that boy cried for me

I propped my hands on the console, Guan Qi was holding me at the moment, Guan Liang probably left, and he switched back to the gentle him.He has withdrawn from my body and helped me pull my pants up, I feel like my body is shaking, he seems to realize this, put his hands under my armpits, pull me up, hold me Me, I stood motionless at his mercy, he held my chin with one hand, turned my face sideways, he could see my expression, I simply closed my eyes.

"I'm sorry, Xiaoxiao."

I would rather he killed me just now, and now he said this to my dead body.

You didn't feel sorry for me, you don't need to be sorry for me, everything you do is out of your instinct, your instinct to protect and love your brother, you are a fighter among big brothers.

I still have my eyes closed, and what is flowing in my blood is like countless rushing cold water.

"Xiao Xiao, help me..." His voice was helpless.

I slowly opened my eyes, he was looking at me sadly, I couldn't help but meet his eyes.

"Isn't it enough to help you like that just now?" I asked him.

He twisted my body and held me tight in his arms.

It seems that in some novel, the male protagonist has been poisoned, and when he thinks about the female protagonist, he will be in so much pain that he cannot survive but cannot die.I am just like him now, Guan Qi's hug is like the source of the poison, like countless sharp needles piercing my body, I have difficulty breathing.

I think I'm not far from death, I can't help you anymore, Guan Qi.

I pushed him away, "I think my curtain call today is perfect. Your brother is not a fool. He already knows that I am just a man. What you need now can be any man who is not your brother. It doesn't have to be a man. Me. Your conditions are so good. If you want to buy one and sell it, he must be more professional than me. You can do him there if you want, because you pay the money, and you feel at ease. You don’t have to think about how to treat me all day long. Okay. If you don’t have a source of supply, I’ll ask Meng Zhao to introduce one to you. Although he doesn’t make duck heads anymore, he still has a network of connections. Can I give you a menu for you to choose from? Do you think it’s okay for you to be tall, short, fat, or thin? You can persuade your younger brother to go on the normal path, it’s up to you to be rich and thrifty.”

Guan Qi looked at me silently.

I also looked at him silently.

He slowly approached me, and said in a deep voice, "Please, Xiao Xiao, don't leave me at this time..."

"When is the right time?" I asked him.

He hesitated.

"I'm leaving." I walked towards the door without taking anything, there was nothing here that belonged to me.

"Xiaoxiao." He chased after me and grabbed my arm.

"Sometimes it's better not to give something." I shook him off. "It's like the story of a beggar. He was begging for food honestly. You insisted on giving him three meals and a big house. In the end, when he was driven to the street again, he didn't even have the same calmness as when he was begging. Yes. Beggars are also stupid, and they are so nice, why do they live in a big house?"

He may have finally discovered that some of his instinctive actions accidentally hurt me today.He looked at me in astonishment and said, "Don't compare yourself to a beggar."

"I might not be as good as him." I threw him off again. "Guan Qi, let me tell you, I thought about cutting people with a kitchen knife just now." I smiled grimly at him, "Stay away from me, it will be bad if I hurt you by mistake."

I left the home I once wanted to get used to.

I was on the street and found out I came out in my pajamas, which was just sweatpants and a sports top.Still feeling post-sex, I took off the apron and threw it in the trash.I'm fucking sick, make a shit!

I was walking on the street, looking at the traffic jams and people in a hurry, and being blown by the cold wind, I realized that I might not care about anything.

Meng Zhao looked at me lying on the pile of clothes like a prophet.

"I said earlier, you will have such a day sooner or later, you see, sooner than I expected. What kind of serious life can these men and men make? It's nothing more than being kicked in the head by a fucking donkey, looking for excitement The result. Now you have been eaten by him, and you have left the house without any mistakes. Are you at ease? Eh? Don’t you have to come back to me? Seeing how cowardly you were, you were kicked, Kill him with a knife, why are you pretending to die here?"

I'm not playing dead.I really want to live well.

Meng Zhao came over and snorted at me, and cursed, "Damn! It's fever again. You've been taking antipyretics for three days, why are you still having a fever?"

"I've caught a cold."

"Then you don't deserve it, it's cold, you're playing tricks." He pointed at me, "I'll find a few people to abolish Guanqi."

I droop my eyelids.Ignore him.

Later, I went to the hospital for three days of intravenous drip before the fever subsided.The doctor said there was inflammation and fire.I ate two bunches of candied haws, and I don't know how much I can go.

Meng Zhao blocked Guan Qi in the room behind my back. Guan Qi said he wanted to make up for me. Meng Zhao seemed to scold him, saying that if you hadn't saved my brother's life last time, I would have put you out of the house a long time ago. It was thrown upstairs.

He also brought back quite a few of my things.He let me live in his rented house, and we shared bunk beds.The house was messy, he shared this house, and the other one lived in a foreigner, said to be a North drifter, he looked like an art worker, his hair was messy, and his clothes didn't know the structure when he looked online.

He stared at me suddenly one day, I said what are you doing, he asked me "Have you ever auditioned for a movie?"

"No." I waved my hand.

"Impossible, it's you, I've seen you before, that's the [most original] crew, do you remember? At that time you were wearing a T-shirt, dark blue, and said you were here to apply for Xiong. Is it you?"

I remembered that I went to the wrong door and waited in line for a long time before I realized that it was not the applicant bear.

"Oh, it seems so. Is the crew still filming?"

"What, it hasn't started yet, and the actors haven't been selected yet. They wanted to find you that day, but they didn't find them."

"Find me?"

"The assistant director thinks you look like the leading actor."

"There is such a thing."

"I'll take you to find him, aren't you okay?" I'm okay, he can tell.

I went with him, and there were several people sitting in the room that day, I didn’t know them, this time there was no camera, there was a director who looked like a director, and there were two people sitting opposite me with him.

The director asked me a few questions, have you acted before, what did you do before, and finally said, you seem to be thinner than then.But it seems to be closer to the protagonist's feeling.He seemed to care about the opinion of the person sitting next to him, asking him from time to time.The man didn't talk much, but his eyes were like torches.Finally, when the director asked for his final opinion, he said, "Let him try."

He glanced at me, and I looked at them blankly and asked, "What are you playing?"

The director seems to be quite open about saying "gay."

Damn, the positioning is so fucking accurate!