Unscrupulous Rebirth

When Lu Kunde woke up the next day, he saw Lu Junqiang sitting by the bed and looking at him. Lu Kunde suddenly looked at Lu Junqiang, then looked down at himself, his eyes were red again.

Lu Junqiang hugged Lu Kunde lovingly and hugged him in his arms, whispered: "It's me, it's 12 years ago now, it's all right, it's all right..." Lu Junqiang couldn't help sobbing as he spoke, and buried his face in Lu Kunde's soft in the hair.

Lu Kunde leaned on Lu Junqiang's shoulder and took a deep breath. For a moment, he wanted to say a thousand words but couldn't say a word, so he could only hug his lover and express his nostalgia.

After hugging for a long time, Lu Junqiang let him go, kissed Lu Kunde lightly on the forehead, and said softly: "Brother, these few years... how have you been?"

Lu Kunde sniffled to calm down his emotions, and said slowly: "At first I knew... when I knew that you had changed your heart, I... Later I sold all those villas and lived on Tianshou Road. Looking for a job, every day... just like that, cooking, eating, and sleeping."

Looking at his expression, Lu Junqiang knew that Lu Kunde had a lot to say, and probably couldn't express the real pain. Lu Junqiang looked at Lu Kunde distressedly, and said, "Why don't you treat yourself better? Isn't it to let you live well... ..."

Lu Kunde looked straight at Lu Junqiang, sobbed a few times and couldn't help crying: "You think I don't want to?! You think I'll be happy if you let me survive?! I can't wait to die in a second! But I can't... You lied to me to swear! You said that if I dare to commit suicide, you will have no peace!!! You think I don't want to live a good life? You are dead! How can I live a good life when you are dead!! I..."

Lu Kunde wiped away his tears, but the big tears still rolled down: "You know what? One day I cleaned up the house and fell asleep... When I woke up, I found a note you wrote to me, on it... on it Written, you are coming back from the plane in the afternoon of the day after tomorrow... I actually know that what you wrote before happened to come out, but I don't give up..." Lu Kunde covered his eyes and cried, intermittently: "I took that note... ...ran to the airport and waited for a week, and they said... check, no, this, people."

Lu Junqiang hugged Lu Kunde tightly, imagining that Lu Kunde was clutching a note from an unknown year, and ran to the airport like a treasure to wait for him... His heart was choked up like a needle, and he said: " It's all over, don't cry anymore..."

Lu Kunde buried his face in Lu Junqiang's warm chest, and whispered: "How could there be no such person? I showed them the note...they ignored me and drove me away...how could there be no you What? I begged them for a long time, but they didn’t check me any more, so I just waited by myself...every class waited...they said I was crazy...Later, Yu Haofeng picked me up ..."

"I think every day... Will there be a car accident when I go out tomorrow? Can I catch an earthquake, can there be an accident... But I can't die, Tong Ke said that you are protecting me... I don't want it! I just want to die. Want to die! But I can't die!! I can't die!!"

Lu Junqiang tightly hugged Lu Kunde who was crying and trembling, and just about to say something, he couldn't help crying, Lu Junqiang gently patted Lu Kunde's back, choked up and said: "It's all my fault... I knew you earlier A person will be afraid, I already know that you can't take care of yourself... It's all my fault, next time I will hold you and die together, don't let you be afraid, don't cry..."

Lu Kunde lay in Lu Junqiang's arms, crying loudly like a child who had been wronged a lot.

Lu Junqiang has been lovingly hugging him and waiting for him not to cry, while kissing his wet cheek from time to time while coaxing him, "Don't cry, don't cry..."

Lu Kunde lay in Lu Junqiang's arms for a long time before he recovered, and still attached his face to Lu Junqiang's chest nostalgicly.Lu Junqiang gently pushed back the hair on his forehead, and said in a low voice, "Then do you know what happened to my brother's body in the past two years? Do you have any impression?"

Lu Kunde nodded lightly, and said in a low voice, "I didn't have it yesterday, but I'm slowly remembering it now..."

"Just take your time, as long as you know everything." Lu Junqiang put his arms around Lu Kunde and let him lie on the bed, "Lie down for a while... I'll make something for my brother to eat."

Lu Kunde nodded, lying on the bed tired and satisfied.

After Lu Kunde woke up, he ate something and then went back to sleep, as if recovering from a serious illness and urgently needed to recover his strength, but he did not forget to hold Lu Junqiang's hand tightly before going to bed.

When Lu Kunde woke up again, he saw Lu Junqiang sitting by the bed and looking at him, Lu Kunde smiled: "Didn't sleep?"

Lu Junqiang's eyes turned red, but there was no trace of tiredness in his expression, and he whispered: "I can't see enough."

Lu Kunde leaned in, propped up the quilt to let Lu Junqiang lie in, and carefully covered the two of them with the quilt.The two lay face to face in a tacit understanding, Lu Kunde raised his head slightly to kiss Lu Junqiang, and whispered: "Do you want to do it?"

Lu Junqiang shook his head, "Don't worry, you can sleep a little longer." Lu Kunde nodded, lay down next to Lu Junqiang, closed his eyes, and tightly held Lu Junqiang's with his hands under the quilt.

……

Lu Kunde has been anxious for many days, he can't tell the reality from the past, and looking at Lu Junqiang every day seems to be his last day.Even if Lu Junqiang told him over and over again, Lu Kunde would feel dazed.

"Brother! It's time to eat." Lu Junqiang put the last dish on the table, "What are you looking at?"

Lu Kunde was flipping through the calendar page by page. Hearing this, he looked up and smiled: "It's nothing, just take a look." Lu Junqiang came over and took Lu Kunde's hand and led him into the kitchen, hugging him from behind, fingers intertwined. He washes his hands.

Lu Junqiang looked at Lu Kunde a little distressed, and said in a deep voice: "Brother, you don't need to do this, what is now is true, we are really together again."

Lu Kunde took a small bite of the rice and smiled: "I know, it's just always... Well, I got used to it right away." Lu Junqiang picked up a chopstick for him: "Brother, don't worry, this time it's a lifetime .”

Lu Kunde nodded and continued eating.Lu Junqiang looked at Lu Kunde thoughtfully.

……

"Brother, look." Lu Junqiang took two tickets for the ferry.

Lu Kunde was keeping accounts, and he took it over and asked in confusion: "Going to the Island of the Eight Fortunes? What is this for?"

Lu Junqiang took the account book and put the two tickets on the table: "Look, my brother is always out of his mind recently. I'll take you to the Eight Fortune Islands tomorrow for a few days, which happens to be the weekend."

Lu Kunde nodded: "I listen to you."

Eight Fukushima is a small island very close to the coast, very close to the city, and it takes less than two hours to get there by ferry.There is a low mountain on the island. The temples on the mountain are very fragrant. Flowers are planted on the island all the year round. It is a tourist resort nearby.

It’s May, and the flowers on the Blessed Island are in full bloom. Peach blossom petals are falling on the small streets, and glutinous rice rose cakes and yam jujube flower cakes are sold along the streets.The bright red of peony and pomegranate, which is in peak season, brightens the whole island.

It was the first time for Lu Kunde to come to the Blessed Islands. He did not expect that the small island at this time was a paradise of peach blossoms. The Blessed Islands had not been fully developed at that time, but the original cultural scenery was even more shocking.

Lu Junqiang held the glutinous rice and red date cake bought from the street. The white cake wrapped in brown oil paper was very beautiful. Lu Junqiang smiled: "Brother, eat some, it's very sweet."

Lu Kunde and Lu Junqiang wandered aimlessly along the streets, eating wherever they went, drilling countless nameless flower alleys, and it was night before they knew it.

The small island gradually quieted down at night, and only the strong fragrance of flowers still lingered in the night. Lu Kunde laughed and sat on the stone bench at the entrance of the alley, lingering on.

"Let's go? It will be dark in a while."

Lu Kunde stretched his legs, and leisurely bit the sesame candy: "No! Let's go!"

"Don't go?" Lu Junqiang raised one corner of his mouth, "Then I...you're welcome!" Lu Junqiang hugged Lu Kunde against his shoulders, laughed and ran along the road.Lu Kunde shouted excitedly and hugged Lu Junqiang tightly.

Lu Junqiang found a hotel and asked for a suite. Both of them were tired from walking and didn't feel hungry, so they took a shower, lay down and fell asleep.

The next day when Lu Kunde woke up, it was already daylight, and Lu Junqiang didn’t know where he had gone. After Lu Kunde washed and dressed, he swayed around, and saw the note left by Lu Junqiang on the table: “Breakfast here is free, just go eat it, brother. Today we are going to climb the mountain, I am afraid I will leave first, my brother will come to see me after breakfast, there is no need to check out."

Lu Kunde looked over and over, not knowing what Lu Junqiang was going to do, he had already gone and he could catch up with him.

Lu Kunde ate breakfast in a hurry, cleaned up a little and went to the Mount of Blessings.

It was already past nine o'clock in the morning, and there were more and more people on the Mount of Blessings, most of them came to offer incense. Lu Kunde was caught among the bustling tourists, looking at the wild flowers all over the mountain, he couldn't help looking left and right to find Lu Junqiang.

When walking almost halfway up the mountain, the tourists in front are all pointing and looking ahead.

"Look! What's that for?"

"Is this a wish?"

"What a wish to make, this is, I still have to kneel up the mountain..."

Lu Kunde followed their gazes and was stunned.

On the blue stone steps of the Mount of Beatitudes, a person is walking up the mountain with three knocks in one step.

Lu Junqiang's thin shirt was already soaked, his face was slightly red, but his breathing was not disturbed at all, his long and powerful legs did not tremble at all, he knelt down firmly step by step, kowtowed, once, twice, three times, and then got up again, One step, then kneel down, kowtow, once, twice, three times...

The Mount of Blessings is not very high, less than 1000 meters, but there are thousands of stone steps. Lu Junqiang kneeled up the mountain step by step, to fulfill the wish he made on his birthday, the only wish that came true in his life.

The tourists watched him walk past him, but Lu Junqiang didn't seem to notice, and went up the mountain slowly and firmly step by step.

"In that year, I kowtowed and crawled on the mountain road, not for an audience, but just to be close to your warmth; in that life, I turned mountains and rivers and pagodas, not to build an afterlife. Just to meet you on the way. "

Lu Kunde raised his head slightly to keep his tears from flowing. This motto by Cangyang Gyatso is just right here.

Lu Kunde didn't say anything, and slowly followed up the mountain step by step. He knew that Lu Junqiang didn't believe in this before, or he didn't believe it now. He was just loving himself with all the methods he knew and could do.Everything that troubled Lu Kunde for the past few days was gone, and Lu Kunde felt extremely at ease looking at his lover in front of him.

It was already dusk when we arrived at the Buddhist temple on the top of the mountain. Lu Junqiang knelt down in front of the Buddha step by step without disturbing his breath.

The great monk in the temple had known for a long time that someone knocked up the mountain three times a step, and waited at the desk early, holding on to the thirteen sticks of incense and handing them to Lu Junqiang. gone."

The great monk smiled and did not speak, shook his head and still gave him the thirteen sticks of incense. Lu Junqiang bowed solemnly and took the incense with both hands.

Lu Junqiang held thirteen sticks of incense in his left hand and a red candle in his right hand. He carefully lit the incense, solemnly inserted it into the incense burner, and then knelt down on the futon. Lu Junqiang turned to look at Lu Kunde. On the futon on the right.

Facing the majestic Buddha, Lu Junqiang's eyes were full of sincerity, and he said in a deep voice, "Lu Junqiang, sincerely pay homage to Shakyamuni Buddha."

The thirteen sticks of incense on the incense table were ignited leisurely, and the incense mist filled the front of the Buddha for a while, and the ancient bell on the top of the mountain rang, accompanied by Lu Junqiang's firm and devout blessings spread throughout the Buddhist temple.

"I have done a lot of bad karma in the past, and I have never given up on it. Today, I have finally achieved a good result. I am here to pay back my vow."

"May all the mistakes of the past be my own."

"I hope that today's blessings will protect my brother."

"Amitabha."

"Amitabha."

"Amitabha."

Every time Lu Junqiang said "Amitabha", he kowtowed and said Amitabha three times.

Lu Kunde's tears could not be restrained, and he could hardly control his love when he looked at Lu Junqiang in front of him.Just as Lu Kunde was about to speak, he realized that his voice was hoarse. Lu Kunde wiped away his tears and bowed three times.

Lu Junqiang looked at Lu Kunde and didn't speak. He was panting and smiled triumphantly. He helped Lu Kunde's shoulders to get up and went down the mountain.