from my heart [last days]

Pei Ze is a give and take person in most things.

He tried his best to satisfy Xie Congxin's needs, but the bed matter was not because he didn't want to, but because he couldn't.

Whether it's a half-day vacation once a week, or returning to the hotel earlier at night on weekdays, Pei Ze has always been reluctant to torment him too hard. After all, mental work hurts his body. Xie Congxin doesn't exercise much on weekdays. Gui, his skin turns red when he is pinched, and his legs become sore when he is lifted. It is rare for Pei Ze to do it once, so he must be careful not to hurt him.

Therefore, every time they got close, Xie Congxin would shoot at Pei Ze when he was satisfied, and if he hadn't arrived yet, he would quit and shoot himself.

This is undoubtedly a very painful thing for any healthy man.

If he wanted to make up for all his desires and dissatisfaction during the six months of dating, Xie Congxin might not be able to get out of bed for at least a week.

Fortunately, Pei Ze has his own strengths, so far he has tolerated it very well - the premise is that Xie Congxin doesn't take the initiative to provoke him.

This time it was a surprise.

Xie Congxin said that it's fine to be a bit fierce, but Pei Ze didn't take it to heart. Xie Yiming's threatening power is not enough to one-tenth of Yan Shen.

But that night after taking a bath, Xie Congxin sat straddling him and moved on his own with great interest. After a while, he lost his strength, and frowned again, wanting Pei Ze to shake his head. Pei Ze's favorite look.

So Pei Ze couldn't control it, and accidentally jumped too deep. Xie Congxin's hand on his chest was grasping randomly, so tight that Pei Ze couldn't even retreat even if he wanted to.

Xie Congxin was born with the skill of seductiveness. A glance or a sound on the bed can make Pei Ze's blood boil.

This day, he probably made up his mind to test Pei Ze's bottom line, and he didn't stop for a long time, but took the initiative to kiss him and lick him, and refused to come down once, and slowly kissed Pei Ze in this position , squinting his eyes could not hide the light inside, and sometimes there was a sweet sound from his throat, Pei Ze couldn't put it down because of the light, the sound of love was unbearable, so the blood all over his body rushed to his brain and somewhere, all the time It was a happy, real two hours.

Fortunately, the second day was the Ching Ming Festival on April [-]th. Xie Congxin had a day off and didn't need to get up early at [-]:[-] as usual.

He didn't stay idle, he woke up at eight o'clock, had breakfast downstairs in the hotel, met Xie Lin, and Pei Ze drove the two of them to the cemetery in the suburbs of Beijing.

Xie Congxin didn't show any emotion, and he couldn't tell whether he wanted to come or not. Based on what Pei Ze knew about him, he probably didn't want to come.

He is not a person who is emotionally indifferent, but he is rational, and his priorities are too clear. He has his own set of ideas for things that ordinary people find unacceptable.Therefore, he probably doesn't like or dislike his mother, but just like Xie Lin, he doesn't have much affection because he hasn't gotten along with her before.

But due to many complicated reasons, he had to accompany Xie Lin on this trip.

Pei Ze parked the car in the parking lot of the cemetery, got out of the car and cleaned up the zombies chasing the car exhaust.

The cemetery is some distance away from the city center, and the army did not reach here, so the density of zombies is higher than that on the road. Fortunately, this place is inaccessible, and Pei Ze can handle it alone.

Two bullets were emptied, and the military blade was stained with blood. Xie Congxin sat on the co-pilot and watched, expressing his slight dissatisfaction with today's itinerary: "It's too dangerous to go out of the city at this time."

Xie Lin in the back seat laughed and said, "Daughter-in-law is such a good labor force, it's not in vain."

Xie Congxin felt a little satisfied with his address, glanced at him in the rearview mirror and said nothing, Xie Lin said again: "I should have come to see her a long time ago, it's been more than [-] years, haven't you been here? "

Xie Congxin said: "I came here with the teacher."

Been here, but not many times.

Xie Lin understood what he had said, smiled and stopped talking, and waited for Pei Ze to clean up the zombies in the parking lot before coming to open the door for them.

After being infected in Zhengzhou, his body has already been strengthened to a certain extent. His vision, hearing, and limb strength have improved to a certain extent compared with before. Ordinary zombies are nothing to worry about, not to mention that even if they are bitten, they will not be infected.

Xie Congxin didn't worry about anything, the three got out of the car, Xie Lin walked in front to lead the way, Pei Ze and Xie Congxin followed one step behind.

Surrounded by mountains and rivers, the cemetery is built on the hillside, with dozens of steps at the entrance.

Xie Congxin looked at the steps and paused, and was about to speak when Pei Ze suddenly pushed the back of his head into his arms. At the same time, a bullet from his right hand shot out through the wind, piercing the head of the zombie in the grass behind him!

Xie Lin looked back at the two of them, and then at the zombie. The bullet pierced through the forehead, less than five meters away, and his face was bloody and his facial features could not be seen clearly.

Pei Ze has always been sharp in his moves, an iron-blooded soldier, all the tenderness in this life has probably been given to Xie Congxin, Xie Lin laughed to himself, and then realized that he seemed to be laughing a little too much today, shook his head and continued to walk up, ignoring the next two Did the individual catch up?

The sound of the gunshot still made Xie Congxin's eardrums ache even though his thick palm was still there.Brain buzzed for a few seconds, Pei Ze let go of his ear, lowered his head and asked, "I'm carrying you?"

His eyebrows were cold when he fired the gun, but his expression was soft when he asked this question. Xie Congxin shook his head, "Let's go."

I did it too hard last night, and today's sequelae are inevitable, but it's not so bad that I can't even walk this little step.Climb up in one go, and soon find the tablet that belongs to Su Peilan.

Xie Lin didn't bring anything, and came empty-handed, so Xie Congxin naturally didn't have either. The two stood in front of the tombstone and looked at it for a while, Xie Lin asked, "Is there anything else you want to say?"

Xie Congxin's face was indifferent, and the expression was obviously: What do you have to say.

He studies biology and science, and he has no belief in feudal superstition, nor does he believe in the idea of ​​a soul after death. No matter what Su Peilan says, it is impossible for Su Peilan to hear it, so what is the need to say?

Xie Lin saw through his thoughts: "You know that grave sweeping is actually for the living."

Xie Congxin said: "There are still many things that living people can do."

"But everything has its own meaning and cannot be replaced—"

Xie Lin wore a white coat with his hands behind his back, and continued: "Just like I brought you and Captain Pei to visit your mother's grave, which means family reunion is indeed a small thing in this world that is not worth wasting time. , but for the four of us, it's rare."

"..." Xie Congxin was silent.

In fact, Xie Lin seldom preached. He knew that he had participated too little in Xie Congxin's growth, and he hadn't even played any positive role. Therefore, he never showed his father's genealogy to Xie Congxin. Then I said one more thing.

Seeing that Xie Congxin lowered his eyes and said nothing, Xie Lin clenched his fists and coughed, and asked him, "Do you know when I first wanted to bring you here?"

Xie Congxin turned his head to look at him. Xie Lin couldn't help but smiled again, "It was the first time you called me 'Dad'."

Xie Congxin narrowed his eyes and looked at him with a strange expression, "When did I call you..."

The upper and lower lips touched slightly, but the last word was not uttered. For a moment, Xie Congxin even wondered absurdly, could this be Xie Lin's trap.

Xie Lin couldn't hold back, and laughed out loud, "It's nothing, just forget it."

"..." Xie Congxin recalled all the time he got along with Xie Lin after the reunion, and made sure that he never said this word.

Xie Lin turned around and brushed the grass leaves on the tail of his white coat to hide his unstoppable smile. His expression was cheerful and smug, as if he had earned hundreds of millions from Xie Congxin.

Xie Congxin looked at him with a frown, until Xie Lin sorted out his appearance, turned back, and changed the subject in a serious manner: "Your mother used to like me wearing this outfit the most. When I got married, I thought about wearing it for wedding photos... ..."

He paused, as if thinking of something, showing a little nostalgic look, Xie Congxin twitched the corners of his mouth in this second, respecting Su Peilan's aloof academic spirit who had never met before.

What normal woman would want to take a wedding photo in a straight white coat?

This family is really——

"Where's our wedding photo?" Xie Lin asked suddenly, "It should be in your mother's belongings, did your teacher give it to you?"

"It's at my house," Xie Congxin said, "You can take it back."

Xie Lin nodded and said something.

The wedding photos are a photo album, in the style of a few years ago, a thick book, placed in the safe of Xie Congxin's home.

Xie Congxin took out the photo album and a red leather book from the safe in the corner of the cloakroom, and handed it to Xie Lin.

Well kept.

Except for the yellowed corners of the cover page, the color of the photos inside the album is very clear. The marriage certificate is old-fashioned. The two are wearing white shirts, with a red background.

Xie Lin's eyes showed an unspeakable tenderness that he could not see in ordinary times, Xie Congxin glanced at him, and retreated with Pei Ze.

No one has entered the house for more than half a year, and the dust has fallen, one step at a time, extending from the door to the bedroom, Xie Congxin had a cleanliness attack, staring at the floor and frowning.

Pei Ze closed the bedroom door softly and came over. Seeing his unhappy expression, he stroked the hair on the back of his neck and asked, "Do you want to move back?"

Xie Congxin's home is actually not far from the research institute, but there are no residents in the upper and lower floors. It is too dangerous to live alone, so he has been living in a hotel with other people.

Xie Congxin leaned back, putting the back of his head in Pei Ze's palm, "It's not convenient."

Pei Ze gently dragged him, and said in a low voice, "If you think about it, there is no inconvenience."

Xie Congxin didn't take this sentence to heart, but still kept the topic in the cemetery in mind, and asked Pei Ze, "When did I call him...?"

It's not that you can't call, but it's not natural to change your words. There is still something missing between him and Xie Lin.

"Called," Pei Ze said, "once."

"...When?" Xie Congxin was very surprised, he had no memory of it.

"Last week, the teacher asked you to send materials to the headquarters, and you asked him: 'Where is my dad?'"

"........."

The fully stated tone helped Xie Congxin quickly recall the scene at that time and the reason why he unconsciously said these three words.

The materials that I sent to the headquarters that day were Xie Lin's summary of Ldv's materials over the past few years, as well as the application report, in order to restore Xie Lin's academician status that was revoked in the early years.

Xie Lin didn't know why he wasn't there, Xie Congxin wanted to ask, just opened the report and took a look at it, and saw that Xie Lin's personal file had his name in the family column, and the relationship was father and son, so he asked without thinking.

The speaker was not interested in the listener, and he didn't expect it to reach Xie Lin's ears. Xie Congxin was silent for a few seconds before slowly saying, "Why didn't you remind me then?"

"Thought you knew," Pei Ze said with a smile on his lips, "It's pretty good."

Xie Congxin took his head away from his palm unhappily, but indulged his smile with a tacit attitude.