Colonel

In this country, being a soldier is the only way to get ahead.However, congenital physical problems make him doomed to fail the basic quality selection. Fortunately, even if the door is closed, God will still leave a window for you. Although this is a window leading to a dead end, it still shines through.In pursuit of that dim hope, in order to escape the embrace of darkness, this one and only chance must be seized.Even if he did it all over again, for that faint light, he would still choose to fall.

In 2404, he was admitted to a Ph.D., and in 05 he faced a crisis of dropping out of school. He was able to resolve the crisis by having a relationship with a professor and the lieutenant colonel of the Science and Technology Department. After that, he maintained this relationship until he graduated in 06 and entered the No. Only a small scientific researcher got relief from the professor.Unexpectedly, the incident was revealed and the news leaked out. Although no substantial evidence was found and the degree was kept, it became without status in the base, and even the equipment could not be used.

In the end, he got the chance by sleeping with the person in charge of the base. Although his status became even more unbearable, he thought that he could still go on because his dream had not changed.

Wanting to become stronger, wanting to be superior to others, wanting to let those who have despised and abused him can only survive by begging for mercy.Kewell doesn't think there's anything wrong with his thoughts, after all, most people in Renesons live like this, and if they don't hold such illusions, their spirits will collapse sooner or later.

Like other researchers, Kewell regards the batches of low-ranking soldiers sent as guinea pigs for experiments, and does not treat them as human beings, cannot treat them as human beings, and cannot hold sympathy, otherwise he cannot go on. , in this world, being soft-hearted will not bring you any benefits, but may push you into hell instead.

But in the end, my heart was softened, my heart was moved, and my heart was broken——when I met those brown eyes.

That was in 2407, when a group of new low-ranking soldiers were sent to the base, the captain in charge pointed to one of the children and whispered: "The physique is too poor to join the army, if you want to die, you have to join the army. I just got him here. I heard that you are short of people recently, am I fine?"

After speaking, he grabbed the slightly upturned buttocks and showed a very satisfied smile.Kewell was expressionless, he was not the researcher responsible for recruiting subjects, these matters had nothing to do with him, why would he use such matters to take advantage of the opportunity.

He knew that he was beautiful. Although he couldn't be said to be more beautiful than women, he still had a different kind of charm that attracted some people.Sometimes I doubt myself, but I have to endure such things in order to join the army, and sometimes I regret it. If I hadn't been so stubborn back then, I would have been a little ordinary person.It's just that he is a little relieved now. After all, there is a junior soldier who is in a similar situation to him but has chosen a more miserable path than him. That child named Ren, does he know what he is about to face?

Once you care about a person, he will always appear in your field of vision.Ren, a cowardly looking boy, was noticed by Kewell for some reason.

The child always has his head down, weak, like a shivering mutt.Cowell occasionally gets the urge to stroke his tousled hair, but never gets around to it.

Want to touch, but dare not approach; want to hug, but can't reach out; want to comfort, but don't know how to speak.

One day, when Cowell was panting in the arms of the colonel of the base, he saw a strand of messy brown hair in despair. Ryan's hair was always messy, and he always wanted to reach out and smooth it out for him.He raised his hand to cover his face, not wanting anyone to see his ugliness at this moment, but the school officer forcibly tied his hands behind his back, watching him shed tears of despair with admiration.

dirty!For the first time, I felt that the world was so dirty, and I felt so dirty.cold!For the first time, I realized that the world was so cold, and I realized that my body temperature was strangely cold.So helpless, you don't even know what to shout if you want to shout?Who can help me?How to save it?Who can help?

I dare not look into Ren's eyes, for fear of seeing contempt and contempt there; I want to look into Ren's eyes, hoping to get his pity and comfort.

In the end, he still didn't have the courage, he could only escape, avoiding the child's clear eyes.

In fact, maybe he was just being sentimental, because since Ren came to this base, he has been observing the child unilaterally, and maybe the child has no impression of him at all.

Such thoughts did not make Kewell happier, but only made him more desperate.The cruel experiment is repeated every day, and the mechanical movement is repeated every night.Pity the powerless self, despise the self who doesn't know how to resist.

Want to see him, want to talk to him, but dare not communicate with him directly, so I have to be doubly nice to Abel, just to see him who is always by Abel's side.

Ren is very inconspicuous, not as sunny as Abel, nor as delicate and handsome as him.Ren was gray, but still exuded a dim light. Although it was very weak, it was enough to illuminate Kewell.

I don't know what kind of mood this is, maybe it's sympathy, maybe it's just watching him pity himself, or maybe it's because he is inconspicuous and won't bring out his despicableness like Abel.Whatever the reason, Kewell just cared about Rennes.

In order to find that slim hope, he tried his best to make Ren a test subject in the enhanced human project; in order to make the child more likely to survive, he searched the information all night, just to find Come up with the most likely way to succeed.

Ren's plan was made by him, but he was not the one who implemented it.It took a lot of effort, but in the end I didn't even dare to touch it.He was timid, he didn't dare to inject the drug into the child himself, he didn't want to see his face distorted in pain from the experiment, and he didn't want to be the executioner who caused his pain.

He was too timid, and because of his cowardice, he didn't touch the child in the end, and he didn't say a word to him in the end.

Kewell, who had been kept in the dark, woke up like a dream on the day when he heard that the twelve subjects had died. When everyone else was nervously preparing for the next battle, Kewell curled up alone in Leisure Hall. On the bed where En once slept, with his eyes open, he couldn't feel a trace of breath.

After leaving, that person left this world just like that. It wasn't until he left that Kewell realized that he was so yearning for this child, eager to hug him, eager to be embraced by him, but he didn't even touch his fingertips. .

What did Cowell do next? He can’t remember. After waking up, he was already outside the base. The whole base was turned into a sea of ​​flames, and everyone died inside, including those who had pressed him under him, those who had spurned him. People, including those who have always admired his talents and did not discriminate against him because of his filth.

However, it doesn't matter anymore.Whether it's good or bad, it doesn't matter.The person who most wants to see him smile is gone, what else is there to take care of?

The dream of the past turned into ashes, and now he only has one idea, which is to let more people accompany Ren. He has been watching him, so he knows the child best, and knows that although he doesn't talk much, he still likes to be lively In the crowd, find a few more people to accompany him, so that the child will not be lonely.

However, he will also be lonely, no matter how desperate he is, it is still difficult for a person to persevere.So he found Reina, not for anything else, but because he felt that two equally lonely people should be together to lick each other's wounds.

Cowell doesn’t have much memory of how he spent the next nine years. He only remembers that sometimes on lonely nights, he would find one or two brown-haired boys to hug or be hugged, repeating the past time and time again. Things that didn't get done.

Occasionally see Lena's lonely figure when she is passionate, but it is only fleeting and cannot enter her heart.No matter how many similar people you have hugged, no matter how many people you have hugged, you can't melt the ice in your heart. Human body temperature is only this level after all.

He never trusted others, even if it was Leina, he didn't trust it very much, at least he didn't tell Lena that the person he loved deeply in his heart was an inconspicuous boy named Renna.However, he who obviously does not open his heart to anyone, what kind of feelings do he have for this colonel named Brian?

He is obviously the senior officer he hates the most, and his whole body exudes a light that cannot be ignored, a noble temperament that makes people feel ashamed, and an unbearable arrogance that makes people unbearable.This is the race he hates the most, even if he said he was a test subject in the base, he should still hate him.However, he seemed to be possessed, wanting to believe him, and told him the secret of the Avenger members so easily.

He said his name was Teg, and he survived because the reinforcement plan was successful.Kewell regretted it again and again. It would have been nice if the experimental plans of Ryan and Teg had been reversed at that time, and if he hadn't overly believed in his own research.

He even had the idea that maybe this person was Ren, and he just said he was Teg because he didn't want the military to find out his identity.Of course, this is just a delusion. Ren would have such confident eyes, and how could Ren look at him from above, after all, it was just a fantasy in his heart.

In the end, he believed in the wrong person, and ended up in complete defeat.

At this last moment, Kewell actually didn't feel sad or depressed. He just wanted to see Brian again and had a few more words with him.

Reina thought that he was going to kill Brian himself because of his embarrassment, but in fact, he never thought of it that way, he just...

Behind Brian was an oriental man, handsome and refined, but with a dangerous gleam in his eyes.Cowell knew that these two people were dangerous. He should have linked the remote control of the explosive with the heartbeat from the beginning. Once the heart stopped beating, the explosive would be detonated immediately.

But he still didn't do it after all, and he couldn't figure out why.It was as if he didn't know why he had a strange feeling for Brian and hated the Orientals behind him.

When the Eastern man kicked the remote control in his hand, Kewell knew he was going to die. The murderous intent in that man's eyes was so strong that he would never let him go.

At the last moment, the Oriental looked at Reina, Brian looked at the Oriental, Reina looked at him, and he... was actually looking at Brian!

Ridiculous, too ridiculous.If he hadn't been cut off by the Oriental, he thought he would have laughed out loud at the last second.Brian, who are you?Why is it so attractive to me?

Reina, you will accompany me, right?After all, you have been with me for so many years, you must not be used to me leaving.

Ryan...

If God gives me another chance to choose, I will still choose to be admitted to the research base, even if I will be spurned by thousands of people, it doesn't matter, because I want to see you.Only this time, I will definitely hug you tightly, caress your messy short hair again and again, and comfort your heart with gentle words.

I will embrace you with open arms and warm you with my body temperature, even if it does not have much practical function.

If you give me another chance, at least... touch your finger.

Ren, wait for me, I will accompany you here.