summer like smoke

Lin Yan fell into a coma until the evening of the second day before barely waking up.It was awakened by the sound of lightning, thunder, storm and rain outside the window.

All the wounds, large and small, heavy or light, have been treated almost, and they don't hurt much.The thirst in the mouth and the hunger in the stomach are also properly relieved due to the credit of the glucose solution.This kind of safety and comfort made everything that happened yesterday just like a spring and autumn dream, and the sound of wind, rain, thunder and electricity outside the window at this moment made Lin Yan, who had just woken up, feel a little unreal.

Jim has been standing by the side, seeing that he is awake at this time, he took the initiative to go forward and wait for his order.

Lin Yan opened his eyes and slowed down a few times, then slowly got up from the bed and sat up straight, lifted the quilt, put his feet down, got out of bed, and put on his shoes.

"I want to go back to my room." After shaking a few times and trying to stand up, he said so calmly.

This is not the room he and Xia Zhaoshi have been staying in for the past few months.Because no one was allowed to enter that room except him and Xia Zhaoshi.This is Xia Zhao's current order, an irresistible death order.

Seeing that he took off the infusion needle without even blinking, Jim frowned and was about to say something, but Lin Yan's gorgeous peach-blossom eyes turned cold. After sweeping it, he immediately shut his mouth sensibly, and stopped talking.

Walk very slowly all the way.Back in front of the room, Lin Yan leaned against the edge of the door and tilted his head to think for a while, hesitated a few times, but finally did not close the door.

"When will he come back?" Lin Yan asked casually, lowering his head and playing with his fingers.

"An hour later," Jim replied solemnly.

Hearing this answer, Lin Yan was stunned for a moment, and for some reason suddenly muttered to himself: "One hour, one hour... God, it's only one hour..." As he spoke, he turned around and left the bewildered man who was frozen in place. Jim, walked quickly into the house and went straight to the bathroom.

He is going to take a shower.Although he knew that with his current physical condition, he really shouldn't get in the water.

But he has to wash himself clean.Otherwise Xia Zhaoshi... Xia Zhaoshi would despise her.

It took him a lot of effort to make Xia Zhaoshi feel that he had become a little cleaner, and he really didn't want to be beaten back to his original shape again.It was too hard to do it all over again, and he was not a very patient person.

Lin Yan soaked himself in the bathtub for a long time.Very hard.Every inch of skin is.Some of the wounds were bleeding again, he knew; but the tearing pain, the more painful it was, made Lin Yan feel more joyful and moved.Let it flow, let it flow, let it bleed... Let it flow out, those places that have been sniffed, licked, gnawed and bitten by that beast should be clean.

Xia Zhaoshi, I, I am not dirty.

Lin Yan closed his eyes, in the hot bathroom with roiling heat waves and steaming steam, while desperately asking for trouble, while praying sincerely, he thought this way.

Four or ten minutes later, Lin Yan came out of the bathroom wrapped in a bathrobe wetly, with new and old injuries, and a pitiful skin that was rubbed red and wrinkled.As soon as the door was opened, a group of fluffy little things immediately rushed to his feet happily shaking their heads.

If it was in the past, then Lin Yan would have bent down to pick it up quickly with a smile on his face, and then put it in his arms to tease and play with it.But today, but now, Lin Yan shook his ankle uncontrollably, and almost exhausted all the strength in his body to finally restrain himself from desperately trying to kick this cute and well-behaved little thing away. Far intolerable impulse.There's no way, after what happened yesterday, he really doesn't want to see it again—at least for a short time, he doesn't want to see this fox face, which is also a canine animal, familiar and looks like a nightmare.

Little Adrian noticed "Daddy"'s unusual indifference and even disgust towards him. He didn't know what happened, so he could only run around Lin Yan's feet at a loss, baaing in extreme aggrieved Shouting, Xuanran wanted to cry.

Seeing that innocent look made Lin Yan upset, he quickly walked back to the bed and sat down, simply out of sight and out of sight, and didn't want to talk to him.

"Woo..." Little Adrian wanted to step forward, but as soon as he opened his front paws, he was frightened by the terrifying eyes of his gentle and beautiful good father who had never seen him before. Frozen in mid-air, one of them lost his balance and suddenly leaned back, fell to the ground clumsily and wheezed and rolled around. He dared to disobey his father's order and act rashly.

"Wow, woohoo..."

Sure enough, Xia Zhaoshi showed up at the door of the room on time an hour later.He has always been such a strict and mature, serious and stern boring guy.Lin Yan was sitting on the edge of the bed facing the door, staring at Xia Zhao outside the door with a very focused and trance-like expression. While he couldn't help but chuckle, he suddenly turned curious: I really want to know When Xia Zhaoshi was a child, from childhood to adulthood, could it be that he has always been such a young, mature, obedient and model?

Heh, thinking of this, Lin Yan suddenly felt that not only might it not be boring, but on the contrary, it was actually a little cute.

He really wanted to know about Xia Zhaoshi like that.really want to.If there is a chance, if... if there is a chance.

Involuntary shortness of breath, trembling hands.Lin Yan himself didn't know where his anxiety and nervousness came from and where it came from.

At this time, Xia Zhaoshi's whole body was not much drier than that of Lin Yan who had just bathed, and his hair and shirt were covered with small drops of water, and his back and chest were covered with wet shadows.It seems that after getting off the car, he impatiently waved away the hand who was going to hold the umbrella for him, and walked out all the way, with eager and fast steps.

Xia Zhaoshi stopped at the door and glanced at Lin Yan in the room first, Lin Yan smiled back at him with a faint smile.The subtext is, I'm fine, don't worry, just deal with your affairs first.

Whether Xia Zhaoshi breathed a long sigh of relief because of this, on the surface no one can tell, only he himself knows it well.

Lin Yan knew Xia Zhaoshi well.Xia Zhaoshi withdrew his gaze and turned his head to face Jim expressionlessly. There was no need to say anything more. With just one glance, Jim understood, and without hesitation, he directly clamped the nails of his left and right hands. He paused for a few seconds, and suddenly With a sudden force, the two shells were torn off completely, including the skin and skin.In an instant, the two fingers were bleeding like blood, and the blood was dripping, which was shocking.

This is the rule.

Although Jim looks normal and doesn't frown, but from the slightly aggravated snorting and breathing that he can't hide, it can be imagined that this kind of pain, even if it can't be compared to the severe degree of heart-piercing, but it is definitely not light .

Xia Zhaoshi seemed to be familiar with this kind of scene, and looked back at Jim coldly as if he was very used to it. The wet cheeks with water droplets still made his originally gentle, elegant, and extremely soft handsome features appear unprecedentedly deep and stern. , cold and ruthless.

"Take off the little finger too." After a while, Xia Zhaoshi suddenly gave Jim such an inhuman and cruel order.

Jim froze for a moment.It's not because I'm afraid, but because this has never happened before.

Xia Zhaoshi is the most disciplined.He made the rules.But now, for the sake of that person in the room... he broke the rules he had set himself! ?

"Do you want me to do it for you myself?" Xia Zhaoshi urged Shura, who was dying from hell, indifferently and gloomyly. Although the volume was not loud, it was thrilling enough.

Jim snapped back to his senses.He gritted his teeth, followed the same pattern, and lifted off the small fingernails on both sides with a bang.Of course, the physical pain goes without saying, but Jim couldn’t help but smile bitterly in his heart: the two slaps he was ordered to slap Lin Yan when we first met, judging from the current situation, I’m afraid that in the future, I’m afraid, it’s probably going to be returned. own body.

Finally, before turning around and entering the house, Xia Zhaoshi said lightly to Jim: "Don't forget, your code name."

Jim.It's not a name, it's just, a code name.A code name that anyone can own, and anyone is entitled to.You are not the first Jim, and you may not be the last Jim. There are many people in this world who can replace you.

Xia Zhaoshi stepped into the room and slammed the door shut.Lin Yan's heart trembled, and he always felt that his heart also trembled violently.He knew that all the anger that Xia Zhaoshi had held back all the way was vented in the sound of closing the door just now, ready to go.

Sitting on the edge of the high bed, shaking his only two bare feet that were healthy from top to bottom, Lin Yan tilted his head with a peaceful expression, and looked at the door not far away with a smile. Xia Zhaoshi's face was ice-cold and his eyebrows were dark.

Hey, so serious.

Lin Yan sighed helplessly in his heart, for a moment he didn't know how to speak, or rather... a little bit, he dared not speak.

The two of them stared at each other silently for a long time.For Lin Yan, this silent and quiet time seemed as long and long as centuries.

In the end, it was Lin Yan who didn't hold back.It's so dangerous, in front of Xia Zhaoshi, he was actually defeated, even losing the cold war.

"I wasn't..."

Before he finished explaining, and before he could say the next sentence "I'm not dirty", Lin Yan felt a blur in front of his eyes, and shadows flew by. He fell heavily on the bed, his limbs were bound and he couldn't move.

Of course, Lin Yan never thought about moving.The raindrops continuously rolled down from Xia Zhaoshi's cheeks and hair, one after another, fell heavily into Lin Yan's unblinking eyes and wrinkled, red and swollen skin. The raging breath of the storm.That was the proof of Xia Zhaoshi's eagerness and care.

"Lin Yan, you can do it, you can do it... You let me get off the plane and even go out of the airport! Then I got on the plane and rushed back without stopping! You have the ability! You really have the ability! Do you know that my life One of the things I hate the most is flying! Ah!? But you actually made me fly for more than 30 hours in a row! More than 30 hours of flying!” Xia Zhaoshi had a handsome face, was furious, and gritted his teeth, “Heh You, Lin Yan, are actually able to do this for that woman Han Yingyue, such a good brother, such a brother and sister! Ha! But do you remember what I said to you before? If so!? That's right...that's right, I said that I will cover you, I will cover you...but what is the sentence before this sentence! Do you remember...Do you still remember? !?

As Xia Zhaoshi said, he suddenly grabbed Lin Yan by the neckline, lifted Lin Yan up like a kite struggling in mid-air, and lifted him up like a crumbling dead leaf on a treetop, looking deeply into his eyes, One word at a time: "I said, you are mine...you are mine. So no one in this world can take your life, including your face, your body, your life, except me, Xia Zhaoshi. Everything...not even yourself."

"I won't allow it. Never allow it."

Xia Zhaoshi is rare, and there are times when he loses control of his emotions.In the past, even if they were ups and downs, and their love was strong, Lin Yan had never seen him have such a lack of elegance, loss of calm, uncontrollable irritability, and hopeless excitement.

"Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!"

Suddenly little Adrian jumped onto the bed from nowhere, opened his mouth and bit Xia Zhaoshi's exquisitely crafted and expensive sleeve, and tugged, tugged, tugging: [Dad, you badass!Don't bully Daddy!Don't hit daddy!Get off daddy quickly!Otherwise, the baby is going to bite you... really going to bite you!I won't show mercy! 】

Both were stunned.

The tense atmosphere that was tense was suddenly diluted.Xia Zhaoshi frowned, but Lin Yan couldn't help laughing.Heh, this little thing doesn't hold grudges, but is quite loyal.

He raised his hand and pinched little Adrian's fluffy and chubby paws soothingly. The gentle force and warm palm contained a hint of guilt and sincere apology.Little Adrian shook his tail, eagerly leaned forward and kissed Lin Yan's smooth and fragrant snow-white neck: [Woo...Daddy finally returned to normal!It was so vicious and scary just now...it scared the baby... woo woo] Then he turned his head and threatened Xia Zhaoshi fiercely: [Daddy is a big villain!Get off! 】

Xia Zhaoshi raised his eyebrows, straightened up and sat on the edge of the bed, with one hand free to hug Xiaoxuehu, with a half-smile on his face: "I protect you so much...why, you really treat this little thing like your own son?" keep?"

"Yes," Lin Yan lay down on the pillow again, smiled slightly, with a deep and soft voice, ambiguous but not hypocritical, "Of course I like the things you gave me, and of course I cherish them."

Xia Zhaoshi's eyes darkened when he heard the words, he paused, raised his hand and patted little Adrian's butt to coax him away, his eyes sank slightly, then he lowered his head, seemingly carelessly, but there was no joke in it, and looked at Lin Yan for a long time After a long while, he said seriously: "You should cherish the things I gave you. But what you should cherish the most is yourself."

Lin Yan tilted his head to look at him, his eyes moved lightly, and there was an unconcealable moisture and emotion in his eyes.

"You're worried about me," after a long time, he suddenly let out a sigh of incomparable satisfaction, stretched out his right hand to take Xia Zhaoshi's left hand, and slowly clasped his hands, fingers intertwined, "You're here, worry about me." The voice murmured Nam, I don't know if I'm talking to Xia Zhaoshi or to himself.

Xia Zhaoshi took advantage of the opportunity to play with Lin Yan's fingers, one by one, each one was like a work of art: "Yes, I was worried about you. If the famous beauty Lin was killed in my Xia Zhaoshi's hands I'm sick, hurt, disfigured... Firstly, I don't want to lose face, and secondly, I don't want to make enemies," he leaned forward and touched Lin Yan's face carefully, his ink-like pupils gradually became dizzy. Hei Ye, "What do you think I should do, Lin Yan. You are so beautiful, so charming, so cute, so confounding all beings... Oh, tell me, how can I not worry about you, how dare I not worry about you .”

Lin Yan tilted his head and opened his mouth, and took advantage of Xia Zhaoshi's index finger that was just resting on the right corner of his mouth. His lips and teeth interlaced and sucked and licked, smelling like a storm: "Don't you hate flying? If it's just this kind of Worry, then you don't need to come back in person." His tone was firm, with a smile on his face.

Xia Zhaoshi squinted his eyes, and poked Lin Yan's warm and moist mouth slightly with his closed index finger: "Are you very proud?"

"Hmm~" Lin Yan smiled and shook his head, took out Xia Zhaoshi's index finger, and from the fingertips all the way down, meandering, kissing the dense, delicate and sticky silver threads on it inch by inch, the corners of his eyes were faintly shining, shining brilliantly Sincerely, "No, I'm happy."

Then Lin Yan suddenly raised one long leg and slowly stretched out of bed, leaned over and lightly touched Xia Zhaoshi's calf.It was a gesture of intimacy that they had been doing a lot for months.Before making love, Lin Yan would use this posture to tease and seduce Xia Zhaoshi, and during sex, if Xia Zhaoshi beat him so hard that he couldn't stand it, Lin Yan would also use this posture to please Xia Zhaoshi and beg for mercy, cute and obedient, docile and well-behaved.

"I was wrong Xia Zhaoshi, I was wrong, I was wrong... I didn't know that Mo Qing would become such a pervert, this disgusting big pervert... I won't dare to do it next time, never again. I will cherish myself, I will protect myself..." Lin Yan admitted his mistake with closed eyes, but still promised desperately, "But...but, I have no choice, I have no choice, I must protect Han Yingyue...I must Protect her, protect... my sister."

His tone was firm, but his expression was a little sad.

"I know, I know...Although my mother didn't say anything, but I saw her many times...I know, she must be very guilty and miss her abandoned daughter, my sister ..."

Children are debts brought by parents in their previous lives.Now that the parents have gone, the father's debt should be paid by the son, and Lin Yan used his own method to pay the debt for his parents.Pay back the debts his parents owed to the innocent Han Yingyue because of love but also because of selfishness.Otherwise, Han Yingyue should have a complete and complete family, a beautiful and loving mother, a happy childhood without being ridiculed or shadowed, a happy life with both parents living in love and sweet children... But she doesn't have any of these, she has everything lose.But she clearly did nothing wrong, it was just that she was born.Because of a woman's immature playfulness and youthful arrogance.

Lin Yan has hurt many people in this world, but only his loved ones will not be hurt.

Even at such a moment of trance, when mentioning parents, Lin Yan was still extremely keenly aware that Xia Zhaoshi's body froze involuntarily for a moment.

"What's wrong with you?" flashed through my mind. Xia Zhaoshi's extremely ugly and gloomy face when he received the call before leaving for the United States the day before yesterday, and then he thought of his reaction at this moment... Lin Yan She has always been thoughtful and thoughtful, and quickly became concerned. After a moment of silence, she asked softly, "...Tell me, why did you go back to the United States this time?"

Xia Zhaoshi couldn't help but looked down at Lin Yan amusedly when he heard the words, his tone was unpredictable, and he didn't know whether it was admiration or admiration: "You really have the instinct of an animal," and immediately took out a incense stick and lit it, took a deep breath, and exhaled the smoke At the same time, he quietly spit out four words: "My father is dead."

Lin Yan was startled.

It was because Xia Zhaoshi did not expect Xia Zhaoshi to answer so simply, and it was because he was unprepared for this kind of news.After all, his parents have been away for too long, too long.It was so many years ago, so long that he almost forgot, his mood and reaction at that time.

He is the only one left, the world is so big and the rest of his life is so long, but he is the only one left, alone... It seems like this overwhelming despair with no way to retreat and nowhere to escape.

The smoke flickered, and Lin Yan suddenly turned over and hugged Xia Zhaoshi's waist from behind, and then gently rested his head on Xia Zhaoshi's shoulders, which were covered with rain and wet.

"Don't talk," Lin Yan was about to speak when he noticed that Xia Zhao was about to speak, but Lin Yan interrupted him with a quick but gentle tone, "Don't say you don't need comfort, you're not sad, you're not sad...don't lie to me, don't lie to me , I know, you are not happy, you are not happy."

"I'm from here, I know...I know everything."

"It's okay, you can vent, you can get angry, you can vent your anger on me...it's okay, it's okay, I know it, I know it best, it's really better to scold people and get angry at a time like this."

"It's much better that way. I have experience, because I do it a lot."

The stiff back gradually softened.Xia Zhaoshi stopped moving, involuntarily relaxing his exhausted body and nerves that had been tense for too long, and let Lin Yan go.But he didn't expect that even Lin Yan, a goblin, could spot the insignificant expression of anger that he had just shown.Maybe he didn't mean it, but subconscious venting is always inevitable.

After that, no one spoke again, and the silence flowed like water.Both space and time become vast in this silence.Until the cigarette turned into a cigarette butt, a cigarette, that was Xia Zhaoshi's last memorial to his father.

"Okay, I'm fine," Xia Zhaoshi patted the back of Lin Yanhuan's hand on his waist lightly, but his tone was extremely gloomy and ruthless, which didn't fit his warm and affectionate intimacy, "But that woman and her son, I cannot take it any longer."

Lin Yan knew who it was talking about, so he couldn't help chuckling: "Okay, it's up to you. But I've always been curious about it, you and Yan Jiaqi are... unexpectedly... Ha, I really can't tell at all ah."

Xia Zhaoshi's expression turned cold when he heard this, and with a little force, he squeezed Lin Yan's fingertips as punishment.

Lin Yan hurriedly comforted him: "Okay, okay, I was joking. How can that pig compare to you... Of course not. After thinking about it, he smiled, "Then, Xia Zhaoshi, you are... like you Mother's, right?Oh, sure enough, boys are more like their mothers.Whether it's appearance, or...here. "Lin Yan's left hand slowly moved up from his waist, teasing and lingering all the way, and finally stopped on Xia Zhaoshi's slightly protruding, strong and hard left chest. .

Even the heartbeat is so orderly and regular, or rather... ruthless.Really, Xia Zhaoshi's personality.

"Yes, there is still appreciation and aesthetic ability." Xia Zhaoshi turned around and raised his hand, caressing Lin Yan's delicate and picturesque eyes and brows, the flawless cheek contour, and smiled lightly, "So I think, she should, will like you."

Lin Yan was stunned for a moment, surprised and delighted, and suddenly opened his eyes wide: "Really? Then someday... take me to meet her?" He was so excited that his voice trembled a little.

Xia Zhaoshi curled his lips and didn't answer quickly. Instead, he roughly pulled off the bathrobe on Lin Yan's body. He quickly glanced at the various bloodshot wounds on his chest and abdomen, swept them coldly, and squeezed them. The hands in the corners of the clothes unconsciously tightened, the knuckles turned white, and the back of the hand showed blue veins: "There will be a chance, there will be a chance──" Xia Zhaoshi's face was vaguely filled with a deep feeling that could not be calmed down and could not be forgiven. With hostility, thick ink piled up in the eyes of black clouds pressing down on the city, there was a turbulent wave brewing that Lin Yan couldn't resist, a violent vortex, warning him with deep eyes, "As long as you give me a good life."

Only Lin Yan knew that Xia Zhaoshi's seemingly rude actions were carefully avoiding all the wounds on his body.This is exclusive to Xia Zhaoshi, subtle and unique tenderness.

"Yeah," Lin Yan didn't mind that the snowy chest in front of him was half naked, and he just jumped forward with a smile and hugged Xia Zhaoshi's neck tightly, and bit his ear: "...you cover me."

Don't cover me because I am yours, but because you cover me──so I am yours.

Later, under Xia Zhaoshi's verbal order that resistance was not tolerated and resistance was futile, Lin Yan was taken out again to have the wound treated again.However, when he came back, he was extremely surprised to find that Xia Zhaoshi was already lying on the bed, soundly asleep.

Didn't change clothes, didn't take a shower.

One must know that Xia Zhaoshi had been on a plane for more than 30 hours in a row and got wet in the rain, but now he went to sleep without changing his clothes or taking a shower... This is unimaginable for Xia Zhaoshi, who has always been obsessed with cleanliness.

It seemed that he was really tired.

Lin Yan took a dry towel from the bathroom, walked over and sat on the edge of the bed, quietly stared at Xia Zhao who was in a deep sleep for a while, and began to dry his hair.The movements are delicate, gentle and careful.Xia Zhaoshi's hair is very soft, but a little harder than his. The color is pure black, and the outline is as deep as a shaved face. The breathing trembles slightly, fluttering the fan and the butterfly together, the movements are gentle, and the picture is quiet and beautiful.Lin Yan couldn't help but be amazed.Only at this time would he vaguely remember that Xia Zhaoshi was actually younger than him.

How and when Lin Yan fell asleep that night, he didn't remember.All he knew was that when he finally woke up around noon the next day, when he turned his head, Xia Zhaoshi was already gone.

The quilt next to him was neat, without any wrinkles, not even residual warmth.The only thing left was the last night's faint, faint, stormy breath.

That's proof.

The evidence is overwhelming.Xia Zhaoshi rushed back desperately, for himself.

[If one day I need you to save me, will you, regardless of everything, come to save me]

Lin Yan finally got an answer that satisfied him.

Blinking her eyes, Lin Yan stretched out her hand and gently embraced the quilt that Xia Zhaoshi had covered last night, rubbed it into her arms, buried her face in it, and took a deep sniff... Well, then suddenly wrapped herself up completely. I went in, rolled around on the big bed, curled up into a ball.

Little Adrian yelled happily from nowhere and wanted to jump up, but Lin Yan slapped his butt and mercilessly knocked him down.

this is mine.It's just me, Lin Yan, alone.No one can grab it, and no one can share it.Even if it's you... little thing, you can't, and you're not allowed.

So little Adrian got hurt again.Blinking his eyes and licking his paws, he said aggrievedly, "Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

【Father is a villain who bullies Daddy!Daddy bullying the baby... is also a villain! 】

Lin Yan giggled under the covers.

Xia Zhaoshi didn't come back until the end of September, and the contact with each other became less and less.Occasionally staring at the computer in a daze, even if Lin Yan wasn't there, he could roughly imagine, at this moment, the bloody storm on the other side of the ocean, the shadow of swords and the light of swords.

As a result, life was boring, so when Lin Yan received the celebration invitation from his high school alma mater, Beiyi Middle School, which seemed to have been so long ago in his previous life, Lin Yan decided to go without hesitation.

The Centennial Anniversary of Beiyi Middle School is extremely grand and at the same time, it should be interesting.