Fanhua is gone

The slight sound, to Shu Yan's ears, was like five thunderclaps, and his eyes

Staring at Lin Fan wide open, he asked nervously: "Xiao Fan, what did you just say?

? ”

Lin Fan really didn't have the courage to say it again, under Shu Yan's scorching gaze,

Offline, Lin Fan couldn't say anything except silence.

Shu Yan suddenly felt that the world would start to collapse at that time, and his body tensed up.

Straight, raised Lin Fan's chin, watched him word by word and said:

"That sentence just now, you were actually joking with me, right?"

Lin Fan looked at Shu Yan in pain as he murmured his name, because

Because Lin Fan knew that at this time, all words were so powerless.Place

No words can fill the sorrow in their hearts.

With more strength in his hands, Shu Yan clasped Lin Fan's jaw tightly, squinting his eyes

Eye said. "I took that sentence as a joke, so don't say that again.

If so, break up?Don't even think about it, I won't break up with you.you are destined

It can only be mine! "

"Shu Yan..." Lin Fan's face hurt a little from his pinch, "I'm sorry

, it's all my fault, I gave up our relationship, I'm sorry, you

Just pretend you've never met me before..."

Shu Yan lifted Lin Fan's face vigorously, looked at him closely and said in a calm voice

Said: "Just as if I have never met you? Do you think I can do it? You

Everything has long been engraved in my heart and can no longer be erased.At this moment,

How can you make me pretend that I have never met you before! ! ! "

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Lin Fan said mechanically, his heart

It has long been broken into pieces in pain, so uncomfortable, that big piece of my heart is all

All hollowed out.

"I don't want your sorry, what I want is you!" Shu Yan said loudly

roared. "Xiaofan, how can you say that you give up our love like this, I

Didn't we agree that no matter what kind of difficulties we encounter, we will go through together?

did you go?We have so much time left to spend together, you

How can you just quit my life like this? "

"Shu Yan, I don't want to, but I really have no choice, right?

Since then, I have failed our love..."

"Xiaofan, don't say sorry, don't leave me, I can't live without

You, Xiaofan..." Shu Yan hugged him tightly, hugging him tightly

In the middle, said painfully, "You know how much I love you, don't go

, Xiaofan, will you walk with me? "

"Shu Yan..." Lin Fan hugged his body tightly, choked up and said

Said, "I don't want to be like this, I also want to be with you forever, I want to be with you

You are not apart for a moment.But I can't watch dying for my cause

, Shu Yan, what should I do?I hate you, but mother she...

What on earth should I do? "

"Xiaofan, let's think of a way, shall we?

You broke up, I can't live without you...Xiaofan, are you just

Have the heart to watch my lonely life alone? "

Heavy sadness surged to the top of his head, his throat was so sore, Lin Fan was relaxing

In Yan's arms, he said in a low voice: "How could I bear it? It's hard to see you

However, my heart hurts more than a knife cut..."

"Then don't leave me, Xiaofan, I love you, I don't want to bear it anymore

The pain of not having you by my side is gone.I'm going crazy, Xiaofan.

I said I would protect you for the rest of my life.Without me by your side, who will protect

you?Who will give you happiness? "

Shu Yan's words fell on his heart, and Lin Fan's heart felt bitter and sweet,

With Shu Yan loving him so much, he has no regrets in his life.Can

But he couldn't go on walking with the person he loved so much.

The most painful helplessness in my life.

Love can stay together, this is a kind of happiness.

Love but must be separated, this is the greatest pain.

The furthest distance in this world is not between life and death, but between us clearly

So much in love, but unable to be together, at this moment, Lin Fan deeply understood

I understand the helplessness and sadness contained in this sentence.like birds and fish

, this life is destined to only look at each other, but can never cross that horizontal road

the barrier between them.

"Shu Yan, with your love for these years, it is enough for me to remember my whole life.

After you, you can go find other people, you are so good, you will

Find someone who is much, much better than me, and he will give you happiness. " Lin Fan

Talking with difficulty, thinking that in the future, Shu Yan might be with someone else,

His tenderness and his smile belong to others, Lin Fan felt heartbroken

pain.

However, he didn't notice Shu Yan's face that suddenly turned cold.

Shu Yan withdrew his hand, let go of Lin Fan, and said coldly: "You still have to

leave me?No matter what I say, you have decided to separate from me? "

Without Shu Yan's warm embrace, Lin Fan felt chills

However, he had no choice but to nod under Shu Yan's gaze.

And his nodding was like a death sentence to Shu Yan, deep in his heart

The most precious things everywhere collapsed in an instant.

"Xiaofan, let me ask you again, are you really willing to leave me?"

Lin Fan looked at Shu Yan, wanting to reach out and touch that face, wanting to soothe his face.

Shu Yan was overjoyed by the frowning, and hurriedly grabbed his hand and asked.

"Xiaofan, you, do you mean that you won't break up with me?"

Lin Fan smiled wryly: "Shu Yan, thank you for loving me so much, and being with you

The time spent together is the happiest time in my life, since I met you

Afterwards, I realized that love can really make people rejoice from the bottom of their hearts.

With sweetness, I wish you happiness, this life, and a long time to come, you

Can meet a lot of people... forget about me and go have another

Happiness, I'm sorry, forgive me for not being able to accompany you all the way..."

Shu Yan grabbed Lin Fan's hand and said in a low voice, "Lin Fan, are you really

It's cruel, I know very well that it is impossible for me to fall in love with anyone other than you

Other people, you want me to forget you to find someone else?if you can forget

Remember you, during those six years in the United States, I would not miss you so much

Almost mad, you occupy my whole body and mind, but you want me to let you go

Start a new happiness, don't you know my heart only beats for you

?Without you, what happiness do I have? "

As he spoke, Shu Yan stretched out his hand to caress Lin Fan's fair and slender face, gritted his teeth.

and said, "You have taken all my soul. Now you say no

up.What do you want me to do?Maybe I was wrong, I thought you were right about me

Love is as deep as I love you, I thought you were as inseparable as I was

For each other, I thought I would be overwhelmed with pain if you left.Now it seems,

Maybe from the beginning to the end, I am the only one who loves deeply, and you may also

Love me, but not to the extent that I must.so you can

give up on me.Betray our feelings! "

Lin Fan opened his eyes wide and looked at Shu Yan.Can't stop shaking his head.mouth said:

"It's not like that, Shu Yan, it's not what you think. I'm just like you

, without you, my life would be worse than death..."

"Then why did you break up with me?"

"...Sorry...I can only do this..."

"For you, I can give up everything, in this world, only you

, I can't let go, I can betray the whole world for you, what

I don't care about the shit worldly views, I only want you, as long as you are here

By my side, Xiaofan, why can't you give up for me like me?

everything else? Shu Yan roared with red eyes, "As long as we

Let's just be together, let's ignore other things, okay? "

Seeing Shu Yan's crazy expression, Lin Fan felt extremely painful in his heart,

Compared with Shu Yan, his love is far less desperate than Shu Yan's,

Shu Yan can do as long as he is, but he can't let his mother go for Shu Yan.

Fucking life and death.

He can die for Shu Yan, but he can't just watch his mother

mother to die.

He loves Shu Yan, loves him very much, for him, he can give up his life

However, Shu Yan loves him but loves him decisively. Those who love can die for him.

Betray the whole world.

It is easy to die, but it is very difficult to live to betray the world.

His eyes were sore that he couldn't open them, and when he blinked, tears flowed down his cheeks.

down.He raised his head slightly, trying to stop the tears that kept overflowing

.

Shu Yan was already roaring like crazy, but seeing Lin Fan's eyes

After crying, immediately let go of all anger and arrogance, because Lin Fan's tears

Make his heart ache.

He was never willing to make Lin Fan sad, even if he just frowned.

His heart ached badly.

Wiping Lin Fan's tears gently with his hand, he said softly: "Little

Fan, don't cry, I won't yell anymore, it's my fault, I heard you want to break up urgently

I just yelled at you when I got dizzy, I stopped crying, my eyes are swollen...

... "

Lin Fan grabbed his hand, sobbed and said, "No, I'm not

I shed tears because of your yelling, Shu Yan, I'm sorry, I made it so difficult for you

I'm sorry, I originally wanted to give you happiness, I really don't know

In the end, we still can't walk together..."

"Okay, don't talk, you are very emotional now, don't talk

..." Seeing Lin Fan's body trembling and speaking stammeringly, Shu Yan was shocked.

Xin followed him and said in a low voice: "What's the matter, let's talk about it tomorrow, you

What if the body is too weak and too excited to faint again?good, no

Cried……"

tomorrow?The bitterness in Lin Fan's heart continued to magnify, no matter which tomorrow

, can they still be together?

One Hundred and Nine Chapters of Fan Hua

The next morning, when Lin Fan woke up, he felt that the bed was empty, so he hurriedly turned his head to look to his side. There was no one, and Shu Yan was not on the bed.

Feeling a little flustered, she immediately stood up and searched for that figure, but she didn't see Shu Yan in the ward. Lin Fan softly called out to her: "Shu Yan...Shu Yan...are you here?" ?"

There was no response, Lin Fan leaned weakly on the head of the bed, his heart was empty and he couldn't find a place to land.Perhaps this is the best ending. They are destined to be unable to be together, so it is better to leave like this.

His eyes began to moisten again, and his vision became blurred. Lin Fan hated himself for being like this. A big man actually shed tears several times, but his heart really hurt, and the tears flowed out unconsciously.

If Shu Yan was here, he would feel distressed and said softly to himself: "Don't cry, I'm here... But, in the future, who else will coax him so gently, Distressed to help him wipe the tears off his face...

Lin Fan raised his hand and wiped his tears vigorously, he couldn't cry, he had to adapt to a life alone, he was the one who let go first, he hurt Shuguan and gave up their relationship.

The door was pushed open from the outside, and Lin Fan immediately got into bed, not wanting anyone to see him in such a mess.

"Xiao Fan..." It was his mother's voice, Lin Fan curled up under the blanket and pretended to be asleep.

Lin Ruo walked in, sat down on the edge of the bed, looked at Lin Fan with his eyes closed, and sighed softly, "Stop pretending to be asleep, since you were young, when have you successfully pretended to be asleep?"

Lin Fan opened his eyes annoyed, but he didn't look at Lin Ruo, he stared at the ceiling without speaking.

"Xiaofan, mom knows you are very sad now, but mom is doing it for your own good, you will understand later..." Lin Ruo stretched out her hand and gently rubbed Lin Fan's hair, "You are still young, you can't just because of comfort Inflammation ruined your life!"

Lin Fan just looked at the ceiling and pursed his lips, as if he hadn't listened to Lie Linruo's words.

"Come in... Xiaofan is awake..." Lin Ruo said to the door, and then heard someone walking in, Lin Fan turned his head to look, and was startled in his heart. It was Chen Ying who came in.

Thinking of what his mother said about Chen Ying kissing his photo, Lin Fan felt very awkward in his heart. He raised his eyes to look at Lin Ruo, but a smile appeared on her face, and Lin Fan suddenly felt uneasy. Why did Chen Ying come here?

"Xiaoying, come in quickly..." Lin Ruo waved to Chen Ying.

Chen Ying looked at Lin Fan who was lying on the bed, a blush suddenly appeared on his face, and Lin Fan was puzzled when he saw it.

"Xiaofan, Xiaoying rushed in when she heard that I was ill. She is really a good and sensible boy." Lin Ruo took Chen Ying's hand and said with a smile, "Such a good girl, Xiaofan, You can't miss it..."

"Mom!" Lin Fan frowned.

Lin Ruo didn't seem to notice Lin Fan's expression at all, and said to Chen Ying, "Xiaoying, what's your impression of Xiaofan?"

Chen Ying's face turned red all of a sudden, she raised her eyes to look at Lin Fan, and after meeting his gaze, she immediately turned her head away and murmured a few words.

Lin Ruo smiled: "Oh, why are you shy? We are all adults, and it's not a bad thing to have a crush! Xiaoying, my aunt really likes you, but it's a pity that you are not my daughter... ..”

The more Lin Fan listened, the more he felt that something was wrong, and immediately interrupted Lin Ruo: "Mom, I want to rest, I will talk about it later..."

"Xiao Fan!" Lin Ruo glanced at him, and Lin Fan could only ask, "Mom, what's the matter with you?"

Lin Ruo is very satisfied with Lin Fan's performance, "I won't hold hands anymore, Xiao Fan, I like Xiao Ying very much, and Xiao Ying has always had a crush on you, mom wants you to get married... "

"Mom!" Lin Fan looked at her in shock, "Don't talk nonsense here!"

"Mom has always wanted Xiaoying to marry into our family, and just took this opportunity to tell her about it. Xiaofan, do you think Xiaoying is not good enough for you?"

Lin Fan was really anxious now, and said loudly: "Mom, don't be wishful thinking, Chen Ying, she is a good girl, I don't want to delay her!" "

Hearing Lin Fan's words, Chen Ying blushed even more, she lowered her head and looked at her feet with a very shy expression.

Seeing this scene, Lin Fan felt miserable. He couldn't directly tell Chen Ying that he loved Shu Yan, but it was absolutely impossible for him to agree to Lin Ruo's proposal!

"Xiao Fan, have you forgotten what you promised me yesterday?" Lin Ruo knew that Lin Fan would strongly object, and reminded Lin Fan with narrowed eyes.

"I haven't forgotten! I've done what you want! But, Mom, I can't hurt Chen Ying! With me, Chen Ying can't be happy!" Lin Fan said loudly, his All the love was given to Shu Guan, even if he gave up his relationship with Shu Guan, it is impossible for him to accept others!

"Lin Fan..." Chen Ying whispered, "I...I will be happy...as long as I am with you, I will be very happy... .”

Lin Fan felt as if he had been struck by lightning and couldn't move. He didn't expect Chen Ying to say such a thing. He thought it was just his mother's whimsy, but now it seems that this matter is really serious.

Lin Ruo smiled happily, took Chen Ying's hand and said to Lin Fan: "Look, Xiaoying agrees, you are a boy, why hesitate!" Then she said to Chen Ying: "Xiaoying Ying, don't mind, Xiaofan is shy, you know he has always been like this..."

Chen Ying looked at Lin Fan shyly, and said in a low voice, "It's okay, Auntie..." She just likes Lin Fan like this. Since college, she has been secretly in love with Lin Fan for so many years. She met many people, but no one could enter her heart. In her heart, there was always only that slender figure, that delicate and blushing face.

But she knew that Lin Fan didn't like her, so she kept silently watching him from the sidelines, waiting, praying that one day Lin Fan would suddenly notice her and fall in love with her.

So this time when Lin Ruo asked her if she would like to be with Lin Fan, at that moment, Chen Ying felt that her heart was about to jump out of her throat, she tried her best to suppress the beating heart, and she burst into tears. Nodding with a full face.

Even if Lin Fan doesn't like her now, it doesn't matter. Thinking of seeing the person she misses every day in the future, Chen Ying feels that this is already the greatest favor from heaven for her.She will do her best to love Lin Fan, as long as Lin Fan is with her.It doesn't matter even if it's stupid, because for her, being able to be with Lin Fan is already the greatest happiness she can ever hope for.

Lin Fan shook his head desperately, and said to Chen Ying: "Chen Ying, I really can't be with you, really, don't waste your youth on me!"

Chen Ying's eyes darkened, and she whispered, "Lin Fan, I never thought that loving you would waste my youth..."

"..." Lin Fan was dumbfounded, facing Chen Ying's innocent face, Lin Fan didn't know what to say to dispel her thoughts.

Lin Ruo's eyes were full of smiles, "Xiaoying, you will be my daughter-in-law from now on, I am so happy, having such a good daughter-in-law like you is really a blessing from my predecessors!"

Chen Ying blushed, "Uncle, don't laugh at me..."

Lin Ruo smiled and said, "You still call me aunt, shouldn't you change your mouth?"

"Mom!" Lin Fan shouted loudly, "Didn't you just ask my opinion?!"

Lin Ruo glanced at him, "What's your opinion? Don't you listen to your mother? In this case, my mother will decide to accept this marriage. If you want my mother to live a good life for a few years, then Don't say anything, mother has her own measure!"

When Lin Fan was about to say something, there was a bang from the door, and the three of them immediately looked at the door together.

Shu Yan stood there with a frighteningly dark face. There was a food box lying on the ground, and the contents inside spilled out. They were all Lin Fan's favorite food.There was also a can of pork rib soup, which was dripping all over the floor.

Shu Yan's eyes were fixed on Lin Fan, the anger and disappointment in his eyes made Lin Fan's heart clenched, and it hurt very much.

"Shu Yan..." Lin Fan sat up and shouted in a low voice, I thought you had already left, but you were going to make breakfast for me.

"Xiaofan, is what uncle said just now true? Do you really want to marry her?" Shu Yan said gloomyly, with his hands clenched into fists and placed by his side, the back of his hands could be seen with clear veins.

"Xiaofan, don't forget what you promised me in front of my hospital bed yesterday! If you still recognize me as a mother, you will know what to do!" Lin Ruo said in a cold voice from the side.

Lin Fan's head was buzzing. On one side was Shu Yan's angry and lonely face, and on the other was Lin Ruo's pale and bloodless face. He had a severe headache. He opened his mouth, but he couldn't say anything. Unable to speak.

Shu Yan strode over, grabbed Lin Fan's wrist and raised it, said in a low voice: "Xiao Fan, you won't leave me, right? I won't let you leave, we said we would be together! "

Lin Fan looked at Shu Yan with deep helplessness in his eyes, "Shu Yan...I...uh..."

Shu Yan lowered his head and directly blocked his mouth, pressed the back of his head and kissed him fiercely, until Lin Fan was almost out of breath, Shu Yan let him go, stared into his eyes, and said: "You don't care at all. Can't refuse my touch, Xiaofan, you still want to leave me like this?"

"Xiaofan, are you really going to piss me off?!" Lin Ruo screamed, her body trembling constantly, and Chen Ying rushed up to support her.

"Xiao Fan, if you don't promise mom today, mom will die in front of you!" Lin Ruo shouted at Lin Fan loudly.

Lin Fan turned his head to look at Lin Ruo, then at Shu Yan, and finally said: "Shu Yan, I'm sorry, I...I can't go on with you, if I can, I will I want to give you happiness, sorry, forget about me..."

Before Lin Fan said a word, Shu Yan's heart sank a little, and when he finished speaking, Shu Yan couldn't find where his heart fell, he only knew that the pain in his heart was severe.

Looking at Lin Fan's bloodless face, Shu Yan suddenly smiled, but the smile was dark and terrifying: "Lin Fan, I have loved you with all my life, but in exchange for you, I'm sorry, If I knew that there would be such a day, even if I buried this love forever, I would not use it to love you!"

"I put all my love on you. Now, you don't want it anymore, and I can't get it back. Let them die in Zeng Qing's memory!" Shu Yan's face twisted, with deep hatred "Lin Fan, you took all my love away, but made me forget you. Very well, then it will be as you wish. From now on, I will never have you in my life again!"

"Lin Fan, in this lifetime, I will never forgive you! Do you want to marry that woman? Hehe, can your body really hold a woman? Can you still get excited by a woman?" Shu Yan Completely ignoring Lin Fan's increasingly pale face, he said viciously, "I've done it so many times, now you're going to hug a woman, do you know how to excite her?"

"Shu Yan, don't say any more... Please, don't say any more..." Lin Fan murmured in despair. Shu Yan's words were like a sharp knife. Cut on his heart, his heart will never be whole again.

Shu Yan squeezed his chin forcefully, and said ruthlessly: "I thought we could be together forever, I thought my love could make you let go of your worries! When you frown, my heart hurts. If you smile at me, I am so happy that I can die for you immediately! I love you so much, but you are so determined to betray our relationship! Lin Fan, you are so cruel, won’t your heart ache? ?!

"Don't say any more, Shu Yan, don't say any more... Please don't say any more..."

"Lin Fan, should I be glad that when I was 24 years old, you made me understand that you are not worthy of my love?! You are right, what is so good about you, why should I waste my love On you?! I will definitely find something better, I don't believe I can't live without you, Lin Fan!"

After finishing speaking, Shu Yan let go of his hand and walked towards the door. Lin Fan watched helplessly as his determined back was getting further and further away from him, his hands trembling, but he couldn't reach out to hold him back.

When he reached the door, Shu Yan stopped suddenly, then took out a delicate box from his bosom, turned to Lin Fan and said, "I originally planned to wear this ring for you when we got married, but now, It's useless. However, since it was given to you, I don't plan to take it back. I will destroy everything related to you in the future. This ring should be buried with our relationship!"

Saying that, Shu Yan let go of his hand, the box fell onto Chi, rolled a few times, and rolled under the hospital bed.

Then Shu Yan left without looking back, Lin Fan knew that this time, he and Shu Yan would really say goodbye forever.

At this moment, Lin Fan's heart was completely torn apart. Lin Fan tried his best to stand up and climb out of the bed. He reached under the bed and groped, and finally found the box. Trembling, Lin Fan took it out and opened the lid. Inside was the pair of him and his wife. The diamond ring that Shu Yan chose.

Staring blankly at the pair of diamond rings for a long time, Lin Fan finally cried bitterly while holding them...

He and Shu Yan could not get together after all...

When the prosperity was over, he was still unable to hold Shu Yan's hand and walk through this life...