Nongben is passionate

Just like every Chinese parent who hopes their child will become a success, Han Ruohua has too many expectations and demands for his only son, Feng Kailuo.She is a strong woman with a good face, and the method she adopts is that I will unconditionally provide you with generous material conditions and create the best learning conditions for you. I work hard and take care of the family all for you, and you have What's not to like?You have an obligation and a responsibility to be the best.However, the little child has such a belief in his heart that you are good to me only because of my grades, and all you care about is only my grades. What I like, whether I am happy or not, is not important.

As Feng Kailuo grew older, the relationship between mother and son became more and more tense, especially after Feng Kailuo fell in love with singing, he began to bring various tapes of Hong Kong and Taiwan stars, European and American singers to his home. It was originally a normal entertainment hobby for children of this age, but in Han Ruohua's eyes, it became a sign of not doing business properly, especially when Feng Kailuo's grades plummeted. It is even more disgusting.The fuse of this incident was that the teacher of the cram school called her, saying that Feng Kailuo hadn't gone to class for two weeks.

And so the war broke out——

Feng Kailuo was left behind by the two elders, and Han Ruohua went back.

The two brothers shared a room, just like they did when they were young.In these years, although Xie Xuan returned to Zhou Tang every year, he never stayed for long and met Feng Kailuo very few times. However, it may be because the Han family has a small population and not many relatives. It's ok.

Feng Kailuo sat on the edge of the bed, propped his hands on both sides of his body, lowered his head, and the light cast a circle of light on his head, looking so cute that it made one's heart soften.When Xie Xuan came in, he raised his head, his eyes were still red, looked at Xie Xuan, and asked in a low voice: "Brother, do you think I'm wrong too?"

Before Xie Xuan could answer, Feng Kailuo lowered his head again, and said in a muffled voice, "Actually, I know that sometimes my mother will speak out when she is in a hurry. I know I shouldn't keep it in my heart, but I still will. When I get hurt, I can’t help but feel sad—from a young age, my mother always said that if it wasn’t for me, she would have divorced my dad. At that time, I felt so guilty and sad in my heart, and felt that everything about her was unfortunate and everything The suffering was all caused by me—after talking too much, I got annoyed and thought bitterly, then divorce, why use me as an excuse? I would rather they separate and live comfortably, than because I'm full of resentment and complaints, and I don't care about her sacrifice at all—brother, is it bad for me to think so?"

Xie Xuan's throat seemed to be blocked by something, and he was very uncomfortable. He looked at the young boy in front of him, and seemed to see himself in a trance - sensitive, fragile, and stubborn. In my heart, midnight dreamed back to self-pity and self-injury, so I questioned all my feelings, watched carefully and coldly——

Xie Xuan walked over, put his hand on Feng Kailuo's head, and said, "It's not your fault."

A heart was soothed by a gentle palm, Feng Kailuo burst into tears, as if he had found a vent, all the grievances, sadness and resentment poured out——

Xie Xuan stretched out his hand to cover his eyes, felt the tears in his palm and the trembling eyelashes, gently rested his chin on the top of Feng Kailuo's head, and repeated it again, as if saying to himself, "It's not your fault. "

From a once sensitive and weak child to a tough one now, he only understands one truth, that is, parents cannot be changed, and only by accepting the greatest destiny in life can he not be like a handicapped child, and can live indomitably.

The next morning, while Xie Xuan and Feng Kailuo were still having breakfast, Zhou Nansheng came.

"Nansheng is back too, have you had breakfast?" The old lady stood at the stove and greeted Zhou Nansheng.

"I've already eaten." Zhou Nansheng put his hands together, leaned against the door and smiled at Xie Xuan.

"Brother Nansheng—" Feng Kailuo called obediently, Zhou Nansheng responded, turned around and turned to the yard to wait for Xie Xuan.

Xie Xuan ate half a bowl and a deep-fried dough stick with pickled melon pickled by the old lady herself, put down the chopsticks, took two more eggs, and said to the old lady, "Grandma, I'm going out. Maybe I won't be back for lunch, no need wait for me--"

"Well, let's go."

When Xie Xuan walked into the yard, he saw Zhou Nansheng squatting on the flower bed, fiddling with the petals of the gemstone flower boredly.Xie Xuan put the hot egg on his neck, he was startled, shrunk his neck, turned his head, saw Xie Xuan smiled brightly, snatched the egg in his hand, and smiled broadly, "Give it to me—" —”

Xie Xuan watched him skillfully break the egg shell, and ate the egg in two bites. She raised her eyebrows and asked intentionally, "Didn't you say you have eaten it?"

Zhou Nansheng laughed a few times, and Xie Xuan handed him another egg. When Zhou Nansheng saw it, he hooked Xie Xuan's neck happily, "Our third child is the best, hehe——"

Xie Xuan watched Zhou Nan eating raw eggs and asked, "Where did you live last night?"

"Well, it's at the Tianhua Hotel at the crossroads."

"Didn't you live at Brother Jiang's place?"

"Well, it's not convenient for people to come and go there—" Zhou Nansheng said vaguely, without mentioning the dispute between him and Brother Jiang.

Xie Xuan didn't ask, the two walked and chatted.

In the morning, I didn’t actually do anything meaningful. I just walked around casually, chatting about things when I was young, and talking about things in school, and complaining about the teacher’s high-pressure policy.Lunch was settled at a fast food restaurant near the junior high school. After lunch, Zhou Nansheng proposed to go to the old movie theater in Zhoutang——

This old cinema has been around for some years. When they were young, their school organized to watch "Warm Spring", "Young Peng Dehuai", and theatrical performances. They were all here, and it was also here. They climbed over the wall over the toilet and slipped into the cinema quietly. Free "Across the World", watching "Huang Feihong", with a dream of love and hatred, chivalry and tender heart.

When they climbed over the wall and entered, the movie had already started. It was showing a Hollywood spy movie that had been offline for several months in first-tier theaters in big cities. Not many people watched it, and only one-third of the seats in the movie theater were occupied. ——

Xie Xuan and Zhou Nansheng bent over and quietly found seats in the fourth row and sat down——

The movie is not exciting, the plot is a bit outdated, but the scene is hot and eye-catching, even though it is viewed from the middle, it can be read in——

After watching the movie, it was already around three o'clock in the afternoon, and the sky was a bit cloudy as the crowd walked out of the movie theater.Opposite the movie theater was a grocery store specializing in fireworks and firecrackers. On a whim, Xie Xuan went to buy many different kinds of fireworks, including those that spray flowers, those that spin, those that spit beads...

Setting off fireworks was a must-have program for the Chinese New Year when they were young. However, as they grew older, they scattered and hadn't played like this for a long time. Therefore, Xie Xuan was very excited, with bright eyes and full of childishness——

"Let's set off fireworks at night, look at this, the boss said that there will be a lot of parachutes when they are released, just like the ones we used to play when we were young-"

Zhou Nansheng held the fireworks in his hands for Xie Xuan, "Then let's set them off by the river. There are few people there and it's empty. It looks very beautiful."

"I'll make a phone call to my grandma. I won't go back at night. I'll stay in a hotel with you. Isn't it boring to live alone?"

Zhou Nansheng became happy, "That's great, I'm pitifully dead alone, I've made an agreement, don't go back on my word!"

The two hugged a lot of fireworks, talked and laughed, and then met a person——

Xie Xuan still hasn't figured out whether her name is Li Yike or Li Keyi. Compared with the youthfulness in junior high school, Li Keyi now knows how to dress herself up to make herself look more charming, bright and fashionable .She is not alone, there is a stylishly dressed boy beside her, carrying two supermarket bags for her, and she herself is holding a huge plush toy of a bear, with obvious happiness and sweetness on her face , was talking and walking with the boy, just met Xie Xuan and the others head-on——

The expression changes on Li Keyi's face are very intriguing. At first it was surprised, embarrassed, and ashamed, wishing to turn around and leave, and then it slowly turned into accusation and resentment, staring at Zhou Nansheng righteously, as if he had done something to apologize to her same thing.

After Zhou Nansheng was surprised at the beginning, the expression on his face was almost gone——

"Didn't you say that you want to train and not return to Zhoutang?" The girl stared at Zhou Nansheng and asked.

Zhou Nansheng moved his face away expressionlessly, and said to Xie Xuan, "San'er, let's go." It was as if he didn't know each other at all.

Xie Xuan lowered his eyelids, silently followed Zhou Nansheng and passed the two of them——

The girl suddenly yelled loudly behind them, "Zhou Nansheng, stop!"

Zhou Nansheng stopped in his tracks, turned around unsteadily, looked at her sternly, with a smile on his lips, very ironic——

Li Keyi's eyes turned red quickly, and his voice was full of accusations and anger, "You are too much, if you want to spend Christmas with me, just say so, what do you mean?"

Zhou Nansheng looked frivolously at her and the flower protector beside her, "Without me, wouldn't you have many alternate choices? Don't make yourself look like you've been wronged, okay?"

The words were very mean, the girl blushed, the boy of the flower guardian dropped the supermarket bag in his hand, pushed Xie Xuan away, rushed to Zhou Nansheng and threatened, "Hey, be careful what you say to me, be careful!" I'm not polite to you!"

Xie Xuan took a few steps back and almost hit the railing on the side of the road. Zhou Nansheng's expression changed, and without even thinking about it, he kicked the flower protector in the stomach and sent him flying a few meters away, "Go to hell, Do your shit!"

Li Keyi screamed in fright, and hurried to help the boy, "Yu Wei, are you okay?" Then he turned back and shouted at Zhou Nansheng angrily, "Zhou Nansheng, why did you hit someone?"

Zhou Nansheng raised his chin and looked contemptuously, "Don't you just want to see men fight for you and fight for you!"

Li Keyi shouted with red eyes, "Zhou Nansheng, you bastard!"

The man's self-esteem made the boy named Yu Wei push away Li Keyi, stood up and rushed towards Zhou Nansheng. Zhou Nansheng was pushed so that he could not stand still, and all the fireworks in his hands fell to the ground. To relieve his anger, he grabbed Zhou Nansheng's skirt and raised his fist to beat him. Zhou Nansheng was also provoked. He is tall and a sports student who trains every day. Fighting is no stranger to such things. Boys can't stand it. After suffering a lot of losses, his body was full of color, and he refused to admit defeat. He was stopped by Li Keyi desperately, and only stared at Zhou Nansheng angrily with a pair of sinister eyes, "Zhou Nansheng, you wait for me, this debt I will get it back twice as much, don't let it fall into my hands!"

Zhou Nansheng didn't care at all, only when he was farting, picked up the fireworks on the ground, and walked up to Xie Xuan who didn't say a word from the beginning to the end, he showed a little regret on his face.

Xie Xuan shook his head and only said, "Let's go."

Zhou Nansheng nodded, and took the lead. Xie Xuan turned to look at the boy and saw a pair of eyes full of resentment and viciousness. He was startled suddenly, and then frowned fiercely.

After such an incident, the mood of both of them was affected.Xie Xuan never knew that Zhou Nansheng and Li Keyi had been together all along. He thought that Zhou Nansheng would not have any secrets from him. Maybe this is not a secret, maybe it was just that Zhou Nansheng forgot to tell him Or just thought it was irrelevant, but Xie Xuan still felt uncomfortable.Zhou Nansheng was obviously not in a good mood. Of course, seeing his girlfriend Hong Xing cheating was definitely not a pleasant experience.

I bought half a roast chicken, some barbecue, and went to the supermarket to buy some snacks and beer. It was dinner. The two of them went back to Zhou Nansheng’s temporary residence, Tianhua Hotel, turned on the TV, and watched variety shows while eating. The fireworks piled up in the corner, and when they moved the fireworks into the hotel, they deliberately avoided the hotel attendants.

The room is on the second floor, and outside the window is the night market in the town - barbecue, Mala Tang, clothes, trinkets, hats, scarves, everything you expect to find, embellished with a simple and mediocre world of prosperity.

After drinking a little too much wine, Zhou Nansheng was lying on the bed with his limbs spread out, and he was a little drowsy. At this moment, he heard Xie Xuan ask, "Do you like her very much?"

Zhou Nansheng didn't realize it all at once, and asked, "Who do you like?" His eyes met Xie Xuan's cold eyes. For some reason, he felt a guilty conscience of being seen through. He turned his head in embarrassment and looked at the ceiling of the room. ,"well enough."

"Are you sad?" Xie Xuan sat under his bed, and his voice sounded above his head.

Zhou Nansheng picked up the beer and took a sip. In fact, rather than being sad, he was more disappointed, a kind of disappointment towards women-Li Keyi is very beautiful, and it seems understandable that a beautiful girl has a little vanity. The feeling of staring at the moon, enjoying the feeling of being flattered, chased and jealous by boys. Since junior high school, Li Keyi has never lacked admirers around him.She never refused firmly willed to the end.Zhou Nansheng knew this for a long time. Does Li Keyi like Zhou Nansheng?Of course I like it, and it is precisely because I like it that I hope Zhou Nansheng can show a desire to possess her, so as to prove his love for her and satisfy her vanity. However, Zhou Nansheng is not like this people.

Zhou Nansheng didn't answer, but asked another question, "San'er, do you have someone you like?" When this question was asked, Zhou Nansheng suddenly became nervous, his heart seemed to be caught by a hand, and he couldn't breathe pain, but he didn't know what answer he wanted——

He drank too much, otherwise, he would not have asked such a question.

"Have."

That word exploded in the room, and the lively voices on the TV couldn't cover it up. Zhou Nansheng's ears were buzzing, and his mind was like a train roaring across the border.Zhou Nansheng closed his eyes and said softly, "This is so good."

For a long time, the two of them didn't talk anymore, and then Zhou Nansheng staggered up from the bed, "Didn't you say to set off the fireworks? I'm going to wash my face, let's go—"

"Forget it, don't go." Xie Xuan stood up from the ground and began to pack up the things they ate.

"Let me do it." Zhou Nansheng wanted to snatch the garbage bag from Xie Xuan's hand, but he couldn't stand firmly, and he was about to fall. Xie Xuan wanted to grab him, but he didn't, and he fell on the bed with him , Xie Xuan's chin hit Zhou Nansheng's brick-like chest, tears came out from the pain, Zhou Nansheng also groaned under Xie Xuan's chin, you two look at me, I look at you, I couldn't help laughing. After the laughter, the part of the body that was in contact was particularly clear and disturbing. A kind of quiet ambiguity was like the air, and the atmosphere suddenly became sticky——Xie Xuan boldly approached Zhou Nan slowly. Sheng, the breath between his lips scalded his chin, and when it was about to fall on his plump lips, Zhou Nansheng suddenly turned his face away, and Xie Xuan's lips brushed his face, and fell into space——

Zhou Nansheng turned his head and looked straight at the bed backboard without any patterns, but he didn't dare to look at Xie Xuan, his body was stiff and motionless, Xie Xuan's heart suddenly dropped straight down, empty, without a trace foot point.

Zhou Nansheng forced a smile, and gently pushed Xie Xuan, "I'm going to wash my face—"

But Xie Xuan didn't move at all, his eyes were terribly quiet.

Zhou Nansheng was a little uneasy, so he called him softly, with a little begging: "San'er——"

Xie Xuan's eyes were fixed on Zhou Nansheng's, cold and sharp, and he could not flinch or dodge in the slightest. He said, "Zhou Nansheng, do you know what I want?"

Calling him by his first and last name like that has left no room for retreat, and has pushed himself and him to a desperate situation.Zhou Nansheng suddenly yelled angrily: "I'm not fucking gay, if you're in heat, go find someone else!"

The blood on Xie Xuan's face faded instantly, his face was as pale as the first snow in early winter, his dark eyes were full of astonishment, unbelief, pain, and injury——

Zhou Nansheng made up his mind not to look. He pushed Xie Xuan away and stood up, walked into the bathroom, closed the door, turned on the faucet, and the cold water rushed down. He splashed the water on his face, rubbed it vigorously, then raised his head, Looking at himself in the mirror, his eyes were red like a wild beast. He closed his eyes and suddenly felt powerless. He leaned against the door and slid down bit by bit. He didn't dare to recall Xie Xuan's expression at that time——

He wanted to say, San'er, let's be brothers for a lifetime, okay?

He wanted to say, San’er, I’m actually not as brave as you think, I’m scared to death, I’m not afraid of being ridiculed by others, I’m not afraid of being looked down upon by others, I’m not afraid that the whole world will forgive us, I’m just afraid that one day you won’t want this one anymore Feelings, what should I do then?

He wanted to say, San'er, brothers are for a lifetime, I don't want anything else, I just want a lifetime——