Shuoyun Feidu

In fact, since he was a child, he felt that his father was the most extraordinary man in the world.

He is the No. 18 son of his father. For parents, it is generally easy to love the eldest son and daughter, the youngest son and the youngest daughter, or the smartest and cutest among the children. He is the No.18 son, not too high or too low, and when it comes to talent, he is not particularly outstanding and can attract attention. Compared with his elder brother who is praised by everyone, he is indeed much mediocre. , so he didn't meet any of those requirements, so naturally, his father didn't pay much attention to him, and he never even hugged him with his own hands. Expect too much.

But although his father doesn't value him, he likes his father very much. When he was a child, he loved to go to his father's palace and watch this man approve piles of bamboo slips piled up like hills. At this time, he would seldom Seeing that he is not noisy or making trouble, he is quiet like a good boy and will not disturb anyone, but his father still does not want him to stay here to get in the way, because his brother is also there.

His elder brother is a perfect man with long black hair and fair skin. He is a rare handsome man. I once thought that maybe when he was like his elder brother, his father would like him, so for a period of time, he worked very hard to read and practice calligraphy, and then ran to his father proudly and apprehensively, showing himself like a treasure But at this time his father just looked at him lightly and said: "...I am very busy." Then he didn't look at him again.

Liar, you are not busy at all.He thought, you are not busy at all, otherwise why do you have time to go hunting and talk with your brother?You just don't have time for me.

Then when he was still very young, he understood that compared with his best elder brother, although he was both his father's children, one was the sky and the other was just the earth. In their father's heart, his elder brother was always the only one. one person.

So he didn't study hard anymore, because even if learning is good, what's the use?His father still didn't care, so he simply became a dude, walking around and fighting dogs all day long, doing nothing - in fact, this was another way of eager to get his father's attention, but obviously, his father didn't care at all.

Yes, it doesn't matter, he is a prince, his father's son, no matter how ineffective, he will still enjoy the glory and wealth in the future, and his father has so many children, why should he care about him, that man, in his eyes Only his elder brother is alone.

When he was 12 years old, he sneaked into his father's palace once, only to see his elder brother being held down by his father, struggling desperately, screaming, and his gorgeous clothes were torn to pieces, revealing his white as jade body. body, while his father, his powerful father, had a naked and strong body, firmly pressing down on his elder brother, and kept hitting that slender body violently. His elder brother was crying and screaming, and the snow-white The tiger's skin was covered with scarlet blood, he witnessed all this, but he didn't know what was going on, but he still firmly covered his mouth with his hand, hid behind the heavy brocade curtain, and didn't utter a word. A little noise, just because he knew instinctively that if he was found out, something terrible would happen.

That night, he had a dream, and when he woke up, his pants were already wet, which also indicated that from that day on, he was no longer a child.

He began to recall his father's strong and bulging back muscles and his bronze-colored strong body over and over again in his heart, and began to secretly call the other party "Zheng" in his heart. Unfortunately, these were completely useless, and his father still ignored him. In his heart, there is no place.

Later, his elder brother himself asked to go to the northern border to guard. His father strongly opposed it at first, and even got angry, but his elder brother's attitude was very firm. In the end, this handsome young man left the palace without looking back, went to the border, and left When he went to see him off, he had a proper smile on his face, but his heart seemed to be bitten by a poisonous snake one by one... Yes, he hated his brother, was jealous of his brother, and was jealous that the other party easily got all of his father's love. Caring, jealous of the other party's indifference to these things he couldn't ask for, he thought, father, in fact, what is the biggest difference between me and your other children, do you know?That is, I am more ruthless than them——

Some things can only belong to me.

When he was 21 years old, his father was on his fifth east tour, and he was also in the accompanying team. On the way, the man suddenly fell ill, and he was busy taking care of him, but no matter what, his father's illness was still a day. It was like a day, when the team arrived at the Dune Palace on the first night, he took out a vial from his sleeve, poured the slow poison inside into a jade bowl containing soup, and brought it to his father's bed, but the expression on his face The pale man just looked at him, and then said: "...you are very good, ruthless enough, absolute enough, and qualified to be an emperor."

It turned out that his father had already noticed... He thought, but he just laughed, not worried, because the poison had already penetrated into his bones, and it was already too late.His father obviously knew this too, and without saying anything, he drank the bowl of medicine in one gulp, and then said calmly: "... Keep my country well, don't let me look down on you." I lost my breath.

He watched the man and the emperor die silently in front of him, but he didn't shed a single tear, he just hugged the cold body tightly and laughed, he thought, this is all right, you are finally mine Now, you will always belong to me...Zheng, you are mine.

After the man died, he kept his funeral in secret, forged an imperial edict in the name of the other party, and announced that he would inherit the throne. At the same time, in the name of his father, he accused his brother of being unfilial and ordered him to commit suicide. Everyone in the world privately said that he was crueler than his father, but he just laughed and didn't care, he thought, what do you know, I've already gone crazy.

After he came to the throne, he overhauled the palace, ruled the people with cool laws, favored traitors, and was an out-and-out faint king. At night, he slept in his bedroom, hugging a white bone intimately, and fell asleep peacefully. He thought, I will kill you! After killing the person you loved, killing all your children, now I want to ruin your world, I want you... never forgive me——

Since you can't love, you will hate me life after life.

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In [-] BC, Hu Hai, the second emperor of the Qin Dynasty, committed suicide in Xianyang——

He was born smart since he was a child, and his father liked him very much. That majestic and cold man would often hold him on his lap, prick him with his beard, play with him, and call him "Chonger" with a smile.

When he was nine years old, he had grown into a handsome young man. Everyone said that his father would pass on the throne to him in the future. Once his elder brother married a wife, and everyone congratulated him. Unfortunately, he had a slight fever that day. He didn't go to watch the ceremony, but when his father came back, he stroked his black hair and said, "Go and have a look some other day, this Mrs. Zhen's features look a bit like you." Clever, but still ignorant, she only knows how to lie on her father's knee, holding the jade pendant on the other's waist to play with, unable to hear the deep meaning in the man's words.

His father often went to his place to talk to him in his spare time. He once said to his mother: "I had a headache, and when I saw Chong'er, it was cured immediately. It's strange." He listened from the side. , just laughed, and buried his head deeply in the man's bosom.

When he was 13 years old, the man received news from other places that he was seriously ill and was dying. When the man left everything behind and hurried back, he was lying on the bed, talking in a daze, making people watch Worried, people in the room were crying and calling his name, but his father just walked to the bed, leaned over to hug him, and called his baby name softly over and over again, but he didn't answer, his lips were chapped , the best doctor can't make him say a word, no matter how much a man whispers, he can't make him open his eyes, he can't talk or laugh, and he can't talk to a man all day long.

Later, as the heir, he died in his father's arms. The man hugged his immature cold body, sitting on the bed without saying a word. When his brothers stepped forward to comfort him, the man only said coldly "...Chong'er is dead. It's my misfortune, but it's the luck of you brothers." After his father finished speaking, he didn't look at other people. He personally put on the mourning clothes for him, and slowly combed his hair. Then he drank everyone away, hugged him by himself, and Xu Xu said: "Chong'er, you have been very smart since you were young. Do you remember that once when you were young, someone sent an elephant, and they didn't know how to weigh it?" How heavy it is, only if you figured out a way... Chonger, people say that you are too wise to die young, if this is the case, I would rather you be stupid and ignorant all your life."——

Chonger, Chonger.

Later, there were rumors that the man was having an affair with his daughter-in-law Zhen. Once drunk, the man looked at the woman with the surname Zhen who looked vaguely similar to him under the lamp, and suddenly smiled and softly called: "...Chong'er."

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In 66 AD, Cao Cao died in Luoyang at the age of [-]——

The night was dark, the lights were still burning, and there was that person breathing steadily and evenly beside him.

Beitang Rongdu rested his hand on his forehead in a trance, half awake, but at this moment, he stretched out an arm from the side, hugged him into his arms, and said, "...why did you wake up?" Beitang Rong Du said vaguely: "I seem to be dreaming..." The man lazily hugged him tightly, his broad chest was warm and firm, and said with a low smile: "...don't dream about others." Beitang Rongdu smiled, yawned, and leaned into his arms: "Okay, I'll only dream about you, okay?"

"I seem to have seen you a long, long time ago..."