The Spring of Prince Syndrome

What is dating?

Yuanyuan feels that he and Tan Ruikang have been in love since the first day they met. The so-called love is nothing more than middle school students going to school and leaving school together every day, buying each other bottles of water. Things, go to study together at night, go out to play together during the holidays, coax each other to be happy when you are unhappy, and be happy together when you are happy.

About sex, Yuan Yuan didn’t dare to think too much. The pictures I saw at Qi Huiyu’s house that day were too shocking. If I thought about it too much, I felt a little vaguely sinful. Wouldn’t it hurt if two men messed with each other?

After another winter vacation, they no longer need to take a car home. Tan Ruikang has a car wherever he goes. During the winter vacation, Yaoyuan passed all the subjects. He took a notebook, checked the itinerary, and bought an expensive telecom wireless network card. , After collecting the things, I went on a self-driving trip to Yunnan. I took a lot of photos in Shangri-La and sent them to Zhao Guogang.

From winter to spring, the courses in the second semester of the sophomore year are very heavy. They have to go to the laboratory to do experiments every day, and the summer vacation is far away and they have to prepare for the next semester. Tan Ruikang has to prepare for metalworking internships, and the two will not return to Shenzhen.I wanted to book a hotel and ask Zhao Guogang to come over for a walk, but I can't leave there, the company is busy with things, and the baby has just been born, so it is really busy.

Yuan Yuan was with Tan Ruikang every day, neither of them talked about finding a girlfriend, and it was impossible to find a girlfriend.The girl couldn't get in even if she wanted to. Many people in the class suspected that Tan Ruikang was Yuanyuan's boyfriend at first, but Yuanyuan explained that it was indeed his cousin, so no one doubted it.

After all, no matter how good the relationship is, no one else can think of incest.He was with Tan Ruikang every day and felt very happy, but when he went to bed at night and went back to the empty dormitory, he felt a little lonely.There is almost no one living in the distant dormitory, except You Zeyang who comes down occasionally to wander around, most of the time he is alone, locks the door, and can freely go to some gay websites, enter chat rooms, and learn about their lives.Visiting the left bank of Tianya, Xici Hutong, reading the stories of comrades, watching Nankang Baiqi's "Six Chapters of a Floating Life", I feel a bit like the life of him and Tan Ruikang, and secretly wish them happiness.

He didn't know what he was, he would be very nervous when he saw a handsome boy, and he would feel very happy if he was favored by a boy.This should also be a kind of homosexuality, but I don't have too much desire for sex, because the only object of sexual fantasy is Tan Ruikang, and I don't dare to think too much about details when I occasionally molest myself.

In his heart, he still hopes to turn into a normal sexual orientation in the future, marry a wife, and have children, just like what he once agreed with Tan Ruikang, buy a big house, the two families live in harmony, and see their children together Playing or fighting... He hopes that one day a girl will come to his rescue and make him fall in love with her suddenly.

In the evening of late spring, a few girls were lighting candles downstairs to commemorate the first anniversary of Leslie Cheung’s death. I still remember that he knew almost nothing on this day last year. I saw a lot of web pages turned black on the Internet. In the middle was a photo of Leslie Cheung. I thought It was an April Fool's Day joke, but it turned out to be a joke Leslie Cheung made to the whole world.Later he bought a women's newspaper, and on the cover was a photo of Leslie Cheung and the gorgeous roses, smiling all over the country.

However, such a famous comrade jumped from the 24th floor on April Fool's Day and ended his life.

Yuanyuan has never known why Leslie Cheung died. The media said that he was depressed. Could it be related to his homosexual orientation?

"Xiaoyuan, did you reject Gu Xiaoting?" Tan Ruikang asked, "You don't like her?"

"Well, I don't like it." Yuan Yuan said.

Tan Ruikang said: "What do you like, there are several girls here who want to know you."

"I'm not sure, if I really meet someone I like." Yuan Yao said guiltyly: "I should do whatever it takes...to marry her. I haven't met it now because I don't like it."

Tan Ruikang sat silently beside him, and the two sat on the edge of the flower garden downstairs in the dormitory. Tan Ruikang said: "Have you not forgotten the milk girl? Hey, I didn't understand at the beginning. I should support you to be with her." Yes, love is gone in the past, and it will be difficult to meet a suitable one in the future, so I always feel that it was a mistake to tell you not to fall in love with each other that time."

Yuanyuan hurriedly clarified: "Actually, I don't have any feelings for her, really."

The dormitory was about to close, and several couples were reluctant to leave downstairs, only they were two men sitting side by side and chatting.

Tan Ruikang said: "Go to sleep, see you tomorrow."

Yuan Yuan smiled and said, "See you tomorrow, brother."

One day he asked Tan Ruikang, "Brother, why do you hate gays so much? There is a gay couple across from our dormitory."

Tan Ruikang: "..."

Tan Ruikang's expression changed instantly, and he said, "Don't get together with them, have they come to harass you?"

Yuanyuan said: "He is a lover, why would he come to harass me?"

Yuanyuan still envies that couple deep in his heart, although they often quarrel, and the whole floor knows about it.

Tan Ruikang said: "Can I contact you to move a dormitory? Homosexuals will have AIDS!"

Far away was completely speechless.

"So you've always felt that homosexuality is disgusting. Is it because of AIDS?" Yuan Yuan began to give Tan Ruikang this science in earnest. Homosexuality does not directly cause AIDS, only promiscuity does. Besides, HIV is only transmitted through the lower body and sexual intercourse, and mother-to-child transmission etc……

Tan Ruikang said: "Last time I heard that there is an AIDS village where one person can get it, but everyone can get it..."

Yuanyuan is about to blow up. Tan Ruikang also seems to be a science student. How can he be so closed to the news about these things? He is not as good as a primary school student.

"It's not because of homosexuality!" Yuan Yuan said, "It's because the whole village sells blood. The village head draws out the blood of all people with the same blood type, mixes it together, takes away the valuable ingredients in it and sells it, and then sells the remaining blood. The blood transfusion from the next one goes back to everyone..."

Tan Ruikang listened like a bible, he knew very little about this aspect of knowledge, and he also avoided talking about sex.

"Then don't provoke homosexuals, my dad also said." Tan Ruikang said: "He really hates homosexuals, and homosexuals in the army are disgusting."

Yuanyuan roughly guessed something. Tan Ruikang's father must have said this when he was a child. Maybe Tan's father had experienced it himself. This incident cast a shadow on his father for a lifetime and also created a homophobic impression on him. .

"Xiaoyuan, you must never get in touch with those people." Tan Ruikang said seriously: "You know?! I'm not joking with you, you must keep this in your heart. You have been good-looking since you were a child, haven't you? A man confessed to you? Don’t fall into it. This is a sick behavior. This kind of thing is not allowed to happen in the world, so nature has produced AIDS to regulate it. Female and It is normal for males to be together. It is like eating civet cats to eat SARS, it is nature's punishment for human beings!"

Yuan Yuan thought that he really underestimated you, and knew the punishment of nature.

"If a man touches you, even if you have a good relationship, you have to reject him, you know?" Tan Ruikang said: "If there is anything that can't be solved, just tell me and stay away from them! Let's not take care of these things, but we will Keep clean, don't use drugs, and don't mess with those perverted homosexuals."

"Understood." Yuanyuan didn't say anything to him that homosexuality is also a kind of love, it's not necessary, he can't accept it.And Yuanyuan couldn't convince him, probably in Tan Ruikang's impression, homosexuality is wearing leopard-print underwear, black eye shadow, and a pheasant with a bunch of feathers in the back - just like the scene in the parade when foreign gays fight for the rights of marriage and love.

And he finally figured out one thing, Tan Ruikang doesn't like him, but loves him very much.

Yuan Yuan hugged him, and he only regarded these as a way of expressing family affection between brothers, just like when he was a child, he held Yuan Yuan to watch the rain under the eaves and slept with him at night.

These things, Tan Ruikang never thought of love at all.

Yuanyuan has mixed feelings. He has met a lot in the past two years, and he has also learned many problems and current situations about comrades.He wanted to try to make Tan Ruikang understand, but Tan Ruikang didn't want to understand, and felt that he didn't need to understand.

A few days later, Tan Ruikang and Yuan Yuan both went to metalworking for internships, and Yuan Yuan sent him a text message: [Brother, do you remember what I said before, will we still live together after we get married? ] Tan Ruikang: [Of course I remember, buy a villa in Silver Lake. 】

Yuanyuan: [Then if you are married, and I am not married, do I live like this? 】

Tan Ruikang: [Isn't this nonsense? 】

Yuan Yuan: 【If I never get married, will you let me live in your house? 】Tan Ruikang:【You are in such good condition, how can you never get married for the rest of your life?Xiaoting said that the queue of girls chasing you is almost at the gate of our school, so don't talk silly. 】Yuanyuan:【I said, what if, what if I never get married for the rest of my life? 】

Tan Ruikang: [No if, what happened to you today?The teacher is here, brother is doing an internship in metalworking, I will talk to you in the evening. 】Yuanyuan: 【If I get disfigured, become disabled or something, and suffer from some kind of disease that prevents me from getting married, it's also possible, like Hawking. 】Tan Ruikang put his mobile phone in his pocket, thought for a while, then took it out and sent him a text message: 【Of course my brother has raised you all your life, don't think about it, it's fine. 】Tan Ruikang put away his mobile phone and continued to make his hammer. The automated metalworking was mixed with another class from the School of Mechanical Engineering. He had to manually file a piece of iron. He first helped Gu Xiaoting file, sweating profusely, and rested for a while. Then do it yourself.

A girl came over and sat opposite Tan Ruikang's machine tool, and said with a smile: "Hey, Tan Ruikang, I like you, shall we fall in love? You can help me do this too by the way."

The girl in the class next door was booed by her mechanical design friends, and the automation boys laughed together. Tan Ruikang's face immediately turned red like a monkey's butt.

"You don't have to say that, I will do it for you, bring it." Tan Ruikang said awkwardly.

The girl pulled back her hair and said with a smile, "I really like you. That time when I saw you and the boy Xiaoting likes walking on the road and calling each other, I thought you were cute."

Tan Ruikang said: "That's my brother, Milk Boy, do you want to know him?"

The girl said, "Why don't you believe it?"

Tan Ruikang was helpless, rolled up his sleeves, lowered his head and used sandpaper to help the girl make her hammer handle, and automatically divided her into the group of girls who wanted to know the distant ones through him.

The girl said again: "My name is Lin Xi."

Tan Ruikang said oh, and when he was done, he gave it to her and said, "It's done."

Then he started flipping through the experiment manual again, and measured the wool, Lin Xi smiled and said, "Thank you, may I treat you to dinner tonight?"

Tan Ruikang said: "My younger brother is also doing an internship in metalworking. He won't be with me these few days. I'll ask him when the internship is over. There's no guarantee."

Lin Xi said, "I just want to eat with you, not your brother."

Tan Ruikang: "..."

Lin Xi: "That's it. I'll wait for you after the internship is over."

After the internship that day, Tan Ruikang came out with a bag on his back and left by himself. Lin Xi said helplessly, "Hey! Monkey!"

Tan Ruikang didn't expect that she was really waiting, and was taken aback. Lin Xi said, "Let's go, let's have dinner together."

Tan Ruikang hurriedly said: "I, I, I... Let me invite you, hey, I can't guarantee that I will really introduce him to you."

Lin Xi got angry and said, "I really like you! I don't want to know your brother!"

Tan Ruikang's face turned red immediately, he didn't dare to look at her, and said after a while: "Where...where are we going to eat?"

Fourteen days later, both internships were over.

Tan Ruikang's car was waiting outside the workshop, Yuan Yuan threw a hammer at him and said, "For you."

Tan Ruikang also threw his practice work - the hammer to Yuanyuan, and said with a smile, "For you."

The two changed their hammers, and Yaoyuan knocked around with the hammer and went to eat. Tan Ruikang replied a few text messages. Yuanyuan didn't have the habit of checking his mobile phone, and he didn't find anything unusual.During dinner, Tan Ruikang looked at the SMS music, and found it far away. He frowned and asked, "Who are you texting?"

Tan Ruikang rubbed his nose and said, "A woman."

Looking at Tan Ruikang's face from afar, he said, "Have you fallen in love yet?"

Tan Ruikang said: "No, it's just that we can talk."

Yuan Yuan narrowed his eyes and said, "Someone else likes you, right?"

Tan Ruikang: "Well, that's what she said, but I... can't say that I like her."

Yuan Yuan said, "It's okay, you like her and I'm not jealous."

Tan Ruikang took a look at Yuan Yuan and said with a smile: "I really don't like her, I just chat with her occasionally, it's just a matter of time."

Yuanyuan nodded and said, "You are so ugly, yet someone likes you. Let me see what you guys are talking about..."

Tan Ruikang said with a smile: "Yes, there is only one. You are too unkind. You are so ugly and I still call you handsome. I am so handsome, but you always call me ugly. Xiaoyuan? Xiaoyuan, what's wrong with you?"

Yuan Yuan said: "What?"

Tan Ruikang: "You...your eyes are so red, Xiao Yuan?"

Yuan Yuan said: "My eyes hurt a little, and I did electric welding in the afternoon, soldering a circuit board."

Tan Ruikang: "It's okay, by the way, I bought a bottle of eye drops for you when I came here. Lin Xi said yesterday that you have an extra electric welding class, which will hurt your eyes. Let me buy the eye drops first..."

Yuanyuan said: "It must be this girl."

Tan Ruikang hummed and said, "I'll help you."

Yaoyuan tilted his head up to let him drip, wiped his nose nonchalantly with a tissue, and said, "A pretty good girl, what does she look like? Let's take it out for dinner next time."

Tan Ruikang said with a smile: "After a meal, she will fall in love with you. She wants to say that we are having dinner together. When are you free?"

Yuanyuan said: "Whatever, I'm free."

So things settled down.

Yuan Yuan went back to the dormitory and thought about it for a long time, except for the momentary shock at dinner today, he doesn't feel too sad now.

Just like his father's remarriage, in fact, he has already prepared, all that is missing is a word.

Family affection is nothing compared to love, and Tan Ruikang's feelings for him are just family affection.

Tan Ruikang is always going to get married, just like Zhao Guogang, he can't treat his girlfriend like Shu Yan, after all, others have never done anything, and they are sincere to Tan Ruikang.

Going back to two years ago, Yuan Yuan might have signed those agreements calmly, then packed up his things and went to college by himself.If there is anyone in the world who wants to listen to distant opinions when marrying a wife, there is only one person, Zhao Guogang, and even Zhao Guogang said that if you get married, you will get married. What else in the world can beat love?

As for Tan Ruikang, whether it is intellectually or emotionally, there is absolutely no need not to get married and live with Zhao Yuanyuan for the rest of his life.

To sum up, there is no room for Yuanyuan to speak, it's not like marrying a stepmother.As long as Tan Ruikang likes whoever he likes, that's who he is. I ask his opinion because they grew up together and have a good relationship, so it's only natural not to ask.

Tan Ruikang didn't talk about Lin Xi anymore. She went home from the summer vacation, but only sent text messages to him from time to time, and Yuan Yuan never looked at his mobile phone. Go outside the school and wait behind the parking lot.

Tan Ruikang and a girl came over talking and laughing, Yuan Yuan watched from the side, the girl left, Tan Ruikang came to drive and saw Yuan Yuan.

"Is that Lin Xi?" Yuan Yuan asked.

"Why didn't you say it?" Tan Ruikang turned to call, and Yuanyuan hurriedly said: "It's okay, I just finished playing, so I came here by the way."

Tan Ruikang hummed and said, "Xiaoyuan, do you hate her?"

Yuan Yuan said: "I haven't said anything yet, what do you like or not. Do you like her?"

Tan Ruikang didn't speak, but said with a smile, "She's a department tweed from the School of Mechanical Engineering."

Yuanyuan said blankly: "There is only one woman in their department?"

Tan Ruikang: "..."

Yuan Yuan smiled, but remained silent.

"To be honest, I don't think she is good enough for you." Yuan Yuan said, "It's not pretty."

Tan Ruikang: "This is not considered beautiful, what kind of beauty is considered beautiful, your vision is too high."

Tan Ruikang opened the car door and sat in Yuanyuan. Tan Ruikang said: "They all say that a flower is stuck in cow dung. I am cow dung..."

Yuanyuan said angrily: "Who said that! Turn it around!"

Tan Ruikang laughed and said, "They all say I'm dark..."

He turned the steering wheel, didn't say anything about it, and drove Yuanyuan to dinner.

In September, the junior year starts, and Tan Ruikang's birthday is coming.

"Brother." Tan Ruikang said, "Do you want to meet Lin Xi?"

Yuanyuan said: "Yes, can you invite her to accompany you on your birthday?"

Tan Ruikang laughed embarrassedly, and Yuanyuan looked at him silently.

"Can you?" Tan Ruikang said, "If you don't like her..."

The text message on the mobile phone rang, and I took a look at it from a distance. Tan Ruikang grabbed it, pressed it a few times, but did not reply to her, and said: "Actually, she has always wanted to see you, or this is the case. You can help my brother as a staff member. If you hate her...Brother Just keep a distance from her, I'm afraid you don't like her... Actually, it doesn't matter, you don't have to have a girlfriend... you have to hand it in now..."

distant:"……"

Tan Ruikang said: "Xiaoyuan, let me tell you my heart. If you don't like that girl, then forget it. I don't want to cause conflicts between us because of her. You are always the number one in my heart." Bit. Brother can’t speak, you just need to understand what it means.”

Yuan Yuan's eyes were red, he smiled at him, and reached out to touch his head.

Tan Ruikang: "?"

Yuanyuan said: "I said yes, don't think too much, I'm not a hedgehog!"

Tan Ruikang observed Yuan Yuan carefully, and Yuan Yuan said: "No life, really no life!"

Tan Ruikang nodded and said, "Then I'll go cook, and we'll talk about it in a few days."

After Tan Ruikang left, Yaoyuan picked up his mobile phone and read the text messages he and Lin Xi had sent each other. Tan Ruikang's mobile phone had been used for more than five years, and it was still the Panasonic GD.

Xiaoxi: [No problem, how many people are there in your family?Come on, I was the only child since I was a child, but I always wanted a younger brother. I know that you have a good relationship, and my heart can accommodate it. We have never been narrow-minded. Even if you love your family members, you will treat your brother as my own brother, don't worry. 】Yuan Yuan was silent for a while, turned forward the SMS mailbox, and saw several short messages from Tan Ruikang.

Tan Ruikang: [Xiaoxi, what I want to talk about is about my brother. I'm afraid you don't like him. He is a bit sensitive. We have been dependent on each other since we were young. I also promised to be with him after marriage. Life...] [... If you don't like him even a little bit, I don't think we can do it.You are really willing to accept him, so I dare to introduce you. He is my only relative in this world. He is very important to me. ] Tan Ruikang: [I will accept your parents and treat them as my parents, and I hope you will also treat my brother as your brother. 】Yuan Yuan put down his phone and stared blankly for a long time. He was doomed to lose. No matter who the girl was, he could only accept it, and this was the only way to go.

Understanding that things that cannot be changed can only be accepted, which is often a sign of a person starting to grow up.

Yuan Yuan doesn't want to grow up, at least not now, but he has to learn to accept that he will be alone one day.