Gu Pei reborn

Regarding the matter of parents, Gu Pei has nothing to do. To be honest, sometimes watching the two of them is quite entangled.What's more, his mind is also very confused now, the matter of Chen Yan is a thorn in his heart, he says he doesn't want him, but when his heart beats, it will hurt by itself.Fortunately, the admission notice will come down soon, so I can divert my attention.

The admission notice was mailed to the school. Gu Pei was afraid of seeing Chen Yan, so he wanted his mother to help him get it, but his mother had something to do, so he had to go by himself.Looking for a Saturday, guessing that Chen Yan would not be at school, he went to school, took the notice and went home immediately.

But soon, he received a call from Lin Shaojun, saying that he met Chen Yan when he was taking the notice, and Chen Yan was looking for his address.At the end, he also said that Chen Yan's condition didn't look very good.

Gu Pei didn't answer this topic, he just asked about Lin Shaojun's university admissions, and Gu Pei was quite happy to learn that he was in the same school as him.I wanted to ask about Jiang Hui's situation, but I decided to give up after thinking about it.After asking him not to give Chen Yan his contact information, he hung up the phone.

For Chen Yan, he really couldn't let go of it. After all, he had been with him for five years, and the relationship would be broken anytime.The fact that he is doing too much to himself, but when he thinks of him, he can't help but see his limping figure before.Putting aside these untimely thoughts, I announced the happy news to the relatives at home, and the family was going to celebrate. Now, Gu's father and Gu's mother had to meet. After all, it was the child's happy event. At this time, Gu's mother did not object .

Because Lin Shaojun and Lin Shaojun are in the same school, the two agreed on a time to go to school.Gu Pei refused his parents to send him off. When he arrived at the train station alone with two bags of luggage, Lin Shaojun was chatting with his mother.Because I have met Lin Shaojun's mother before, I probably know what kind of person she is, so they get along very happily.

Freshman registration is all about those procedures, because Lin Shaojun and Gu Pei are not majors, so they registered separately, but it was half a month later when they had the opportunity to get together for dinner again.At this time, both of them were peeled off by the military training instructor, and they were black, as if they came out of a coal shed.

Speaking of college life, it was quite boring. During his freshman year, there were few classes, and Gu Pei had no interest in those activities. Except for being pulled out to play basketball by Lin Shaojun occasionally, his life was really ordinary.Until his roommate insisted on pulling him to have a friendship with someone from the girls' dormitory.

have to!These boys were repressed miserably in high school, and they looked for beautiful women everywhere when they arrived in college.

After attending the sorority party, I exchanged phone numbers with the girls, and then a group of boys walked shoulder to shoulder in the snack street.

"I said Gu Pei..."

"Huh?" Gu Pei responded while avoiding the hand that was about to pat her shoulder.

"Do you have a girlfriend yet?" The boy didn't mind being moved away by him, he just put his whole arm around Gu Pei's neck, and the two brothers seemed to ask softly in his ear.

"No."

"Liar!" The boy looked disbelieving, "We see you sitting on the bed in a daze every day, doesn't that look like... um... are you thinking about someone?" The sound made a detour.

"If you're in a daze, you miss your girlfriend?" Gu Pei gave him a blank look.In a daze, he seemed to be thinking the most about...Chen Yan.

"Cut, you're still quibbling! Let me tell you, I have a lot of experience, and you're just thinking about someone in a daze." The boy continued, "Since you have a girlfriend, can you make those eyes look bigger? Give me the phone number of the most beautiful girl?"

Depend on!It turned out that I was thinking about this for a long time!But—"The one with the most beautiful eyes? Who?" Gu Pei really didn't pay attention to the looks of those girls.

"..." The boy stared at Gu Pei for a while, seeing that he was really puzzled, he patted Gu Pei on the shoulder, and then gave him a thumbs up, "Dude, you are amazing! Even a beauty like that Don't take it seriously, then your girlfriend must be a big beauty, right?"

"Not really."

"Liar ghost!" The boy looked at him in disbelief, "It's fine if you don't say anything, but you have to give me the girl's phone number, um, what is her name, um, the one surnamed Yang."

"Find it yourself." Gu Pei handed him the phone, and then saw the boy excitedly start flipping through the phone book.Gu Pei shook his head, are you so impatient?I remember that he had never been in a relationship in college in his last life.

Going to college is very free, and Gu Pei can finally spare time to do something he likes.Speaking of him being reborn, so far, he has been busy making money, and now that his family's financial situation is better, Chen Yan... has nothing to do with him.He felt that the ease was a little too much.I borrow some books from the library every day, chat with my roommates, and have a good life.Only occasionally when he was alone in the dormitory, Chen Yan's figure involuntarily appeared in his mind.Then he couldn't help but think of his roommate saying that he was thinking of his girlfriend.

"Do you still believe what he said? It's just because you want to lie to the girl's phone number, so you're talking nonsense." Gu Pei comforted himself in this way, and then continued to read, but he couldn't put his mind on it.

It is really not easy to forget a person who has done that kind of thing to him. Sometimes he would dream of Chen Yan in his dreams at night. At first, he was a cute kid who opened his eyes and happily called him brother Gu Pei. Then he ran towards him, getting closer and closer, and he became bigger and bigger. When he was in front of him, that cute child turned into a demon image, and then he jumped at him and started to bite.When he woke up, he felt palpitations, but soon, he found that he had passed out because of this nightmare.The first reaction is to feel incredible, the second reaction is to feel disgusted, and the third reaction is to think that maybe he really should have a girlfriend, but the matter of Jiang Hui is still a lump in his heart, so he always has a hard time treating those girls. generate goodwill.So I had to wander around the campus alone all the time.

Fortunately, Lin Shaojun often accompanied him. Speaking of which, he also joked that he was too pitiful to introduce a girlfriend to him, but Gu Pei denied it. Then he saw Lin Shaojun laughed and said: "Okay, okay, there really isn't a girl in this school who is worthy of you, why don't you just stop looking, and find someone to marry right away after graduation?"

"It's a good choice." Gu Pei nodded in agreement.

"How about I do the same?"

"Okay, it's good to have a fellow sufferer to accompany you." Gu Pei nodded with a smile. Before, he also guessed that Lin Shaojun and Jiang Hui were divided, so it's not easy to stimulate him now.

"Then it's settled like this, colleges are not allowed to find girlfriends!" Lin Shaojun looked at Gu Pei and said.Although the tone was joking, Gu Pei felt that his eyes seemed to have really made such a decision.Gu Pei sighed, as expected, children shouldn't fall in love with each other, see, a breakup hurts so badly.

Gu Pei didn't go back during the winter vacation. Now that his parents are separated, it is impossible for him to see Chen Yan again. He will be lonely when he goes back. Why don't he just stay in school and find some part-time jobs occasionally to earn some money? Not bad.

When Lin Shaojun came in the second semester, the two inevitably talked about things in their hometown, and then Lin Shaojun talked about Chen Yan.It is also a coincidence that during the winter vacation, Lin Shaojun was dragged by a group of people to participate in the class reunion, thinking of commemorating his high school life, so he chose a restaurant very close to the school, and it just so happened that Chen Yan spent the winter vacation at that restaurant work here.

Chen Yan has changed a lot. If he used to be a spirited little leopard, he is now a listless sick cat. He has lost a lot of weight, his eyes are dull, and there are two dark circles under his eyes. So impressive that you might not recognize it.

Meeting Lin Shaojun was the best news for Chen Yan in the past six months. Although he was reluctant to admit it, Gu Pei really valued Lin Shaojun.After that incident during the summer vacation, Gu Pei completely disappeared from his life and returned to the Gu family in District A, but the neighbors around said that the Gu family had not gone back for a long time. Later, when I met Lin Shaojun at school and asked about it, I was very upset. Knowing the answer, he was too sad at the time, and when he heard him say that he didn't know, he believed it in a daze. When he realized it, he couldn't find Lin Shaojun's figure.I went to ask Gu Pei's former head teacher, and when he learned of the university he was studying in, he packed up his things and went to find him.It’s just that he was in a daze all the way on the train, and his money was stolen. Later, the train steward saw that he was a child and wanted to help him. When he learned that he came out alone, he persuaded him to go back to school. I wanted to find Gu Pei, but he didn't have his contact information. Although he mentioned a university, the flight attendant thought he was a kid who ran away from home cheating, so he didn't take it seriously. After the train conductor knew about it, I just greeted someone, packed him up and sent him back to his hometown, but after he came back, he was severely criticized by the head teacher, and he will be the subject of strict supervision in the future. There is no way, Chen Yan is a good seed, and the head teacher is counting on Chen Yan to earn him honors , Earn bonuses.

A good friend who knew about his situation also advised him to study hard first, and after he was admitted to Gu Pei's school, would he still worry about not being able to meet?Chen Yan thought it was true, so he studied harder. When he was alone, he missed Gu Pei even more. Then he thought about Gu Pei's future decision, and his heart ached again. He thought about Lin Shaojun and Gu Pei who coveted him. Pei was in a school, and he was worried, which made him unable to sleep well every day, so after one semester, he became what he is now.

During the winter vacation, I went to see Gu's house in District A, and learned that there was no one there. He just went back to the house that Gu Pei rented in high school. He thought that Gu Pei might go back to high school for a walk, so he started a fight at the restaurant opposite the school. I didn't know that I didn't see Gu Pei, but I saw Lin Shaojun.

"How did you make it look like this?" Lin Shaojun still asked looking at Chen An who was taller but thinner in front of him.Although the two had a fight last year, he and Chen Yan have known each other for several years. Although they are noisy every time they meet, they are also acquaintances, and they still have to call to greet each other.As for Gu Pei, although he seemed to be having a fight with Chen Yan, it could be seen that he still couldn't let go of Chen Yan.

"Can you tell me brother Gu Pei's contact information?" Chen Ya didn't answer Lin Shaojun's words, but asked anxiously about Gu Pei's situation.

"..." Lin Shaojun didn't speak, but just looked at Chen Yan steadfastly. If he couldn't figure it out last year, but seeing Chen Yan's expression now, how can he see his feelings for Gu Pei.Seeing his haggard appearance, he also felt some empathy for the bitterness. Just thinking of Gu Pei's decisive treatment of him, he guessed that Gu Pei might have seen Chen Yan's unusual treatment of him. For a while, he felt mixed feelings , his feelings for Gu Pei are not shallow, why didn't he see his own intentions?Just thinking about it, he thought it was pretty good, at least he could stay by his side.Just tell Chen Yan Gu Pei's contact information?No, didn't Gu Pei already tell himself not to tell Chen Yan his contact information?

"You don't want to tell me?" Chen Yan looked at Lin Shaojun's expression, pursed his lips, forced back the tears he was about to shed, and looked at Lin Shaojun stubbornly.

"He doesn't want you to know." Lin Shaojun said flatly, but he knew that his words were hurtful enough. Looking at Chen Yan's face that turned pale all of a sudden, he felt a little cruel, but soon he comforted himself with love is selfish.

"You liar!" Chen Yan stared at him fiercely, his eyes were red, "It must be you, you were the one who spoke ill of me in front of Brother Gu Pei!"

"..." Lin Shaojun just looked at him calmly, without speaking.He was just irritated now, and he didn't want to quarrel with him on the street.

"It must be you! Lin Shaojun, it must be you! You love brother Gu Pei, but he doesn't like you, so you speak ill of me, right?!"

"..."

"Don't be complacent! I'll tell brother Gu Pei what you think, and then brother Gu Pei will hate you too! Just watch!" Chen Yan seemed to have lost his mind, but cursed with red eyes.His elder brother Gu Pei has always been so kind to him, even if he gets angry, he will quickly forgive himself. Now it must be Lin Shaojun's fault.

As soon as Chen Yan's words fell, Lin Shaojun's face turned pale. Chen Yan was right, if Gu Pei knew what he was thinking, he would want to treat Chen Yan the same way.Get away from yourself, get out of touch with yourself, forget about yourself...

Lin Shaojun has forgotten how to say goodbye to Chen Yan and how to return home, but he has been in a trance for the rest of the holiday.But now when he saw Gu Pei's familiar smile, he couldn't help telling the news about Chen Yan.He wanted to see Gu Pei's reaction, he wanted to know if he still missed him.If he doesn't want to mention Chen Yan, then one day, that will be his end, right?Fortunately, Gu Pei just frowned, remained silent for a while, and asked about his situation.It's just that when he saw the worried look in Gu Pei's eyes, he felt bitter in his heart.

***

After being separated from Lin Shaojun, Gu Pei returned to the dormitory, remembering what he said about Chen Yan, he couldn't help but think of Chen Yan's dirty and thin body when he first saw him.He resented Chen Yan, but he also resented himself. Chen Yan had been with him since he was nine years old. He would do that to himself because of his improper education, right?If I had known that he has become like this now, it would be better to let him wander alone.What's worse, he still always thinks about Chen Yan's events, but those two scenes come to his mind the most. Once or twice, it means that he hates him, but what about the countless times?Gu Pei didn't want to guess the reason, but he still remembered the scene when Chen Yan said he liked him.I like myself... Gu Pei didn't dare to delve into it. In his opinion, what Chen Yan did was just a child's curiosity.After a while he forgot about it.But after the first time, didn't I think so too?But there was a second time after that, and now, after listening to Lin Shaojun's description, he felt worried, but at the same time, he was still faintly happy... He was really crazy!

When the May Day holiday came, all the buddies in the dormitory took their girlfriends out on dates, leaving only Gu Pei alone, and Lin Shaojun, who also didn't have a girlfriend, became a frequent visitor here.Then, after Lin Shaojun said that it would be cheaper for two people to order takeout together, Lin Shaojun had to rely on Gu Pei for a week.

Ever since he was stimulated by Chen Yan during the winter vacation, every time Lin Shaojun saw Gu Pei this semester, he was worried about his gains and losses, and he was in a trance. He suddenly felt that his previous thoughts were wrong, and he kept watching Gu Pei's happiness. It is a kind of suffering, and he feels that he can't bear it anymore, otherwise he wouldn't add fuel to the fire when Gu Pei and Jiang Hui misunderstood in high school.So this time let yourself go, if Gu Pei really can't accept herself, then completely break up, maybe you can live a little more comfortably.

Looking at Gu Pei who was reading the novel with gusto, Lin Shaojun smiled and said casually, "I'll take a shower later, can you rub my back for me?"

"Yeah." Gu Pei nodded. When taking a bath in the bathroom, those people rubbed each other's backs. In his opinion, this is not a big deal.

"Thanks in advance. I'll rub it for you when you wash." Lin Shaojun smiled, then packed his clothes and went to the toilet.The university they studied in is a famous brand, and the hardware facilities in the dormitory are also quite good. There is a shower head in the toilet, and hot water is supplied all year round.

Taking off his clothes, Lin Shaojun looked down at his body. The boys in the dormitory had no taboos when it was hot. He had seen naked bodies several times. Think about theirs, and then think about his own body. Not too bad, right?

Turn on the shower head, wet your body, put on the shower gel, and rub it yourself first, if Gu Pei rubs it for yourself later and really rubs out the dirt, then I'm sorry.After washing off the foam on his body, Lin Shaojun shouted to Gu Pei: "Gu Pei, rub my back for me."

"Yeah." Gu Pei put down his book and went into the bathroom. When he saw Lin Shaojun standing there naked-naked, he was taken aback for a moment, then immediately came back to his senses, took the towel and put on shower gel for him. Wiped up.In fact, back rubbing is quite a tiring job, not to mention that Lin Shaojun is a few centimeters taller than Gu Pei.Speaking of which, this is the first time for Gu Pei to wipe the back of an outsider. In the past, at most, he helped his father and Chen Yan. Thinking of this, Gu Pei paused. Did he unknowingly include Chen Yan in the scope of his own people? ?

"What's the matter?" Lin Shaojun asked seeing that Gu Pei hadn't moved.

"fine."

Gu Pei continued to move, and when he rubbed Lin Shaojun's waist, he felt Lin Shaojun tremble all over.So he threw the same question to Lin Shaojun and got the same answer, but Gu Pei found that Lin Shaojun seemed to be standing inside the wall uncomfortably. "Are you okay?" Gu Pei asked again.

"Uh..." Lin Shaojun closed his eyes as if he was going all out, and said to Gu Pei, "My little brother woke up."

Gu Pei was taken aback, and the bath towel in his hand fell to the ground with a "slap", and then he quickly bent down to pick it up, but at this moment Lin Shaojun turned around, and when Gu Pei raised his head, his head snapped The son touched the high spirits between Lin Shaojun's legs.Then Gu Pei was stunned for a while, and Lin Shaojun was also stunned for a while.But he reacted quickly, just looking at Gu Pei whose face was slowly turning red in a daze, his place was even more swollen.

Looking at such a tempting Gu Pei, Lin Shaojun couldn't help but leaned over and slowly kissed the corner of Gu Pei's lips, feeling his sweetness, Lin Shaojun couldn't help but move his lips.

Gu Pei's body stiffened for a moment, just when Lin Shaojun thought that Gu Pei would push him away, Gu Pei hesitated for a moment, but he also began to respond.The answer was correct, Lin Shaojun was full of great surprises, although he just stuck out his tongue as if exploring, but Gu Pei did not reject his kiss.

Feeling Lin Shaojun's tongue stirring in his mouth, Gu Pei closed his eyes tremblingly, he...is really gay...

Lin Shaojun's kiss was gentle and lingering. Gu Pei felt as if he was stepping on soft cotton. It was so soft that he couldn't use his strength. He felt that he was a little out of control. Although he knew it was wrong to do so, he still fell into it. Going on... This feeling makes Gu Pei feel a little familiar... Wait, deja vu? !Gu Pei woke up suddenly, pushed Lin Shaojun away suddenly, and rushed out without looking at his expression.

Hearing the bedroom door close with a "bang", Lin Shaojun raised the corners of his mouth bitterly, turned on the shower head, did not adjust the water temperature, and let the cold water fall on himself, extinguishing his desire.

***

It has been more than a month. Since then, Gu Pei has never seen Lin Shaojun again. He doesn't know whether he is hiding from him or he is hiding from himself, but he knows that he and Lin Shaojun will never go back to the past.

Yes, he was sure that he fell in love with Chen Yan, but should he just tell Chen Yan like this?He couldn't convince himself that Chen Yan really loved him.Moreover, liking someone of the same sex... He couldn't imagine how much pressure they would have to bear. Fortunately, Chen Yan didn't have the pressure from his relatives, but what about himself?In the previous life, the parents still had children, but now...the parents only called last week to tell me that they were remarried.He has only one child, and if he is gay, he can't imagine what his parents will be like.

Suppressing his inappropriate feelings into the bottom of his heart, Gu Pei told himself that's it, just alienate Chen Yan like this, and then find a woman to marry after graduation.

It's just that things don't always go as planned.Two weeks later, he got a call from his mother.

She said that she met the child named Chen Yan who often went to her home to make up lessons in District A.

She said that the child looked quite strong before, but she did not expect to become so thin now.

She said, but he was still very polite, and he sweetly called me Auntie when he saw me.

He asked about his condition, she said.

She said she gave him her contact information.

After hanging up his mother's phone call, Gu Pei's first reaction was to replace his phone card, but when he took out the battery and looked at the small phone card, he couldn't take it out anymore.He waited for Chen Yan to call him with some joy and some sadness, and he thought over and over again how to talk to Chen Yan.But after waiting for a whole week, there was no call from my hometown.Gu Pei was lying on the bed with a wry smile. Chen Yan's question was probably just a random question after meeting his mother, right?Maybe he has already forgotten himself by now.

The phone rang again, and Gu Pei subconsciously picked it up quickly, but unexpectedly it turned out to be a familiar number.Is their squad leader.Really, I am so worried about gains and losses.Curling the corners of his mouth bitterly, Gu Pei pressed the answer button: "Hello, monitor?"

"Just now the counselor called me and told me that the doorman said that someone was looking for you and asked you to go to the doorman to pick him up."

As soon as the squad leader's words fell, Gu Pei was stunned. Someone was looking for him, it was Chen Yan!He couldn't control the thought.

"Hey, Gu Pei, did you hear that?"

"Ah, I got it, thank you monitor." Gu Pei hung up the phone, straightened his clothes quickly, and then ran towards the school gate at a fast speed. The speed caused countless people to turn their heads, but when they saw the school gate, But he stopped suddenly, he was afraid that it wasn't Chen Yan, and even more afraid that it was Chen Yan, if it was him, how would he talk to him?

***

It was indeed Chen Yan who came to look for Gu Pei. When he saw the much taller figure, all the words Gu Pei wanted to say were choked in his throat.And Chen Yan stared at Gu Pei momentarily, not daring to say a word.

Taking Chen Yan back to the dormitory, the two of them didn't say a word all the way.Gu Pei didn't know what to say, but Chen Yan, seeing Gu Pei's sombre face along the way, felt uncomfortable.

It wasn't until passing by the cafeteria that Gu Pei asked, "Have you eaten yet?".

Hearing that Gu Pei still cared about him, Chen Yan laughed all of a sudden, then shook his head honestly.When he got off the train in the morning, he searched everywhere for the car that came here, and he didn't have time to eat at all.

"Then go eat." Gu Pei habitually wanted to touch Chen Yan's head, but Chen Yan was a lot taller, so he had no choice but to put it down again.

After dinner, Gu Pei wanted to take Chen Yan to the dormitory, but thinking that the two of them still had a lot to talk about, he took Chen Yan to the campus.

Seeing that Gu Pei didn't intend to pursue what happened last year, Chen Yan finally breathed a sigh of relief, and only now did he dare to look up and take a closer look at Gu Pei.The appearance hasn't changed much, but Gu Pei's eyes seem to have changed a lot and become deeper. If he could see his emotions from Gu Pei's eyes before, but now it has become difficult.

"Brother Gu Pei..." Chen Ya wanted to say something, but didn't know what to say.In the past year, he has thought about why brother Gu Pei hates him countless times. He is afraid that he hates homosexuals, he is afraid that he doesn't like him, but he has never made a conclusion. This time, he wants to know what brother Gu Pei thinks.

"What's the matter?" Gu Pei looked at Chen Yan. He was in a very complicated mood now, and he didn't know how to face Chen Yan.This relationship was wrong, but he couldn't help himself to look forward to it.

"I...you...I'm sorry about what happened last year..."

Gu Pei felt a chill in his heart, as expected he was expecting too much.

"But I really like you."

"..." Gu Pei's head suddenly went blank. He wanted to say something, but he couldn't utter a single word when he moved his lips. He froze in place until Chen Yan called him again. Come on.

"I really like you……"

Chen Yan raised his eyes and looked into Gu Pei's sternly. The sincerity in those eyes made Gu Pei almost say "I like you too".It's just that he was silent, he couldn't convince himself to accept this feeling, there was no crime in feeling, but gossip was more painful than judgment.He doesn't have that strong mental capacity.

Looking fixedly into Gu Pei's eyes, and seeing that there was no disgust in Gu Pei's eyes after hearing what he said, Chen Yan was relieved.Since you don't reject me, then I have no reason to let you go.

"I won't give up." Chen Yan said.

He looked into Gu Pei's eyes, those eyes shining brightly in the sunlight made Gu Pei slightly dazzled.Under such gazes, Gu Pei was bewitched, and expressed his thoughts buried in his heart: "We will face a lot of pressure..."

Before Gu Pei's words fell, Chen Yan burst into laughter. Does this mean that Gu Pei's brother also has feelings for him, and...we...for the first time, he feels that these two words are full of so much happiness feel.

Seeing Chen Yan laughing, Gu Pei was taken aback, thinking of what he just said, his face suddenly turned pale.He actually said it?

"Brother Gu Pei..." Chen Yan shouted again, "You can't leave me behind."

"..." Seeing Chen Yan's stubborn expression, Gu Pei smiled wryly in his heart. He owed him something in his previous life, so God just let him be born again. Will he pay it back in this life?

The author has something to say: I wrote more than half of the school makeup network came to the dormitory to give lectures, and then my skin was severely criticized, so sad%>_<%, I originally wanted to end it like this, but I feel that their feelings The writing is a bit thin, so I continue to write, but the next chapter is to write about their relationship from the perspective of Gu Ma, it can be regarded as a side story, but I hope to make their relationship appear fuller.As for the comments, I think I will read it tomorrow after I finish writing it, and I always feel that it will be criticized.