Rebirth of Mecha Life

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32. Emotional outbursts...

"I didn't ask you if you violated the rules." Gu Zirong pursed his lips, his eyes were a bit annoyed, but his tone of voice was a bit gloomy, "You don't look like you're injured, why did you apply for medicine as soon as you came to school? "

Lin Nan heard his tone as if he was questioning and reprimanding. Lin Nan's first reaction was that this person was just looking for faults. After all, in his opinion, Gu Zichen's poor health was almost well known. As his biological brother It is impossible for Gu Zirong not to know this.

Although it is not uncommon for poor health to apply for school pharmacy, he is definitely not the only case. Some people who were injured during training also applied, but he applied before the official start of school. Lin Nan There was nothing wrong with it, not to mention that the school had approved it, but Gu Zirong questioned it here. Lin Nan suddenly felt that he was meddling.

Anyway, the relationship between Gu Zichen and Gu Zirong is not good, Lin Nan did not hide his dissatisfaction, and gave Gu Zirong a cold sideways glance, with a slightly sarcastic tone, "I applied, and the school approved it, what is the reason?" Yes, there should be no need to report to you, if there is such a school rule, I can write a report to you."

After he finished his last sentence, he turned around and went upstairs regardless of Gu Zirong's reaction. Gu Zirong opened his mouth, but in the end he couldn't stop Lin Nan again. He thumped the wall with regret, and the hard wall said "" Bang" sounded loudly.

He originally wanted to ask Lin Nan if he was in poor health, or if he had suffered some hidden injury that could not be seen from the outside, but unexpectedly, the relationship between the two of them became more and more rigid. He sighed and sat down slowly. down.

After Lin Nan took two steps, he actually felt a little regretful. He knew that he was completely venting his anger. Knowing that his mother was still alive made his mood stained with sunshine, but the fact that he could not find his mother made his heart dark again. Gaining the upper hand, the battle between darkness and light was not so obvious, but it inevitably made him feel restless.

Coupled with the pressure of always pretending to be gentle and considerate in front of others, and the regret of knowing that his body cannot return to its previous state, it made his heart feel like a heavy stone was pressed, and he even felt that he was about to die. He couldn't breathe anymore, and Gu Zirong's words became the last straw that crushed him.

The difference is that he didn't fall down, but broke out. He needs to be gentle in front of others, but Gu Zichen and Gu Zirong didn't have a good relationship in the first place, so there's nothing to hide from him getting angry, even the former Gu Zichen There had never been an outburst like this, but considering that the two were not close in the first place, it made sense for them to lose their temper.

Thinking of this, Lin Nan felt a little frustrated. Why did he live so tired, he had to think so much even when he was angry? Perhaps these thoughts did not specifically appear in his mind before, but he subconsciously chose the one that was the least. The object of suspicion will release his anger. When did he actually become like this.

Lin Nan stopped with a wry smile, sat slowly on the stairs, lowered his head, and covered his face with his hands. He didn't want his depression to leak out, even if there was no one here. He didn't bother to think about whether there were monitoring equipment or not. He just felt so tired that he almost fell down.

He even felt that he was wronged and wanted to cry. Being framed, five years in prison, his mother's disappearance, and the panic and helplessness of pretending to be his identity, everything was on his body, but after the outbreak, he still felt deeply. He was so exhausted that he would rather be himself than Gu Zichen.

Even though his body is worse than Gu Zichen's, so bad that he has to gasp several times even when he takes a step, and even trembles when his mood fluctuates slightly, but it is indeed his body, it is himself, he is a person who is indifferent from the inside out. The existence called Lin Nan.

He can hate freely, live recklessly, even if he dies in the next second, at least it is still real, but now, he can't even vent his anger, even hate Chen Tianxiang, or even want to get close to someone. I had to think back and forth, not daring to show any flaws.

He didn't want to die, but he didn't even want to live like this.

If it wasn't for his mother, if he didn't know that his mother was still alive, if he didn't know that Boss Qi was also in prison, he would almost impulsively go directly to Chen Tianxiang, and die with him.But he can't, he can only think over and over again whether he has exposed any flaws, he can only keep planning with patience, he can only wait.

Lin Nan felt that the bitterness in his heart almost completely buried himself. He was tightly suppressed. He wanted to cry, but his eyes were so dry that he seemed to have forgotten how to cry. He sat there, his fingers trembling slightly, and his lips were slightly parted. He spoke, but his throat seemed to be choked by something, and he couldn't even continue to breathe.

Lin Nan couldn't help but think of giving up. He felt that his persistence was naive and ridiculous. With his own strength and his current body that would get tired after even a little exercise, he wanted to climb to the top and take revenge. It's not that it's impossible, but that the possibility is too small, so small that people dare not think about it. However, at this moment, he suddenly thought of his mother.

In the environment of the old district, where competition for a little resource is fierce and power is paramount, the mother's weak body and gentle personality can actually raise him healthy by herself. At that time, even he had no hope. , but the mother is always positive.

She is not stupid and credulous, but always has kindness and trust in this world, in this cruel and cold world. She believes in any little bit of beauty, but she also understands that darkness exists at the same time, and she has also walked through it. In dark times, there is always hope in the smile.

Lin Nan felt that his cold heart was slowly warming up. After thinking of his mother, the mood that had fallen to the bottom seemed to climb up along the edge of the cliff little by little.He's alive, at least, alive.

To live, there is hope.

Everything is possible.

Lin Nan took a deep breath. After feeling that his gloomy mood had calmed down, he slowly stood up, turned and walked upstairs. Qi Xuan, who had been watching him for a long time at the corner of the stairs, also came back to his senses. He hastily moved his body, which was slightly stiff because of maintaining a posture, and quickly walked back to the dormitory.

Lin Nan walked upstairs slowly with his head down, not realizing that the leak of his emotions just now had been completely seen by others.

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33. A little too much...

After returning to the dormitory, Lin Nan saw Qi Xuan still in the dormitory by accident. He thought that after sitting outside for so long, Qi Xuan should have gone upstairs to practice. Unexpectedly, he was still sitting on the sofa and heard Qi Xuan stood up a little awkwardly, and turned to look at Lin Nan.

He pursed his lips, hesitated for a while, and then asked softly, "Are you okay?" As soon as he said that, he regretted it a little. Didn't he tell the other party that he saw his gaffe just now? Startled, he immediately thought of this possibility, he tried to twitch the corner of his mouth, but failed.

He hesitated for a while, and finally replied in a low voice, "I'm fine." He paused, and seeing Qi Xuan's increasingly embarrassed expression, he couldn't help but add, "He's my eldest brother, and he's also a student of this academy, but , His relationship with the family is not good."

He added a sentence that he didn't know whether to explain or complicate the situation, Qi Xuan was stunned for a moment, as if it was because of Lin Nan's words, or because of the confession in Lin Nan's words.His cheeks turned red involuntarily, and he murmured, "You...you have a good rest, I...I'll go up and exercise."

He almost ran away, as if he was afraid that Lin Nan would say anything more, Lin Nan watched him step out of the door in a daze, feeling a little complicated, he didn't know whether he should be happy or depressed.

Although he had just adjusted his mentality, the lingering feeling of fatigue still haunted him. Lin Nan knew that not only his heart was tired, but his body was also a little tired. An afternoon of exercise was completely superhuman for this body. When the burden was over, he hurriedly washed and then lay down in the pharmacy warehouse.

The medicine warehouse automatically formed a wrapping film, Lin Nan closed his eyes, and fell into a dream after a while.

He felt that he had a very beautiful dream. In the dream, he returned to the happiest and happy moment, when he was developing smoothly in the army. He sat beside his mother and vowed to make her a native of the new district. His mother was sitting in front of the window, smiling quietly. Her smile was full of sweetness and anticipation, like bright light, piercing into his eyes and engraving into his heart.

When he woke up again, Lin Nan felt that he was full of confidence and fighting spirit again, even if it was because of his mother's smile, he thought so, and felt that even his physical fatigue seemed to be swept away, he smiled softly, with a gentle expression And beautiful, different from his usual disguise, now he looks more real.

Qi Xuan turned over and got up when he heard the movement. Seeing Lin Nan's expression, he couldn't help being stunned. He rubbed his eyes, and when he looked again, Lin Nan had taken back the short-lived smile just now.