that boy cried for me

I could vaguely see vague things, but I couldn't seem to control my consciousness. I felt that there were messy things in my mind, and I couldn't sort out my thoughts clearly. I even felt that my soul had gone out of my body at one time, because I had no reality at all. Sensation, I feel as if I am floating in the air.

I can't feel the surrounding environment at all, and I seem to hear voices next to my ears vaguely, but I can't tell whether someone is really talking or I am hallucinating.But I always feel that someone is calling my name, and someone is talking to me all the time.

Finally, I feel that I can control something, like my eyelids, I want to open my eyes and make sure that the shadowy thing is what I see, not what I feel.

I squinted my eyes, and immediately heard a voice "Meng Xiao!"

This sound seemed to make my heart beat, and then everything in front of my eyes went dark.

Am I dead?

I used to always think, what is it like to die?Where does consciousness go?Will it float?Or really there is nothing, but why not?Will it be like sleeping?

I heard the sound of the door switch, the sound of talking, I felt someone moving me, silhouette, light, transparent color, white, smell of potion, something on the back of the hand, eyes open, eyes closed, the light is so bright, what is there Holding my hand, I tried to open my eyes again. This time, I slowly squinted my eyes, and slowly saw something clearly. A face, in front of my eyes, I saw his eyes, and as I saw him clearly , changed, from nervous, to excited, to excited, and then his mouth made a sound, "Meng Xiao? Are you awake? Meng Xiao?"

Then his face suddenly disappeared, and another face appeared, and then there was a distorted voice, "Xiao~~ You're awake, you're awake!"

I'm awake, I'm not dead.

I slowly woke up.I saw Meng Zhao.

I am no stranger to hospitalization. I am familiar with the infusion needles on the back of my hand, and it seems that the pain is not so bad. Maybe I am still a little numb. In fact, other pains far exceed my hands. If I know It hurts so much, I would rather not wake up.

Meng Zhao was very close to me, standing by my bed, looking at a loss, which is really rare, he would respond and speak as quickly as possible whenever he wanted.

"Meng... Meng Xiao..." Still stuttering?

He looked at me, and I looked at him, he moved his mouth and said, "Does it hurt?"

nonsense.

But I don't even have the energy to talk nonsense.

Meng Zhao grinned, which was ugly. He wanted to say something, but he could only grin weakly.

I am like a room where the electricity has just been cut off. It takes a little bit to recover from the darkness, but I always feel that there is something holding my hand. He seems to have left for a while, and then came back and continued to hold it.When Meng Zhao talked to me, his hands were held. The doctor came in to check me, and the nurses came in and out, and his hands were also held. Meng Zhao was always in front of me, knowing that he gave way to the doctor. I just realized that there was always someone behind him, and my hand was always in his hand.

That turned out to be Guan Qi.

I met his eyes, and he looked at me for a while, then smiled at me.But he didn't say anything.

When the doctor went out, he followed, and Meng Zhao also followed. After a while, Meng Zhaoxian came back and came to my bed. I looked behind him, and he seemed to have noticed it, and glanced at me.Immediately, he glanced at the door again, then walked over to close the door, walked back, sat down, looked at me, and said, "It's a good thing you're awake, brother, I really don't know what to do? Scared your brother to death." I did." He said shiveringly. "The doctor said a lot of messy things. He just wanted to scare me. Do you know how many days I haven't slept?" It's a beautiful spring, and the swelling may have disappeared a little while ago, and the color has changed a little. With the addition of a beard stubble, it is incomparable with the gigolo from before. "Xiao..." He cried with a sad face, "We won't be like this in the future, I really can't bear it."

"You think... I think so..." These are the first words I spit out.

He grimaced, "This time I was not sure, brother was wrong, brother was wrong... I was too scared to sleep, I was afraid that if I fell asleep, I would wake up and hear some bad news. Let me see you panting, Xiao, don’t scare me like this from now on... you scared me to death..." He did appear to be in shock, staring at me with his eyes open, as if he was about to fall asleep in the middle Yes, he paused for a moment, woke up suddenly, looked at me directly, and saw that I was looking at him, so he calmed down.

I said "Go to sleep, I woke up..."

He leaned there, depressed.Slowly leaning back on the sofa, the snoring sounded slowly.

The door opened, Guan Qi walked in, saw the situation in the room, and approached, "He has been afraid to sleep, for several days, he couldn't keep his eyes on the middle, and he would wake up with a start when he fell asleep."

He came up to my bed, sat there, and took my hand.I finally knew that it was Guan Qi's hand that was holding my hand all the time.

"Your brother is really scared this time."

My eyes flickered for a moment, and he said, "I'm also very scared." He said, "I'm very scared." His hand seemed to use some force, "I don't know what to do, I want to talk to you, but I think you may not If you don’t want to hear my voice, I’ll keep holding your hand, it’s always warm, so what’s wrong with you?”

I feel a little uncomfortable.

"Some things, I thought I would never have the opportunity to tell you, I know what I did was very dishonest, but I really don't want you to be Guan Liang's substitute, I really want to find someone to live with , this is indeed unfair to you, and I don't know how to make you understand, but this time you have an accident, I just know, if you really leave like this, I really can't bear it, I didn't expect that I would So unbearable, if I could have found you sooner, you might not be like this, you know how many times I said it when you said to me with blood in your mouth, 'You are not Guan Qi, are you?' ?” He stared at me and said, “Meng Xiao, if you hate the old me and can’t accept the old me, I’ll be a different person, okay?”

I thought, maybe I was crying, Guan Qi seemed to be crying too, he kept holding my hand.

I became groggy and lost consciousness again.

When I woke up again, I suddenly felt very clear. This clearness was accompanied by pain from my chest, abdomen and legs. I opened my eyes. Although my mind was clear, I couldn't fix the focus, and my eyes were white.

I vaguely saw a few figures, and I opened my mouth, but I didn't make any characters, accompanied by some vague sounds.I heard someone say "Mom and I have been looking for you for several days, why are you here all the time?"

"Guan Qi, you have to rest. If the head nurse Li didn't recognize you, Mom wouldn't know you were in this hospital."

"He's not completely out of danger yet, I can't leave him." It was Guan Qi's voice. "He ruptured his liver and has not fully recovered from the last surgery."

"Isn't that because the two brothers caused trouble? Why are you here when his brother isn't here?" It was a boy's voice.

"I have to be here."

"why?"

"Because..." Guan Qi's voice came, and I wanted to open my eyes to see him. "He's my boyfriend!" He said suddenly, and my head stopped.

At the same time, another voice said "What did you say?"

I seemed to see something clearly. It was Meng Zhao who came in from the door and asked this sentence. I looked at the four people standing in the room, and the expressions on each of their faces were so different.