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Although Gu Zhuo is unfamiliar with the name M, he has seen many electrotherapy scenes in movies.

Just by looking at that scene, one can feel the pain of the healer.Not to mention that Deng Chao is like this now, and when he describes it in detail, the grief and regret in his eyes are extremely glaring.

Gu Zhuo turned his gaze to the iron door again, the oxygen around him seemed to be emptied suddenly, and every inch of the cell felt a sense of suffocation due to lack of oxygen.

He couldn't imagine Song Rin lying on that bed and being pushed out, and he didn't dare to think about it.

Gu Zhuo took a heavy and deep breath, and he promised with difficulty: "I won't, I won't let him go to the point where he needs to do this."

Listening to Gu Zhuo's promise, Deng Chao didn't say anything. He had seen too many vows like this, but there were very few of them that could be fulfilled and fulfilled in the end.

Seeing, hearing, and seeing a lot, naturally there will be no fluctuations.

Deng Chao hummed politely, and then said: "Go ahead, but let me remind you first, from here you will go down to the inpatient department. There are some places that I don't have permission to enter. , I can’t predict what scenes will be encountered inside, but in short, you have to be mentally prepared and don’t make loud noises, after all, this is a psychiatric department.”

The last sentence reminded Gu Zhuo, he immediately came back to his senses, collected his emotions, and followed Deng Chao to continue walking down after a low reply.

500 million has already nestled into Deng Chao's arms and fell asleep, with his whole fluffy head buried in the padded jacket. Deng Chao stopped halfway because he was afraid that she would fall.

Deng Chao fished out 500 million yuan from the cotton padded clothes, and held her stomach and head to Gu Zhuo: "Please give me a hug first, I'll put away the waist rope."

Looking at the half-closed and whimpering puppy in front of him, Gu Zhuo was a little at a loss, just like when Gu Qing pushed her son into his arms.

Gu Zhuo made gestures in the air a few times, and asked embarrassingly, "This... how do I hug it?"

"Hold her armpits with one hand, and wrap her buttocks with the other," Deng Chao handed over, "Don't worry, I wiped her butt, there won't be shit."

"Ah good."

Gu Zhuo responded, and took the 500 million from his hand. The 500 million should be a puppy that was born not long ago. It was just a small lump in his hand, and there was not much meat on his body. Gu Zhuo could still touch it when he held it. to the bone under her skin.

But the strong and powerful heartbeat is beating in the palm of the hand, passing through the thin skin, showing the power of life.

500 million is very obedient, she tentatively stuck out her tongue and licked Gu Zhuo's wrist, then tilted her head, leaned on her wrist bone, and looked at you cutely with those moist eyes like black jewels .

At that moment, Gu Zhuo was seen by her, and his heart suddenly softened. He couldn't help stroking her hair, and asked, "How old is 500 million?"

Deng Chao unzipped his clothes and replied, "Less than two months."

"So small?" Gu Zhuo was a little startled, "Is this the one you hugged from birth?"

Deng Chao tightened the waist rope of the inner lining, and replied: "No, I only hugged it in a month and a half, and it has not been two weeks yet."

Gu Zhuo hummed in understanding, and he slapped 500 million against his hair: "It's still so small, is it difficult to take it with you?"

"It's not difficult to carry. Teddy is very clingy and smart. As long as you recognize the owner, it's not difficult to carry." Deng Chao tied the waist rope as tight as possible, then pulled up his clothes, and took 500 million from Gu Zhuo. , Putting it into the padded jacket, "What's the matter? Do you want to try raising it too?"

Gu Zhuo looked at 500 million who was sleeping with his head buried in Deng Chao's cotton-padded clothes, scratched his forehead and said, "Well...not really. Are you hugging for An Keyu?"

"Yes," Deng Chao agreed without hesitation, "I bought it for her, and it was recommended by the doctor."

Gu Zhuo also expected that it was because of An Keyu's illness, he thought for a moment and asked, "Then... will it work?"

"Yes... use it," Deng Chao glanced at the little thing in his arms, "at least she doesn't want to become a nun now."

"Being what? Becoming a nun?" Gu Zhuo was shocked by these words.

On the contrary, Deng Chao looked familiar, and hummed calmly: "When she woke up one day ago, she began to Baidu the conditions for becoming a nun, saying that she wanted to become a monk, become a nun, and get rid of the secular world. Beyond the soul."

"This...how could she think that way?" Gu Zhuo really couldn't figure it out, "You two...she shouldn't even think about becoming a nun."

As soon as he mentioned this, Deng Chao chuckled: "Who knows about her. But Gu Zhuo, you have to know that this is very normal for patients with depression, but there will always be something strange and strange in their minds." Controlled thoughts. It could be waking up like this, or it could be after going to the bathroom."

"Emotions, thoughts, ideas, etc., which are related to the brain, have been out of their control since the disease. It's like drawing cards randomly every moment of every day. It's good. It's bad, it's all about luck."

At this point, before Gu Zhuo could answer, a violent and heart-piercing roar exploded out of thin air. Gu Zhuo was frightened and trembled. The boy, with his face flushed and eyes cracked, was throwing things on the ground.

With a bang, the water bottle of a little girl next to her was damaged, and the glass shattered all over the floor with clear water. The man, like a bullfighting bull, pounced on him, and grabbed the broken glass before the male nurse held him down. The glass touched his wrist.

Fortunately, the strength and speed of the male nurses are stronger and faster than him, and they stopped him in time before he took action.

There was a lot of noise ahead, but the experienced nurses and doctors dealt with it calmly, and within a quarter of an hour, the medicine distribution office returned to calm.

The patients in the inpatient department also looked familiar, and they all consciously stood up again, like puppets on a string, and began to follow the team step by step to get the medicine.

Only the family members who came in a hurry ran away in panic, crying and shouting.

Watching TV and movies on weekdays, those who go to extremes may not feel much, but when a living life is right in front of your eyes, the feeling of watching him disappear in the endangered state is hard to describe in words of.

Gu Zhuo couldn't help but imagine that if that person was faster, or those nurses were slower, then standing here, he would witness the disappearance of a life.

Everything happened so suddenly, so suddenly that Gu Zhuo couldn't use the rationality he was proud of to regain his composure.

On the contrary, Deng Chao on the side seemed much calmer. He unhurriedly released the emergency call button, and then took Gu Zhuo to the nurse's station to report an early warning.

When Gu Zhuo realized it, the two had already walked to the partition of the ward where An Keyu was.

Gu Zhuo was still afraid, he asked tremblingly: "That man just now...does they always do this when they get sick?"

Listening to Gu Zhuo's words, Deng Chao frowned in dissatisfaction, but he didn't say anything first, but replied: "No, the man just now had severe manic depression and severe anxiety, so he will be like this when he is emotional. Depression If you have symptoms, you will have this kind of extreme thinking, but the fluctuation is not on the surface, but inside."

Gu Zhuo was slightly relieved by Deng Chao's words, but just when he was about to speak, Deng Chao suddenly stopped, turned and faced each other, staring at Gu Zhuo with heavy eyes.

He said in a low tone: "Mr. Gu, here I have to remind you that you can say that they are not in the right mood, or that their mood fluctuates or surges. But please don't use words like illness or madness. They can do it themselves. Describe it like this, but you can't, I don't know about other people, but only the one in my family, the one in your family, has a very sensitive mind, such words are very harsh."

Deng Chao's words made Gu Zhuo's heart jump, he looked flustered and blamed himself: "I'm sorry, I... I don't know, I will pay attention."

Looking at Gu Zhuo's face, Deng Chao's expression gradually eased, he shook his head and waved his hands: "I don't blame you, I'm sorry, I'm too sensitive to these words."

Speaking of this, Deng Chao didn't know what came to mind, and changed the subject: "But this is serious, you need to be very careful, this is not a joke with you. For them, your expression, every word, every sentence, They are all magnified infinitely, if you really want to give an example, it may be like the detail monsters they say on the Internet now, if you say a word wrong, it may stimulate them."

Detail monsters, focusing on details, trapped in monsters.

Gu Zhuo suddenly felt the pressure was as heavy as a mountain. He was very uncertain, afraid of not doing well, so he asked for advice: "Then besides these words, what else should we pay attention to?"

"It's hard to say, everyone's emotional sensitivity is different," Deng Chao led him to continue walking, "For example, our Jiaojiao, when she gets emotional, she will demean herself to nothing, and she will use all swear words. It is used to scold myself, and I hate myself very much. I didn’t understand why at first, and then I accompanied her to psychotherapy, and the doctor gave her hypnosis to figure it out, because at the very beginning, her parents didn’t understand, every time she was in a bad mood , her father will tell her not to go crazy anymore. So the two words "onset" and "crazy" are her sensitive points."

Hearing this, Gu Zhuo understood a little bit, he nodded and said: "So you have to pay attention to the family situation, right?"

"Yes or no," Deng Chao said, "From the moment he was born to the present, when you decide to accompany him, you should pay attention to all aspects, such as family, childhood, work, hobbies, etc. You must find out the root cause of his depression , he may tell you, but sometimes he also needs the aid of psychological counseling."

Having said that, Deng Chao paused, and pushed open the door at his side. He led Gu Zhuo in. Inside was an independent ward, but if you ignore the vertical hanging bottle, this arrangement is not like a ward at all, but rather like a ward. It is a warm and cozy princess room.

Deng Chao took Gu Zhuo in and introduced, "This is the room we live in. You can take a look around, and if you have any questions, just ask. I'll wipe 500 million's feet first."

Gu Zhuo responded, and then turned around in the room.

In fact, if you look carefully, you can still see the appearance of the ward. For example, there is an emergency call button on the bedside, various medicine boxes on the bedside table, and...handcuffs with velvet loops inside?

It can't be called handcuffs, but rather like a leash to prevent children from getting lost in the crowd.

Gu Zhuo picked it up and looked at it. Just as he was about to ask, Deng Chao's voice suddenly came from the toilet door.

He put on small shoes for 500 million, and explained calmly: "This is for sleeping at night. She used to... hid in the toilet at night and mutilated herself. Several times, she didn't use a knife, she used a needle. , a little bit into those parts that are easily covered by clothes, so that I haven't noticed it for a long time..."

When Deng Chao said this, the 500 million in his hand suddenly raised his head and screamed sharply. He let go of his hand trembling, said sorry in a low voice, and then began to comfort 500 million Shunmao.

After hearing these words, the handcuffs in Gu Zhuo's hands suddenly weighed a thousand catties, and his heart throbbed with soreness, he didn't know what to say for a moment.

The atmosphere in the room was silent until Deng Chao put on the shoes for 500 million. He came over and took away the handcuffs and put them back in place: "So, it is not only necessary to check the wrists and neck, but also not only to hide the knives and blades. Wait, needles, glass, etc. are sharp and can be pierced and bleed all over the body, so be careful."

"I've seen ones that use screws under the toilet, and ones that use charcoal pencils. There are so many kinds that you can't imagine, and even if I wake up many times a night, sometimes I still can't stop it. I really There is no other way, I just want her to live."

When he said this, Deng Chao turned his back to Gu Zhuo, half of the window was covered, and his figure was shrouded in shadow, like a hopeless man walking alone in the black mist.

The curvature of the back is like a broken proud bamboo.

Gu Zhuo wanted to cry uncontrollably, he turned his head unbearably, choked up and said "I understand", and repeated it several times.

The joys and sorrows of human beings are not unconnected, but just the presence or absence of empathy.

It took Deng Chao a little time to adjust, and when he turned around again, his emotions had already settled down. He put on a festive red vest for 500 million, hugged him and walked out with Gu Zhuo.

I met a nurse on the way. She gave Deng Chao the medicine box that An Keyu was going to take in the afternoon. Deng Chao took Gu Zhuozhe back to get a thermos after getting the medicine.

Gu Zhuo watched him skillfully count the medicines and asked, "Are all the wards here like this?"

"No, there are only private wards." Deng Chao broke the fluoxetine into small pieces, looked up and asked, "Do you want to visit the general ward?"

Gu Zhuo thought for a while: "Which one did Song Rin live in before?"

"I don't know who is here," Deng Chao pressed the box, "When I was in Beijing, I lived in a four-person room."

Speaking of this, Deng Chao added: "In fact, there is no difference between ordinary wards and private wards, but there are more emergencies in ordinary wards, because sometimes one person's emotional fluctuations can easily bring other people along. Oh yes Now, if you come here to stay with me in the future, remember, don’t rush forward when there is an emergency, you must press the emergency button first, which is the red button on the wall.”

Deng Chao said while pointing to Gu Zhuo.Gu Zhuo looked in the direction he was pointing, and found that every so far, a sudden red button would appear on the wall, with the words emergency button in English on it.

After Gu Zhuo glanced at it, he immediately withdrew his gaze, his face was pale, he pursed his lips and nodded to express his understanding.Although he didn't want to have this if in his heart, he had to be prepared.

The two discussed it, but in the end they didn't go to the general ward, because Deng Chao was in a hurry to go back to feed An Keyu with medicine, and Gu Zhuo also expressed his understanding, so he walked back along the private ward area.

Gu Zhuo glanced back at the scanner erected in the private ward area, and asked, "Under what circumstances would you need to be hospitalized?"

"Generally speaking, it is needed when there is an extreme situation," Deng Chao said, "but there are also people who are moderately hospitalized. It depends on your own choice. Of course, you don't have to, as long as you can take the medicine on time , to relax and ensure safety, hospitalization, living in a Buddhist temple, and living in a mountain villa are actually the same.”

"Live in a Buddhist temple? Villa?"

"Yes," Deng Chao took Gu Zhuo to the one-day schedule arranged for the patients in the psychiatric department, "When Jiaojiao was in college, I would take her to live in a Buddhist temple for a while every year during the holidays, or go to a mountain villa to worship the Buddha. , writing calligraphy, fishing, rolling cigarettes, etc., fill her up with time, and don’t let her think about it, and her mind is completely empty.”

While listening to Deng Chao's words, Gu Zhuo looked at the timetable. In fact, it was similar to Deng Chao's arrangement. They were activities that kept people busy but did not feel stressful.

Deng Chao continued to add: "Many times, when their emotions are wrong, it means that their thoughts are out of control. At this time, the accompanist must first patiently guide them to tell the cause, and after giving them comfort, they must divert their attention and do something that can make them feel better. Mind-free activities are the best choice."

"I just can't let them continue to dwell on that idea, right?" Gu Zhuo confirmed.

"Yes, the more entangled, the more you will be a dead end, the kind that you can't get out of." Deng Chao slipped back 500 million and led him forward. "There are many choices, mainly depending on the specific situation, but one thing is always It won’t change, that’s companionship and patience.”

"Depression is not so easy to cure if you suffer from it. It is likely to be a lifetime thing. But you have to know that darkness will not surround anyone forever, and no one will want to live in darkness forever, except patients. Our own self-help and the pull of our companions are also very important."

"What you have shown me along the way just now is just the tip of the iceberg. Repeated emotions, uncontrolled self-harm, and companionship at every step are the most basic, but you have to prepare far more than these. If Your love and patience are not enough, and the various situations in the future will eventually exhaust all, and when the time comes, how to put it, just respond to the sentence 'yous avhem from the drakness, but pushthemioaher.'”

Speaking of this, Deng Chao just took Gu Zhuo back to the door at the beginning, and looked in through the glass door. Song Rin was listening to songs with his arms around An Keyu. The sun shone on them, beautiful and ethereal and unreal.

Deng Chao picked up 500 million and looked at Gu Zhuo: "Gu Zhuo, I have seen many people who vowed to stay with them until the end, but in the end most of them became a new scar. This road will be more difficult than you imagined. It's a lot more tiring, but he also loves you more than you imagined, I hope you really think about it before deciding whether to push this door, Song Rin will give you a chance to choose."

Opportunity to choose.

Hearing these words, Gu Zhuo's eyes were swollen and sore, and he recalled Song Rin's initiative the night before, and the entanglement of the past two days, and suddenly everything became clear.

Song Rin did leave a retreat for him, but not for herself, she was cruel and gentle.

Gu Zhuo cried and laughed. He wiped away his tears, then resolutely pushed open the door and strode towards Song Rin.

The shadow covered the burning sunlight, and the familiar woody Jiang Meixiang surrendered under his nose. Song Lin's nose fluttered, and his eyelashes began to tremble. He slowly smiled, then closed his eyes and grabbed Gu Zhuo's hand, and said softly: "Come back Already."

Gu Zhuo hummed, grabbed his hand, pulled him up and held him in his arms, and said softly, "I'm back, baby, I thought about it along the way, and when I go back, I'll buy a set closer to your company." A house, a dog that clings to you, and...by the way, a me who loves you. But this time I want to be more domineering, you have no right to refuse, you can only accept it. "

Listening to Gu Zhuo's words, Song Rin buried her head in his collar, rubbed against him like a puppy who recognized its owner, and said hello solemnly.

The author has something to say: yesterday's plus today's.I will take my dog ​​to get vaccinated tomorrow, so there will be no more.

The above content about depression depends on the plot and personal experience, if it is different, please understand.

Thanks to Mr. X and Ms. W from Ward 306 for their material experience.

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