Shuoyun Feidu

Shen Hanyan smiled as if nothing had happened, and said: "... I thought you two wouldn't come back so early." When Beitang Rongdu saw a cup of hot tea on the table, he picked it up and drank it. Said: "Father feels a little uncomfortable, so Gu brought Jiaqi back." Shen Hanyan was slightly surprised: "...Is the emperor's dragon body in trouble? I remember that the emperor's body is always very strong." Tang Rongdu smiled indifferently, put down the teacup in his hand, and said casually, "That's not the case, it's just a headache. If my father is really sick, how can I come back? Naturally, I have to serve the sick in the palace." As he said that, he heard Beitang Jiaqi say: "Father, grandfather gave Luer a lot of presents, one for each of you." Shen Hanyan touched the top of her daughter's head with a smile, and asked, "What are the benefits? Things? Show daddy." After hearing this, Beitang Jiaqi was going to ask someone to bring in all the gifts that Beitang Zunyue rewarded, but Beitang Rongdu stopped her and said, "Girl, let us give you gifts Let's see later, you go to eat some snacks first, I have something to say to your father, okay?"

Although Beitang Jiaqi was still young, she was very well-behaved and obedient. Hearing the words, she agreed, and went out by herself. : "... It's not long before the Chinese New Year. You have made all the arrangements, and you have done some sacrifices and other things. When the time comes, you have to go to Yongfang Palace to sacrifice your mother... Also, as the Chinese New Year is approaching, These big and small expenses in the palace--" Just as Beitang Rongdu said this, Shen Hanyan's face changed slightly, and after hesitating for a moment, he interrupted Beitang Rongdu's words and said: "Beitang, there is one thing... ...I have to tell you." Beitang Rongdu was stunned, and said: "What's the matter? You just say it." Shen Hanyan pursed his lips, then considered his words, and said slowly: "A while ago It was snowing and cold, and there were mice who couldn't stand the cold, so they sneaked into some palace rooms. One day, the person who cleaned Yongfang Palace found...the wife's body was gone, and there were only clothes and human figures on the jade bed. There was a face-fixing bead on the ground... I figured it must be a mouse, somehow flicked the bead out of Madam's mouth, and the result was..."

When Beitang Rongdu heard this, he seemed to be stunned. Seeing this, Shen Hanyan thought he was in extreme pain, and hurriedly comforted him: "At that time, I ordered someone to collect my wife... and seal it in the altar. In the future, it can still be used as it is." Consecrator, Beitang, don't be too sad..." As she spoke, her elegant brows frowned slightly, and she said slowly, "Actually, I should have told you about this a long time ago, but I am afraid that you will be sad, So I kept it a secret for the time being." Looking at Beitang Rongdu's expression, he saw that his face was flat, like a sculpture, and there was no clue at all, so he persuaded softly: "Although this matter can be regarded as underworld. People are not careful, but after all, there are unpredictable things, no one knows that such a thing will happen, and now the New Year is approaching, it is ominous to kill, Beitang, I think it is..."

"...Oh, that's it." Beitang Rongdu's expression suddenly moved, and then he said lightly, his face seemed to be quite calm, no different from usual days, Shen Hanyan saw it , was taken aback, and said: "Beitang..." Beitang Rongdu lowered his head to drink tea, and said: "I know, those people didn't mean it, after all, natural disasters and man-made disasters, no one can protect... what else is there?" Huh?" Shen Hanyan couldn't turn the corner for a while, and replied in a low voice: "No...it's just Beitang, why do you..."

"It's nothing to Gu, it's just that people can't be resurrected after death. Although the importance of the mother's body as what she left behind for Gu is self-evident, in the final analysis, it is still just a shell, just a body. The skin, since it is really impossible to keep it, there is no other way, after all, it has already happened... More importantly, that is just a shell made of flesh and blood, not her, no." Beitang Rongdu said Xu Xu was talking, as if he was talking about something else. Shen Hanyan looked at him with such a calm expression, but felt a little confused and puzzled in his heart. The appearance made him a little unbelievable. No one knew Beitangjia's position in Beitang Rongdu's heart better than him. He even accidentally saw through Beitang Rongdu's deepest secret in his heart. Tang Rongdu secretly loves his biological mother, so he hardly believes that Beitang Rongdu's expression at this moment is the real emotion... Beitang Rongdu turned his face slightly, looked at the young man, and said: "... Why do you look at Gu like this?" Shen Hanyan couldn't believe it and said: "Beitang, you...are you not angry? Madame's body, madam..." While speaking, after the death of Beitangjia, the young Beitang Rongdu Station The expression in front of the corpse, after so many years, Shen Hanyan still felt as if it was in front of his eyes, clearly visible. At this moment, for some reason, Shen Hanyan suddenly felt a strange melancholy, and he said softly: " I originally thought that you would be furious, and even extremely sad, but..." The handsome young man in front of him, with such a calm and calm appearance, such a calm and unfluctuating tone, is like the woman who has been installed in the jade altar It's not his beloved mother, the woman he has always cared about and never forgets.

That was a long time ago. Shen Hanyan still remembers Beitang Rongdu's protection of Beitang Jia at that time. Those smiles, those warm scenes, and those actions of caring and protecting were once enviable. He knew clearly I remember, but what I saw with my own eyes at this time made Shen Hanyan a little puzzled. Although the man in front of him, although his appearance was still vaguely visible, he was right from the past, but his heart was so good. Where has the image changed... Beitang Rongdu seemed to have guessed what he was thinking, and said, "Why, Han Yan, do you think Gu's reaction is strange? Or even...indifferent?" Shen Hanyan Silently, when Beitang Rongdu saw this, he put his hands in his sleeves and said quietly: "Han Yan, people in my generation are not ordinary people. Of course, we are still mortals with flesh and blood, but we can no longer use the The eyes of ordinary people are used as the standard to measure people like you and me." When Beitang Rongdu said this, an arm inadvertently rubbed across his waist, and touched a hard metal lump through his clothes. Beitang Rongdu immediately After a pause, he shifted his gaze slightly, and continued: "Some things should be taken lightly. If a person sits in such a position, his heart will always change. Many things can be ignored. His will can no longer be shaken."

The words Beitang Rongdu said were heard by Shen Hanyan, and he couldn't tell what kind of feeling it was. The young man looked at Beitang Rongdu quietly, not knowing what he should say at this moment. OK, or is it better to say nothing?In fact, he completely agrees with Beitang Rongdu's statement intellectually, but in his heart, there is a faint sense of loneliness. Beitang Rongdu's once so sincere feelings can now be treated with a normal heart. What is it like in the heart of a person?

Shen Hanyan was silent for a while, as if there was some kind of indescribable slight pain in his heart, then he walked to Beitang Rongdu's side, stretched out his hand to caress Beitang Rongdu's delicate eyebrows, and said in a low voice: "Beitang Rongdu , time is a very strange thing, it can change many things, and it will also deprive you of the treasure that fades in your eyes, but in my eyes is incomparably precious, Beitang, sometimes I am really afraid that you will gradually not care about some of the feelings you once had. , what you once said to me... Maybe you are right, people in my generation are no longer ordinary people, but no matter how time goes by, I still can't give up those things that belong to ordinary people one by one... ..."

The young man's tone was light, but there was a hint of sadness in it. Beitang Rongdu raised his eyes slightly, and met a pair of clear eyes like black mercury, which seemed to be full of stars, but seemed to be like Wudi was covered with a layer of fear of the unknown things in front of him, but no matter what, he still couldn't hide the innate beauty. Beitang Rongdu moved his lips, just about to say something, Shen Hanyan But he has already gently pressed his lips with his white index finger, signaling him to listen to himself first: "...Beitang, tell me, do you have any regrets, is there anything you can't let go of?" Beitang Rong Du paused for a moment when he heard the words, then exhaled lightly, and vaguely said: "Yes..." After hearing this, Shen Hanyan didn't continue to ask him what those things were, just smiled slightly, and stared deeply at Rong Dufeng in Beitang. With a beautiful face, he said: "I also have...Beitang, maybe what you said is right, but I will never forget that a long time ago, you and I used the needle to practice hidden weapons. Shooting water birds with a slingshot, we galloped on the grass on horseback, and played in the stream. I was only a teenager at that time, and I often sat under the grape arbor with you and took a nap in the afternoon, and the surrounding birds were chirping... …Until now, I still remember every word you said to me. When I get old, sick, and my memory is no longer good, these memories will never disappear in time and never come back. "

The surroundings were quiet, and for a split second, Beitang Rongdu's mind was shaken. Looking at the young man in front of him, the other party's eyes were so clear and transparent, revealing undisguised emotions. Today, more than ten years later, he is still the same as he was back then. It was exactly the same when they met for the first time. At this moment, he suddenly understood that in the dark, what was lost from his fingers would never be there again. The Beitang Rongdu in his hometown has changed, what has changed has changed forever, and what has not changed will never change. Fate is unpredictable, but so, an indescribable feeling faintly hit his heart. He knew that he had lost his life. A gift worthy of preservation and commemoration, for some reason, looking at Shen Hanyan's handsome face in front of him, and the gorgeous and luxurious scenery around him, he couldn't help feeling a bit melancholy, and held Shen Hanyan's hand for a while , Said: "...Han Yan, what Gu said to you will not change, and what Gu promised you will not change. You have been with Gu all the way here. To Gu, you are not only Being a partner, but also a friend, a confidant, a brother, a relative, such feelings cannot be erased no matter what."

Shen Hanyan caressed Beitang Rongdu's bright and clean face. He didn't know what he was thinking in his heart, but he just smiled faintly on his face, nodded and said, "I know, I know everything...Beitang, don't worry I don't have that need, I just tell you some things in my heart, nothing else, you are my closest person, some worries and uncomfortable things in my heart, of course, I will only talk to you Speak it out, but after you say it, it’s nothing to worry about, and you don’t have to take it to heart.” Shen Hanyan’s fingertips slid across Beitang Rongdu’s slightly raised eyebrows: “You’ve heard these things before. That's all, don't worry about me, look, what I said seems to be envious of the lives of ordinary people, right? I envy all living beings, I think they live a stable life and have strong human feelings, but when I really say it, compared to you I, they are really much more pitiful. While enjoying the endless scenery, many powerful people will have a sigh similar to what I just said. This will actually make people feel very 'sour'. After all, we have held power for many years. When enjoying all the glory and wealth, but start to envy other people's corn bread rice, the parents are short-lived, what is this, do you really want to take all the cheap things in the world? I don't know that when we are sad , but there are countless people who spend their whole lives fighting, just to get a taste of what it's like to live like you and me... Beitang, I am content."

The young man's warm fingers gently caressed his face, bringing a warm breath. Beitang Rongdu didn't speak, but slowly held that hand, closed his eyes slightly, and slowly rubbed his cheek against it, sinking Han Yan looked at Beitang Rongdu peacefully, with a soft look in his eyes, and said softly, "Beitang, tell me, what are you thinking in your heart right now? What are you yearning for?" Beitang Rongdu Hearing this, he opened his eyes, the eyes were slightly revealing, and there was a faint ambition hidden in them. He looked straight into Shen Hanyan's dark eyes, and said word by word: "The one I yearn for... soars into the sky, and the whole world Above tens of millions, power and wealth, fame and fortune are all you need, no one can make you do what you don't want to do, and there is no restraint from then on, and there is nothing that can make you sad."

Shen Hanyan paused for a moment, then smiled, and said, "You are the heir apparent of Daqing now, what else can you not do..." The young man said, gently combing Beitang Rongdu's hair with his fingers. At the end of his hair, he said: "Beitang, I'm actually not worried, because if you gradually forget some things in the future, then I will tell you everything one by one. If you arrive Later, I don't like to smile, so I can share all the smiles with you... I'm not worried, and I'm not afraid of anything."

Beitang Rongdu let out a breath slowly, and said with a smile, "Yes...you're right." The two talked for a while, Beitang Rongdu was a little tired, and he was about to go back to his bedroom, Shen Han Yan sent him outside, but when he returned to the Nuan Pavilion, he found that there was another person inside. The person was wearing a eunuch's uniform, but he looked very strange, and he was walking out from the side. But how does it look like a eunuch serving people?Shen Hanyan was startled, and then seemed to know the identity of this person, his face changed slightly for a while, and he asked nervously: "...Why are you here?" The man had ordinary features, his tone was very flat, and he sneered "...Why, why can't I come? It's just a sudden inspiration, so I just came to the East Palace for a walk. I didn't expect that just as I was about to show up to see you, the kid came, and I saw you and him two You and I have a lot of tenderness and sweetness..."

Shen Hanyan's face was not very good, and he didn't say anything. He knew that with the opponent's martial arts, if he had concealed himself properly in advance, Beitang Rongdu should not be able to detect it.Just as he was thinking about it, the man was already sitting in the same place that Rongdu was sitting in Beitang, and said: "When you went to Unsheltered Fort, you knew what you were doing, but you never thought that after a long time, you really fell in love with him. That Beitang Rongdu, I didn't quite understand why you fell in love with him before, but now it seems that this person does have the capital to coax you into obsession." Shen Hanyan opened his mouth, but still didn't say anything When he saw something to refute the other party's words, the man saw him and sneered disdainfully: "You are nervous about him!... However, I also admit that this person is indeed not a mediocre person. Having such a son, it's a pity that I am ambitious enough, even if I don't make a move, hehe, I'm afraid I will in the future... But now, I want to remind you, no matter how much you love that Beitang Rongdu, don't I forgot what I did and what I was supposed to do!"

Shen Hanyan bit her lower lip bit by bit, and said: "Don't worry, I haven't forgotten, I know what I should do...you, don't worry." The man said coldly: "It's good that you know, but I I also promise you that in the future, Beitang Rongdu will be yours, and I will not do anything to him. Although this person is against me, but to be fair, it is no wonder that you are obsessed with Beitang Rongdu Du, this person is not an ordinary person, no matter his appearance, means, or martial arts power. In addition, you have been with him day and night for more than ten years, so it is inevitable to be tempted. Besides, he seems to treat you well? I'm not demanding, hehe... Don't worry, I will do what I promised you, and how you want to get along with him in the future is all up to you." Shen Hanyan was silent, and soon she raised her head, faintly He laughed and said: "Calm and tolerant, not demanding? This is where I know that he doesn't love me deeply."

Speaking of this, Shen Hanyan showed a wry smile, but his expression was still indifferent, only there was an undisguised melancholy in his eyes, and he said softly: "I only know that for him, I have always been very concerned. I am very concerned about what he said and what he did... And the reason why he treats me calmly and tolerantly, he is not demanding, and he will not be angry if I do something wrong. What is wrong with me? If he doesn’t do well, he won’t be picky, in the final analysis, it’s just that he doesn’t care much.” Shen Hanyan’s words seemed to have penetrated some kind of secret: “What kind of temperament is he, I can say that The most clear thing is that if he really loves me deeply, then even if I inadvertently say something wrong that makes him feel hurt, he will definitely be petty and care about what I did to make him feel hurt. Ignoring the little things that have been hurt, he will also get angry and lose his temper, and refuse to forgive me... But, he has never done this before. In the final analysis, it is just because what I say can't affect his emotions. Things can't hurt his heart, he can care about, value and like me Shen Hanyan, but after all, he doesn't have the word 'love'. "

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The new year is approaching, and the inside and outside of the imperial city are already looking festive. Beitang Rongdu is sitting in the warm pavilion, with a white fox fur mattress under his body, a thick warm burden on his lap, and scattered stars on the outside. Xiaoxue, the entire Nuan Pavilion was peacefully silent.

The room is extremely warm, the flames in the brazier are constantly licking the charcoal, occasionally there will be one or two small "cracking" sounds, and at the same time, a warm breath spreads to every corner of the warm pavilion. There are not many furnishings around, but Most of them are some elegant and simple things, neatly arranged without losing the nobleness. Beitang Rongdu sat on a seat, leaning back comfortably, wearing a purple gold crown on his head, wearing a purple suit on his body, and the clothes were full of space. Decorated with complicated patterns, sitting quietly like this, it seems that the whole person has melted into a purple cloud of the same color.

At this time, Beitang Rongdu was holding a bamboo slip from the Eastern Han Dynasty in his hand, playing with it carefully and looking at it carefully. There were also a few antiques for him to enjoy on the small table beside him. Not long after, Beitang Rongdu put it down. Bamboo slips, put your hands flat on the edge of the handrails on both sides, close your eyes slightly, as if you are closing your eyes and resting your mind, the whole Nuan Pavilion is very quiet, only the crackling sound of burning charcoal from the brazier from time to time.

Suddenly there were footsteps approaching outside, and an eunuch outside the door said: "...Your Highness, Master Mu has arrived." Beitang Rongdu opened his eyes and responded, and soon, Mu Qinghan walked in with a cool feeling, Yue Putting on a windshield vest over the long white fox-fur coat, he said: "...the car to Fahua Temple is ready, Beitang, when are you going to leave?" Putting away the bamboo slips spread on his lap, he said, "Oh, are you ready...then let's go now." Saying this, he stood up, straightened his clothes, and walked out with Mu Qinghan, not for a while , a carriage slowly came out from the south gate of the East Palace, surrounded by two hundred guards at the front and rear, the doors were sealed, and the windows on both sides were hung with bright yellow curtains.

Beitang Rongdu stretched out his hand to lift a corner of the thick curtain, looked out of the car window, and looked at the people along the way. When people saw this specially decorated carriage, they would know that it was the prince's carriage, so they naturally respected and avoided it. At this time, Beitang Rongdu sat On the soft seat in the carriage, looking at these respectful ordinary people, he was in a daze for a moment. He knew that after being reincarnated for nineteen years, his own destiny was truly in his own hands.I don't know why, at this moment, I suddenly thought of the days in my previous life. At that time, I was just an ordinary person. Although my family was rich, I was no different from other people in essence. A brothel, a glass of wine, a beauty, a few simple conversations, and then two disorganized bodies in the room, without any other goals, just pass by like this, to pass the short life away, not knowing the meaning of life Meaning, and I don't think about what will happen tomorrow... Recalling this point, Beitang Rongdu sighed softly, and put down the bright yellow curtain.

The carriage rumbled along, and then arrived at Fahua Temple, where the car stopped, Mu Qinghan got off his horse and opened the door, Beitang Rongdu sat in it, saw that he opened the door, couldn't help smiling, got up calmly, and got out of the car At this time, the sporadic snow that was still floating before has stopped, and the entire Fahua Temple has been closed ahead of schedule, and no other pilgrims will be received for the morning. Beitang Rongdu entered the temple and offered incense. , and then took the new lock of the youngest son Beitang from the abbot, and handed it to Mu Qinghan beside him.

For a moment, there were no other idlers in the hall, so Beitang Rongdu took another three pillars of long incense and lit it. After paying respects seriously, he turned his head and said to Mu Qinghan who was standing quietly beside him: "...Since you are here, Now, why don’t you worship the Buddha as well.” Mu Qinghan smiled slightly when he heard the words, and said, “Okay.” He took the long incense and bowed three times, then inserted it into the incense burner, Beitang Rongdu smiled, Ask casually: "Just now worshiping the Buddha, what did you ask for?" Mu Qinghan turned around and looked at him, and said in a flat voice: "...what I ask is to hope that you will be safe and comfortable for the rest of your life. Be happy and worry-free." Beitang Rongdu suddenly laughed lowly after hearing this, looked up at the tall and solemn Buddha statue in the hall, and said: "Everyone likes to burn incense and worship Buddha, praying for the blessing of God and Buddha, in fact, it is worshiping Buddha, why not He said that he wanted to have a psychological sustenance for himself, because in this world, there are always things that he cannot solve, and there is a fate that seems irresistible to manpower...Qinghan, look, there are people in this world with hundreds of houses , servants are in groups, and some people don't even have a place to hide, and they don't even have a second meal. Everyone seems to be dominated by fate, and they are tossed around by it at will, making their fortunes unpredictable..."

On the tall lotus platform, the Buddha's face showed compassion, and his treasure was solemn. Beitang Rongdu said, with his hands folded in his wide sleeves, with a leisurely attitude, as if he was talking to himself, and his voice echoed In the empty hall: "However, if a person stands taller, then to a large extent, he can almost get rid of these things. One day, he will control his own destiny... Therefore, the orphan wants to Keep going up, as long as you haven't reached the highest point, you can't stop moving forward, and you will never look back."

As soon as the words fell, one hand was already holding Beitang Rongdu's forearm, Mu Qinghan looked calm, and said: "...Beitang, no matter what, I will always help you from the side until you get what you want in the future Wish." He paused, his tone could not hide the hatred: "... that person bullied his own flesh and blood like this, I will help you wash away the humiliation you suffered in the past, and you will never suffer again This person is humiliating." Beitang Rongdu hesitated for a moment, and then said lightly: "For so many years, my father has been alone...he is always sincere. No..." At this point, I didn't know how to say it, so I swallowed it without mentioning it. Mu Qinghan took a deep breath, forced himself to suppress the resentment and pity in his heart, and gently patted Beitang Rongdu's face. Shoulder: "I know, I know...Beitang, don't think about it anymore, no matter what happens in the future, it will gradually get better..."

Beitang Rongdu nodded slightly, without saying a word, the two stood quietly facing each other for a while, after a while, Beitang Rongdu stretched out his hand, stroked the man's temple hair, and said: "Qinghan, you are not young now , if you can, find a virtuous and considerate girl to start a family... Don't blame Gu for always bringing up old things, after all, you know that Gu can't give you any promises, really."

With a calm expression, Mu Qinghan raised his hand to grab Beitang Rongdu's hand that was caressing his ear, fixed his eyes on Beitang Rongdu's flawless handsome face, and said in a low voice, "Since you have my heart Clearly, then other things are not important... Besides, I can't pretend to be someone else in my heart, so why should I delay an innocent woman and waste her life."