You always have to pay back when you come out to hang out

"Is it true that when love comes, even a man who usually dismisses poetry and painting will become a romantic poet?

Zhao Qinglang has never been a romantic person, nor is he a person who is willing to spend his time trying to make others happy, but he did a lot of things that made me laugh out loud. Zhao Qinglang was so kind to me that I could treat others I don't even feel the hospitality...

The cute Zhao Qinglang...

Maybe only I can see it...

Looking back now, was I too slow at that time?He didn't realize what Zhao Qinglang was thinking...

Men don't treat women well for no reason, and this principle should also apply to men and men.It may be because I knew him too early, and the definition of friendship was deeply rooted, so I didn't feel anything.Although in the days to come, I have met some good people, but no one has moved my heart... I think, there should be someone in my heart, so no one else can walk into me heart..."【──Zhong Qi Diary】

The laughter was over, the quarrel was over, the room was silent, only the sound of the clock hanging on the wall moving.Dull and monotonous.Zhong Qi was lying on his back, his eyes ached from the bright fluorescent lamp that had not been turned off.With his arms bent in front of his forehead, Zhong Qi said, "Zhao Qinglang, my grandpa is gone..."

"Hmm." He responded softly.

"Grandma is still in the hospital..."

Zhao Qinglang didn't speak, he knew that what Zhong Qi needed at this time was not relief and comfort, what he needed was someone to confide in.

"I went to the hospital and found that grandma was not in the ward. Later, I found out that grandma's condition had suddenly deteriorated and entered the operating room. I hated myself very much at the time. You said, why didn't I stay with her in the hospital? I spent the whole afternoon They are all hanging out! No one answered the phone call from the hospital, so I called my aunt... They are right, if there is no me, grandpa and grandma are enjoying the blessings now... Zhao Qinglang... I am very sad... you Why did I have to be born? What is the meaning of living for me like this?"

The voice was choked up at the end, Zhao Qinglang raised his arms and took Zhong Qi into his arms.He wanted to tell him that he still had himself.He also wanted to tell him that if there is no meaning of living, then live for him, Zhao Qinglang!

But he couldn't say these words anyway, not because he didn't want to say it, but because he didn't dare to say it.

"When I was very young, I kept thinking, is it because my mother didn't like me that she didn't want me? I worked very hard to be a good kid, to study hard, to make myself look I’m very strong, I’ve worked really hard...but I find that I can’t keep going...I sometimes think how good it would be if I were a fish, so that even if I cry, no one will know..."

Zhao Qinglang felt that his shoulders were wet, and Zhong Qi cried the same as when he was a child, like a kitten whimpering softly.Does crying out loud make my heart feel better?But Zhao Qinglang knew that Zhong Qi would never be so bitter, because he was used to it, used to suppressing himself.

Who said no one will know when a fish cries?Water must know.Because fish are always in the heart of water...

Zhong Qi was tired from crying and fell asleep in his arms...

That night, Zhao Qinglang didn't sleep. He kept thinking about problems, Zhong Qi's affairs, his own feelings, and their future...

This night, the arm around Zhong Qi never let go, even though he was crushed unconscious, he still hugged him tightly.Bitter, but also full of happiness.

The next morning, Zhong Qi was woken up by ice.An ice pack was pressed on his eyes, he reached out to take it away, but was stopped by Zhao Qinglang: "The eyes are very swollen, otherwise it will be difficult to reduce the swelling."

For some reason, Zhong Qi suddenly remembered the question Gao Yi asked himself yesterday. He asked Zhao Qinglang: "What university do you want to go to next year?"

"What about you?" Zhao Qinglang asked him back.

"I don't know, I don't want to go to a university that is too expensive..." He said softly.

Zhao Qinglang was silent for a while, and said: "Then let's take the teacher training exam, the benefits are good. It will be good to be a teacher in the future, and the job will be stable. And the small environment of the school is not as complicated as the big environment of the society!"

"Okay." Zhong Qi felt that Zhao Qinglang was indeed more mature than before, and he was thinking differently. "What about yourself? What do you think?"

"Me?" Zhao Qinglang smiled: "I don't have anything in particular I want to learn, just feel free to do whatever you want, as long as I'm in the same school as you, if it's not possible, I'll be in the same city as you."

"City A?" Zhong Qi didn't know why he wanted to ask this.

"Do you want to go to City A?" Zhao Qinglang's eyes flashed. Although Zhong Qi wanted to come to his city, he was very happy, but thinking of his parents' attitude, it was not a problem that could be solved in a year or two!In the same city, it is inevitable that things will not come out.It's better to go outside, somewhere farther away, to be safe. "I think City H is actually pretty good! You see, we were all born and raised in Jiangnan. Would you like to visit Beiguo if you have the chance?"

"Will it be too cold? I heard that even the ice on the river in winter can drive a horse-drawn carriage... I think it's good to travel there, and it's a bit of a problem to go to school there..." Zhong Qi frowned.

"Then...how about we go to City S!" Zhao Qinglang suggested.

"why?"

"It's very simple, because it meets your requirements, the distance is enough, the climate is pleasant, and most importantly, the Normal University there is very good!"

Zhao Qinglang really liked the feeling of discussing these things with Zhong Qi, which made him feel that each other existed in their respective future plans, as if they were born to be together!No one can tear it apart.