monopolize his white moonlight

Ye Ziwen really liked Qin Mo back then, otherwise he wouldn't have remembered it for nine years, so many times, he didn't want to hurt this kind man, and during the time he was with Ye Ziwen, he basically followed the rules.

Over the years, as Lin Beichen, he has done everything he can to make Lin Haofeng clean up the mess, anyway, he can do whatever he wants against him.

The car accident that year left him with a lump in his throat and a thorn in his back, and even his breath was filled with blood that could not be swallowed or melted away.He finally knew how much hatred and unwillingness Qin Fanghua had towards Lin Haofeng before he died.

He didn't know if he also had this kind of hatred for Lin Haofeng, but there was nausea. He knew in his heart that the car Gu Yizhou drove was given to him by He Zhiru. Why did the brakes of this car fail? He didn't know it was He Zhiru who did it. It was still Lin Haofeng's instruction and acquiescence, but he had some kind of foreknowledge in his heart, and Lin Haofeng knew it.

On the one hand, he doubted Lin Haofeng, and on the other hand, he denied his doubts. In any case, there was a gap in his heart towards Lin Haofeng, no matter before or now.

So, all these years, Qin Mo has been disgusted with what he has done.If Lin Haofeng didn't give him hope, he would also destroy his hope, just like when he despised himself for being gay and felt that he was as filthy and despicable as Qin Fanghua, then he would add this filth to him as Lin Beichen. he.

Qin Mo felt that his life was just like this anyway, and it should be like this.In this life and two lives, he will neither hate nor learn to love.

——

After Qin Mo had eaten that day, he sent Ye Ziwen home. After getting out of the car, Ye Ziwen kissed him lightly on the face, with the same embarrassment as before.

Since he was in high school, Lin Haofeng has always pressured him to show his face in various public places, paving the way for him in the future.Qin Mo met Ye Ziwen in a construction company he worked with Lin Haofeng two months ago. Ye Ziwen was a professional designer for that kilometer.

In high school, Ye Ziwen offered himself to him several times. Qin Mo felt that no matter how stupid he was, he couldn't harm other good students, so he refused every time.Later, when he heard that Ye Ziwen was punished by his father to kneel for a day and a night because of this matter, he suddenly came to his senses and never talked to Qin Mo again.

Seeing him again as Lin Beichen, Qin Mo did not provoke him again. Instead, Ye Ziwen approached him and said that he would be friends with him. Qin Mo neither accepted nor refused.Two months passed in a blink of an eye, and the two of them didn't develop any further. Apart from eating and watching movies, they never even touched hands, and they were always ambiguous.

But Ye Ziwen is like this today, Qin Mo feels that he is not a thing, in fact, he is not open to be friends with him, but he wants to fall in love with him.

This is not enough, what kind of bastard is he, Qin Mo, there is no reason to harm others twice, he should make it clear.

If it was Gu Yizhou, could he speak so clearly?Will not.He once thought that he had no obsession with Gu Yizhou, but when he saw him again, even with a single glance, the deep and indescribable attachment in his heart began to stir.

Whether he is Qin Mo or Lin Beichen.

He hated his thoughts on Gu Yizhou, it was desire, just like Qin Fanghua's pimps desire for her.So later on, he and Gu Yizhou were sometimes close and sometimes indifferent. On the one hand, they wanted to end this entanglement, and on the other hand, they fell into the abyss of desire and were swallowed by desire.

Just like that, after three years, five months and 20 days, he struggled awkwardly with himself for so many years, and this man still came back.As a result, Qin Mo's mood was very irritable, and whether to stay away from him or to approach him began to make him constantly contradictory.

However, contradictions are contradictions, and occasionally, he will obey his desires.He asked Gu Yizhou to have dinner.

Gu Yizhou naturally knew nothing about his awkwardness.

After that day, Gu Yizhou started his domestic work. He went to work at the Nantong Affiliated Hospital where Academician Lu was located, and was assigned to the MICU department. There was a sensation in the hospital for a while.

"I heard that he is a handsome overseas returnee with a master's degree."

"He's even more handsome than our Doctor Luo, but I heard he's very serious."

"You are so young, I don't know if you have a girlfriend"

"What are you thinking?" The head nurse said, interrupting the chattering of the little nurses, "If you don't, it's not your turn."

Everyone immediately cast a dull look at the head nurse, and walked away, busy with their own tasks.

In those few days, Luo Rui often went to find Gu Yizhou, which made the discussion even more lively.

Within a few days, Gu Yizhou received a message from Lin Beichen, asking him to pick him up at the apartment.Gu Yizhou had nothing to do in the afternoon, changed his clothes, drove the car, and set off directly according to the location sent by Lin Beichen.

Lin Beichen moved out of his home and rented an apartment outside. According to Lin Haofeng, he didn't know where he moved.

Gu Yizhou didn't know what had happened between them in the past few years, the relationship would be so tense.Lin Haofeng has asked him to help persuade Lin Beichen more than once. He doesn't know how to persuade others, and he doesn't know why Lin Beichen is so rebellious.

The apartment is not far from the hospital, about half an hour away.

As soon as Gu Yizhou parked the car, he saw Lin Beichen leaning against the wall and waiting for him, smoking a cigarette. As soon as he saw him coming, he immediately extinguished the cigarette and got into the car quickly.

Gu Yizhou raised his head and asked him: "Are you... sure you want me to drive?"

He felt that the car accident nine years ago had inevitably left psychological trauma to Lin Beichen, who was still a child at the time.

But Lin Beichen just shook his head while laughing.

Gu Yizhou stopped talking, and when he was about to reach the restaurant, he received a call from Lin Haofeng. Gu Yizhou hesitated for a while, but still picked up.

"Yizhou, do you know where Xiaochen lives now?" Lin Haofeng on the other end of the phone asked him.

Gu Yizhou didn't know how to answer for a while, but Lin Beichen said slowly: "Is it my dad? It's okay to ask me where I am, just tell him."

Gu Yizhou didn't listen to him, and replied: "Sorry, Uncle Lin, I don't know either."

Lin Haofeng: "Xiaozhou, you must know that he likes to pester you since he was a child, it doesn't matter if you don't tell me."

"Uncle just wants to ask you something today."

Gu Yizhou said: "Uncle, you are being polite."

"He's going to take the college entrance examination this year, and he's still messing around all day long, his grades have dropped like that, and he doesn't want to ask for a tutor." Lin Haofeng said gently: "Can you do uncle a favor and give him a tutoring session?"

After hearing this, Gu Yizhou thought for a while, and replied: "If he wants, he can, uncle."

Lin Haofeng happily thanked Gu Yizhou after hearing this, chatted for a few more words before hanging up the phone.

Lin Beichen's face was cloudy and uncertain, and Gu Yizhou didn't know what he was thinking.

Since when, he found that he didn't understand Lin Beichen more and more. The two hadn't seen each other for a long time, and the gap between them was too deep, and it seemed difficult to cross.

——

When eating, Lin Beichen ordered his favorite vanilla cake, blueberry yam, and braised prawns like before. He remembered clearly what he liked and what he didn't like, and only then could Gu Yizhou feel it. Lin Beichen is still the former Lin Beichen.

"Brother, have you thought about me in the past few years?" He suddenly raised his head and asked.

"Yeah." Gu Yizhou answered briefly.

Lin Beichen smiled and said, "I know, you lied to me, right?"

"Well—" Gu Yizhou answered him without listening, and when he realized what he said, his face was full of embarrassment.

Lin Beichen: "..."

Well, today is going to die.

Lin Beichen finally laughed helplessly and said, "You are still like this, brother."

This man's heart is made of iron, and his body temperature must be cold, Qin Mo, no no, Lin Beichen, who has Qin Mo's soul, thought in his heart.

"Lin Beichen, uncle asked me to give you tutoring." Gu Yizhou looked calm, "What do you think?"

Qin... oh, Lin Beichen peeled a shrimp for him: "Okay."

Gu Yizhou gave him tutoring, of course he agreed, he couldn't restrain his desire for him, and he couldn't even say it if he wanted to.

After hearing this, Gu Yizhou nodded, and asked again: "You...know you...your cousin, how is he now?"

Lin Beichen's face suddenly sank, and he glanced at him complicatedly, startled: "Why do you think of him?"

"No, just ask." Gu Yizhou said calmly.

"I have been falling asleep in the hospital. The doctor said that it is very difficult to wake up." Lin Beichen replied calmly: "Death is more likely, even if it is a vegetative state, it will be difficult to maintain in the future."

The spoon in Gu Yizhou's hand fell to the ground with a "jingle", and his mood sank to the bottom.

Lin Beichen said: "Brother Yizhou, what's the matter, don't you hate him the most?"

"I don't hate him." Gu Yizhou's tone was cold.

Lin Beichen glanced at him in surprise, and was interrupted just as he was about to speak.

"I've always felt guilty towards him. In that car accident, I..."

"I don't blame you", Lin Beichen looked at him with deep eyes, "No one wants that kind of thing to happen", and added at the end, "It has nothing to do with you, really."

Gu Yizhou still remembered him.How could he feel that it was his own fault, this car accident could be anyone's fault, including him who is now occupying Lin Beichen's body, but how could it be Gu Yizhou's fault, what could be wrong with him, this cold beauty's thinking, really The thing is to make people... happy.

Gu Yizhou didn't say anything, he asked Lin Beichen to take him to see Qin Mo.Lin Beichen refused to agree at first, but finally couldn't stand his indifferent eyes that vowed not to give up, and agreed.

He abstained and said, "That's all, let's take you there."

Gu Yizhou probably couldn't help but know what kind of chest pain he felt when he saw his face wearing an oxygen tube, and he couldn't breathe.

Gu Yizhou bought a bouquet of flowers, and when he opened the door to enter, he saw "Qin Mo" lying in the spotless VIP ward, with an oxygen mask on his mouth, and a nutrient solution on his body. The tranquility he saw really seemed to be just falling asleep. He couldn't help but think of the scene when he saw him for the last time nine years ago.

Under the sun, the boy who smiled at him finally really said "goodbye".

Gu Yizhou was in a complicated mood, and put a bouquet of delicately trimmed roses in a vase. Qin Mo loved to give him flowers before, but he never received them.

When he walked out of the ward, he was stunned for a moment when he saw Lin Beichen looking at him with deep eyes. He always felt that Lin Beichen had changed, and occasionally people felt very familiar when he saw people.

Now, he finally knows, he is like Qin Mo, the flamboyant Qin Mo when he was 18 years old.