Rebirth of the Republic of China

"Mr. Shao, where have you been?" Seeing that Shao Xintang hadn't come back for such a long time, the two bodyguards felt weak, so they came out to look for them, but there was no toilet, and their faces turned pale.Seeing Shao Xintang coming in from the back door, he ran over quickly and asked, "Mr. Shao, where have you been?"

"...Just now I thought I ran into someone I knew, but I followed them out from the back, but it turned out not to be." Shao Xintang smiled at the two of them, lying.

The two bodyguards frowned and said, "Mr. Shao, don't wander around in the future, or you can ask us to accompany you. What if you encounter bad people?"

Shao Xintang nodded obediently.A little absent-minded actually.

He is suddenly very uncertain about the future now.After a long period of investigation and testing, he met a relatively reliable person in an antique trading market he frequented, and promised to contact him with a fake identity.The man patted his chest to reassure Shao Xintang, but he was still cheated.Shao Xintang felt very gloomy and confused.He doesn't know what to do now, what is right, and he doesn't even have a direction.

run?To run is to run, but how to run?Where are you going?

Shao Xintang felt that she was very isolated and helpless, her heart seemed to be enclosed in a small and dark space, she couldn't get out no matter what, she couldn't find her way, and she was almost suffocated.

When he returned to the commander's mansion at night, Yu Zhannan was already at home unexpectedly.He is usually very busy, and it is rare for him to come back early like today.

"You still run outside in such a cold day, what attracts you outside?"

Yu Zhannan came over in black pajamas, put his arms around Shao Xintang who had just changed into slippers, and rubbed his hair.The movements are intimate and natural.

"What, you're in a bad mood?" Yu Zhannan looked at Shao Xintang carefully, and he could see the exhaustion on his face at a glance, and asked.

"It's okay, but I'm a little tired."

Shao Xintang forced herself to smile, but it was even more fake than not smiling.Seeing that Yu Zhannan frowned.Shen Sheng asked: "What's wrong with you, tell me quickly."

Of course Shao Xintang didn't say anything, he couldn't tell about his escape.In fact, he didn't want Yu Zhannan to see anything, but it was too difficult to force a smile all the time.

until lying in bed at night.Shao Xintang wrapped herself up in the quilt and was about to fall asleep with her head covered.But he was picked up by Yu Zhannan who had just entered the house.

Yu Zhannan sat on the bed, pulled Shao Xintang up and sat opposite him, his two thick black eyebrows were tangled together.After one night, he no longer had a good temper, and asked Shao Xintang in a rough voice: "What the hell is going on, you tell me, how can I solve it for you if you don't tell me?"

Yu Zhannan had a bad temper and a rough voice.In the past, Shao Xintang was most annoyed by his appearance as a bandit.But today, for some reason, hearing him say such words in such an outrageous tone, Shao Xintang suddenly felt a special feeling in his heart, slightly sour, with some gratitude, and perhaps a trace of something he couldn't explain himself I have never been touched.

When he was most difficult and confused, the person who tried his best to help him and erase the sadness on his face was the man who had been domineering and forcing him.Now, the person who cares most about his emotions in this world seems to be the man who has been ignoring his feelings.

He really didn't know how to describe his feelings.

"Do you fucking tell me or not, do you want to make me feel bad? If you don't tell me, I'll ask the people following me to ask what the hell happened to you today." Yu Zhannan was angry, and he was about to get out of bed.

"It's nothing, really!" Shao Xintang hurriedly grabbed him, and held back for a long time before telling a lie. It took him a long time to speak out, and the struggling look didn't seem like he was telling a lie. He said: "I'm a little homesick..."

Although this is a fabricated lie, it is not without reason that he can blurt out this excuse.It seems that the place of home was originally hidden in the most secret place in his heart. After experiencing so much suffering and so much grievance, when he thought that there was no one to rely on in this world, the first thing Shao Xintang thought of was actually the girl who had been abandoned by him for many years. s home……

Back then, his parents pinned all their hopes for drama on him. Shao Xintang was the youngest son in the family, well-behaved and sensible, and he looked more juicy than girls. His parents and elders loved him to the bone, and they wanted to show the best in the world. Everything was delivered to him, although sometimes it was very tiring and bitter when practicing kung fu, but when he grew up, after experiencing love, betrayal, and many, many things, every time Shao Xintang recalled that time, he felt like He squinted his eyes to look at the kaleidoscope, beautiful and blurry, so happy that he wanted to cry...

He doesn't know how his elderly parents are doing now, and he doesn't know if he will feel sad for him again when he hears the news of the death of his youngest son who has broken their hearts... He doesn't dare to think about these things. His parents, with white hair all over their heads, cried and fell in front of his grave, and every muscle, muscle, and bone of his whole body felt like being cut by a knife.Those were the two people who loved him the most in the world, and they were also the ones who were severely hurt by him when he was young and ignorant...

It's too late to say regret, Shao Xintang can only pray for them devoutly in his heart every time he suffers from guilt...

"Almighty God, please let my most merciful parents in the world be safe and happy, and stop worrying about their unfilial son..."

What Yu Zhannan couldn't stand the most was Shao Xintang's look of wandering in the sky and worrying between his brows.This made him feel that Shao Xintang was out of his control and was experiencing his own emotions, and no one could enter that world, including him.

"I thought it was a big deal." Yu Zhannan interrupted Shao Xintang's distant thoughts and said, "My uncle's birthday in Tianjin will be in a few days. When I go to celebrate his birthday, I will take you back to my hometown."

How can he go back to his home?

Shao Xintang lowered her eyes sadly, and said softly, "No need, I don't remember the way home."

What Shao Xintang was talking about was the experience of the previous Shao Xintang. The previous Shao Xintang was sold to an opera troupe since he was a child, and he didn't even know who his relatives were.But such words made Yu Zhannan's heart ache for a while, he hugged Shao Xintang into his arms, and let him lean into his broad chest, as if he was comforting him with such clumsy movements.

"Tell me something about your childhood." Yu Zhannan said softly, with his closest gentle expression on his face.

"What are you talking about..." You can't talk to him about things in the 21st century.Shao Xintang said perfunctorily: "It's nothing, just practice kung fu with the master all day long."

"Were you tired at that time? You were so thin and tender, did your brothers bully you?" Yu Zhannan's voice was especially tender in this dark night, and he said: "If I knew you at that time Well, no one dares to bully you."

Shao Xintang listened quietly, feeling incredible that this person who caused him the most pain and bullied him the most could still say to him today, "If he was there at that time, no one would dare to bully you".

Yu Zhannan treats him very well now, so good that everyone can see it.But this kind of goodness is unequal and disrespectful.It's like if he has any ideas, he will never reveal them sincerely to Zhan Nan, just like if Yu Zhannan has something to do, he will never discuss it with him.In Shao Xintang's view, the relationship between the two can only be a temporary, one-sided coercive relationship. As long as one of them changes even the slightest bit, this relationship will collapse...

The two were lying on the bed, Shao Xintang didn't like to sleep next to someone's body, but every time Yu Zhannan's strong arm would directly cross him, holding him against his chest.So Shao Xintang also developed the habit of sleeping with his back facing him.

Maybe because Shao Xintang was in a bad mood, Yu Zhannan wanted to have sex without going to bed for the first time, but chatted with him, about how he was self-willed and mischievous when he was a child, how he grew up under the arrogance of his father's aunts when he was a child, And when he was eight years old, he was able to shoot without missing a shot, and when he was 12 years old, he went to the battlefield with his father and seized power from those old politicians who ate people but never spit out their bones...

This is very similar to the growth history of a generation of heroes. Yu Zhannan has shown extraordinary talent and courage since he was a child. He has gone through hardships and thorns all the way, and finally achieved his own value, not caring about other people's eyes and public opinion...

Although Yu Zhannan was very dishonest in handling his own affairs, Shao Xintang still had to admit that Yu Zhannan was a hero and a tough guy.No matter what age he is in, he is destined to be not an ordinary person, he will have his own sky, and he will not be like himself, struggling everywhere...

Hearing this, Shao Xintang fell asleep, and Yu Zhannan's voice became softer and softer, and finally fell silent.In the darkness, the two embracing figures on the big bed looked particularly harmonious under the moonlight...

After that day, Shao Xintang never left the commander's mansion.Maybe it was because of escaping, maybe it was because he was afraid of seeing Zhenjiang and the others again, Shao Xintang didn't know what kind of mentality he was in, and spent all day lazily nestling in Zhannan's room.Yu Zhannan specially asked someone to put a soft couch under the window for him, and it was covered with a soft blanket made of thick and fine animal fur.There is a three-legged low table next to the soft couch, on which servants come up every hour to replace it with a plate of fresh fruit, and there are some exquisitely packaged snacks beside it, which are the best favorites for rich ladies in the city. like.Yu Zhannan really spoiled him like a child.

Shao Xintang lazily nestled on the couch every day, the bright sun outside shrouded his body through the thin glass, and he became more and more lazy. It took a few days to finish a book, and his mind was always dizzy of.

Sometimes he would lie on his back and look straight at the vast sky outside, and the geese flew by without a trace.Every time at this time, he can't help but think wildly, thinking that if he can't escape for the rest of his life, will Yu Zhannan treat him so well all his life? spit on yourself.Shao Xintang, are you willing to wait for the day when people get tired of you before you are kicked out...