Capgras delusional syndrome

Of course it was impossible for Yang Shaojun to go to sleep.He was in a daze in the study and went online to think about his thoughts. It was getting dark and Su Qian finally woke up.Lao Meng came to ask Yang Shaojun to go down for dinner, and he hurried down.When eating, there were still Lao Meng and a few nannies at the dinner table. Yang Shaojun and Su Qian hardly had any conversations. Although Yang Shaojun was always smiling, after all, it had been more than half a year. with.Similarly, Su Qian's attitude towards him was overly polite.

Yang Shaojun didn't have any appetite at all, he glanced at Su Qian every two or three seconds, Su Qian felt uncomfortable when he looked at him, and lost his appetite after eating, and finally lingering until the meal was over, Yang Shaojun dragged Su Qian upstairs anxiously, Find a space to be alone and talk.

After entering the study, they didn't know where to start, Su Qian put on a gesture of reminiscing about the past, and got two goblets to pour red wine, and handed Yang Shaojun a glass: "How are you doing during this time? "

Yang Shaojun took the red wine dumbfounded, shook it, and drank it all in one gulp: "It's okay, that's all."

Su Qian frowned and looked at him: "That's not how you drink red wine."

Yang Shaojun roared in his heart: Who the hell is here to talk to you about how to drink red wine!Would you like to talk to me about life, philosophy, poetry and songs?Bastard, you want to kill me!

There was still a smile on his face: "What about you? These days...have you been suffering?"

Su Qian shook his head lightly: "I'm fine. To be honest, I've lived in my 30s, and I've never lived such a relaxed life."

Yang Shaojun suddenly felt a little distressed.He knows Su Qian. Since he was a child, he has been pursuing the best. He already has a lot of talents, but he still lives very hard.As early as more than ten years ago, when Qi Yongxu and Yang Shaojun talked about this top student in the school, Yang Shaojun thought disdainfully, isn't it tiring to live like this?Why Mingsheng already has a lot more than others, but still fight for it?And after he and Su Qian were together, he could see Su Qian's hard work. Su Qian had some perfectionist obsessive-compulsive disorder, and he had to do everything by himself. He only slept five or six hours a day on average. On such a large scale, it is still thinking about expanding.But during the six months that he was separated from Su Qian, Yang Shaojun thought of one thing—he always thought that Su Qian was born to be competitive, but he didn't think about it. Maybe he had too many things on his back, but no one told him to How to relax.

Su Qian looked at his red wine glass, recalling the past six months, slightly distracted.

Su Wei has no job, so he has been visiting him almost every day for the past six months, talking with him, and doing rehabilitation with him; Su Yi is not as free as Su Wei, but he tries to fly to the United States to see him once every two weeks; and His parents and sisters also spent almost all their free time to accompany him.After he became an adult and started to be on his own, he never lived like this—he was surrounded by his family every day, they patiently chatted with him about the topics he wanted to talk about, and they happily held various family dinners. The children get together and spend the whole afternoon leisurely.As early as a long time ago, the brothers and sisters all found their respective belongings. Even though they were connected by blood, they inevitably went further and further apart. Su Qian even had a deadlock in the relationship with his younger brothers.But now, all misunderstandings and dissatisfaction have disappeared, and nothing can match the affection between them.There were many times when Su Qian sat on the grass and looked at the figures of his relatives playing happily, his eyes were so hot from the sun that he almost boiled water.But in the past six months, occasionally he felt a little lonely, because the brothers and sisters had already belonged to each other, and they would bring their partners to family gatherings. Only Su Qian was always alone. Sometimes in a trance, I feel that there is actually someone sitting next to me. I am so tranced that when I take chopsticks, I will take an extra pair of chopsticks, but I am teased and laughed at for not cherishing them back then, and now I miss my wife again.

Su Qian came back to his senses, coughed lightly, and said solemnly, "Then let's talk about the things between us."

Yang Shaojun breathed a sigh of relief, but at the same time became nervous.

Su Qian pondered for a while, then said carefully, "There are many things that I really don't remember clearly, such as why I was with you—but I do remember that I was with you once."

Yang Shaojun also said sternly: "Oh, it doesn't matter, just forget about those things, you just remember that we are together."

Su Qian was silent: "After I recovered, my parents and I talked about you. To be honest, my family is not very supportive of us being together. I tried to recall some time ago, but the memory is very fragmented, and I think There are so many things, I can't tell whether some things really happened or I conceived them myself, I can only be sure when I see you today... with such an unobtrusive attitude..." He suddenly felt a little embarrassed Looking at it, he choked out a few words between his teeth: "Some things may have happened for real, and they were not fabricated by my brain."

Yang Shaojun opened his mouth slightly and looked at him in bewilderment.

Su Qian frowned again: "Actually, I remember... I used to be very...very dissatisfied with homosexuality. So I don't remember why I would..."

Yang Shaojun thought for a while, moved his buttocks and moved a little closer to him, putting his arms on the sofa behind him, in a posture that seemed to be embracing him.Su Qian subconsciously turned her body away from him, but did not dodge.

Yang Shaojun was a little angry, and thought to himself: What the hell, this guy can't believe that he would have sex with a man, and the things he remembered clearly comforted himself that his brain made it up, his imagination is so fucking rich, what are you doing? Don't make up your own Transformers to save the planet too!But the expression was deep: "Then, do you feel disgusted by those things?" Shu Xie Xie Su Qian's expression was subtle for a moment, but soon recovered, and replied paradoxically: "When I was taking a bath just now, I remembered something similar. Seems like it happened."

Yang Shaojun suddenly realized "Oh", and automatically translated his words: "It means that you feel very familiar, that is, you don't feel disgusted."

Su Qian: "..."

After waiting for two or three seconds, Su Qian didn't refute. Yang Shaojun felt relieved and said, "I've waited for you for more than half a year, and I finally got you back. You tell me that you lost your memory, it's okay, you still remember I can, I can help you remember slowly, our life is still the same as before." After Yang Shaojun finished speaking, he hugged Su Qian's shoulder more intimately.He finally found out that since Su Qian's memory is very chaotic, the initiative is in his hands. Some things he says are black and white are white. As long as his attitude is taken for granted, Su Qian can't figure out what happened before. You can only be led by the nose by him.It's not for nothing to be a criminal police officer for so many years, fighting wits and courage with criminals, and the ability to open your eyes and talk nonsense and bragging in the interrogation room is not covered. It is not easy for him, Officer Yang, to fool people!

Su Qian's body stiffened, and he said slowly, "But, I remember, we seem to have broken up."

Yang Shaojun turned pale with shock: "What?! When did this happen?! You really made up your own imagination!"

Su Qian was silent for another two seconds, and his words were not so confident: "I remember a scene, I was sitting in the room, you came in and said a lot of things to me, and the last sentence was that we should break up. Didn't you ?”

Yang Shaojun immediately remembered what happened at that time.But he insisted with certainty: "No! Did you remember something that happened with others? Did Su Wei tell you that in the end you were sent abroad for surgery? As I said, I'll go beg them! If the two of us are not good, how can we!"

Su Qian frowned tightly, trying to sort out that chaotic memory.

Seeing that he was getting more and more confused, Yang Shaojun gradually calmed down, and began to plan for the future by himself: "Hey, let's do this first, it doesn't matter if you don't remember, we get along again, if you can't remember Well, it doesn't matter, I'll chase you again, when you think about it or accept me, then we can live together as before, okay?"

To his surprise, Su Qian shook his head.He said: "I'm sorry, my memory is a bit confused, and I can't figure out many things myself. But before I came back, I thought about it very clearly. No matter why we were together in the first place, we were not suitable."

Yang Shaojun was stunned.

Su Qian went on to say: "I've thought about it for a long time, and it's hard to accept that I'm gay—I was married once, and I have a son, and my son is 13 years old this year. After a while, my My son will take over and live with me. I don't know how he will face the relationship I had with you. And I think what I need in my life is a woman." He stared into Yang Shaojun's eyes, " You know, my job, my identity, I need to contact a lot of media, and I have a lot of entertainment, I can't face this relationship, the society can't accept it, and my family is not satisfied."

Yang Shaojun asked in a hurry: "What's wrong with your family? Don't your two younger brothers like men? Ah? Why can't you? What's wrong with your identity? Didn't you stay with me in the past? God knows It didn't collapse!"

Su Qian stood up, distanced himself from him, and looked at him condescendingly: "This is exactly what puzzles me. To put it bluntly, I can't imagine why I made such a sacrifice in the first place. Being with you. I've been thinking about it, and everything I've been thinking about with you, and it wasn't really that pleasant - so now, sorry and sorry, I think I have to call it quits .”

Yang Shaojun was silent.The word "sacrifice" that Su Qian used pierced his heart hard. At first, it made him unhappy and dissatisfied, but slowly, he began to think again, why did Su Qian "sacrifice" before? The word "love" flashed across his mind, not daring to stay - love was something that no one had the confidence to put it into Su Qian's brain.

After a long stalemate, Su Qian said, "I'm really sorry..."

"No." Yang Shaojun interrupted in a hoarse voice: "You don't have to be sorry, in fact, I thought about it, and I thought about the worst. I'm very happy that you can still stand here and talk to me like this. Seriously, A lot of things are actually my fault."

He stood up slowly propped up on the sofa, and he seemed to be a lot haggard for a moment. It was so hard for a man eight feet tall to stand up.He looked a little frustrated and a little free and easy, shrugging his shoulders pretending to be relaxed and smiling.For some reason, Su Qian suddenly felt that he should take out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, light one and puff out the smoke, smile uncontrollably with the corners of his mouth crooked, and then said, "Oh, it doesn't matter."

But things didn't happen that way. Yang Shaojun didn't say the words "indifferent", but his smile gradually revealed his indifferent attitude. Although he didn't back away, it seemed that he had already distanced himself far away in an instant.He smiled and said, "Since that's the case, then..."

Su Qian thought he was going to tell and leave.Such an easy persuasion was beyond his expectation, but the feeling in his heart was not happy and relaxed.

"But I... don't want to!" Yang Shaojun's expression suddenly changed, his unruly and fearless disappeared, and he became more vulnerable: "'Sacrifice', you are right, you are with me, you have to sacrifice a lot. But I am selfish and shameless to say, any two people together, it is impossible to have nothing to give up. I don't want to let you go, Su Qian, give me a chance, I really like you, I never found that I have I like you so much!"