Capgras delusional syndrome

On the first morning of Yang Shaojun and Su Qian's "same room", Su Qian woke up in a burst of sweet aroma, and saw an electric cooker by the bed, simmering a bowl of cooked millet porridge.Lao Meng hadn't come yet, so it was obvious that Lao Meng hadn't brought him here. He raised the curtain to look at Yang Shaojun, who was sleeping soundly across from him, as if he didn't know anything about it.He hadn't drunk it yet, when Lao Meng came and shook his head when he saw the porridge: "It's too thick, it's not good, I can't drink it!" The last pot of porridge went into his own stomach under Yang Shaojun's resentful gaze.

During the day, Yang Shaojun wandered around Su Qian's bed. After Su Qian approved a report, he immediately went up to him and asked, "Can I read the newspaper to you?" Su Qian said, "I can read it myself." "Then Shall I push you out for a walk?" "I can walk by myself." "I...shall I give you a shoulder squeeze?" "I'm not tired."

"Damn!" Yang Shaojun was angry, "Let's go, I'll accompany you out to bask in the sun, you'll get sick if you're bored in the ward!"

Su Qian put down the official document in his hand, and gave him a fair look: "I'm already sick."

Yang Shaojun: "..."

Su Qian got off the hospital bed, put on his coat, and walked out unhurriedly. Yang Shaojun hurriedly followed.Su Qian said coldly, "I don't need anyone to accompany me to bask in the sun."

Yang Shaojun followed him carelessly: "You post yours, I post mine. It's the same sun."

Su Qian did not express any objection.

The two walked to a lawn. Su Qian sat down on a bench in the lawn. Yang Shaojun sat next to him, leaning on his shoulder. He squinted at Yang Shaojun and said nothing.

Yang Shaojun said: "Comrade roommate, you are always so indifferent, you like to talk to me and don't talk to me. It is difficult for me to enhance our relationship by myself. What a waste of fate."

Su Qian was in a good mood, it was rare that he didn't make a face, and just ignored him.

Yang Shaojun's hand slowly crawled over the back of the chair, hooking his shoulder tentatively, Su Qian coolly squeezed out two words: "Take it away."

Yang Shaojun curled his lips and withdrew his hand.Su Qian glanced at him and thought: It's really rare to let him take it away.It's been a long time since I saw Yang Shaojun treat him positively and negatively. It almost made him suspect that the period of time was really an illusory memory made up by his own brain.

"The weather is nice today." Yang Shaojun began to look for topics.

Su Qian still ignored him.For this kind of guy who shines brightly when given some sunshine, it is the wisest decision to ignore him, otherwise it is equivalent to digging a hole for himself to jump into.This kind of loss has not been eaten in the past.

Yang Shaojun pulled himself together, leaned forward with his upper body, put his elbows on his knees, and looked back at Su Qian: "How is your grades now, little boy?"

He actually showed Su Xiao'an's card as soon as he came up, Su Qian couldn't help but secretly scolded him for being shameless, awkward for a while, and replied with a straight face as much as possible: "It's okay."

"What school do you want to go to?"

"Let's go abroad."

"Huh? Going abroad after high school?"

"There's too much domestic pressure."

"What are children afraid of when they are under more pressure? Exercise their psychological quality. Don't be forced to be bad. They will be able to resist blows when they enter society."

"Resisting blows?" Su Qian couldn't help squinting at him, "As brazen as you?"

Yang Shaojun smiled shamelessly: "I'm overwhelmed and overwhelmed. The revolution has not yet succeeded, and I'm still working hard. It's not shameless enough if I can't take down the bunker." Before Su Qian could blow his beard and stare, he quickly changed the subject: "Besides, I don't see it abroad. Relax, after all, we are not of the same species, social pressure may be greater than academic pressure!"

Su Qian also went abroad to study, so he naturally knew the hard work.With a look of hesitation on his face, Yang Shaojun hurriedly said: "Are you willing to let him go out again? He is so familiar with this environment, and he is reluctant to bear friends, let alone you. He is fourteen or five years old, only three or four years old." Kissing you, it's so easy to have a strong relationship, and you send him out again, it's not good. Boy, you should kiss your father more. "

Su Qian hummed, noncommittal.

Later, throughout the afternoon, Yang Shaojun chatted with Su Qian endlessly.From Su Xiaojuan to Lao Meng, to Su Yi and to that troublesome Li Yaoyao, Yang Shaojun knows everything about Su Qian. Guikou, Su Qian, who can still tease from time to time, couldn't hold back his serious face.Su Qian usually plays the role of decision-maker and manager at home. He does many things in silence, but he can't find anyone to talk to, and because of his personality, he will not take the initiative to talk to someone.Yang Shaojun was like a miner, he pushed through the thick soil, and brought out all the things accumulated in his heart, which made him couldn't help but blurt out how unreliable Li Yaoyao was, and said that because of Rhubarb's The history of mental illness has made him still brood over Su Wei's relationship.Su Qian is not a talkative person. His so-called complaints are only one or two sentences at most, and he even makes people guess with words in his conversation. These words.

Even though Su Qian always reminded himself to be 12 alert, he would still occasionally be in a trance. When he came back to his senses, he suddenly realized that he might have said something to that guy that he shouldn't have said.

At night, when Su Qian was about to fall asleep in a daze, it seemed as if someone took his hand and kissed his forehead, eyes, and the tip of his nose in the dimness. sober.I thought in my heart that if that person commits further misdemeanors, he would open his eyes and kick him so that his lungs would really bleed.But after waiting for a long time, until the warm palm left his hand, the kiss that should have fallen on his lips did not fall.

Su Qian fell asleep.

The next morning, when Su Qian woke up, there was another cup of millet porridge next to the bed. The rice was so thin and rotten that the rice was almost melted.He opened the curtain, but the bed over there was empty, and Yang Shaojun was not there.

At noon, Su Qian stood by the window sill basking in the sun, and saw a man in the uniform of the Public Security Bureau hurrying towards the inpatient department from a distance.A few minutes later, Yang Shaojun appeared at the door of the ward. He had already taken off his uniform and was wearing a hospital gown.

Su Qian asked him: "Will you solve the case with continued enthusiasm when you know that there is little hope?"

Yang Shaojun found that one of the buttons on his hospital gown was fastened wrongly. He lowered his head and unbuttoned the buttons one by one, and then put them on again: "I can't guarantee how much enthusiasm I have, but as long as the case is not solved, even if it has nothing to do with political achievements, even if there is little hope. , I will never give up." He raised his head to look at Su Qian, and said calmly: "This is why I climbed to this position so quickly. I will do my best in public and private. There is hope, there is no impossible case in the world, because I love this profession." Pause for a moment, then laughed, "There is nothing impossible. As long as I understand what I really want."

Su Qian stared fixedly at the scenery outside the window. The sun was shining brightly and the flowers were in full bloom.

Yang Shaojun adopted a roundabout attack this time. He delivered cooked millet porridge every day, and gossiped with Su Qian during his work breaks. He is happy.He used many tricks on the subtleties, but he never mentioned the matter between him and Su Qian, so that Su Qian had no reason to block him if he wanted to.

For one or two days, Su Qian ignored him; for three or four days, Su Qian turned a blind eye to him; for seven or eight days, he ate several cups of millet porridge, and his attitude was neither yin nor yang.

Finally, the night before Su Qian was discharged from the hospital, he found a piece of paper full of words beside his pillow—or, it could be called a love letter.

"Su Qian, I have spent more than two years calming down. I believe you have thought about it a lot during this period of time. I have been thinking about why you suddenly asked me to leave two years ago. Then I thought, maybe It's because of that cigarette. I can't even quit smoking. You really don't have any reason to believe in my perseverance and my commitment. So in the past two years, I have never touched a cigarette again, I promise!"

"I always thought that you have a lot more than ordinary people, family and wealth, but when I got close to you, I realized that's not the case. You need other people's care and care, even if you look so strong on the outside, but you It also has your fragility."

"I gave myself a chance and I gave you a chance to give up. I gave it two years, but you didn't grasp it. Even meeting you again gave me a chance to get close to you. So forgive me for thinking sentimentally, You care about me too, but my sincerity hasn't given you enough sense of security to let you jump into my pit again."

"Su Qian, I like you, your pride, and your bad temper. Give me another chance. I want to cook porridge for you every morning. I want to sit on the sofa and watch TV with you. Listening to how thick your skin is when you criticize me every day, I want to see how bad you are after eating the dishes I cook and then criticize my craftsmanship. I want to hear you dislike my taste and match me with the clothes I wear when I go out I want to accompany you to all the places you want to go, I want to make you happy after making you angry, I want to squeeze your shoulders for you when you are tired, I want you to pat me on the back when I am sad, I want to hug you to sleep, I want to say good morning to you every morning..."

"Su Qian, I want to be your family."

"..."

Yes, from the beginning until now, he has been rejecting Yang Shaojun, but he has been giving him a chance to get close to him.He had just recovered from a catastrophe two years ago, and indeed he had forgotten a lot of things, including why he was entangled with Yang Shaojun. He only remembered how Yang Shaojun had inflicted mental violence on him.But even so, when Yang Shaojun appeared in front of him with a playful smile, there was no hatred in his heart, only confusion—why didn't he hate him, why didn't he hate his hug and kiss.

When he saw Yang Shaojun smoking in the bathroom, and when he was pressed against the door by Yang Shaojun and forced to kiss him, he felt powerless and angry.Yang Shaojun is shameless, he is not really angry, and he is not really disgusted by Yang Shaojun's stalking, but he hates Yang Shaojun's back-and-forth from the bottom of his heart. This aroused anger chains up a lot of fragmentary memories , reminded him of the creepy song "Bless Are The Sick", and reminded him of how many times his expectations had failed in Yang Shaojun's careless heart.This person doesn't even care about his own body, and he can't even quit smoking. Why should he accompany him into the cycle of reincarnation?So when Yang Shaojun came back again, he asked him for a lighter, nothing else, just to see if he was still dependent on nicotine and couldn't control himself.

It's not that he hasn't tried to find a new guardian for Su Xiaohan in the past two years, but just like the first 30 years of his life, no one can make waves in his heart. " and "inappropriate", only "should" and "should not", as if there is only one obnoxious, useless guy who likes to smile crookedly in the world who can wake up the sleeping hormones in his body and break the All his "should" and "appropriate" walls can't help but compromise even when he knows it shouldn't be inappropriate.

Su Qian is not a person who believes in fate, but sometimes, he really thinks that guy is like his nemesis.

When Lao Meng walked into the ward, he saw Su Qian leaning against the head of the bed, holding a piece of paper in his right hand, covering his eyes with his left hand, his body trembling invisibly.Lao Meng glanced at the other end of the curtain. Yang Shaojun was not on the bed, and he didn't know where he had gone.He walked towards Su Qian, only to hear Su Qian say in a slightly nasal voice, "Uncle Meng, give me a pen."

Old Meng Zhanger couldn't figure it out, put down his things, turned around and went out, and after a while, he got back a pen.

Half an hour later, when Yang Shaojun returned to the ward, Lao Meng had already left, and Su Qian lay motionless on the bed, probably falling asleep.He tiptoed over and found that the letter he left beside his pillow had disappeared, and it should have been read.He walked back to his bed with anxiety, and suddenly found a corner of the paper faintly exposed under the pillow, his eyes lit up, and he quickly pulled out the paper.

This piece of paper is his love letter to Su Qian. Under his handwriting, there is a new line of words, which is Su Qian's notes.

"The above is the appeal of the opposition party, and it should not be taken seriously. After becoming the ruling party, everything that was said in the opposition earlier will be a state secret."

Yang Shaojun stared at that sentence, unable to close his mouth for a long time.Dumbfounded, he flattened the paper on the table, found out the pen and wanted to write something, hesitated for a long time, and carefully folded the paper and put it away—some words, written on paper, are clearer and more sensual Can also speak out.But there are some things that are better said in person.

The next day, Yang Shaojun went to sleep, yawned and got out of bed, glanced at the other end of the curtain, and was struck by lightning—Su Qian was gone!All his belongings are gone!

Yang Shaojun rushed to the service desk to ask and found out that Su Qian was discharged from the hospital instead of changing wards. He was so busy running around the police station hospital these days that he was so dizzy that he even forgot that Su Qian was discharged from the hospital today.Fortunately, the little nurse said that Su Qian had just completed the formalities and left not long ago, so Yang Shaojun rushed out without even brushing his teeth.

Su Qian and Lao Meng loaded the luggage into the trunk of the car together, and were about to get in the car, when they suddenly yelled loudly from behind: "Wait a minute!"

Su Qian glanced back, and saw Yang Shaojun running over panting with a chicken coop head that had just woken up, his eyebrows moved slightly, and he turned to Lao Meng and said, "Uncle Meng, get in the car first and wait for me."

Yang Shaojun ran up to Su Qian, and Su Qian looked at him leisurely: "What's the matter, Officer Yang?"

Yang Shaojun took out his wallet from his pocket, opened it, and carefully handed a folded piece of paper to Su Qian: "You forgot to take the state secret."

Su Qian raised his eyebrows and unfolded the paper, only to see that there was another sentence below - "If you have state secrets, you can threaten the ruling party to do anything for you. Please vote for me in the party election." He made an ugly smile.

Su Qian couldn't help showing a little smile, and immediately raised his face and said, "Why?"

Yang Shaojun said, "I will treat you well."

Su Qian said coldly, "I don't need people to treat me well."

Yang Shaojun smiled: "You are lacking. You may not lack people who are courteous to you, but you are lacking people who are good to you."

Su Qian frowned, opened his mouth, did not refute, and said: "You are not the only one who wants to be with me, there must be someone who really likes me."

Yang Shaojun asked back: "Then why haven't you been with those people for two years?"

"You!" Su Qian was furious, his eyes widened, and he said coldly, "You don't have to worry about my business! I can get married when I like."

Yang Shaojun took a step closer, looked into his eyes and said word by word: "You have been struggling, you can't deny it. You want to push me away, but you keep giving me a chance to get close to you. I am good to you. You want to give me a chance , you want to be with me, but you are afraid."

"I..." Before Su Qian could speak, Yang Shaojun interrupted him again.

"You like me." Yang Shaojun said.

Su Qian's pupils shrank slightly, but they still showed no expression of indifference.

Yang Shaojun grabbed his hand and pressed it to his heart: "We are not young anymore, Su Qian, two years is enough, and I have thought clearly enough about the future. I feel that I am getting old, go The kids with schoolbags on the road already call me Uncle. I knew you when I was their age, I have wasted too much time, there are not many years to waste.”

Su Qian rolled his eyes slightly.

Yang Shaojun smiled with his mouth crooked: "Give me a chance to inspect. The right to appoint and remove is in your hands. The evaluation period is for life. If I fail the evaluation, you can let me go naked at any time. If I pass, you can use it. The use period is still You have the final say, if you see a better one, or if you find a more suitable one, you can still let me go. What do you have to be afraid of?" He really called himself a pitiful and helpless person, Su Qian Couldn't help but rolled his eyes slightly, pushed Yang Shaojun away and walked to his car.

Yang Shaojun stood there stupidly, with disappointment in his eyes that could not be concealed, but he tried his best to cheer up again, thinking about the next step and making persistent efforts.

Su Qian opened the car door, stepped into the car with one foot, glanced at Yang Shaojun who was still standing there, raised the corners of his mouth slightly, cleared his throat, and said coldly, "Still in the car? When do you plan to start the assessment period?" start?"

Yang Shaojun's expression changed from bewildered to extremely surprised, and then to cheering. The engine has started, and the car will drive away if he doesn't get in.

"Hello, Su Qian."

"what?"

"I……"

"what?"

"I...you..."

"It's so corny, I don't want to hear it."

"Make me your family."

"it is good."

The author has something to say: the text is over!Please look forward to Su Qian being played by Yang Shaojun in this way and that way!