love is deeper than the sea

How about?I'll pay them out of my own pocket, it's not that I don't have money! "

Li An: "It's not about money."

I clapped the case: "What kind of problem is that? Master, you came all the way here, why did you come to Xingshi to ask the crime?!"

Li An suddenly stood up and looked at me: "Ricardo, you forgot your identity."

It's been a long time since I heard Li An call me by first and last name, as if the distance between the two of them widened instantly.The Li An I know has always been soft-spoken, and has never been so cold.Or maybe it's actually a side of his personality that I've never seen.

I looked at him and glared at him.

Li An: "Have you forgotten? You are not only Zuo Lengchan's brother, but also the director of the entire crew! Your reckless impulsiveness hurt Zuo Lengchan, and you have a duty to him. But you are not only responsible to him, but also to the crew. Everyone here is equally responsible!"

I was also angry: "Brother Zuo's life and death are at stake, and I still have to manage Lao Shizi's crew? Do you want me to be ungrateful and wolf-hearted?!"

Li An: "Ricardo, stand at thirty! We are no longer alone in society, and we can't always follow our own wishes and be controlled by momentary emotions! Your freewheeling personality can be willful in life, but in life In work and career, this is dereliction of duty, arbitrariness, and sacrificing everything! As long as you act according to this attitude for one day, don’t think about future achievements! Because you can’t afford it!”

I can't believe that Li An scolded me so harshly!

Me: "What's wrong with dereliction of duty, what's wrong with acting arbitrarily, what's wrong with giving up everything?! I have money, I can afford it! Now my brother is lying on the hospital bed with one leg in the gate of hell, shouldn't I Accompany him?! I caused him to be half dead, and I am nothing if I leave! In front of Brother Zuo's life, what are other things?!"

Li An: "What's the point of being a director, and what's the point of making a movie? Since these things are so worthless, why have you been fanatical and struggling for so many years for this rubbish?! Since career is insignificant in your eyes, why don't you pay attention to your father? Why do you need to go to China to develop your subordinates? Why don’t you and I have to separate?! Why don’t you hide under your father’s blessing and be a young master for the rest of your life, and play with you in the United States.”

I was furious: "Li An, what nonsense are you talking about! Am I, Ricardo, the kind of waste who will live under the fence?!"

Li An: "Since the dreams you have been fighting for all your life are nothing, you don't have to talk about your dream of being a director anymore, because you are one of the thousands of daydreamers in the world who are high-minded but low-handed and anticlimactic. You don't have to be afraid to be a piece of shit, because you're already a piece of shit."

I was shocked: "You, you call me trash?!"

Li An: "Kong has ambitions, but he doesn't have the brains and tolerance to judge the situation. Waste."

I was stunned for a full three seconds before bursting out: "Fuck you! Li An! You're a fucking bastard! What are we talking about, break up! Break up! Since you think I'm trash, then I'm trash! You To marry someone who is ambitious, intelligent, and magnanimous, I have strong limbs and a simple mind! I have no IQ! I will die! Let's cut it clean!!"

After that, I knocked out the door and left angrily.

I, Ricardo, have never been so furious in my life.I was angry with Li An for reprimanding and teaching me, and angry with his attitude towards me. However, when I was wandering at the crossroads, at a loss as to whether I should go to the hospital or the film crew, I realized later that what Li An said was actually All right!

Every word he said was like a giant hammer weighing more than a thousand catties, hitting my heart with each blow!I never thought that the loyalty I was so proud of turned out to be such an impulsive expression!

I'm almost thirty, but I realized this for the first time today. In the past, my father was on top, and Li Anzhao was on the side. I didn't really bear anything alone.But now, with the heavy reality in front of me, I can no longer come and go as freely as in the past. Now I am not only a man, but also a director who supports the entire crew.I am not only responsible to Zuo Lengchan alone, but also to everyone in the entire crew.My behavior of putting aside the crew's suspension of work and letting Zuo Lengchan die in the hospital is no different!

Zuo Lengchan and the crew are not fish and bear's paws.I could have done both, but for the past seven days, I completely forgot about the weight on my shoulders.

My face is still full of fierceness, but the anger in my heart has slowly dissipated.I looked down and realized I was still in my pajamas, so I had to wipe my tears with the back of my hand.Then he ran to the phone booth and called the assistant director.

I said in a hoarse voice, "Hey, whoever, bring a piece of clothing here."

Assistant Director: "&T^@%^&!"

Me: "If I have clothes at hand, why would I still look for you?! Stop asking, can you stop talking so much! By the way, why did Li An suddenly appear in the hospital yesterday? Did you call him? Hello Dare to..."

Assistant Director: "&T^@%^&!"

I almost wanted to drop the phone: "What? Chen Shaohao, that bastard! If you don't dare to tell me face to face, you will call for help! How dare you play dirty with me, MLGB, he doesn't want to live anymore! I'm so mad!!! Yes, that grid A shirt, don’t pick colors, get over here!!!”

As soon as he hung up the phone, a shirt was draped over his shoulders.I wondered why it was so fast, but when I turned around, it was Li An who had just slapped the table and stared.

I was immediately embarrassed, and I straightened my expression, looking solemn: "Why are you still chasing me, you don't want to break up? Just put on your clothes? You have to show some sincerity."

Li An was expressionless: "I'm afraid you'll catch a cold. It has nothing to do with sincerity. If you want to break up, then break up."

I was dumbfounded: "What did you say?!"

Li An sighed and shook his head: "You can believe it, I don't think you will grow up in this lifetime. Get in the car, and I will take you back to the set."

I (stay): "Huh?"

Li An frowned: "Hurry up. It's cold outside."

I hurriedly put on my shirt and climbed into the car.It wasn't until he got in the car that he realized that the car was actually the assistant director. He drove Li An to the hospital yesterday, but Li An seized the car for private use!

I had a big fight with Li An just now, and his calm but angry expression is still deeply engraved in my mind, and now he suddenly changed back to his previous appearance, which made me unable to get used to it for a while.

I sat in the passenger seat and carefully observed his expression sideways.The result is expressionless.

Li An looked ahead and suddenly said, "What are you looking at?"

I turned my head away: "I didn't see anything."

Li An: "Still angry?"

I snorted disdainfully: "How is it possible? I'm not the kind of person with a small belly? But your attitude just now was too bad, why are you so fierce, you can teach me more than my dad..."

Li An: "You are stubborn by nature, and you don't obey teachings. If you don't show some color, you won't listen."

I laughed: "Nonsense."

Li An: "Now you are still at the beginning, and you can improve in all aspects. After the age of 30, if you are still the same careless way as before, this carelessness will destroy you. I don't want to see you destroy yourself. A man has many facets, love can be romantic, brothers can be loyal, career can be hardworking, and family can be harmonious. Keep all these aspects in your hands, grasp them, and enjoy them. This is a successful life.”

I was lost in thought.

Li An: "I can also pamper you and tolerate you without a bottom line, but it will hurt you. You are my partner, and I wake you up when you are lost. This is my love. Hard, cold, If you can't accept it, you can propose a breakup, and I won't force it."

There was a long silence in the carriage.

After a while, I propped my chin and scolded with a smile: "Bullshit, what's the point? Who else in this world would I find to scold me?"

When Li An heard this, the corners of his mouth curled up, his eyes softened, and he also smiled.

I laughed and kept crying.

Human growth is always sudden, a madness, in exchange for an awakening.It is stupid to be a hero, it is stupid to leave your post without permission, and reminding me of my stupidity is the greatest support from Li An.

He is not my safe haven, not my backer, but my partner.There is no one protecting the other or taking care of the other between the two of us.The real transformation from a boy to a man is to take responsibility for one's own actions and remove worries for Li An.

This moment is the transformation of my life.

112. "Wolf Pack" Finished

LeAnn and I spent a few hours back on set.When the car drove into the set, I found the staff standing or squatting, smoking or playing cards, looking bored.Seeing me coming, I was refreshed a little, and a smile appeared on my face: "Director, you are finally here."

I saw them repairing the equipment and just being unable to continue filming because I wasn't there, and I felt guilty.

I walked over and clapped my hands: "I'm sorry everyone, because of my personal reasons, the work of the crew has been delayed for a week. I am AWOL, I'm sorry everyone!"

The staff looked at each other in blank dismay, probably no director had ever said such self-destructive words.But they still laughed tolerantly, and said to me: "It's okay, everyone, just wait for the director to speak and start the machine!"

After hearing this, I was determined.I glanced at Li An again, and found that his eyes behind the sunglasses were smiling, and he extended his thumbs to me, cheering for me.

Immediately, I was full of pride, climbed onto the roof of the car, and raised my arms and called out: "Strong men!"

The heroes below responded: "Yes!!!"

Me: "Fuck, turn it on!!!"

Immediately, the mountains shook in response: "Okay!!!"

After a lesson, come back to the crew and feel your own perspective and mission