Eros kisses Psyche

It was still early in the morning when they arrived at the hospital, and the rush hour was staggered. Aunt Liu saw that Cheng Zhu had appeared again today, and the complex emotions in her eyes became more complex, and she treated him much more kindly.In fact, nothing happened when I came, ICU visits were still prohibited, I found the doctors and nurses on duty and asked around, and said that the situation was very stable, so there was no need to worry, and they had nothing to do to keep their mobile phones unblocked and so on.

"It's just right," Cheng Zhu looked at his watch, "I have an old classmate here, and he's become the director after doing well. It's time to go to work now. I'll go say hello to him, and you can come with me."

Xu Budie was a little hesitant, how could he not know what Cheng Zhu meant, but what could he give himself - he didn't have the money to manage his relationship, give the doctor a red envelope or something.

"It's not what you think, it's just to sell my face." Cheng Zhu said, seemingly indifferent, "Don't engage in those imaginary things."

From the chaotic yesterday to the present, Xu Budie didn't know how to keep the distance between the two of them, nor how to deal with the relationship between the two of them. Everything became very distorted and delicate, a little nervous, and a little nervous. Excessively exaggerated and nervous; very different from his original plan, completely messed up, even now walking beside Cheng Zhu, he is like a guard with the same hands and feet, the more he cares, the more he can't turn back .What annoyed him the most was that, except for that moment in the morning, Cheng Zhu looked completely normal now, without any deliberate intimacy or estrangement towards him, what happened before is what he is now, as if he really lost his memory, and nothing happened between them .

This made him a little happy, but also inexplicably a little disappointed.

Sitting in the office was a doctor who was about the same age as Cheng Zhu. He said he was similar, but he looked a little older than Cheng Zhu. Of course, it might be because of Cheng Zhu's slovenly appearance, and it's not easy for people who are engaged in art to see the age difference.As soon as they met, they made a lot of noise, raised the decibels of their speech by three or five degrees, flattered each other in derogatory ways, and then patted each other on the shoulder very enthusiastically, making Xu Budie not know where to stand, Going around in a circle to avoid the enthusiastic goodbye bear hug of two middle-aged men who haven't seen each other for a long time.

"Oh, Xin Zi, you are still amazing. I have not seen you for half a year, and I have become the director. I want to expose this matter without inviting a guest. If I hadn't called you, I wouldn't have known..."

Director Xin hurriedly complained: "I'm still a deputy, a deputy! Acting as the director's authority, you can't talk nonsense. This is a bad guy, I just work as the secretary and human computer for the leader. How can you be the youngest? Now it's Master Cheng, did you bring your signature last time, I will apply for your assistant when I can no longer work here, and you must reserve a place for me..."

The two exchanged unnutritious greetings. Director Xin turned his head to look at the young man who was left alone, nodded, and said to Cheng Zhu, "This is the child you told me about on the phone this morning?"

"Ah, yes, let me introduce, this is Xiao Xu." Cheng Zhu gave him a hand, then pointed to Director Xin and said, "Xin Zi is an alumnus of my university. He is a model of Lu Xun who abandoned literature and went to medicine to make Lu Xun mad."

Xiao Xu acted obediently, and hurried up the pole: "Hello, Director Xin."

Director Xin's full name is Xin Kezhui. Although it means "the one who comes can still be chased", it sounds like a girl who is easy to be chased, so he is called Xin Zi kindly. He is also quite free and easy, calling himself Mrs. Xin .Director Xin sneered: "Your Master Cheng is a genius, and I, Mrs. Xin, am a layman. My father said that he can find me a relationship in the hospital system. The road is paved, so what can I do? I don't have your talent. If you can’t make a name for yourself, you have to go home and inherit the family business.”

Speaking of this, Xu Budie could tell that the two were very good friends.

Cheng Zhu said: "I just found out that Xiao Xu's mother is hospitalized here. Because the situation is serious, I will show you my old face. If you can help, just take care of it."

Director Xin nodded: "My youngest, you have already spoken, so I am duty-bound, and there is no need to be polite." He turned his head and said to Xu Budie, "Since you are the youngest's student, don't be polite to me. Then if you have any problems in the hospital, just come to me directly, and I will try my best to solve it."

Xu Budie hurriedly thanked and declined politely: "My mother has been hospitalized here for several months, and it has already troubled the doctors and nurses in the attached hospital. Everyone also takes good care of my family. The most dangerous thing before I have also invited consultations from time to time... No need to bother Director Xin or anything."

"Well, I also know something about your mother's case and your family's situation... It's a relatively big case in our hospital." Director Xin nodded, "It's hard for you, I dare not say anything else. I can't help, but I'm also in charge of administration in the office anyway, at least I can help with the hospital's application for subsidies." He smiled soothingly at Xiao Xu, "Don't be shy, This is all normal. If we have indicators in our hands, who should we give them to? Besides, it’s not much, so we just quench our thirst and relieve your pressure. If you don’t want it, others who have connections will grab it. Conditions, you should apply earlier? Didn’t the attending doctor tell you?”

"I..." Xiao Xu didn't know what to say, he felt a big stone stuck in his throat, and he swallowed hard, "I know your kindness... Doctor Liao told me before; but I don't want to Accept social donations. I don't want this to happen again..."

"I understand, but the hospital's subsidy is not a social donation." Director Xin hurriedly comforted him, "It is mainly your attending doctor who is in charge. Make a report to the hospital leader for approval, and then hold a meeting to pass it. Only the hospital knows. There is no interview or interview." Open to the public—ah, there might be an audit form open, which is to write a line of names."

Cheng Zhu patted him on the shoulder at the right time, and interrupted this beforehand, "Okay, this matter hasn't been settled yet. Although Xin Zi said so, there must be a lot of procedures to go through, and it's not right now. There is, and it may not be approved, anyway, try it first, who would think that there are too many roads. Let me tell you another thing?" The last sentence was directed at Director Xin again.

"Ah, I've already said hello, Doctor Qu, you know," he was saying, when he heard a few knocks on the office door, a middle-aged bald doctor with a round face poked his head in, holding a Teapot, with a smiling Maitreya good look, everyone feels good when they see it: "Hey, Professor Cheng is here, it's so early."

Cheng Zhu went up to shake hands: "Isn't this a special trip to invite you, the Buddha?"

Doctor Qu smiled and looked around: "Why, is Lele here today? I miss him."

"This trip is not for Lele," Cheng Zhu said, "I am a student." He pointed at Xu Budie.He then introduced to Xiao Xu, "Xiao Xu, this Dr. Qu is a well-known psychotherapist here."

Xu Budie flinched suddenly as if burned by those words, looked at Cheng Zhu in disbelief, his face changed from cloudy to sunny, and suddenly turned red:

"...you... think I'm sick?"

Before Cheng Zhu could speak, Dr. Qu smiled first: "Our psychiatrists have a really bad reputation. It's not like that. Many times, you just have a hurdle in your heart, and we didn't go over there to treat you. Kan was leveled, that's what surgeons do, clearing roads and building bridges when encountering mountains; but us psychologists, we are lazy, we are like cheerleaders, to cheer you up, to let you Be able to muster up the courage to turn over. When you turn over, look back, oh, it turns out that the thing that trapped you before is only so small, so don’t worry about it after passing. The foolish old man moves the mountain, and the wise man must outsmart it. Weihushan. So this is not a question of whether it can be cured or not...Did the cheerleaders cure the runner who couldn't run?"

"……No."

"That's right, isn't that contestant sick?"

"nor."

"This is not absolute, sometimes there are, but at that time the cheerleaders will call the doctor to help. If the leg is broken, it will be called surgery, and if it is out of breath, it will be called internal medicine. The cheerleaders are doing these logistics and helping to judge. , to encourage you to continue, or to prevent you from being seriously injured and still smashing, and climbing to the finish line even if your leg is broken..." The kind middle-aged man with a bald head babbled and took him out of Cheng Zhu's hands. After receiving it, his words have a kind of magic, which is very gentle and persuasive, so that you can't help but follow his rhythm. "So, as long as you don't break your leg, you're not a patient, and I'm not a doctor. Come on, come on, I still have a while to go to the clinic, so you should chat with me for a while, look, nine o'clock I went to see a doctor, and they didn’t want to accompany me for 15 minutes.”

It was also impossible for Xu Budie to get angry on the spot, and he refused to give Cheng Zhu face in front of Director Xin, so he dragged his feet between the doctor and Cheng Zhu, but with the rhythm of Dr. Qu's words gradually diverted his attention, Finally, he followed him away, and when he closed the door, he still frowned, and couldn't help but turn his head and stare at Cheng Zhu, as if he was very displeased with his cutting first and playing later.

Cheng Zhu heaved a sigh of relief and sat back on the sofa.

"It's okay, Lao Qu can handle him. Many people who don't want to see a doctor are coaxed and tricked by their family members. After handing them over to Lao Qu, they soon obeyed and came by themselves." Mrs. Xin comforted him. , made him a cup of Dahongpao, ("I'll give you a taste, I'm a special offer for the leader, a limited edition for full-time employees",) "You are so caring, who is this kid?"

Cheng Zhu exhausted his strength, and leaned on the sofa a little slumped, "Don't tell me, I'm just a student."

"Are you planning to challenge this year's awards for model teachers and good people in China? I didn't think you were such a model before?" Director Xin teased and then put on a straight face, "The situation in his family is so complicated, don't give it to others. It's a trick. Hey, it's normal for this kid to have some kind of mental illness, can people still be healthy if the family is like this?"

Cheng Zhu said: "What's the matter, I asked you to check, have you checked?"

"I've checked, isn't that what my deputy director does? Here," Mrs. Xin handed him a piece of information, leaned forward, and said mysteriously, "I got into a car accident and got off the Dongqi Expressway and got off the provincial highway. It hit a guardrail on a sharp bend in Guotianbu and flipped over. The man in the driver's seat died on the spot, and the woman in the co-pilot suffered 70% of the third-degree burns. On the day it was delivered, two relatives were almost in the emergency department of our hospital. There was a fight, a full martial arts show, our director was the one who settled it at the time, and almost didn't kneel down to them. This matter is so famous that reporters have come. I think you seem to have an impression when you called this morning. After checking, it really is I heard from the nurse that yesterday his relatives staged a great escape from the polar region, and they didn’t even dare to sign another one. His family is considered a celebrity in our area.”

Cheng Zhu was stunned: "What's going on? Why are you fighting?"

"I'm not being truthful about this. I can't really ask the family members—there is no family member. It's just your student, and he didn't speak. It's all heard by our head nurse. It is said that there is something wrong with the car accident. , because the man hasn’t driven for a long time, and I don’t know why he suddenly drove. It is said that the woman must have asked him to drive back to his hometown. The man’s family accused the woman of doing it on purpose, as if there were some conflicts between husband and wife; the woman’s family was more direct, saying directly The man is a murderer, saying that he planned to commit suicide in this car accident, but he did not forget to hitch up his wife."

"There is still this kind of secret..." Cheng Zhu was speechless, the amount of information was too much to slow down for a while, "Then if what they said is true, isn't it suspected of a crime? The police didn't intervene in the investigation?"

"Yes, but who can tell? There is no proof."

"How can you say that? The woman is still alive."

Director Xin looked at him a little strangely: "You don't know?... He didn't tell you anything, but you are so eager to help, are you being sold and still counting the money? Why didn't I think you were like this before?" What about silly white sweet?"

"what happened?"

"His mother, Lin Youxia, compared with burns, the most serious problem is PVS... that is, persistent vegetative state. Of course, under the circumstances that burns of this degree are still unstable, it would be a blessing in disguise. At least , the pain of changing the skin graft dressing is much less."

"...What is the probability of waking up?"

"What do you think? I'm not engaged in this, I can only say that it certainly cannot be said that there is no such thing, right."

Cheng Zhu was really stunned, and even a trace of absurdity floated in his heart.He asked himself, if it would cost him so much energy and cost to save a vegetable... would he be willing?However, this is not a calculation problem at all, and human nature cannot withstand such calculations; no matter if it is a vegetable, it is also my mother, she still has breathing and heartbeat, a feeling that cannot be discarded and a morality that is destined to be difficult to abandon urges you to just Can make a choice.But if she never wakes up...does she just keep working hard towards the end point that she will never reach?

This person cannot move, speak, or communicate, and may never get any feedback, but it seems to be a part of your body... It can only survive by relying on you, as if there is an extra parasite on the outside of the body that cannot be thrown away , linking the two together inextricably; the only thing that supports you may be a little hope, and that hope is like a spark that never ends...

It was hard for Cheng Zhu to imagine what a heavy life it was; there seemed to be a funny picture in front of his eyes, a person walking alone with a huge shell on his back, each foot was sunk into the mud, and was crushed by the huge weight In the end, the man curled up his limbs and was ground flat and hard, becoming more and more like a shell, and the shell shone brightly, but became more and more human-like...

He shook his head, shaking the weird image out of his mind.Now is not the time to think about art.

"Where are the other adults in his family?"

"This disease costs money. The man's side must have evaporated directly. If it doesn't exist, the man's deceased has already passed away anyway. This woman is a stranger to them, and she is even a murderer. I think there was such a big scene before. It also expresses this attitude, which means that you don’t want to ask us for money.” Director Xin sighed, “As for the woman’s patient’s family, the only parent left is the father, and he has been here several times. It's all white, my ears are not good and my body is not good. It is said that I was so angry by the man that day, and I also fell ill. Other relatives in the family must avoid it. Yesterday, a sister who said she was a patient came and said she wanted to sign. , running faster than a rabbit, is it really that scary to sign, and it doesn’t mean that you have to pay for it.”

Cheng Zhu exhaled heavily. "What's the matter?"

"Don't tell me, his mother has spent several million this year. Even if she is discharged from the hospital, the vegetative state will cost at least hundreds of thousands of nursing care and treatment fees every year, not to mention the troublesome follow-up of burns, and no relatives are reliable. And this kid is stubborn, as you heard just now, he refused social assistance, originally his situation was very suitable, but several times his attending doctor asked him to contact social donations or public welfare fundraising, he refused all of them, plus His conditions were indeed not the worst, and everyone didn't bother to care about him afterwards."

"why?"

"When you work in the hospital, you will know that the same rice supports all kinds of people. Some people just don't like others to pity them, and some people would rather die than have their lives disturbed. But his reasons are more complicated, or As I said earlier, regarding the possible suicide of his father, didn’t I mention that the media had come? It’s also strange that no one has reported on such a big event since then.”

"What's the reason for that?"

"Reporters are all human beings... It is likely that there will be a big problem behind this, so there is something strange. Now that the public opinion has subsided, it is understandable that he does not want to bring this matter up again. Think about it, in case it is found out What's the matter, his father is dead and it's still not peaceful, if it is found out that the murderer is one of his parents, will he avenge his mother or his father?" Lao Xin spread his hands and lowered his voice, "There is also a possibility, I guess, that he knows the real situation of the car accident that others don't know about."