[Comprehensive British and American] Exchange bodies with Chaoying

"Whatever you want to do, I will support it."

I immediately thanked: "Thank you, Mr. Stark."

"You deserve it," Tony said.

So, I went back to school the next day.I know that Dawn must be monitoring my physical condition and will report urgently if I have an accident.

But I didn't show it, I was still listening to the class and writing my homework as usual.

Human consciousness can adjust the physical condition, no one is observing me, so I have the final say on what I am like?It's easy for me to fake some normal data.

However, coming to school I was almost overwhelmed by the overwhelming sadness.

Lu Nian really didn't come.

How could she come?

The seat next to me has been empty all morning.

During the lunch break, the homeroom teacher answered a phone call and went out. I guess it was probably Lu Nian's parents who called the teacher.

"Hey, do you know why Lu Nian didn't come today?" The front desk turned around and asked me, with only curiosity in his expression.

I showed her a smile that was uglier than crying, and said in a low voice: "... I will know in a while."

Maybe she felt that I was in a bad mood and didn't ask again.

Although everything after I came to school reminded me of the fact that Lu Nian was not there all the time, it was better than being at the base.

After all, no one knows the sadness and truth here except me.

I thought to myself mockingly.

In the self-study class in the afternoon, the teacher told this sad fact.

"Classmate Lu Nian...she died suddenly and left..."

When the teacher spoke intermittently, she couldn't bear it, but who can bear it and who can accept it?

I get it, it's really unacceptable.

How could a living person die so suddenly?Just two days?

No one can imagine it.

The class was originally very quiet, but after the teacher finished saying this sentence, a needle could be heard.

For a long time no sound came out.

[Just, just died like this? ]

[How did Lu Nian die suddenly?Isn't she in good health?Doesn't she have a regular schedule?How could this be? ]

[I will never see her again?She even said a few days ago that she came back to teach me English, why is it like this? ]

Suddenly, many noisy voices appeared in my mind. I first subconsciously looked at the reactions of other students and found that they hadn't changed much. Then I knew that I had read minds unconsciously.

For them, this is just a beating of reality, telling them how fragile human life can be, telling them how easy things you are familiar with can disappear, and telling them that they must cherish everything in front of them.

And to me, it was equivalent to crucifying me in public and being tortured, and their response was to drive countless more nails into my body.

It was my fault, and I'm going to atone for it, but how do I atone for it?

What can I do to atone for this?

I killed someone, my best friend!

"Everyone should cherish the present time...in case there will be no chance to seize it again." The real silence was broken by the teacher. She advised everyone not to indulge in sadness, but to cherish the present and grasp the future.

It hit everyone and for a long time there was no laughing in the class and everyone was working hard.

In such an atmosphere, no one will be absorbed in entertainment.

This is the first time ordinary people have faced the ruthlessness of death.

On the way home, I ran into Lu Nian's parents. The first time I saw them, I wanted to avoid them, but they had already seen me and greeted me, so I could only go up to them.

"Mo Sheng, come to Lu Nian's funeral on Sunday." Lu Nian's mother looked at me with extremely sad eyes and said, she was still consoling me, "This is very sudden, don't be too..."

"You're her best friend, and I think she'd love you to come."

Lu Nian's mother's trust in me almost broke me once again.

It was her daughter who died, she was even more sad, but she comforted me in turn...

What can I do?

[This is just a small part, what will you do after you collapse?Sadness and guilt follow you everywhere you go, you can never get rid of it, you have to make sure you are not disturbed when you face it, you have to make sure you are not afraid of it. 】

【Only in that way will you have a chance of victory. 】

[Only in that way can we reach the happy ending. 】

My rationality gave myself another hint to pull back my shaky emotions so that I could face things normally.

"Well, I'll go back." After a few seconds of silence, I answered Lu Nian's mother's suggestion.

She told me the specific time and place again, and I said I remembered it and we separated.

They went in the opposite direction, I don't know where they are going, but I think they may leave the city at a later date.

I sensed this when talking to them.

This may be a prophecy, but I can guess why.

—The city is full of sorrow.

The city carried too many memories for them, and they couldn't face such memories.

I killed Lu Nian, but I hurt not only her, but also her parents and classmates.

The collateral effects of a person's death are huge, even if she is just an ordinary person.

The day I went to Lu Nian's funeral was a cloudy and rainy day. It seems that every funeral is like this. It seems that only in this way can people's sadness be revealed.

Her family all wore white veils on their heads, while the others wore plain clothes and held black umbrellas.

me too.

Lu Nian's photo was placed in the middle of the room, with her urn on the table above.

When people die, they all enter this small box, and as time goes by, the traces left by her will gradually disappear, so everything that is fighting for is meaningless at the moment of death .

I didn't speak during the whole funeral, just watching the people cry in silence.Except when Lu Nian's parents questioned me.

After everyone else left except them, I got close to her photo. In the photo, her smile is so bright, as if she can come to me through layers of barriers, as if she is smiling in front of me now.

[Sheng'er, do you think this dress looks better or that dress?Pick one that fits me and we'll wear matching clothes. ]

[Sheng'er, I've advanced five places this time, am I not that good?Come and praise me. ]

[Sheng'er, I have a chance to meet my idol, I'm so happy, I'm so excited that I can't even sleep. ]

[Sheng'er, tell me...]

All the memories related to Lu Nian flashed through his mind at this moment, and were edited by the hand of time to form a strange picture.They merged with the atmosphere of the moment, and had a strange effect on me.

The idea that has always existed in my heart but has always been vague finally took shape.

It's not that I don't have a chance to revive Lu Nian, as long as...

Yes, as long as that is done, there will be no sorrow, no one will be sacrificed.

And for me... that's not called sacrifice, after all, I'm not dead, is it?

When I got home from Lu Nian’s funeral, it was raining heavily, thunder and lightning, lightning crackling, roaring, the sky was dyed a strange purple, and the raindrops mercilessly beat on the window, as if to smash it into pieces.

Very familiar scene.

I thought when I opened the door of my house just in time to see a bolt of lightning strike.

Ah, yes, it all started on this day, if you judge by the standards I know.

It was also lightning and thunder, and it was also violent wind and rain, but I was not in the state of mind at that time.

At that time, I was full of joy and excitement, full of happiness after my dream came true.

At that time, I thought how could everything be so beautiful, how could the goddess of luck favor me so much.

I really want to tell myself in the past, naive people, how could the goddess of luck favor a person for no reason?You feel that you have suddenly become extremely lucky, then you must have paid a huge price before you knew it.

In just one and a half years, I have experienced all kinds of things that I never imagined.

Well, well, if I do it all over again, I won’t regret such a choice. I just hope that I can do better, seize every opportunity that can be redeemed, and let the sadness disappear before it happens.

On weekends, I will still go back to Chaoying, and most of the time I will stay at the Fulian base, after all, I am more familiar with them.

Every weekend, Tony will check me up. I know he is afraid that there will be problems with my body, but once a week, it is still comprehensive, right?Even a comprehensive inspection based on the technological level of the Avengers base would be a waste of time and energy.

"Hey, Mr. Stark." Dawn said that after entering the value, I tore off the cold gadgets on my body, ran to Tony, and asked nonchalantly with a smile on my face, "We really need to check Is it so frequent? It's only a week."

"It's about your safety." Tony dragged the virtual screen without turning his head, and answered me in a deep voice.

"...Oh." Hearing this, I could only respond weakly, stomping on the ground with my feet, twisting uncomfortably, my shoulders slumped, and I walked out of the medical room dully.

Although I always have a smile on my face when I talk to them, and they always do the same when they talk to me, but if they accidentally talk about a certain topic, their expressions will become serious, and they will look away, as if this or that thing does not exist.

I feel like there is a gully between me and the superheroes, and even everyone else. The gully is bottomless. I tried my best to fill it with earth from afar, crossed dangers, and endured the scorching sun and severe cold, but I couldn't fill it up.

In the end, he could only sit on the ground sweating profusely and panting, looking at them opposite him like a loser who couldn't laugh at himself.

They want to help me, but they can't get through, they can't fill the gap.

We can only let time widen the gap between us——