troubled times reckless

I was taken aback, the eldest brother stood up, put a short jacket on his naked upper body, and sat back beside me: "Jingyu, tell me, is this the reason?"

Lowering my head, I said sullenly, "You...know I'm coming today?"

The eldest brother slowly exhaled a puff of smoke: "When did I not know you?"

I stared blankly between his legs: "Then...you...don't care, I know you..."

The eldest brother glanced at me: "I'm serious about admonishing you, but you don't want to listen, but if you fall into the mud, I'll be sad too."

I snorted: "When I just came home from outside, I saw your hypocrisy!"

The eldest brother put the cigarette ash on the desk: "You have been away for so long, and I don't know your recent situation, so I was afraid to scare you. I didn't expect you to be more foolish than me. Besides, how can this be called hypocrisy, this is benevolence and righteousness."

I fell backwards on my eldest brother's bed, lying on my back in a big font: "But, they gave me things and supplies, don't want nothing. After all, this is the territory of the Chinese, so it's not up to me to decide what happens."

"Jingyu, I'm just worried about you. You can't do anything with your brain." The elder brother took a deep breath of the cigarette and let it out slowly. The white smoke quickly filled the room: "Remember, you and my brother What you want to eat is not other people's leftovers. Surrender is a terrible thing. You look at A Yuan, you look at Chunxiu. They live a better life than ordinary children. , but what will happen? Let them die, and they will die. Don’t covet temporary glory and wealth, what we want is lifetime honor. People who are not of my race will have different hearts.”

Speaking of which, the eldest brother also lay down beside me, turned over and turned to me: "This time is not peaceful, I am going to send my father and aunt to Shanghai, and I have friends on loan. If there is any trouble here, You also come to Shanghai."

"You mean... there will be changes in the Japanese in the future?" I looked at him and frowned.

The eldest brother closed his eyes, as if it had nothing to do with him: "I see soon. You'd better take some actions of resistance, don't be greedy for guns."

Seeing that I didn't speak, the elder brother opened one eye and looked at me, his tone gradually became serious: "It's about right and wrong, you must be cautious. When Chinese kill Chinese, it means that the one who kills a thousand people becomes a hero, and the one who kills ten thousand people becomes an emperor; When the Japanese kill the Chinese, killing one person is full of evil, shameless, so don't do stupid things."

I sighed: "But with this small force, I can't beat the Japanese. I'm afraid that if he shoots, my whole army will be wiped out."

The eldest brother snorted: "So what if the whole army is wiped out. In this world, reputation is hard to buy. Exchanging the lives of your subordinates for your reputation of 'serving the country with loyalty', no matter how you think about it, it is a worthless transaction."

I was silent for a while: "How about I take them with me to Rehe."

"He already has an owner in his territory. Besides, beating the Chinese is useless. How can he be famous for beating the Japanese?"

"You didn't bring it out yourself, so naturally you don't feel bad."

"With a name, the team can lead again." The eldest brother stretched out his hand and patted my head: "Just keep a few regiment leaders and teachers. If you don't want to part with children, you can't trap wolves."

Seeing that I didn't speak, the eldest brother took out a bank note from his coat and gave it to me.

"what?"

"Military salary." The eldest brother smiled, and I took it, but the large amount made me open my mouth.

"Why..." There are so many...

The eldest brother patted my head and smiled kindly: "You...you will know later."

----

Not long after my elder brother left, I heard that on the day No. 18 of September in the Western calendar, the Kwantung Army fired artillery in Shenyang.

I also increased my contact with the Japanese, and soon, I even met a "military leader".

I thought to myself that I was just a self-proclaimed commander in a mountain den. The place I occupied was neither important nor rich, and I was usually quite peaceful. Is it really for "common prosperity"?

"This is Colonel Sakuma, commander of the Tenth Division of the Kwantung Army." Haoyuan introduced me.

We met at a Japanese restaurant, and for this meeting, I took a jeep all day to the provincial capital.The Tenth Division was stationed along the railway crossing the provincial capital.

Sakuma has a broad forehead and a straight face, and his burly figure has the demeanor of a Japanese samurai.Both Haoyuan and Sakuma were wearing kimonos, one was black and the other was white. Sakuma's black kimono with the samurai sword on his waist looked very imposing at first glance.When the Japanese lady boss greeted Sakuma, her head was almost on the wooden floor.

Sitting in the Hefeng box, Haoyuan knelt between the two of them, poured wine for us on the table in the center, and acted as an interpreter by the way.

After exchanging greetings not too speculatively, they entered the topic.

[Mr. Li, I heard that you and Mr. Fukuyama used to be classmates? 】

I nodded: "Yes, I have worked together in the Army Lecture Hall before."

[Forgive my ignorance, I have never heard of Mr. Li's name before. It seems that you only became famous in a battle a few days ago because you got the equipment from our army. 】I raised my eyebrows in my heart, is this person really here to make friends and plot against me?

"Don't dare." I said lightly.

Haoyuan frowned in embarrassment, and murmured something to Sakuma.

[During the revolution in the south, what battles did Mr. Li participate in? 】

I said indifferently: "I haven't fought much, it's just small fights."

Haoyuan looked at me in surprise, unwilling to translate.

I poured myself a drink and didn't care.

When Haoyuan reluctantly translated, Sakuma's solemn and defensive eyes gradually turned into contempt, and finally formed a fleeting sneer on his lips.

His eyes glanced over Sakuma and Haoyuan inadvertently, and there was a subtle aura.

Although since I met Wang Quan, I have become more sensitive to this kind of thing, but I still have some doubts in my heart. I got up to go to the toilet, opened the door and backed out.The Japanese proprietress showed me the way with a [-]-degree bow, then turned and left.

Looking at the feet, the dark wooden texture...

Revolution in the South...

At that time, I was young and ignorant, and I used to be passionate.

Almost determined to die for the country with a shroud of horse leather, braving the rain of bullets and blood, thinking that the so-called new world can be established, but in the end, a new group of people is changed, and they are not the same as before. , Those who enter the casino enter the casino.The few colleagues who still had the aspirations to clean themselves began to fight openly and covertly by shouting out various "isms", assassinating and seizing power.

I don't want to talk about things in the south, and I don't want to mention them.

In Shouyimen, the heroes who took the first shot were all decapitated by their own people. The so-called revolution, when I think about it now, is just bullshit.

I am using my own actions to bury that reckless and naive period of youth and ignorance.

"Jingyu..." Haoyuan suddenly called me from behind, the footsteps approached, and his pale ghostly face gradually appeared in the darkness.Only the opening and closing of red lips made him look like a living person.

My fingers touched my wrist, it was soft and warm.His fingers wrapped around my arm.

"Are you angry? Why don't you say anything?"

"What did you ask me to see him for? Isn't it your staff's job to contact Chinese military officers?"

Sakuma is a commander with soldiers in his hands, so he doesn't care about my attitude towards Japan at all.If I really clashed with the Japanese, he would still have a chance to destroy me and make meritorious deeds.

Haoyuan said softly: "It's not that I want you to see him, it's that he wants to see you."

I raise my eyebrows.

The corners of his eyes shone brightly in the dark, with a trace of charm: "Because... I always mention you to him...he just..."

"So, it's your private business." I interrupted him with a sneer.

He raised his eyes to look at me, and said softly: "What's wrong with me? Others are more concerned about it, but you always treat me like this..."

"..."

The darkness covered Haoyuan's gaze with a layer of deep affection, but I felt cold for the first time.

I snorted in my throat: "I just want to fuck you."

Haoyuan's face became stiff, and I pulled his slender hand away from my sleeve: "Since there is a man, then don't flirt everywhere."

As I said that, I closed the paper door of the toilet.

When I came in again, Sakuma and Haoyuan seemed to be talking intimately, until I sat down, Sakuma's big hand slowly left Haoyuan's waist.

I raised my eyebrows inwardly, pretending I didn't see it.

Later, the conversation became less and less speculative, Haoyuan reluctantly translated, and the meal was finished like this.Haoyuan's complexion is getting worse and worse, he seems to be watching me all the time, but Sakuma's face is full of red light.

I finished eating without saying a word, got up and took my hat to go.

"Jingyu!" Haoyuan called me suddenly.

I turned back and looked at him calmly.

It turned out that he was so beautiful in the kimono.

This kind of beauty must be very attractive. I didn't have such an intuitive awareness until today.

He bit his red lips and didn't speak, but Sakuma beside him laughed rough and muttered something I couldn't understand.

I glanced at the two of them and closed the paper door of the small room.

When I went out, I gave the Japanese waiter an ocean and asked what Sakuma said in the end.

【What did you ask him to do?Just a coward, a stray dog. 】

I sat in the jeep and slowly closed my eyes.

Something in the chest gradually became brighter and clearer.