Probably because I was too delirious at the time, and when I recalled things later, I didn’t even have a particularly coherent impression. I only remembered that the world was spinning, and the memory of the location was fragmented. I was outside the garage for a while. , sometimes in the corridor, sometimes at home, the dog came up to greet us, we were tripped on the ground, we forgot whether we locked the car, forgot how to open the door, forgot everything, only remember that it was in the living room that day, even I didn't even have time to go into the bedroom, the movements were frantic and meaningless, there was madness and delirium like a high fever, the weather was excellent, the sun was very strong at noon, and the dazzling white light in the living room made the whole thing like a daydream, I couldn't wake up Come on, don't want to wake up.

If there is still a sliver of reason in me, it means that I didn't really fix him as he said——Tang Shuhe even prepared the rope, and the corners of this man's eyes were red, and he hooked my neck and said Lu Huai, Lu Huai, I miss you.

I bent down to kiss him, unable to control my breathing.

Before that, the doctor told us that Tang Shuhe’s disorder was psychogenic. Fortunately, the school did not give him some drugs that would make him permanently disabled. He has been trying desensitization treatment for many years, but without the help of his spouse, the effect It has never been too big.That time...after being kicked by him unpreparedly, we have been making some attempts in a more gentle way. Although we still haven't stood up, it is still effective. The ground is scrapped to the point where it can run, probably that is the progress.

So what is the situation now.

The plane took off.

I was stunned for a moment, and Tang Shuhe looked at each other, he seemed surprised, we looked at each other silently for a while, the glacier collapsed, the fire burned the Garden of Eden, I stood on top of him, he looked up at me, there was sweat on his eyelashes, he I laughed, stroked my hair, and said softly, "Come on."

Terrible bumps.I whispered in his ear, my ears were as foggy as water, and when I was about to reach the blurred end in front, I hugged him, and I said Tang Shuhe, I love you.

He went.

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