Gu Pei reborn

After sweeping the dust, New Year's Eve is gradually approaching, but even if the family chats around the fire, there is still no joyful and warm atmosphere. On the night of the 29th, Gu Pei heard Gu Ma, who came back from the toilet, say that it was snowing in the middle of the night. For some reason, Gu Pei felt that she could hear the quiet sound of snow falling on the ground, as if nothing happened. Existence, one night, Gu Pei's mind is full of the empty world with snow falling all the time.

On the second day, the snow had lightened, and the thin snowflakes drifted by in front of the eyes, making people's noses itchy. There was already thick snow on the ground, houses, and trees. Looking at it from a distance, it felt warm and cozy.

It seems that children like snow very much. Standing by the courtyard dam, Gu Pei can hear the laughter of children and the sound of snow balls breaking in the distance.

The old lady is not very happy today. Although it is New Year's Eve, the first half of the day is used to work, but the snow is so heavy, the work that fell yesterday may not be completed today, but she still knows that "auspicious snow heralds a good year" It's something, so his face is not too ugly.

Because it's the New Year's Eve dinner, the whole family is having dinner at the old lady's house today, sitting on the table, Gu Pei is waiting for everyone to serve, but the next moment there is a cold on the back of the neck, Gu Pei can't help shivering , turned his head, and saw Gu Cheng with his eyes wide open, hunched over, looking embarrassed after being caught.

"Hey, you kid! You're bullying my brother!" At this moment, the second aunt patted Gu Cheng on the head and scolded.But the tone is not harsh.After hearing this, Gu Cheng just took a look at her and sat obediently in his seat.

Gu Pei stood up and patted the collar without saying anything. Although he hated them, the children had no bad intentions.

The New Year's Eve dinner was made by two aunts, mothers and old ladies together. It filled a big table, but it was very rich, but the plates looked exquisite, but they didn't feel like eating.It's not that the food is not good, it's just that Gu Pei's family's financial situation in the city is not good and the place is small, so they often cook a big pot of hot pot during the Chinese New Year. Although it doesn't look very good, the three of them sit in a small room to eat It's really warm with the hot hot pot.Unlike now, a large table is placed in the main room, and it will be cold after a few picks.The family was talking and laughing, but their faces were separated from each other.

It is said that the countryside has a strong flavor of the New Year, but with Gu Pei, there is really nothing to say about this year's Spring Festival. In his opinion, even the sound of firing cannons has a desolate feeling that everything is coming to an end.

Years later, Gu Pei finally breathed a sigh of relief after sitting in the car in the village and experiencing the bumps again.Back in town, all is well.Just looking at a row of doors pasted with red couplets, only the door of his own house was still dusty, Gu Pei still felt a little awkward.The neighbors were very enthusiastic when they saw them come back. During the chat, they mentioned that a few days after they left, a boy who looked very good came to Gu Pei, and he was described as Lin Shaojun.Gu Pei was stunned for a moment after hearing this, and then put this matter behind her mind.

After cleaning up the things at home, that night, after dinner, when Gu Pei was about to help his mother put away the dishes, Gu's father said, "Let's put it down first."

"Huh?" Gu Pei looked at Papa Gu in confusion, but it was rare to see his serious expression, so Gu Pei put down the bowl obediently, and sat down again after watching Mama Gu quietly put away the bowl and went out.Then I watched Papa Gu take out a cigarette from his pocket, light it, and take a deep breath...

As the red light of the cigarette butt flickered, the blue smoke slowly lingered upwards, strands of filaments drifted in the narrow room, and after a while, the whole space was filled with the smell of nicotine.

Gu Pei looked at the frowning and gray-haired Papa Gu through the smoke, only to realize that he seemed to have aged a lot before he knew it, but he was smiling a lot of the time, which was easy to ignore.

"I heard from your mother that you knew about that?" After a long time, Gu's father opened his mouth, and then Gu Pei saw the cigarette in his hand shake, and the white ash fell quietly on the table.

"……Um."

"We've decided to have a baby."

Gu Pei tightened his hands on his knees, and then he heard himself say "I know" in a hoarse voice.

"That's good, that's good..." Papa Gu took another puff of cigarette, and then slowly exhaled, "When I was young, I was playing by the river, and I fell into the water. It was your uncle who insisted on holding me, and I waited for you later. Grandpa rescued us."

"Yeah." Gu Pei slowly let go of his fingers, he didn't know there was such a thing.

"Your grandma is a strong person. Over the years, your uncle has no children. She is not feeling well, and your uncle is not feeling well either."

Gu Pei didn't speak but listened quietly.

"After all, they are my relatives, and I still hope that the family can live well in the future."

Hearing this, Gu Pei's heart tightened again. So his father still wanted to repair his relationship with the Gu family?It's just that Dad is doomed to be disappointed, right?I remember that even in the previous life, when Papa Gu became well-off, Grandma didn't give him a second glance, but, is there any reason why parents don't want to have children?He had to be so suspicious.

"The talk is over?" After some time, Gu's mother came in with a bowl, she put down the bowl, and seeing Gu's father nodding, she went to the silent Gu Pei and touched his head, "I said you were a child... It’s just that your father said he wanted to talk to you, so the talk is over, and you don’t have to worry about the adults, you just study hard.”

"...Well." Seeing her mother's listless look, Gu Pei nodded obediently, but her heart didn't feel better because of Gu's father's words.

"By the way, remember that before you left, you told Chen Yan to come back and help him make up lessons, so you can continue to start tomorrow." Gu Ma continued.

Gu Pei nodded, he also knew that his mother was diverting his attention, but he could only agree to them.Parents are under enough pressure now, and he doesn't want to worry them anymore.

Then the next day, Gu Pei went to the place where Chen Yan often went to find Chen Yan, seeing Chen Yan's eyes that suddenly lit up the moment he saw him, Gu Pei also smiled rarely.The days seem to have not changed much from before returning to my hometown.It's just that every time he heard the shaking of the big bed outside the curtain and the panting of his parents at night, his eye sockets still couldn't help but feel astringent.It was probably also on such a dark night that his parents created him, and now they are going to create another child, a child who is destined to stay away from them from birth. The voice was left behind, but the voice echoed in his mind like a curse, always reminding his parents of their grievances and helplessness...

Then the school day came, and Dong Jing and Lin Shaojun left, but there were a few new faces in the class.The students all formed a pile, who had more New Year's money and gifts, and who had more places to play.Seeing Gu Pei coming, several boys quickly surrounded him.By the way, I talked about Lin Shaojun's treat last winter vacation. By the way, Lin Shaojun was very angry about his absence.Knowing that they waited for him for a long time that day, Gu Pei really felt sorry, and hurriedly apologized and begged for mercy.

As time went by, the sky seemed to become thinner, and sometimes a blue color could be seen, and some green buds were dotted on the gray branches, and the sound of birds chirping gradually increased.

Everything seemed to be developing in the right direction, but slowly, Gu Pei found that Chen Yan seemed to be getting more and more silent, and asked him, he just shook his head with a smile, until one weekend, Chen Yan came to his house early and said I want to take him to his house to see.

Following behind Chen Yan, Gu Peicai realized that he was walking in the direction of the vegetable wholesale market, and his house was the wrong way when he went to eat vegetables for the first time in this life.He said his house was by the train track.

The breath of spring can be felt more in the suburbs. A large area of ​​green color is illuminated by the spring light, shining brightly, and the stale air in the heart is scattered over the railway.

The houses on both sides of the railway are dilapidated bungalows or houses with asbestos tiles. At the intersection of the railway and the motorway, dusty trucks pass in front of Gu Pei. Choked a few times.

To be honest, the railway is really dirty. Just walking on it and watching the railway track slowly disappear from sight, I always feel an inexplicably old feeling in my heart.

Chen Yan was silent along the way, and Gu Pei didn't say anything. It could be seen that Chen Yan seemed very anxious. He was actually worried before. After all, Chen Yan's mother seemed to be a bit superb, but when he was really walking on the road, his worry But gradually disappeared.

Chen Yan's house is made of hollow bricks. The roof is made of asbestos tiles of different shades. It seems that they were built in several batches. The roof is very low, there are no windows, and there are some sundries outside. Outside the house, Gu Pei could also imagine that it must be dark and gloomy inside.

Chen Yan pushed open the door with plastic bags hanging on it, and a musty smell came over his face. There were shadows in the room, and it seemed that it was full of things.Chen Yan walked into the room and turned on the light. For a moment, Gu Pei saw the dust rising up in the room whirling and dancing in the dim light of the incandescent lamp.Then Gu Pei looked in the direction Chen Yan walked, and saw a bed in the corner of the room with a haggard woman lying on it. The quilt seemed to cover two or three beds, but the feeling was still desolate and cold.

"Mom." Chen Yan called softly.

"Huh? Xiaoyan is back...?"

Gu Pei was taken aback, that voice didn't sound like a woman's voice at all, Gu Pei thought it was like a dry branch in winter, astringent and lifeless.After a long time, Gu Pei remembered to say hello to her.

"Are you the kid who asked Xiaoyan to sell newspapers and teach him to read?" The woman stood up and looked at Gu Pei.

At this time, Gu Pei realized that the woman was very haggard. Even under the light of the incandescent lamp, Gu Pei could still see the blue color on the woman's face, her hair was disheveled, and her cheeks were sunken. She could be seen as someone who had been ill for a long time.It just seems that she asked Chen Yan to call her this time, so what exactly does she want to do?

Looking into the woman's eyes, Gu Pei couldn't help but tighten his lips.

The author has something to say: I always feel that the writing of this chapter is a bit awkward, but I don’t know how to change it now, so I will post it first, and I will revise it when I have inspiration.

In addition, there is a lot of opposition to Gu Ma's having another child, but I have an outline before, so I don't want to change it, but what everyone is worried about will not happen. In four or five chapters at most, this matter will be closed. I think my setting should not disappoint everyone. I don’t want to spoil it, so please give me your opinion when the time comes.