The plan of the day is in the morning

"Is it."

"I went to the forest studio in the afternoon."

Yi Liangcai said again.

Yi Xiaotian was startled, and anger suddenly rose in his heart, "Are you following me?!"

Yi Liangcai just glanced at him lightly, didn't care about his questioning, and continued, "I saw your teacher."

Yi Xiaotian's eyes were wide open, as if thorns were erected all over his body.

"Looks like you already know he's a former student of your mother's,"

Yi Liangcai rested his elbows on his knees, still calm, "I originally planned to cut off your desire to paint so that you would give up completely."

When he said this, he glanced at his son who was breathing quickly, and then snorted a chuckle, "Don't look at me like that, don't worry, your teacher convinced me."

Yi Xiaotian's hostility and vigilance suddenly stopped, and he was caught off guard, "What?"

Yi Liangcai folded his arms, leaned back on the sofa, and looked at the night sky outside the French window of the living room with heavy eyes, "He said, you are not a child anymore, you have the right to know your mother's identity." thing."

Yi Xiaotian: "..."

Yi Liangcai glanced at him again, sighed, "I'm really irresponsible, I forgot that you're gone after the New Year."

Yi Xiaotian pursed his lips and looked at him, "Then you plan to tell me?"

Yi Liang glanced at the coffee table, raised his chin, "Go wash the dishes first."

Yi Xiaotian: "..."

Just wash it! !

……

After washing the dishes, Yi Xiaotian, who also cleaned up the kitchen ruined by his father, got his wish and heard from his father what he had been wanting to know for so many years.

As he knew, his mother was an orphan who grew up in a welfare home. With her love for art and enough talent, she worked part-time to pay for her tuition and was admitted to the top art department of University A in the country. And graduated successfully.

She likes children, so she became a studio teacher after graduation, teaching children to paint full-time. She also met his father when he took the children to sketch outdoors.

The place where they met for the first time was beside the Wuque Bridge on the Yinchuan River, where they were painted on the huge oil painting hanging in the forest studio.

The two met and got acquainted and got together, and they entered the marriage hall naturally. Even if the family opposed it, Yi Liangcai had an overwhelming right to speak at home, and he didn't need or care about other people's permission. He protected his wife very well. , Annoying things, bad relatives, if you can isolate them, isolate them completely, out of sight and out of mind, the two live their own lives, design their own new home, and the neighbors are also very friendly and friendly, and they often communicate with each other.

It all seems to be going well and smoothly, but not long after their marriage, the tragedy hidden under the surface of happiness begins to emerge.

At the beginning, his mother’s mental state became very poor, she suffered from insomnia all night, and she easily lost control of her emotions. Sometimes she threw things manically, and sometimes she was depressed and cried all day long. His father stayed with her all the time trying to comfort her, but it was of no use. , On the contrary, it made his mother's mood more unstable, she lost her temper at him, and after she calmed down, she apologized to him in a panic. She couldn't control herself, and after almost hurting him several times, she begged him for a divorce.

His father didn't agree, so she locked herself in the studio without saying a word, painting day and night, as if she used painting as a way to numb herself, isolating herself from her husband, until one day the studio There was no movement in the house, and when Yi Liang opened the door and went in, he found his wife was lying on the ground with cuts on her wrists, and uncoagulated blood was scattered on the drawing paper scattered on the ground, the scene was horrifying and horrifying. people.

He immediately sent her to the hospital, but fortunately, she was rescued in time, and it was at this time that they discovered that she was pregnant.

Along with the news of pregnancy, she also suffers from obvious bipolar disorder. According to the doctor, it may be that the hormonal changes in the body during pregnancy aggravated the symptoms, which caused her sudden emotional instability.

After careful consideration and communication with the doctor, Yi Liangcai decided to give up the child, but his wife insisted on keeping the child, and for the first time told her husband about the bad things she had encountered in the orphanage in her childhood. memories.

Those childhood shadows have always been hidden in her heart. She seemed to try hard to get rid of those terrible memories when she grew up, but occasionally, when she dreamed back at midnight, she would sneak into her dreams and become a nightmare.

She likes children, and also wants to have her own children. She wants to give her children the love she has never received. In the end, her husband compromised, and the two guarded the child carefully. The will, tenaciously resisted the demon in the body, and persisted until the child was born healthy.

The family of three had a short period of happiness, but soon after, his mother's illness relapsed again, and then it continued intermittently until later...

It wasn't that Yi Liangcai didn't care about his wife not coming back to visit them. In fact, it was his wife who kept begging him not to come back.

Because every time she saw her husband, she couldn't help but lose control of her emotions. She didn't want him to see her ugly appearance again, and she didn't want him to be sad.So he seemed to be expelled from the outside, he could not return home, so he could only make people pay attention to the situation at home from time to time, and he, even on the days when his family should be reunited, could only go out alone in the cold air.

This kind of life continued until Yi Xiaotian was seven years old. His mother finally failed to defeat the devil in her body and was bewitched to jump into the icy river. He lost his mother forever since then.

At the funeral, when he was young, his father also heard the words he heard. He was angry, but then he was shocked by the way his son threw the stool and beat him like a madman when he was in a rage. Yi Liangcai told himself over and over again that it was the normal appearance of a child when he lost his temper, but he couldn't help but overlap his son's appearance with his wife's appearance when she lost her temper.

The doctor repeatedly told him that although there is a chance of inheritance, the probability is very small. His son is normal, but the fear in his heart continues unabated, and as his son grows up day by day, he becomes more and more conscious. He hoped that his son would not be so similar to his wife, so he was not allowed to paint anymore, and he did not mention his mother in front of him. Every time he got into trouble, fought, or did something radical, Yi Liangcai would be very angry Sensitivity, it was like a thorn, deeply pierced in his heart. As time passed, the gap between father and son became deeper and deeper, and it evolved into what it is today.

Lin Yangqing told him that self-righteous concealment is not really for his own good. For so long, the matter of his mother has become Xiaotian's heart disease. If it is really for his own good, he should trust him and let him come out on his own.

On the way back, Yi Liangcai kept reminiscing about all these years, until now when he saw his son sitting beside him, looking at him as a young boy with a sharp and angular appearance, he suddenly realized that his son had become so big.

And he seemed to have been wandering and drowning in a certain nightmare all these years, until at this moment, he suddenly woke up.

……

Yi Xiaotian didn't know when he went upstairs, and he turned into the studio almost uncontrollably. When he came back to his senses, he found himself lying on the floor blankly, looking at the skylight above his head. I stayed for a while.

咻

boom! !

The sound of fireworks exploding one after another startled him, he blinked his sore eyes, and only then noticed the buzzing vibration of the phone in his pocket.

I took it out and saw that all I received were all kinds of mass New Year greetings from my friends. Even Yu Chen was stuck in time to send him a happy new year.

It's already twelve o'clock, he suddenly came back to his senses, subconsciously dialed a voice call to Yu Chen, it was only after the call was made that he suddenly remembered the jet lag, it was already five o'clock in the morning on his side, and he was about to hang up, Yu Chen He actually accepted it.

Yi Xiaotian was a little at a loss for a while, he didn't know what he wanted to say, so he stammered, "Chenchen... that, Happy New Year."

"Um,"

Yu Chen's voice sounded sober, "Happy New Year."

Yi Xiaotian blinked slowly, curled up his legs and looked at the skylight above his head and asked, "Why haven't you slept yet?"

"Shou Sui,"

Yu Chen said, he paused, and then asked, "What's wrong with your voice?"

"what?"

Yi Xiaotian was stunned for a moment, only to realize that his voice was a little hoarse. He cleared his throat and forced a smile, "It's nothing, I'm a little thirsty."

Yu Chen was silent for a while before asking, "What did Uncle Yi tell you?"

Yi Xiaotian didn't expect him to be so perceptive. He didn't know how to answer the question for a while, and said after a while, "I told you about my mother."

Yi Xiaotian took a deep breath, and slowly told Yu Chen one by one the things he heard today. Through this process, he also revisited the whole tragedy that happened in their family, and finally He clenched his back molars tightly, forcing himself to hold back a sob.

Yu Chen listened to him quietly until he finished speaking. After a while, he suddenly said softly, "Turn on the camera."

Yi Xiaotian: "What?"

Yu Chen said, "I want to see you."

Yi Xiaotian hesitated for a moment, wiped his eyes with the back of his hand, and turned on the camera.

The studio was very dark, and it was impossible to see his appearance clearly. On the other side of the screen, Yu Chen's picture was also completely dark. He seemed to be by the window. There was faint skylight outside the window.