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Lu Yan took a step back and asked him, "Are you feeling better?"

Meng Tunan nodded: "It's much better, this time it was an accident, there is no big problem...Why are you backing off?"

Lu Yan thought for a while, and said frankly, "I'm a little afraid of you."

"What are you afraid of me doing?"

"What do you say?"

Meng Tunan raised his eyebrows: "I don't quite understand."

Afraid of getting too close and causing trouble again.

At the age of 17, they quarreled and Meng Tunan jumped from the window. At the age of 27, he thought he was married, got drunk and pierced a hole in his stomach for surgery.If he experienced breaking up with a good relationship again, how would he torment himself?

Together, nothing good happened.

"I think..." Lu Yan said something, "You're too deliberate, there's no need."

"Deliberately? I don't call it deliberate. I just don't want to play cat and mouse games with you. Just order directly." Meng Tunan said, "Do you feel uncomfortable? Want me to move away?"

Lu Yan sighed; "You make it difficult for me."

Meng Tunan smiled: "Lu Yan, don't be nervous. I'm not 17 years old anymore, I know what I'm doing."

He nodded: "Yes. I think this is the scariest thing. We are not 17 years old."

No longer young, no longer free, it is not the age where you can give desperately and love without expecting anything in return.

It's been too long.Lu Yan never went back to Dingyan after that year, and that Meng Tunan and himself died in that year, no matter what, they couldn't go back, time is fair to everyone.

Then Lu Yan comforted himself by saying take your time, maybe things will turn around.He took the initiative to ask: "Do you need my help to move?"

"No, I've packed the place where I live in advance." Meng Tunan said, "There's nothing wrong with the school. It just has enough space. I plan to clean up the first floor of the rented house and start a class to teach adults. , you can take a look when you have time."

Lu Yan nodded.

"Li Xiaoyuan said you have a dog." Meng Tunan said with a smile, "Take it out and show me when you have time."

Lu Yan still nodded: "If you want to see it, you can go in and see it."

Meng Tunan was a little surprised, and pretended to evade it: "If it's inconvenient, don't force it, we will..."

"Come in." Lu Yan didn't talk nonsense to him, and turned to open the door.

Lu Yan's home is very clean, just like everyone else's. The other impression is that it is big and empty, and it is too tidy... But some of the decorations are very delicate, and it can be seen that the owner is living a prosperous life.

When they were changing shoes, two dogs rushed over. Although he was mentally prepared, Meng Tunan couldn't help being startled by these two fluffy things... He never invited cats and dogs since he was a child dogs like it.

One of them knew each other, and it seemed to be a Border Collie.The other... He pointed to the dog shaking its head and grabbing Lu Yan's leg and asked, "What kind of dog is this?"

"Shiba Inu." Lu Yan replied.

"Ah?" Meng Tunan looked at the dog carefully again, "I've never seen a Shiba Inu of this color."

"This one has little fur, it's Humachai."

God, are dogs so cute?Meng Tunan doesn't really like this kind of creatures, but he didn't know whether it was Lu Yan's two beautiful and relatives or what, he couldn't help but squatted down and touched the head of the firewood... It's so good to touch up!The most touching thing is that the dog neither hides nor barks, and is very obedient.

They sat opposite each other and stroked the dog for a while.Meng Tunan felt a little addicted, and asked with a smile: "What's your name?"

"Chai is called sesame." Lu Yan said, "Bianmu is called mung bean."

"..." This simple name made Meng Tunan choke, "Not bad, not bad."

The living room is large, and the only comfortable arrangement in this space is the white carpet on the floor.Meng Tunan touched Lu Yan's sesame firewood, and felt that the carpet was very comfortable, and it must be very expensive. It made people want to sleep here.

Thinking of this, he asked shamelessly, "Can I sleep here? Just sleep on the carpet."

Lu Yan glanced at him, and kicked the words away: "Come back this time, will you go back to Dingyan when you have time?"

"Do you want to go back?"

Lu Yan shook his head: "I never went back."

I got stuck.Because Mengtunan's calf came over and stuck to his, as before, they would sit facing each other, their legs touched, and then they would undress, kiss, hug, which was a signal for the beginning of sex.

Seeing that he was not hiding, Meng Tunan moved closer without stopping.He opened his mouth and asked him: "I forgot to ask you, how is your family?"

Lu Yan looked at his mouth and didn't hide. What he thought was - I shouldn't let him in, I can't control it.

"My mother lives in Beijing now, and she is learning to draw on a whim. She had an accident before, and after falling from the second floor, she had a little problem with her leg, and she couldn't dance anymore." Lu Yan replied, "But I feel that she is having a good time. Happy. My uncle is also doing well, married and has a child."

Meng Tunan nodded: "It's all good, and you look good too."

I'm fine too, really?

He wanted to say, I'm not doing well.Meng Tunan on the opposite side smiled again and said, "I still keep the shoes your mother bought for me back then...does she still drink alcohol now?"

"I still drink once in a while." Lu Yan shook his head, "But now I can control it, and we don't say much about her. Now I often feel that many things don't matter. She drinks as much as she likes, and I don't need to care about it."

Meng Tunan nodded: "Don't worry about it, she is her, and you are you."

Lu Yan asked again: "Do you like being a teacher?"

"I don't like it very much. I have to talk a lot." Mengtunan complained, "Once I was in a hurry to record a class and lectured for six hours in a row, and my voice became hoarse the next day. I still prefer to write, and write quietly. But my teacher said that I am not a master, the writing is tangible or unintentional, not pure enough, so I can only deal with people who don’t understand.”

Lu Yan smiled: "Then what do you think?"

"I don't know." Meng Tunan yawned as he spoke, "Do it as a livelihood, and do it hard, not just to make a living."

Lu Yan saw the dog sniffing Mengtunan's chin, he raised his head itchy, and the two scars on his forehead came into view.He was still in this dead state, whether he was standing or sitting, but now his body was swaying, as if he would collapse and fall asleep at any time.

His body was getting closer and closer, his legs were completely close to each other, Lu Yan felt uncomfortable, maybe because of the tight tie, he was a little short of breath.

Meng Tunan pointed to the rope tied with red beans around his wrist, implying: "This one looks familiar to me."

Lu Yan nodded, and answered frankly: "Well, you gave it... I'm used to wearing it. I heard that the red string can't be taken off by itself. You have to wait until it disappears. If you can't find it one day or it breaks, it means it's blocked. It is a disaster, but if you take it off yourself, you will lose your life."

"Where did you hear about it?"

"It seems to be..." Lu Yan recalled, "My grandma said it before."

"Then you are lucky, there is no disaster to stop you."

He moved closer again, this time looking into Lu Yan's eyes.Looked, and got closer... Lu Yan pinched his palm hard, and turned his face away.

Then Meng Tunan stood up in an instant and said, "I'm really sleepy, I'll come to you another day."

Lu Yan nodded and said, "OK."

Meng Tunan left, very obedient.Before he left, he smiled at Lu Yan and asked, "Do you not often receive guests? Since I came in, you haven't even poured me a glass of water."

Lu Yan thought for a while, and answered: "I seldom go home myself, and basically fly outside... won't you tell me if you want to drink water?"

"Isn't there usually no one at home? Live alone?"

Lu Yan thought for a while, then nodded: "Almost."

Meng Tunan glanced at him, and said again: "The person I asked was asking if you are single."

Those few glances seemed warm, making Lu Yan's body a little hot.

He really wanted to avoid that gaze, but Meng Tunan smiled, feeling that this man had a pretty smile, so Lu Yan took a second look and forgot to look away.

It took him a long time to remember to answer: "...you should go."

"Okay." Meng Tunan patted him on the shoulder with a smile, and didn't force him anymore, "I'm leaving."

He nodded woodenly: "Okay."

The moment the door was closed, Lu Yan felt very upset.

He can feel the provocation and hint from every word and every action of Mengtunan.But when you're in a depressed mood, it's actually more like torture.

Lu Yanfa was stunned for a while, then suddenly remembered that he hadn't said goodbye to Meng Tunan just now.

It will be ten years soon, and he thought he could endure it for a lifetime.