troubled times reckless

There are always such and such opportunities in this world to make people realize their wishes. Sitting in the car to Luo Mansion, I leaned on the back seat and watched the scenery outside the window, thinking like this.

It's not as expected, but as long as the result is what I want, I don't care about the process.

Filled with a lot of unconcealable excitement in my heart, I once again stepped on the threshold of Luo Mansion.

I thought my eldest brother would welcome me at the door with a gentle smile, but I didn't expect him to just glance at me with a serious face, then turned and walked in the door.

I followed him with a smile and said, "This matter really bothers you."

The weather was not cold, but he went to sit by the stove: "Why don't you bother, tell me first, why is it different from our appointment?"

I sat opposite him: "Last time I promised you, of course I won't go back on my word."

He unhurriedly took a cup of hot tea from the desk, put it on his lips and blew slowly, but his tone was cold: "It's not that matter, you know what I said. I gave it to you Letter, have you read it seriously?"

"After a quick glance, I know the general idea." Leaning on the soft leather sofa, I yawned.

"..."

Standing up indifferently, I walked to the blue and white porcelain tank where he raised goldfish, watching the blue fish swimming around at the bottom of the blue bowl.

After a while, the eldest brother's voice sounded from behind, as if he sighed: "...What did Chen Rang say?"

"He said that since he couldn't get it through the interrogation and there was no real evidence, he could just write a confession and let it go after his fingerprints."

Looking back, I met the elder brother who raised his eyes from the fragrance of tea: "Let it go, where is he?"

"Send it back to my new mansion."

As I said that, I picked up fish food from the small table by the tank and threw it in. The fish all rushed up, tumbling their ball-like bodies and scrambling away.

The elder brother put down the cup and it landed on the table with a bang, but there was no response from his mouth.

"What's the matter? Why are you so angry for no reason?" Putting down the fish food in my hand, I asked boredly.

The eldest brother walked in front of me, looked straight into my eyes: "This is not right."

I laughed: "What could be wrong?"

"At the beginning, people were arrested without evidence, but now they are released for no reason. The name is not right, and the words are not right. There are too many places to be beheaded. If someone is staring at you and looking for trouble, this is a loophole."

I snorted: "Isn't that Chen Rang your friend? Didn't you handle this matter? Are you talking about me now?"

The eldest brother frowned: "According to what I mean, if you are caught, you have to go through the trial, at least who in the Communist Party introduced him, who did he contact, what is the task, even if it is a compilation, you have to make a model, so that Don’t you have all the proofs? Besides releasing people, you should confess a few, and you’ve been ‘surrendered’. This is called watertight, didn’t I tell you everything in the letter?”

"Your method is too troublesome... Besides, if you really want to hit the brakes, you can't stop the disaster, if you really want to get lucky, you can't stop the wealth. You are too cautious. That Chen Rang is really interesting, such a small thing Can he cover it up for you? If it's not interesting, it will be a matter of time before you betray you, it's not a bad thing."

"Jing Yu, why didn't you understand, I was worried about you."

"Worried about me?" I took a few steps forward, and I was close to him, I hooked my lips: "What do you think about me, you think I don't know?"

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Back in his small mansion, the dim light was on inside, and when he opened the door, he saw a black figure curled up on the sofa.

"I'm back." He reached out and turned on all the chandeliers in the living room, and the room became much brighter in an instant.

The black shadow was wrapped in a quilt, exuding the smell of alcohol cotton balls mixed with body odor, he slowly and with difficulty stretched out his messy head, almost hanging to the ground, and said hoarsely: "You... gone."

I sat over and sat beside him, looked at him and smiled: "Have you washed it?"

He nodded: "washed."

I reached out to lift his quilt: "Let me see."

"Today... today... can't... I... hurt all over..."

Opening up the quilt covering the body completely, he couldn't help frowning. Some of these bloody and medicated wounds were festering, and the distribution and arrangement were not aesthetically pleasing.

Looking up, only the patient look of deep frowning was still a bit irritating. I stretched him under my body, and I leaned over and kissed him between the brows.

There was a salty touch on the lips, which was the smell of a man. He licked it gently along the bridge of his straight nose, but he suddenly coughed violently.

What splashed on my face, wiped it off and looked at it in front of my eyes, but it was red.

"Why are you coughing up blood?"

Picking him up, he closed his eyes tightly and panted in pain, then closed his eyes: "Don't...don't touch my wound..."

I hugged him even tighter: "Huh?"

"please……"

I relaxed a little bit, just kept holding him like this, feeling a little out of place.

I don't know how long it took, a word came out hoarsely from his throat, which brought me back to my wandering thoughts: "You...I...as soon as I meet you...you...you will be...no...don't want to see you again... ..."

I laughed when I heard the words, and looked at him tenderly under the light: "I was very happy when I met you. When you are gone, I miss you very much."

Closing my eyes, I gently touched his neck, thinking of my love with him.

This love was once ignited at the first glance, and a heart fire gradually burned into a big fire; and because of various war opportunities, it burned from a big fire to a raging fire; The raging fire burned into a prairie fire...

But for some reason, the prairie fire may have lacked wind power, and it gradually became smaller at the end of that day and night. Later, one thing after another happened one after another, and it became a wild fire in the wilderness...

I always keep putting my feelings into it, trying to fuel this love, but he is too unbearable to toss, and my love can never be answered.

In the evening, I still fucked him.

I have long wanted to spend a good night with him. This is a reunion after a long absence. I have many expectations in my heart, looking forward to the pleasure of falling into heaven like the first time I saw him.

But the result is always so unprepared.

When I entered him, he stared at the ceiling with eyes like dead fish, his thick and dilapidated body remained motionless.

I was moving and trying to find it, but he suddenly howled and lost control at the same time.

I quickly pulled myself out, and in an instant, the black and yellow slime flowed from his body all over the bed.

I had no choice but to go to the bathroom to wash myself, and pushed the door, only to see that he was still lying motionless on the bed, sobbing hoarsely, and the room was already filled with an unpleasant stench.

I frowned, put on my coat, and rushed out the door.

The cold wind chilled my consciousness. For some reason, I suddenly felt that there was something... I used to be so happy and beautiful... But when I didn't realize it, I couldn't change back to the way it was before...