Traitor

The rice bowl fell to the ground, because the carpet under the table was not broken, but the rice grains fell all over the floor.

"I'll do it." Zhou Yuanzhi stopped Liu Hengche's movements, and bent down to tidy up those things bit by bit.

Liu Hengche looked at him with a frown. Zhou Yuanzhi's movements were solemn and slow, as if he was thinking about something with this movement.

What was he thinking about?

The two of them had reached a consensus on coming out, and it was hard to imagine that Zhou Yuanzhi would lose his job because of this... So, was this an accident?

Liu Hengche repeatedly thought about the conversation Zhou Yuanzhi had with him just now.Why do you want to be an actor?What if one day he stops acting?Zhou Yuanzhi...not acting?He probably wants to quit the showbiz to reduce their resistance to coming out.

"Yuanzhi..." Liu Hengche tried to shout, and Zhou Yuanzhi immediately raised his head.

"Huh?" He gave Liu Hengche a smile, seemingly impeccable on the surface, "Look how careless I am, it's all dirty, I'll take it away." He said, stood up and went to the kitchen.

Liu Hengche watched Zhou Yuanzhi walk into the kitchen and rinse in front of the sink, thinking about what he should do, whether to ask or not to ask.

Ever since they came to City A, and since they returned to the show business circle, Zhou Yuanzhi began to become more and more uneasy.In the H film and television base, when Liu Hengche was at his worst, this person who was once Liu Hengche's most solid backing, even if he poured out his life savings and sold his house, he may not even know where he will live tomorrow, and he has never Those who have been shaken are now sensitive and easily shaken.

Liu Hengche thought that it might be his fault that Zhou Yuanzhi became what he is today.

His Yuanzhi was originally Zhou Yuanzhi, without the prefix "his", so that person could always stand and watch him from afar, safe, unburdened, and unobserved by him.It was he who proposed the relationship, it was he who wanted to keep this person by his side, it was he who forcibly had sex with Zhou Yuanzhi, and for three years, he insisted on using layer upon layer of emotion and vows to keep him in prison. trapped.Because of his love, Zhou Yuanzhi has to bear a lot of burdens from now on, he has to bear the impact of coming out on his career, he has to bear the worldly look down upon him, he has to bear the self-blame for both parents in his heart, etc... …

Zhou Yuanzhi always thought a lot, but he made him think more.

Liu Hengche didn't want Zhou Yuanzhi to worry about him all the time, and didn't want Zhou Yuanzhi to sacrifice this or that for him, but he really didn't know what else he could do.He can keep repeating his love and vows, even in front of a dark crowd on the TV screen, he has the confidence to express his feelings for Zhou Yuanzhi. His desire and need for his body has never stopped for a moment, But he just couldn't make Zhou Yuanzhi feel relieved.

What else could he do?

Zhou Yuanzhi came back and filled himself another bowl of rice. Seeing Liu Hengche's dazed look, he asked, "What's wrong?"

"What are you thinking?" Liu Hengche asked.

Zhou Yuanzhi froze for a moment, instinctively trying to cover up: "What?"

"You seem to be worried, what happened today?" Liu Hengche decided to be open and honest, and there should be no more secrets between the two of them.

"No..." Zhou Yuanzhi hesitated for a while, and finally said, "There is something wrong."

"Can't you tell me?"

"I want to think about it myself first." Zhou Yuanzhi said, "I'll tell you when I think it through, Ah Che?"

"is it serious?"

"It's hard to say." Zhou Yuanzhi showed a troubled look, "But I think there is always a way, but I really need to sort it out first."

Liu Hengche looked at him for a while, then sighed: "Yes, yes, but you'd better not think about messy things. If you want to make a decision, you must discuss it with me first, and..." He used Said in the most firm tone, "Remember what I said, the two of us are inseparable."

Zhou Yuanzhi was taken aback: "No...was I thinking about that." He suddenly realized the burden his gaffe had brought to his lover, "I'm sorry, Ah Che, for making you worry."

Liu Hengche reached out and touched Zhou Yuanzhi's face: "Okay, let's eat first." He thought he should trust Zhou Yuanzhi, because he said after the Star Film Festival that he would never leave him again.Since Zhou Yuanzhi will not leave him, he must restrain his temper and possessiveness.

Three days passed quickly, and the crew of "Rogue VS Famous Arrest" officially set off for Biluoshan Scenic Area.

Biluo Mountain has beautiful scenery, flying waterfalls and flowing springs, and winding paths leading to seclusion.The crew booked a small hotel in the small town at the foot of the mountain, where the whole team gathered.Zhou Yuanzhi and Liu Hengche arrived at noon on the same flight. Liu Hengpei flew from another city because he was working out of town and arrived a little earlier than them. As for Yin Moli, he arrived a little earlier because he had to shoot a night scene Arrived late.

After completing the check-in procedures, Zhou Yuanzhi immediately set off to shoot the first scene outside without even having time to eat. Liu Hengche had no part in the scene for the time being, but he also went with Zhou Yuanzhi.

It was afternoon, the sky was clear and blue, surrounded by green trees and green hills, forest birds were chirping, and the sound of waterfalls and rivers could be heard faintly in the ears. Walking in it really felt refreshing.Zhou Yuanzhi took a deep breath and let it out slowly. At this moment, he felt that the burden that had been accumulated for a long time in City A seemed to be thrown away by him in an instant.

On that night three days ago, Liu Hengche didn't stay with Zhou Yuanzhi to stay overnight, and Zhou Yuanzhi didn't contact Liu Hengche after he returned.He thought for a long time by himself, thinking about the question Zhao Youqing mentioned.At the very beginning, Zhou Yuanzhi panicked, because he suddenly discovered that Liu Hengche had unknowingly tied the reason for acting to him.

Zhou Yuanzhi was afraid of this.

It has been ten years since Liu Hengche debuted. Ten years ago, in order to enter the showbiz, he did not hesitate to break up with his family and cut ties with his father. How much hardship he had suffered in the process, who would have thought that ten years later, he would be able to say that he was always ready for his lover? If you leave this circle.Zhou Yuanzhi felt very uncomfortable when he heard it. He felt like a predator who had eaten away Liu Hengche's years of hard work and dreams. It was even because of him that Liu Hengche took the risk of cooperating with Mu Xian and was almost imprisoned.That person's road to comeback was so arduous, and if he made a slight mistake, he would be doomed, and all of this was caused by him...

For a while, he thought that if Liu Hengche was no longer interested in the entertainment industry, he really shouldn't suffer for him stepping into this industry again, but for a while he thought that Liu Hengche's talent should shine in this industry Bright, he really shouldn't be used as a yardstick and target, because he simply can't go as far as Liu Hengche can go, and using him as a target will only frame Liu Hengche to death, and then make him lose his ability to compete.

The two ideas are very different, but one thing is the same, Zhou Yuanzhi thought, he has become Liu Hengche's burden after all.

That night Zhou Yuanzhi didn't sleep well, he tossed and turned until he was too tired before falling asleep, but he had a dream in a trance.In his dream, he saw the old Liu Hengche sitting beside him quietly picking vegetables.His back is bent, his movements are slow, and he looks distressed. Their residence in the dream is not a mansion or villa, but a small room in Yuelin Village.The latest movies and TV series were playing on the TV. Liu Hengche stopped to watch TV after doing some work, with a lonely look on his face.After a while, he sighed as if talking to himself: "I could have been like them."

Zhou Yuanzhi suddenly felt ashamed in his dream.He was convinced that it was because of him that Liu Hengche gave up his career, and decades later, Liu Hengche regretted it, and even, in these decades, he may have always regretted it.

Zhou Yuanzhi couldn't bear such a heavy pressure, so that he was ashamed and wanted to run away in his dream.But when he turned around, he heard Liu Hengche add another sentence: "But because of this, I can be with you for the rest of my life, and I don't regret it." Zhou Yuanzhi stopped suddenly in his dream , and what surprised him even more, then he heard his own voice.

"Yeah, I also think it's fine as long as I can keep you by my side."

Zhou Yuanzhi suddenly woke up from the dream, because of the shock, he sat in the dark and thought for a long time.

He always thought that he could give up everything for Liu Hengche. If coming out might affect Liu Hengche's career, he was even willing to forbear or quit, but Liu Hengche's intimate behavior with Huang Yajun at the Star Film Festival once made him lose his sense of proportion. Liu's mother mentioned that she wanted to find a girlfriend for Liu Hengche, which also made him unhappy for a long time.Because he hadn't shown it on the surface, even he himself thought that he was just a little sad, but now he had such a dream.

Only then did he suddenly realize that he had unknowingly developed an extremely selfish possessive mentality towards Liu Hengche, and it was impossible for him to quit. That's why he was so afraid that Liu Hengche would put his dreams and career on the line. The motivation stays with him.

Emotionally, he has already developed the idea of ​​maintaining the relationship between the two even if Liu Hengche's career is sacrificed, but intellectually, he regrets Liu Hengche's talent and worries that Liu Hengche will be in trouble in the years to come. Regret, unhappy life and even resentment towards him.If Liu Hengche himself still has unremitting pursuit of acting career, then he may be able to act as the weight to balance the balance, but now, all the weights are added to Zhou Yuanzhi, he seems to have mastered Liu Hengche The power of life and death, one end of the balance is empty, but the other end is deeply sunk into the Mariana Trench...

This is the first time Zhou Yuanzhi has such contradictory emotions and psychology since he lived to be 39 years old.He used to be with Liu Hengche, and he only wanted to treat him well, try his best to help him, and stand by his side forever, so he kept giving, but now he found that he wanted so much, asking for a lot, asking for more ,more and more!

Zhou Yuanzhi was really frightened by his own darkness, he called Yin Moli in a hurry, explained the situation in circles, and asked him if there was something wrong with him, but Yin Moli laughed loudly on the other end of the phone laugh.

"Brother Zhou, has that friend of yours never been in a relationship before?" Yin Moli's tone was both playful and envious, "Actually, falling in love with someone is like this, wanting to be nice to him, wanting to possess him, wanting to If you want to act like a baby to that person, you can be very polite to outsiders, but you are very self-willed towards that person..."

"That's capricious?" Zhou Yuanzhi was taken aback, "Isn't that hurting the other party?"

"Please," Yin Moli held his forehead on the other end of the phone, "Where is it harmful?"

"But ah...but my friend's lover may not be able to make progress in his career because of him."

"What if the other party is willing?"

"Maybe I'm willing now, but I won't be in the future."

"Is your friend a lover who doesn't trust him?"

"……No."

"Do you think the decision made by the other party at such an old age was impulsive?"

"...he's a very sensible man."

"Then it's over?" Yin Moli sighed, "Why worry about things that may not happen in the future? If you are worried about Liu Hengche losing his career, then you will always stay in this circle and be him." If you are worried that he will be limited by your height, then you keep raising your height, which is actually not complicated at all.”

Zhou Yuanzhi thought about what Yin Moli said. If Liu Hengche was to stay in the circle, he would stay in the circle. If he was worried that Liu Hengche would be limited in height, he could constantly improve his level and encourage Liu Hengche to move forward.It sounded like something that could be worked on, Zhou Yuanzhi subconsciously breathed a sigh of relief, not noticing that Yin Moli had changed his words from "the matter between his friend and his lover" to "the matter between you and Liu Hengche".

"But there is a very powerful director who said that if he continues like this, he will destroy his career." He thought of Zhao Youqing's words again.

"No matter how powerful a director is, he is not a god. What he said is also based on his own imagination. Do you think he knows Liu Hengche better than you?"

"Probably not."

"It is definitely not. I think the director is nothing more than worrying that Liu Hengche has no career motivation and competitiveness, and that his feelings will become a hindrance to his development, and that he is too influenced by you, so it is difficult to form his own style in acting. These can all be reversed.” Yin Moli said, “To be honest, I’ve heard this kind of thing [-] times, if not a thousand times. Every company says this when they don’t allow their artists to fall in love. In fact, love is so good, it can help people experience life and create better things.”

"But Director Zhao also said that Ah Che is very similar to Zhang Ye."

"Zhang Ye?" Yin Moli paused, "You mean the Zhang Ye I played in "Ning Yun"?"

"Well, he said that Zhang Ye also placed his career motivation in the wrong place. When he lost that place, he collapsed and finally chose to commit suicide."

"...Really?" Yin Moli pondered for a while before answering, "But I think Zhang Ye and Liu Hengche are two people, and there are not many similarities between them. As you know, I am Zhang Ye's impersonator." Or, rather than saying that Liu Hengche is like him, it is better to say that I am more like him."

Only then did Zhou Yuanzhi remember, yes, he obviously knew what kind of person Zhang Ye was.The late star was full of talent, tough personality, elegant and steady, and very dedicated, but in fact, deep in his bones was a rebellious, flying and escaping factor, which he brought from the afterimage of Zhang Ye, an apprentice in the engraving factory. The innate traits that come out will not change no matter what the outside world does.

Therefore, it is true that Yin Moli is more like Zhang Ye, Yin Moli is like Zhang Ye's face, but Liu Hengche is just Zhang Ye's face.

Yin Moli went on to say: "What happened to Zhang Ye's suicide at that time, in fact, the director didn't know, right? What he said was nothing more than his own guess. Besides, will you disappear?"

"No." Zhou Yuanzhi could answer this question firmly.

"So that's what I said, I've heard it and done it."

Zhou Yuanzhi was really ashamed, and Yin Moli dispelled his worries with a few words, and thinking back, he felt that he seemed both unreasonable and neurotic this night.

Yin Moli seemed to have guessed what he was thinking, and laughed: "You don't need to restrain your thoughts and don't feel ugly, even if you quarrel with Liu Hengche, it's fine. Every couple walks over like that. In fact, I I have always thought that you get along too peacefully, which is unbelievable, but now it seems that it is because you have suppressed yourself too much that caused this situation."

"But I...isn't that strange?" Zhou Yuanzhi asked tentatively.

"What's so strange? It's normal to lose your temper with the other party when you're in a relationship. I used to make things difficult for Yin Mozhui when I had nothing to do."

Zhou Yuanzhi still didn't quite understand, and said, "But I'm a man, shouldn't acting coquettishly and capriciously be a girl's thing? I...wouldn't it be disgusting for me to do that?"

Yin Moli held his forehead weakly: "Brother Zhou, are you trying to deprive me of the fun I've had all this time? Or do you think Liu Hengche's acting like a baby to you in the past was disgusting?"

Zhou Yuanzhi was silent.

"Anyway, that's what's going on. Except for Liu Hengche's acting skills, it's not a big deal. It's just that you value Liu Hengche too much, and you magnified it yourself." Yin Moli paused and said, "And to be honest Yes, Brother Zhou, you should have more confidence in yourself, you are a very good person, Liu Hengche is not ashamed to be with you at all, don't always feel that you are not good enough for him."

"... Oh." Zhou Yuanzhi still didn't dare to agree.

Yin Moli sighed: "Don't be like this, please, I have liked you for a long time, are you trying to force me to take your love away?"

Zhou Yuanzhi knew that Yin Moli was joking, so he laughed. He felt that he was really lucky to have a friend like Yin Moli.

"Li Li, you are not like Zhang Ye." He said, instinctively wanted to say these words, "You are braver and smarter than him, and sooner or later you will find a good person to live a good life."

Yin Moli might have been taken aback on the other end of the phone, and then smiled helplessly: "You really want to force me to take love, I don't know if I can beat Liu Hengche."

"I don't care. Whether I can fight or not, I will only like Ah Che. If one day he doesn't like me and we break up, I can leave, but it is impossible to find someone else." Zhou Yuanzhi said, "I will live alone."

Yin Moli was silent for a long time before answering: "You should tell Liu Hengche more about this kind of thing, so that he won't look like he wants to eat me every time he sees me."

Zhou Yuanzhi laughed: "Thank you, Li Li, I feel much better."

"It's good to feel good. I'm leaving soon. Don't tire yourself out. Come to me if you need anything."

"um. Thank you."

After that, Zhou Yuanzhi tried to sort out his thoughts slowly, and slowly struggled out of the feeling of worrying about gains and losses and self-pity. Now he can stand in this green mountain and green water, standing with Liu Hengche.

"What are you thinking?" Liu Hengche asked softly as he walked beside him, his steps steady and powerful.

"Thinking about what happened three days ago, I've figured it out now." Zhou Yuanzhi said.

Liu Hengche's eyes lit up, he could read the relieved expression on Zhou Yuanzhi's face, and he finally let go after three days of suspense. Just now on the plane, he had been waiting for Zhou Yuanzhi to take the initiative to speak, but he kept Neither said.

"Can you tell me?"

"It's related to your acting skills..."

Suddenly, a voice called Liu Hengche came from the front, interrupting their private conversation.

"I'll go over there and come back to find you."

"No hurry." Zhou Yuanzhi said, watching Liu Hengche run to the front, and then found Zhang Manping standing in front looking at him dissatisfied.

"Mr. Zhou," she said after looking around, making sure they were the only ones left, "When you were at the H film and television base, you clearly said that you would not be a hindrance to Mr. Liu, but now you are like this..."

Zhou Yuanzhi shook his head: "I will never let myself be his hindrance." He said, trying to express himself bravely, "Besides, I am inseparable from him, so I'm sorry to make you feel sad because of our relationship." Things are bothering."

Zhang Manping was a little surprised by Zhou Yuanzhi's change. In her impression, Zhou Yuanzhi was a low-key and honest person who also knew how to keep his duty.Just because he didn't seem like the kind of person who would cross the threshold, even though she already felt that there was something between the two of them at that time, she only gave a warning.Unexpectedly, when she saw Liu Hengche again, they already had that kind of relationship.

"You..." Zhang Manping didn't know what to say for a while.

"I'm really sorry, but this is the only point I won't back down." Zhou Yuanzhi said apologetically but firmly.

Liu Hengche walked back quickly, and saw Zhang Manping and Zhou Yuanzhi, frowning: "What are you talking about?"

"Discuss the next arrangement," Zhou Yuanzhi said, "Ah Che, the next filming will be the scene between me and Liu Hengpei, you can take a good look at his acting."

Liu Hengche nodded: "I will."

Zhou Yuanzhi bypassed Zhang Manping and walked to the front. Liu Hengche just started to take a step, then stopped and looked back at Zhang Manping.

"Sister Ping, don't worry about me. It's impossible for me to be separated from him. I know you're doing it for our own good, but I'm not what I used to be. I know how to deal with it and I can bear it." Liu Hengche said , reached out and patted Zhang Manping's shoulder lightly, "Let's get to work."