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The scolding was still ringing in my ears, I put away the pink banknotes stamped with fake coins, and let out a long hiss.

Sister Cao came over and patted me on the shoulder, "An Ran, don't take it to heart... Who told us to do this... This kind of thing is inevitable..."

It is very difficult to work in the service industry. This is my personal experience over the past year.

After graduating from university in 08, my uncle's cousin's younger brother was entrusted by my family, and I was stuffed into a bank in L City, working as an integrated teller at the front desk.From then on, my parents felt relieved, and told me to do a good job and not to be foolish.

This job, in the eyes of others, may be good. In my father's words, it can't be blown by the wind or the rain. Isn't it just sitting there typing on the keyboard, counting money, and the most important thing is that the income is also good, at least in L In a small place like the city, the salary is considered high.In fact, it is true to say so, but, there is no such thing as getting a high salary easily in this world, and even if there is, it will not fall on ordinary people like us.

I can only nod with a wry smile. If I say anything else, it will be considered that I am in the blessing and don't know the blessing. Although, I really don't think there is any happiness at all.

Happiness is when you are in a worse situation, recalling the emotion of the past, Xiao Li, who is also a teller, said so.She sighed: "An Ran, you are still too young..."

Cut, of course, you are not the one being pointed at and scolded, you can stand and talk without back pain.

Those two people came to me with a counterfeit bill to exchange change, I just confiscated it according to the regulations, this is the responsibility of the bank, it is the obligation of the bank, it is to maintain the normal financial order, and to maintain the dignity of the renminbi... the front is all fart , the most important thing, if I don't confiscate it and get caught, I will lose my job, okay... The small business office is equipped with 30 cameras, and there are no dead spots except the toilet. I've always been a bit of a backer, so don't take the risk, isn't it just being scolded, it's like hearing a dog bark a few times, although I have to listen with a smile on my face, even though my hands are shaking with anger, even though I really want to go out and talk to you They talked and said, "Who made you blind to accept counterfeit money, and unlucky enough to come to the bank to change money, my parents and eight generations of ancestors hinder you, so why do you hurt me..." But, I wore Wearing such a uniform, wearing such a work badge, and sitting in such a position, I had to endure it. I didn’t say anything, and let others scold me with a low eyebrow. I only had one firm belief in my heart, “Look at the For the face of the salary, the face of the bonus, and the face of all kinds of money..."

I think that's who I am, sometimes I hate myself, why am I so useless!Sister Cao said, everyone came here like this, you have to get used to it.Well, I have parents to support, a house to buy, and a wife to marry. I need this job, so I have to look in the mirror and tell myself, "An Ran, if you have the ability to find a better job, you should drop the pick and stop doing it. , if you don’t have the ability, you can suffer here until one day you can’t stand it anymore..."

At the front desk of the bank, there are many such things.Suddenly, I met a hypocritical client, who either disliked one or the other, and made a phone call to the customer service center, and we had to apologize with a smile on my face. I always felt that I was just pretending to be smiling.

After get off work that night, I asked my high school classmate Wu Yue out for dinner and to vent.He is working in China Mobile now, and he used to always envy me, saying that people look like grandpas when they go to the China Mobile business hall, and they look like grandchildren when they go to the bank.I said: "You are not grandsons, we are grandsons!" Then I picked up a small glass of white wine and was about to pour it down. Wu Yue grabbed my hand and snatched the glass, "Hey, as for you, isn't it because you were Did you scold me a few words? It’s not the first time, you don’t have the guts to be a big man? At least you are separated by a layer of bulletproof glass! As for our little girl at the front desk, the buttons of her overalls were pulled off by others. It’s okay, go home and sew and sew and go to work the next day... It’s alright, alright, stop drinking!”

Under his obstruction that day, I did not drink too much in the end.In fact, I also think it's not worth it, but some things can be used to, and some things can only become the kind of grievances that accumulate more and more...

Enough playing with Wu Yue, let's go home.

My dormitory is not far away, and it takes only 10 minutes to walk there.

It was past nine o'clock, and the city of L was still very noisy. The colorful lights on the huge billboards were changing colors and shapes, and crowds were surging at the entrance of the shopping mall. Vendors took advantage of the protection of the night to set up stalls on the side of the road while the city management staff were off work.

Who knows what kind of mentality it is, when I saw an old man kneeling on the ground and kowtowing, I stopped in my tracks.These beggars can be seen everywhere, and I would walk over them completely ignoring them. Even if he caught up with me and asked for money, I would just give him a blank stare. In the end, I am really not a kind and good person.Wu Yue always said that I am a strange person, neither stingy nor stingy, but I calculate money very clearly, care about every penny, I said this is also an occupational disease, the accounts in the bank have always been accurate, He said I was lying. I just had more than a year of class. I have so many problems. He said that I was such a trivial person. In fact, I am not serious. I just think that money should be Clearly, clearly.

I don’t know why my head was cramped that day. Maybe it’s just that it’s not easy to be a human being. I actually took out a coin from my trouser pocket and threw it into the broken basin in front of the old man. I can't make out what it is.

After taking another two steps, my intuition told me that something was wrong, someone was looking at me.Looking up, sure enough, there was another person less than four meters away from the old man.

The light in that place was not good, and only the outline of a person could be seen.He sat on the ground, hugging his knees, curled up in the cool October wind.He was facing my direction, he couldn't see his facial features clearly, and his forehead was so long that it covered half of his face, so he didn't think he was very old.There were a lot of people coming and going, but I thought he was just looking at me, so I did the second stupid thing of the night, I walked up to him, took another coin out of my pocket, and the snap was still on. at his feet.

I could see that he was stunned for a moment, then picked up the coin stiffly and glanced at it, then, with a wave of his hand, the coin drew a silver arc in the air, hit me, and fell to the ground again.

While I was wondering, the man picked up a card next to him and shook it casually.I really didn't pay attention to it just now, but when I looked carefully, there were three large characters written on the sign, "Part-time work".

"I'm not begging for food!" He said, the clear voice, with the cool night breeze blowing into my ears, I looked at him blankly, but he lowered his head, I only had time to see the changing neon lights The moment it was reflected in his eyes, there was a colorful brilliance.Then he put the sign beside him, continued the previous posture of tucking his knees, and ignored me.

Damn, even if I try to do a good deed, I will be unlucky today.

I picked up the coins on the ground, put them back in my pocket, and walked away in silence.

Lying on the bed in the single dormitory, I touched my chest, and the spot where the coin landed was actually a little painful.Of course, this is just an illusion, the pain is not on the flesh, I know, it is an internal injury.

Survival and dignity, the dignity of existence, that person just hit my weakness with his choice.

"An Ran, be more mature, don't care about his dignity, just live a good life!" I persuaded myself, but, am I living a good life?What a fart.

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