summer like smoke

A stretched Rolls-Royce parked firmly in front of an unopened bar in downtown Philadelphia.It's four o'clock in the afternoon, and of course the bar isn't open yet.However, this is not just an ordinary bar.

The car stopped for a long time and no one got out of it.Because the driver followed Xia Zhaoshi's instructions and drove the car very steadily, and Lin Yan's body was getting tired easily, so he fell asleep halfway through the journey. Jim wasn't going to wake him up.It wasn't until about an hour later that Lin Yan moved his eyes and woke up slowly. Jim looked in the rearview mirror and was sure that Lin Yan had really had enough rest. Then he got off the passenger seat and walked to the back seat to replace Lin Yan opened the car door and reached out to help him.

Lin Yan was full of sleep, and the child in her belly seemed to wake up along with it.As soon as Lin Yan moved his body a little, it turned around inside with a lot of movement.Lin Yan was caught off guard for a moment and couldn't help but let out a low "huh" and groaned, holding his stomach and frowning, unable to speak, let alone move.

When Jim saw this scene, he was startled, and his body, which was hanging outside the car with great restraint, suddenly leaned in, and he couldn't help but asked nervously with eagerness and concern: "What's wrong with you? Is it a stomachache? Do you still want to go in? Why don’t you go back today.”

Lin Yan temporarily ignored him.Of course, I didn’t have time to pay attention to him. I frowned and stretched out my hands to stroke the violently moving big belly slowly in circular motions a few times. When the child in the stomach finally finished the exercise after waking up and felt a little better, I spit out In one breath, without raising his head, he threw a word at JIm: "Let's go."

As he spoke, he didn't refuse the other party's support, and directly took the thick arm that the other party extended towards him, and stepped out of the car carefully.

On the surface, this bar is an ordinary bar that operates at night, but in fact, it has hidden secrets, and it leads directly to the luxury hall behind the scenes, and there is also a 24-hour top-notch romantic place, where food, sex and gambling are available.

To be honest, with Lin Yan's current physical condition, he really shouldn't have come to this kind of place. Jim couldn't figure out why Xia Zhaoshi, who had been protecting Lin Yan like Lin Yan since she was pregnant, unexpectedly agreed to Lin Yan's nonsensical travel request this time.

Of course he couldn't figure it out.Because this is the unique trust and tacit understanding that only belongs to Lin Yan and Xia Zhaoshi.

Now it is the end of the year, and Philadelphia in December is very cold. Lin Yan is afraid of the cold, and especially now, so he wears thick clothes no matter whether he is voluntary or forced.And this made Lin Yan, who had gained a lot of flesh due to pregnancy, look more and more "round and smooth".In fact, just before going out today, Lin Yan was depressed while looking in the mirror: Dizzy, this is too fucking like a ball...

He never imagined that he would become like this one day! ...I can't even think of death!

As soon as he stepped into the corridor, Lin Yan couldn't stand the high heating and took off his hat, scarf, and jacket (although pregnant people can't stand the cold, their body temperature is higher than normal and they tend to get hot).The thick cashmere sweater was propped up in a rather majestic and spectacular arc by the tummy.Lin Yan couldn't accept the stupid, clumsy and pregnant walking posture of propping up his back and taking a figure-of-sight gait. He always put his hands in front to support the bottom of his abdomen, leaned forward slightly, and walked slowly all the way.And Jim has been closely following Lin Yan for a few steps, his state as if facing an enemy is no different from that of an old hen guarding its chicks, his eyes are glued to each other without even daring to blink any more. On Lin Yan's body, he was afraid that if he was not careful in the next step, he would stagger and fall directly, and his heart was terrified.Escorting all the way down like this, Jim felt that this was a hundred times more tiring than any mission he had performed before—no matter how difficult, arduous or dangerous it was.

When I came to the hall, there was smoke everywhere, and the overhead lights were dim.Even though it has become possible to have children of the same sex in this era, it is still not popular and is still a minority; in addition to Lin Yan's exquisite facial features, many people in the hall glanced at him and thought he was the real card of some playboy who was having fun here. My wife, regardless of her pregnancy, came here to catch rape.

Lin Yanguan also doesn't care whether the people around him are surprised or pitiful or sympathetic or waiting to see a joke -- of course, in all these different emotions, there are still the same gasps of air, being severely shocked With brilliant eyes, he held his breath as much as possible (in fact, Lin Yan had already started to regret coming here at this time, these damn smokes!), he moved carefully but as fast as he could, kept his eyes on the road, and finally Kankan stopped in front of a luxurious and expensive VIP box.

Gathering his mind, Lin Yan raised his hand and knocked on the door without hesitation.A few seconds later, there was a burst of noise in the room from far to near! ! !The sound of hurried footsteps and loud, impatient cursing and complaining.Lin Yan couldn't understand and didn't want to understand the extremely ugly rap foreign language.

The door was opened roughly.The man who came to see the door was a tall, muscular white man.Originally, he planned to send away no matter who came, but when he saw the icy and icy oriental face in front of him, he couldn't help but lose his mind for a moment, and then his eyes moved down to Lin Yan's stomach, and gradually Open your eyes wide and open your mouth, with a look of disbelief, dumbfounded.

Since entering the fifth month of pregnancy and her belly has grown out of control, the thing Lin Yan hates the most is that others keep staring at his belly desperately, especially some people's expressions are so... Ahhh!It really made him quite upset!Taking a deep breath, Lin Yan tried his best to ignore the naked and disgusting scorching gaze of the white-skinned guy in front of him, turned his head through the gap on the side, and faced a male figure in the room who was coldly turning his back on him, with a low voice. , but with a strong voice: "Li Yinan, if you don't see me now, then you won't even think about seeing me again."

Because at this time, everyone in this room, regardless of gender, turned their heads to the door and looked at Lin Yan.Therefore, Li Yinan's solitary figure, standing out from the crowd, with his back to his indifference, in these dozens of pairs of unabashed and straightforward curious eyes, is particularly deliberately prominent, strong and distinct.

Lin Yan dropped the words and immediately turned around, but paused halfway through the turn, pondered for a while, and spoke slowly, in a low voice: "This is the first time I have actively spoken to the other party during the Cold War, and it is also the last chance I will give you , Li Yinan. Whatever you want to do is up to you."

After finishing this sentence, he really walked away, and went to a small separate room that Jim had already greeted, and was specially prepared by someone.There is no strong choking smell of smoke, no deafening music, which is more suitable for his current body.

As soon as Lin Yan left the room, the room was silent for half a second, and then immediately the pot exploded in full swing.

"Hey, Li Yinan, that person just now is the real culprit behind the scenes that made your life worse than death and degraded for several months? Damn! I scolded you for nothing before! You pretend I didn't say it, but now I can fully understand you."

"Tsk, you won't be sad because the child in the womb is not yours? Hey, then you should be sad, and I won't stop you. Look at this beautiful woman who is willing to have children for other men, you... Hey, I guess there is really no chance."

Li Yinan kept talking, holding a dice and rubbing it between two fingers, lowering his head, looking back against the light, with a lonely expression.After a while, he smiled faintly: "I never had a chance." Then he threw the dice, got up and went out the door.

When Li Yinan pushed open the door of the next room, Lin Yan was enjoying his dinner.The little guy in his stomach has the same surly and capricious temper as Lin Yan, and he is still big. If he doesn't sleep well, eat, eat, or rest enough, he will make a fuss.It was just past six o'clock in the evening, and Lin Yan had been told by the painful experience of several months that it was time for this little guy to eat.

Lin Yan's dinner is of course Chinese food, all Chinese food.And how much he couldn't eat before, now he can eat as much as he can, with a huge appetite, as if he is retaliating to make up for all his previous regrets.

Yes, even though he keeps complaining that his body is ruined, fat like a pig, and ugly, he still strictly abides by every thing a pregnant woman should do, what needs to be paid attention to, and what is good for the baby. Not left behind.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Lin Yan was not surprised at all, but he didn't look up either.When Li Yinan sat down on the seat next to him in a regular manner, Lin Yan chewed and swallowed a mouthful of soft, glutinous and smooth jade tofu, smacked his lips, and finally raised his head to give the man opposite him a glance.With just one glance, I couldn't help laughing, and made a joke: "Apart from being unshaven, bloodshot eyes, serious eye sockets and dark circles, and ugly face, there is nothing wrong with it. I received a call from Qi Yi yesterday. He was in a hurry on the phone, chirping, quacking, and talking about the horrible state you mentioned, tsk tsk, I thought you were dying, and you were going to die in the next second."

Li Yinan's eyes flashed.In fact, at this time, he really wanted to tell Lin Yan that for the past few months, every day, every night, every minute, every second, he felt that he was indeed going to die the next moment——no, maybe, he has died.

But he couldn't refute Lin Yan.Because maybe anyone else said this sentence, it would appear very ruthless, but Lin Yan was different.Lin Yan had really experienced the dying state of dying, so when this ridicule was uttered from Lin Yan's mouth, not only did Li Yinan not feel the slightest irony, but instead, there was only, and only, an indescribable ecstasy.Bit by bit, densely planted in his heart, it was like a beehive spider web, and finally tightly entangled, his entire heart.

After all, when Lin Yan thought that his life was dying, he finally came to see him.Regardless of his adherence to the almost cruel Cold War principles for many years, and his heavy and clumsy expensive body that is no longer suitable for travel.

He should be content, Li Yinan thought.

Li Yinan didn't speak, and Lin Yan ate quietly.Five or six minutes later, Lin Yan took a last sip of the soup, burped cutely, and finally put down the bowl, chopsticks and spoon in satisfaction, and wiped his mouth with a paper towel.Suddenly, I lowered my eyes and saw that the table was full of delicious food, but within a short ten minutes, it was eaten by myself into a messy leftover, and I frowned in distress and raised my hand to touch it. Rubbing his stomach, he howled with infinite desolation in his heart: little princess... you are too edible!If this goes on like this before you come out, your father, I will get fat to death first!

On the side, Li Yinan took a full view of Lin Yan's undisguised cuteness and thoughtfulness. Looking at it, he suddenly felt that his heart seemed to be blown into a boundless, deep and bottomless world by a gust of howling wind. In the sea of ​​night, floating ups and downs, soft and unbelievably soft for a while, sinking in for a while, it seems as if it no longer belongs to itself in the violent swaying, and it no longer jumps in its own chest.

Yanyan always has a way to make Li Yinan, who has always been domineering and reckless, become timid and timid—unlike himself.Because to this day, even today, he still loves him.Terminally ill, hopelessly, deeply, deeply, in love with him.

Love makes a person lose himself first, and then lose his love.

──No, he forgot again, in fact, he never got it.

Came back from a trance, Li Yinan felt uncomfortable but tried his best to cover it up, intentionally or unintentionally, he couldn't cover it up for a long time, and of course he didn't intend to cover it up at all. He said: "Okay, the two of you eat more than I eat alone, how can you get fat," the bitterness stagnates, and the voice is lower, "Besides, you are like this now, you have some meat on your body, and you are more fat than before. It’s more plump and beautiful.”

There is no time when you are not beautiful, Yanyan.

"Xia Zhaoshi...feed you well."

Lin Yan had a delicate mind, how could he not be able to hear the hardship and pain in Li Yinan's words.But for this kind of thing, he really had no choice, he could only roll his eyes and curl his lips to change the topic: "Hello?...囧, what do you say as if I have really become a pig, and Xia Zhaoshi Feeding," paused, with a serious look on his face, "Okay, that's all the gossip, Li Yinan, let's get down to business."

Lin Yan picked up the spoon again and tapped the mouth of the bowl one by one. The rhythmic and crisp sound made the surrounding atmosphere suddenly become serious and dignified.

"Stop making excuses for your depravity, Li Yinan, if you are done venting, then go back to China quickly. Since "Towards Summer Like Smoke" was released, you have completely disappeared from the public's sight, making everyone Worried about you, guess what happened to you. And your fans and fans, many of them are going crazy with anxiety."

"You are not a child anymore, Li Yinan. Know something and take responsibility, okay?"

As soon as these words came out, Li Yinan was so shocked that he couldn't speak.

It turned out that although Lin Yan was older than Li Yinan, he was always the one who was taken care of in front of Li Yinan.Of course, he was by Xia Zhaoshi's side now, too.even more.

So when the long shock faded away, Li Yinan couldn't help but smiled wryly: "You really are the one who is going to have a baby, Yanyan, now you are becoming more and more like a parent no matter what you say or do."

Lin Yan blinked: "Huh? Is that so? The change is so big? Is it so obvious?" Thinking for a few seconds, "Well... well, maybe, but it's not all because of this little guy. The reason." Lin Yan patted his stomach with one hand, and rested his chin with the other hand to sink into memories, "Maybe it's because Aunt Zhao sometimes talks to me like this at home. Ah, you don't know, Aunt Zhao talks to people really Super courageous! In fact, her tone is not harsh, and her words are generally very gentle, but people can’t refuse. Anyway, as soon as she speaks, you feel that you have to do what she says to be able to do it. That's right. It's just like a queen, it's amazing!"

Lin Yan spit out the word "home" very naturally, without any affectation.Even until he finished speaking such a long paragraph, Lin Yan might not have realized that at the beginning, he had blurted it out so unconsciously.

And this is the original meaning of "home".

The first and final homecoming.It is not a ostentatious existence, it is a private happiness.The world is big and you know me, that's enough.

Li Yinan was numb from the shock, staring deeply at Lin Yan for a long time, an unspeakable pain and unwillingness spread from every inch of his handsome and profound features.After a while, he suddenly asked: "Yanyan, are you happy?"

Yanyan, are you happy?

Li Yinan didn't know why he asked such a question, anyway, he just asked it out of his head.Perhaps, is he still harboring that last faint expectation that he knows is almost impossible?Not to mention that behind that expectation, there is still a trace of dark sin that is even more unspeakable.

Lin Yan suppressed his smile and looked at Li Yinan seriously: "I'm very happy," he answered quickly, raised his eyebrows meaningfully, and said every word, "And then? Li Yinan. I'm happy, so, aren't you happy. "

Li Yinan was startled.

Lin Yan's eyes were pitch-black and his eyes were like torches. He pressed on every step of the way and said, "I'm happy, so, is this the reason for your depravity?"

Li Yinan's heart trembled violently, his palms were sweating, his mouth was dry and he couldn't speak.The dark and dirty jealousy was punctured in such a merciless manner, and the embarrassment, embarrassment, shame and guilt in it were beyond words.

So, the effect is achieved.

Lin Yan narrowed his eyes, and chased after the heat: "Why do you think I came to you in a hurry the next day after receiving a call from Qi Yi? You should know that I am lazy, especially now. And you are even more lazy. As you should have guessed, I very much dislike being seen in the fat and fat way I am now."

"But I'm still here, Li Yinan. What do you think is the reason?"

Lin Yan slightly raised the sexy ending that was full of deep meaning, both affectionate and ruthless, which made Li Yinan's heart beating wildly and sweating profusely all over his body. The excitement in his heart was uncontrollable and incomparable.

Seeing him like this, Lin Yan smiled, and slowly said: "Of course, if you insist, it's because I, Lin Yan, are feudal and superstitious, and want to accumulate some virtue for the child in my belly... well, I admit it , this reason is not completely absent."

Li Yinan's face turned pale.

"But it's really not all."

In an instant, Li Yinan was reborn with added blood.

"I'm not that cold, Li Yinan. At least, I'm not as cold as many of you think."

That's all Lin Yan said.Li Yinan felt as if he was walking back and forth in the abyss of clouds, and collapsed like taking a jumping machine.All the strength in my body was drained, and my mind was empty and blank for a while, and densely packed with threads for a while.His heart beat as if it could jump out in the next second, but he was still afraid and apprehensive, he stretched out and then retracted, hesitating and hesitating.

Lin Yan gave him the answer directly: "Of course I'm not a holy mother. Just because I'm happy doesn't mean I hope people all over the world are as happy as me. But Li Yinan, you—" He paused maliciously, smiled slightly, and spoke softly , looking sincerely, "You are one of the few exceptions. Because I hope you can be as happy as me."

The tormented heart instantly turned into a mighty boundless spring water, which was finally free and flowing; there was no need to make endless guesses for no reason, and no more painful choices in the dilemma.

If there is any regret for Li Yinan at this moment, then it is this happiness that does not come from Lin Yan.

And Lin Yan's happiness did not come from him.

People themselves are not perfect, so they need relative perfection.And Lin Yan's incomplete half was held firmly in the palm of another man's hand, and spent the rest of his life piecing together, polishing, and inlaying to fit.

A subtle feeling of great relief and a touch of bitterness.

Seeing this, Lin Yan let out a long sigh of relief, yawned, raised his hands and rubbed his slightly sore and swollen waist (if that can be called a waist): "Well, it can be regarded as a You can persuade me, in the future, don’t just play and disappear. I don’t have the patience to persuade you a second time and a third time... Of course, even if there is a second and third time, it probably won’t be related to Lin Yan anymore, right? After thinking about it, he said carefully, "I was really happy with you before, Li Yinan. There is a chance...well, let's see, isn't it going to be Chinese New Year soon? Ah, what I mean is Spring Festival, not New Year's Day, if you are free, come to my house and call Qi Yi Wang Yuanshan... and Ling Wang, it's okay, it doesn't matter, it's good for everyone to get together to catch up and play cards. Um, yes, play cards, Gambling here is too boring, I have played it all over and still think mahjong is the most interesting, it is worthy of being the quintessence of the country.”

As soon as he talked about his special skills, Lin Yan couldn't help but beam with joy and joy.

Relief does not mean withdrawing feelings.Seeing such a lovely Yanyan, Li Yinan's heart was still unable to extricate himself from sinking into a soft heart, and he still smiled dotingly as always: "It's no problem for us to come, but..." He lowered his head and visually inspected Lin Yan's position with a perplexed expression. Stomach, with a suspicious tone, "This year's Spring Festival is in mid-January, right? At that time, are you sure...you can really?"

Lin Yan waved his hand boldly just now to express that he has no problem, absolutely no problem──

"Uh……"

The little guy in his belly kicked him hard without giving him face!The force was so great that Lin Yan's face instantly turned pale from the pain.

Li Yinan was shocked, jumped up from the stool immediately in fright, and leaned forward at a loss, his hand wanted to touch but didn't dare to touch, he could only look at the round and plump belly full of awe and shock , the violent movements visible to the naked eye, even in a trance, Li Yinan felt that he could see the little feet of the fetus kicking desperately on the belly... He was frightened, and while rubbing his hands, he whirled around anxiously, saying incoherently: "Smoke!" , Yanyan... Are you, are you okay!? Does it hurt? Is it... Is it... No way! I'm just talking casually! Is it really going to be born!?"

"..."

God knows how much Lin Yan wanted to raise his head at this time, and yelled at Li Yinan through gritted teeth: "Stop yelling! Shut your crow's mouth quickly!"

This sudden and surprisingly violent fetal movement lasted for about eight or nine minutes.Five minutes later, Li Yinan couldn't stand anymore, and was about to pick up Lin Yan and send him to the hospital.At that time, Lin Yan was burying his head deeply in the crook of his arm, following the method taught to him by the examiner before, using small mouthfuls of shallow breathing to resist the pain, seeing this, he didn't know where the strength came from, but he pushed hard Grabbing Li Yinan's wrist, to stop his possible hug in the next second, endured the pain and said with difficulty: "Wait, wait a minute... Huh... Ten minutes, if you haven't stopped, you, you... …Well……"

Then there was another clear and powerful kick on the belly, so what Li Yinan heard was another broken moan.

However, when it lasted for eight and a half minutes, even Lin Yan couldn't hold on any longer, biting his sleeves with his teeth in pain, terrified and terrified in his heart, thinking that he was really about to give birth, the previous severe and life-threatening Fetal movement gradually weakened until it disappeared.

After another five minutes, Lin Yan didn't feel any discomfort anymore, and he was convinced that the little ancestor in his stomach was finally tired from beating after experiencing a world-shaking havoc in the Heavenly Palace, and completely let his father go— ─Suddenly, both of them felt as if they had survived the catastrophe.

Li Yinan thoughtfully wiped Lin Yan's sweat, his forehead was covered with sweat.Distressed and terrified, he asked, "This... so painful?"

Lin Yan thanked him, but took the paper and wiped it himself, closed his eyes, and said weakly: "It's okay."

Li Yinan knew that Lin Yan was afraid of death first, and pain second.But now... for a moment, my heart was full of emotions, and I sighed again.

Pursing his lips, he asked softly: "But the pain is so painful for a mere fetal movement, so when I was born, I couldn't... Yanyan, you... Aren't you afraid?"

"I'm afraid, of course I'm afraid," Lin Yan didn't deny it, but said again, "But there's nothing I can do about it. I want a daughter."

He lowered his eyes and patted his stomach lightly, with a gentle expression as if he had never experienced the pain just now, and added: "I gave birth."

He was born.He gave it to Xia Zhaoshi.

Li Yinan knew that no one could pull back Lin Yan's stubbornness.If he decides not to do something, he will not do it no matter how simple it is; and if he is determined to do something, no matter how difficult or difficult it is, he will not hesitate.

Li Yinan looked down at Lin Yan's belly almost piously but couldn't hide his jealousy, swallowed his throat, and asked cautiously: "Yanyan, I...can I, touch it?"

Lin Yan raised her head when she heard the words, without blinking her eyes or even thinking about it, she refused firmly and flatly: "No."

"..." Li Yinan was a little embarrassed.

Lin Yan asked curiously: "Why are you touching it? This is not your child."

Li Yinan smiled bitterly.You still don't understand Yanyan, although it is not my child, but it is your child.

In fact, Lin Yan didn't try to guess what Li Yinan was thinking at this time, but what he said next, it was a surprising coincidence that it hurt Li Yinan's nerves.

"This is the child of Xia Zhaoshi and me." ──It is more than that, it is the child of "me".

"So apart from the doctor, only the two of us can touch. No one else, no one else."

"You can make another request, Li Yinan, this is really not allowed. I don't agree, it can't be allowed."

Knowing Lin Yan's personality well, Li Yinan sighed helplessly, his brows dull and gloomy. Although he was relieved, he was still unavoidably disheartened: "That's all. I wanted you to stay here with me to the end. At twelve o'clock, we can talk and chat like before, or play cards. But look at your appearance just now... Forget it, Yanyan, you'd better go home quickly."

Lin Yan took a deep look at Li Yinan, thought about it, and shook his head: "It's nothing, it's okay," he actually agreed, "But I can only stay until eleven o'clock. Before twelve o'clock, I have to go back to home."

While speaking, he stood up with some difficulty while propping himself up on the corner of the table, waved away Li Yinan's enthusiastic, ecstatic and frightening help, still holding his belly with his hands, refusing the extremely clumsy back support and splayed steps, all the way Walk slowly to the edge of the sofa and sit down carefully.However, in the next second, as soon as he stretched out his hand, raised his eyebrows, and opened his mouth, his arrogance leaked out:

"Take the card and let me abuse you."