Shuoyun Feidu

At this time, Beitang Rongdu naturally noticed someone nearby, so he turned his head to look, and saw Mu Qinghan standing beside a clump of four-season begonias in the distance, Beitang Rongdu was slightly startled, then smiled, and said: "... Is it worth it?" As soon as this sentence came out, the silence seemed to be broken. Mu Qinghan's eyes froze for a moment, as if in a daze, and then he narrowed his eyes slightly, as if he had been stabbed by something. He couldn't adapt to the time, and then he withdrew his mind, his eyes gradually became clearer, the scene just now really made him feel very familiar, and even brought back long-term memories, but the person in front of him was not the one he was thinking of after all...

Mu Qinghan closed his eyes, suppressed the surge in his heart, and then walked forward. Beitang Rongdu took his feet out of the water at will, and was about to get up, and said with a smile: "... After drinking some wine, if you are not still on duty, I can ask you to come and have a few drinks together." While talking, he stood up, but he didn't prevent the round stone he was stepping on. The green moss, together with the water, made it even more slippery. Beitang Rongdu inadvertently slipped under his feet, and suddenly staggered slightly. Because of instinct, Beitang Rongdu subconsciously Taking advantage of the situation, he grabbed the left arm of Mu Qinghan who had just walked to the side, and finally let him grasp a piece of soft and slippery cloth with his hand, and with just a little leverage, he stabilized his slightly tilted body , stood up straight, but at the same time only heard the sound of "chila—" a silk tearing, as if something was torn apart, Beitang Rongdu let go of Mu Qinghan's arm when he heard the sound, and Seeing that there was an obvious tear on the left sleeve, because it was a warm day and the clothes were made of extremely soft and thin material, just now Beitang Rongdu pulled the other party's sleeve so hard that it split open Come.

Seeing this, Beitang Rongdu couldn't help raising his eyebrows, then shook his head and smiled: "... let's go, go to this palace and have someone mend it for you." When he was lying down, he could only smell the smell of drunken wine rushing towards his face. Beitang Rongdu got so close for a moment, and he seemed to be able to faintly feel the heat on his body, and Mu Qinghan suddenly felt a strange feeling Feeling familiar in a trance, but vaguely distinguishable, so I stopped thinking about it, just glanced at the tear on the sleeve, and said: "...No need, I will go back and change it. It's gone." But Beitang Rongdu only smiled and said: "What are you talking about, let's go, I won't waste your time." While speaking, he lifted the hem of his clothes and was about to put his bare feet into the shoes on the side.

The bare feet were still covered with drops of water, and their skin was snow-white, as frosty as jade, and they stepped on the grass wetly, like two white lotus petals. There used to be someone holding a light green skirt with one hand, showing jade-colored legs under the skirt, so familiar, but the person in front of him was clearly a man, but it reminded him of his beloved woman more than once tonight... Mu Qing was heartbroken There was something difficult to understand, and he didn't make a sound. At this time, Beitang Rongdu had already put on his shoes, and casually pulled his hand, signaling him to follow him, with a smile on the corner of his mouth, and said: "... ...What are you thinking? Let's go."

Under Beitang Rongdu's casual pull, Mu Qinghan could only feel a slender, warm hand with extremely delicate and moist skin tugging on his palm, vaguely soft as if boneless, that kind of comfort and smoothness He had only experienced the touch of 'Rong Rong' before. Mu Qinghan didn't know why, so he subconsciously looked at Beitang Rongdu's hand a few times, and saw Beitang Rongdu's hand under the moonlight. A few slender fingers were exposed from the sleeves, they were so tender that they were almost powdery, like freshly peeled eggs, and even the nails were as clear as jade. Something flashed through Mu Qinghan's mind, but she couldn't figure it out. Rong Du walked in the direction of his bedroom, the breeze was blowing on his face along the way, and there was a faint smell of wine coming from beside him, mixed with a fresh breath of human body, Mu Qinghan tilted his head slightly, and he could see Beitang The expression on Rongdu's face looked very tired and relaxed under the moonlight. For a while, the two returned to Rongdu's dormitory in Beitang. : "...have someone mend it."

The servant agreed, took his clothes and left, and Beitang Rongdu said to another person: "Bring some of the wine that the king just drank, and add some side dishes." After finishing speaking, he turned to Mu Qinghan He smiled and said: "That kind of wine is rare, even though your drinking capacity is average, you should try it." Mu Qinghan didn't say anything, and sat down opposite Rongdu in the Beitang. I drank one cup at a time, and while drinking, I talked casually, regardless of what I talked about, it was nothing more than chatting about the sea and the sky.

Although these two are considered monarchs and ministers in name, after all, they were friends in the past, and they were also relatives, not to mention that Mu Qingping is now married to Beitang Rongdu, which adds a layer of intimacy, so their speech and behavior are also similar to each other. In the past, it was not bad, more casual and unrestrained, now Mu Qinghan has something on his mind, and he has drunk seven or eight glasses of wine without knowing it, Beitang Rongdu stopped his glass, looked at Mu Qinghan opposite, Intentionally or unintentionally, he said: "Nowadays, the girls are already married, but you are a brother, but you are still single... Could it be that you have never thought of getting married?" Beitang Rongdu had always felt guilty towards Mu Qinghan, seeing him like this, how could he feel at ease? The man in front of him still had sharp eyebrows and starry eyes, just like before, but the lines between his brows were much clearer What, it is a knot that will probably never be untied. Beitang Rongdu moved his lips, wanting to say something persuasive like 'there is no grass in the end of the world, why bother to love a single flower', but in the end it was only thin lips. It's just a few times, but he didn't do it, maybe he also knows that no matter what kind of words, no matter how hard he tries to comfort him, it's just futile.

Life is impermanent, and many people pass by. Beitang Rongdu seems to have a hint of mockery in his heart. In fact, he is not a person who will feel guilty at all. Even if he causes harm to others, he will I don't care, it's like those people who died in his hands, more than a thousand, if they all felt guilty, I'm afraid they would vomit blood long ago, the reason why he felt ashamed of Mu Qinghan and felt unbearable, in the final analysis , just because he himself is not really heartless and careless towards Mu Qinghan.

Yes, where is it really cruel and indifferent, he once appeared in this person's life irresponsibly, leaving a strong mark, but after the design used this person and achieved the original purpose, he drifted away Go, disappear without a trace, and leave all the consequences to Mu Qinghan to taste alone, just like a sharp and small gravel breaking into the shell without consent and buried in the flesh of the clam, like that The tender flesh and blood must be very painful. It can only wrap the gravel, sharpen it bit by bit, and try to wrap it as much as possible. Although the pain is heartbreaking, it still stubbornly grows into a pearl slowly. , a crystallization condensed from pain... Beitang Rongdu is fully aware of how precious it was that he abandoned back then, piercing this person's heart with blood, but he deliberately forgot to throw it at a certain moment. An affectionate glance, or a word of love, or a smile.

Beitang Rongdu took a sip of his wine, glanced at Mu Qinghan quietly, and thought of something, after a while, he suddenly said: "...you seem to like Jiaqi very much." Mu Qinghan listened , his eyes seemed to be slightly soft, and he said: "...well." Beitang Rongdu paused for a while, remembering Shen Hanyan's words before, and then said tentatively: "If... what this king means is that you , really like Jiaqi?... She is still young, maybe this king is thinking about it, but..." Beitang Rongdu's words were hesitant, and Mu Qinghan was slightly startled when he heard it, as if he didn't Immediately he understood it, but then his face changed, and he realized the true meaning of Beitang Rongdu's words, and he couldn't help but look awed, and said solemnly: "... I never had such intentions! The princess is young But Mu Qinghan is about to reach his thirties, how could he have such thoughts for a girl!"

When Mu Qinghan spoke, his complexion was gloomy, obviously showing a hint of anger. Seeing this, Beitang Rongdu also regretted what he said just now, but after a moment's pause, he slowly shook his head again. Shaking his head, he said in a deep voice: "...this king didn't mean to say these things on purpose, and absolutely didn't mean to doubt your intentions, but..." Beitang Rongdu said, staring at Mu Qinghan opposite him , Word by word: "It's just that Jiaqi is very similar to... that person." As soon as these words came out, Mu Qinghan paused slightly with his right hand, and almost spilled some of the wine that had just been filled in the glass. He was silent for a moment, as if he had thought of something, the expression on his face was bitter for a while, and then turned gentle again. Said: "I once told her that if the two of us have a child, I don't know what it will look like... The princess looks like her, and if I have a daughter with her, it should probably look like this... "

When Beitang Rongdu heard this, his heart suddenly felt hard to understand. He didn't expect that the fact turned out to be the case. Thinking of the day when Mu Qinghan held his fingertips, he murmured softly, "Rongrong, if we also have a child, we will also have a child." I don't know how clever and cute" said, his eyes drooped slightly for a moment, and he was speechless. Mu Qinghan didn't notice his strangeness, and just poured the wine by himself. His alcohol capacity was always tight, and gradually he began to face His face was red and he was drunk. When Beitang Rongdu saw him, he held down Mu Qinghan's hand that was about to pour the wine, and said, "...you look like this. I'm afraid you're really going to get drunk. You've always been light drinkers, so don't drink too much." Drink it." Mu Qinghan only felt the warmth and softness on the back of his hand. Under the light, Beitang Rongdu's hand was pressing on the back of his hand. Mu Qinghan couldn't think of anything weird about the feeling of familiarity, so he just said lightly: "It's okay..." While talking, he poured another glass and drank it slowly. Beitang Rongdu felt helpless, and knew that he My heart must be depressed, so I simply let him go.

At this time, the hall was silent, and the two drank each other for a while, and gradually Mu Qinghan was really drunk, the corners of his eyes were red, and his eyes were slightly hazy. On the table, his head was half down, obviously drunk, so he got up to help him up, and said: "Come on, it's all like this, go lie down and sleep..." Who knew that Mu Qinghan stood up staggeringly After coming, he pushed Beitang Rongdu away with one hand, and sat down on the chair again, his face was flushed, and his eyes were a little straight. I don't know if he was thinking about something. Seeing him like this, Beitang Rongdu hurriedly tried Touching his shoulder, he asked, "Are you okay?... You can't just sit here, go, go over there with me, lie down and rest." Mu Qinghan slowly raised his head, his eyes blurred Looking at Beitang Rongdu, suddenly he didn't know what happened, he stretched out his hand suddenly, and grabbed Beitang Rongdu's right wrist, only vaguely felt as if he was in the clouds, up and down, vaguely meeting The person in front of him had jade-like red lips, skin like snow, and said in a daze: "...Rongrong, you know that I want to be with you all the time, even if we wander around the world...you don't know Mu Qinghan once suffered great humiliation, and was insulted as a man. At that time, I only felt extremely humiliated. If I hadn't cared about my family, I would have risked my life with him... It's fine, but that man is I imprisoned you again, and I couldn't take you back... If I didn't worry about implicating my family, I really wanted to break into the palace to find you, so why would I care about the emperor, the emperor, and the mighty power of the emperor!"

Beitang Rongdu's heart was shocked when he heard the drunken ambiguous words, he knew that Mu Qinghan was really drunk, but he didn't know how to react at the moment, while he was silent, he suddenly felt his wrist tightening, It was already painful to be held, but Mu Qinghan didn't feel it, and only tightened his grip a little bit. Beitang Rongdu felt a little uncomfortable seeing him like this, he knew , with Mu Qinghan's usual temperament, if he was not drunk and unconscious, how could he say these words?For a while, Beitang Rongdu was upset, and after hesitating for a moment, he stretched out his other free hand, gently grasped Mu Qinghan's tightly clenched hand, and sighed softly: "...I You know, you know... Come on, let's get up and go to sleep, huh?" Mu Qinghan stared fixedly at Beitang Rongdu in front of him, his eyes were scattered, so hazy that there was almost no focus, and he said: "Rongrong, you don't go..."

Seeing that Mu Qinghan was so drunk now, Beitang Rongdu simply followed his tone and agreed, "...I won't go, I won't go, okay?" Lifting up from the chair, Mu Qinghan did not refuse this time, and slowly let go of Beitang Rongdu's gripped wrist. Beitang Rongdu helped him up, but his whole body was a little crooked, almost unable to stand upright, so he had to lean on Beitang Rongdu beside him, Beitang Rongdu held him under his armpit with one hand, half holding him and half dragging him Seeing this, Mu Qinghan couldn't help himself at this time, half leaning against Beitang Rongdu's arms, although this person usually did not pretend to speak, but after drunk, he was no different from ordinary people, with his eyes half closed, and then With the support of Beitang Rongdu, he staggered on his feet, but in the end, Beitang Rongdu got him to the bed and put him on it to lie down.

Agarwood was burning in the small incense burner at the corner of the bed, and milky white smoke escaped from the hollow holes. Here, Mu Qinghan fell silent as soon as he fell on the bed. He took off a pair of black boots on his feet with his own hands, and took off the clothes one by one, leaving only the close-fitting underwear, then pulled the thin quilt over Mu Qinghan's body, poor Mu Qinghan is insane at this time Already drowsy, not knowing what to do, just limp all over, closing his eyes and allowing Beitang Rongdu to manipulate, not long after, Beitang Rongdu finished his busy work, and settled Mu Qinghan's good life, and then he sat down on the side of the bed , took a long breath, and after a while, turned to look at Mu Qinghan next to him, only to see Mu Qinghan's nose fluttering slightly, as if he was not feeling well, sleeping uncomfortably, with his long hair loosely scattered on the couch, The Adam's apple was faintly moving. Beitang Rongdu looked at the man's reddened face and watched quietly. He just felt that there seemed to be something soft in his heart. A very subtle mood made Beitang Rongdu not want to speak, so he just It's good to keep the surroundings so quiet. Many past events seem to be out of reach and gradually forgotten, but there are still some emotions that still surface in my heart...

Beitang Rongdu suddenly smiled wryly. He knew that he was actually a sentimental person in his bones. He did this to Beitang Zunyue, Shen Hanyan, and Mu Qinghan. He clearly loved Beitang Zunyue deeply and decided to He has refused to part with him in this life, but he still can't make a clean break with other people. Yue was much stronger than him. From the beginning to the end, Beitang Zunyue was the only one in his heart.

Beitang Rongdu suddenly became a little irritable, and his heart was in chaos. He didn't know if he was being promiscuous. Although Mu Qinghan and Shen Hanyan were definitely not as important in his heart as Beitang Zunyue, they still possessed a certain amount after all. This is obviously unfair to Beitang Zunyue, but... Beitang Rongdu let out a long sigh, the reason why he refused to tell Mu Qinghan the truth that he is 'Rongrong' One of the reasons is that if Mu Qinghan is still unwilling to give up, how will he deal with it?Mu Qinghan is not Shen Hanyan, Shen Hanyan's character is doomed to be that kind of calm, non-intrusive soft emotion, but Mu Qinghan's emotion is extremely strong, neither concealed nor restrained, and Extremely stubborn and indomitable, from some angles, he is even very similar to Beitang Zunyue, Beitang Rongdu doesn't know if he can handle the relationship between them well.

And more importantly, if Mu Qinghan knows the truth, Beitang Rongdu really doesn't know how he should face him. In fact, it can be regarded as a kind of escape... Beitang Rongdu's thoughts flashed in an instant It has been a hundred turns, and there is a sense of absent-mindedness in the corners of the eyes and brows. Only I know the three flavors, and my mind is in a state of confusion. I subconsciously turned my head and looked to the side for a moment, but I heard that my breathing was heavy, and Mu Qinghan's eyes were closed. , his face was calm and flushed, he must have fallen asleep, Beitang Rongdu stared at the blushing face for a few times, and didn't know what he was thinking, so he just sat quietly by the bed for a while, then put down the curtain , got up and went out——

When Mu Qinghan woke up and turned around, it was already the morning of the next day. When she opened her eyes, she realized that this place was not in her own room. Mu Qinghan sat up slowly, feeling a splitting headache, and suddenly saw the clothes Neatly placed by the pillow, the torn coat from last night has been mended so that no flaws can be seen, it was folded and placed quietly on the bedside, and then opened the soft red curtain with hands, and saw the surrounding empty , is extremely wide, and the twelve floor-to-ceiling long windows are half-opened, and the sun shines on the ground from the outside. A delicate court lady is standing in front of the window, feeding a pair of lovesick birds on the shelf, and she suddenly sees Mu Qinghan Lifting the curtain, he bowed slightly and said: "...Your Excellency is awake." After saying that, he went out to call for someone to take care of the grooming. Mu Qinghan sat quietly for a while, pressing his temple with one hand, but he only remembered that he had a relationship with Beibei last night. Tang Rongdu drank, and I can't remember what happened after that... At this time, several servants and maids have come in to help Mu Qinghan change and freshen up, and put some exquisite porridge and rice on the table, please Mu Qinghan use it Well, Mu Qinghan ate some briefly, and felt his headache relieved a lot, he said: "...Is the prince here?" Someone said: "The prince is in the back garden, and the slave will take the adults there."

Mu Qinghan nodded slightly, the eunuch led the way, swept the dust away, opened the way with flowers and willows, and stopped when he got outside the garden, only asking Mu Qinghan to go in by himself, at that time the birds were chirping When Mu Qinghan entered the garden, he saw Rongdu in Beitang sitting under a wisteria trellis, with changing lights and shadows, with a relaxed expression, looking at something in his hand, and he didn't know if it was an official document or something. Miscellaneous books and the like, the faint golden sunlight shone on him through the vine leaves, and he was indescribably leisurely. Mu Qinghan had known him many years ago, and it was not the first time he saw the appearance of Beitang Rongdu. But today I don't know what happened. Seeing this scene, I felt a little weird in my heart. I couldn't tell what it was. A certain familiar and strange feeling flashed in my heart, but I couldn't grasp it. Beitang Rongdu had already turned his gaze over, and said with a slight smile, "Why, you woke up so early?... I thought you were so drunk last night, and you might not wake up until noon today... Speaking of which, you This amount of alcohol is really not enough."

Mu Qinghan walked over, and said lightly: "... I drank too much yesterday." Beitang Rongdu smiled, closed the book in his hand, and joked casually: "Don't worry, I don't have anything else here. A little wine is still affordable, even if you drink it openly, you won't be afraid."