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Amis brought Nie Bogu to the performance hall, which is a large dome-like building, a typical "dome". The unique design enables more people to enjoy the performance.

"There are performances on the seven days of the Academy Festival, and each grade is responsible for each day. Yesterday was the performance of the first grade. It's a pity that sir didn't see Behemoth's performance. It can only be described as pefer!" Amis said. Watching Nie Bogu turn left and right in the labyrinth-like corridors, he explained: "Today is the performance of the second graders. I heard that they prepared a stage play and invited Behemoth to play a guest role. They are now It should be getting ready backstage...ah, here we are, I'm right."

After passing through a light curtain, Nie Bogu found that they seemed to have come to an observation room, and through the transparent film, they could clearly see everything that was busy preparing underneath.

"The script they prepared seems to be called "Jihad"?" Amis pointed down: "Behemos is there. It is said that his role is a sea monster called 'Leviathan'."

Nie Bogu looked down along Amis' fingertips, and saw jealousy in the crowd at a glance.Today's stage plays are by no means as polite as the old days when they read lines and do actions. Star Wars and Mech Warfare are indispensable elements in the script, and armed fighting is the most important thing.Star Wars is too grand, even the aircraft is a small drop in the ocean, and more attention is paid to the power of group command; people in the mecha war are enclosed in the thick mecha, and the performance of the mecha is better than that of the inside. People who are more attractive to the audience; and although armed combat is also wearing armor, it is only a thin layer of "clothes"-compared to mechs, it is really as thin as paper-so armed combat is more With skill and conflict, it can better reflect a person's strength and create a "hero", which is usually the highlight or climax of a stage play.The gray-haired boy was carefully cleaning the armor at this time, and the pure smile on his eye-catching face repeatedly made people passing by him pay attention to him. importance in the play.

At this time, a girl was pushed to the point of jealousy by her companions. The girl's face couldn't be more red, and her companions laughed in good faith.Jealousy put down the armor in his hand, stood up and smiled brightly at the girl.The innocent smile on the boy's face seemed to comfort the girl, and the girl handed something out with a blushing face, and Nie Bogu recognized it as a silver lock.Jealousy seemed to be scratching his short, fluffy gray hair shyly, taking it and thanking him with a smile.The shyness of the girl and the shyness of the boy all constitute a sweet and poetic picture.

"Your son is very popular." As soon as he said the words, Amis realized that the sentence was too much. He quickly glanced at Nie Bogu, wondering if the man noticed the sentence just now. ridicule.Amis immediately added another sentence, trying to create a joking tone: "I bet that the silver lock Behemos received today can be fused into a new mecha!"

"……kindness."

After being blank for a while, Nie Bogu hummed in agreement or responded. From the perspective of Amis, the man's face was a little paler than before, and there were no other special signs.

Amis couldn't care less: "Sir, you don't plan to go down and talk to Bechymos?"

Nie Bogu's eyes wandered a little, and finally "floated" to Amis: "No, no... I just came to see him..."

"Why don't you go down? Behemoth will be glad to know you're here."

Nie Bogu looked down, then turned back to look at Amis, his gaze was indescribable.

Feeling a little uncomfortable being stared at by that stare, Amis persuaded him from another angle: "Maybe sir, you can stay and watch today's performance. I missed Behemoth's performance yesterday, so I can't miss it again today."

This time Nie Bogu did not refuse, but nodded.

"From here, you can go directly to the auditorium." Amis suppressed the excitement in his heart, and pointed to another exit of the room: "I will accompany you here, sir. I wish you a good time in the Royal Academy."

Nie Bogu nodded his thanks to Amis, watched the brown-haired youth disappear behind the light curtain, and curled his lips in disdain.

In front of the people who used to be the Seventh District, Amis's clumsy cover-up is less interesting than the red-light street girl's striptease.If he wants to pretend, Nie Bogu will accompany him to pretend, and the other party will come to him on his own initiative. If he tears his face, he still doesn't know what the other party will do. It's better to maintain the illusion of harmony and pretend to be a snake with the other party. Seeing the opportunity, this is what the former "fat man" was best at.Anyway, it was that guy who proposed to guide the way, and Nie Bogu just took advantage of the trend to achieve his goal.So along the way, the two people who had their own ghosts didn't even share their names—Amis didn't want to reveal more information about himself, and Nie Bogu didn't care at all—Nie Bogu even thanked Amis, he How long has it been since I've been "awake" like this?

When Nie Bogu looked down again, the girl and her companion had already left, and the jealousy returned to its original posture, as if nothing happened just now.The black-haired man slid on the ground leaning on the railing, his black eyes staring blankly at the void in front of him.Ever since he came to the fourth district, Nie Bogu has been in a strange state of excitement. His brain is blank, but his body is unbearably excited.He knew why, the silent figure of the dark king still remained on his retina, extremely vivid.

Father, if we are wrong why do we exist.

How sad his first child must be to say such self-denying words.Nie Bogu curled up his body, hugging his knees with his hands, thinking blankly.Aisha once said to him like this: "Fatty, they all say that you are rough-skinned, blindly optimistic, you won't get hurt no matter how you bully them, and you only know how to live heartlessly. That's actually because you didn't let them go." In my heart, how could it be hurt? You give me the feeling that you are the king in your world, you will always be the only king in your kingdom, and you hardly let others into your kingdom, you are stingy You don’t even want to have the right—because it represents a corresponding obligation. No matter how much other people want to enter your kingdom, even if you stand on the tower and watch them anxiously and piously around the city wall Round and round, you are still unmoved. You even give them the opportunity to enter the kingdom to perform, my dear, you are so selfish that people can't help it."

Obscene, bullying, heartless, selfish... almost any negative adjective can be attached to him.Elsa was right, he was selfish, hopelessly selfish — other people's selfishness came in the form of being self-absorbed, and his selfishness was in the form of neglecting others.Fortify his castle against all who try to invade, including his children.His children tried to invade his kingdom, which caused his strong refusal.

--is that so?

Before this, Nie Bogu thought so, until the moment when he fled from the laziness in embarrassment, the sour commotion in his heart reminded him of a fact: in fact, from a long time ago, he might have put his children Welcome to his kingdom.If they were all irrelevant people, he wouldn't be angry, sad, or even driven to the point of breaking down.Nie Bogu will definitely live heartlessly. Being raised is just like changing his master. Facing them is no different from facing Emerson. Even if he is raped, he will not react much. You must know that people in the seventh district have always had no morals, so don't worry about it so much if everyone is happy.

Nie Pangu has subconsciously placed them in the position of "children". He is an orphan and has never felt the so-called fatherly love, so he can only imagine the relationship between the two parties based on the "normal father-son relationship" he heard. get along.Before Nie Bogu did a good job of psychological construction and worked hard for the relationship between father and son, the relationship between them had already ushered in devastating damage.

If we're wrong... But Father, you never taught us.

A son is full of mistakes, and everything is lost.Is this... is it self-inflicted?After going around in a circle, it turned out that the culprit was still him.Nie Bogu squinted his eyes and thought, he was one step too late, so everything about them was distorted, and the corrupted relationship entwined him and his child like dark spider threads, cutting them constantly and making them unclear.

Then Nie Pangu escaped from laziness, and he felt that he needed to escape from himself even more.The thoughts in his brain were torn into pieces by the young man's sad and powerless posture. Nie Pangu could only instinctively choose the first goal from the pile of fragments - to meet Jealousy, so Nie Pangu came to the Royal Academy.He knew that none of "they" followed, because he no longer felt the pressure of being watched by the darkness.This made Nie Bogu relax subconsciously. He stayed in the quiet observation room without being disturbed by anyone. His brain, which was forced to rust and solidify, finally became active. The memory of Nie Bogu seemed to be a little Get it back one by one.

Nie Bogu began to have a vague conceptual idea in his heart, but that idea was so hazy that even he couldn't understand it exactly.He thought that when he fully understood what he missed in his heart, that would be the day he could face his child completely.

Nie Bogu pulled out a vague smile, and a deep sense of sadness welled up from his throat.

—Who will tell him what he wants most now?

***

"You know..." A deep voice filled the darkness: "Did I just dream about something?"

The silver-haired young man who was sorting out the documents in his hand raised his head in surprise, and looked at the black-haired young man leaning against the door.

"uh-huh?"

"I dreamed." The dark red light dimmed and brightened in the darkness, but the black-haired young man blinked: "My first meeting with my father."

"Father was frightened and ran away."

"I looked at him and decided: I'm going to get him, I'm going to keep him with me."

In the darkness, apart from the slowly flickering scarlet light, there is also a touch of silver metallic luster, which is an inverted cross earring.

"Father ran away again today."

"I can hardly control it." The plain voice seemed to be saying the most common thing, but it made the silver-haired young man freeze up: "I almost brainwashed my father."

"I don't know..." Laziness and blood-red eyes swept across, and the voice was full of lethargy without a trace of ups and downs: "How long can I bear it?"

I have never heard of Laziness finishing such a long speech at once, but this phenomenon makes Lust feel that it is not a good sign. He wanted to say something, but he couldn't speak at all.

"Father will stay in the fourth district recently." As if he had finished what he wanted to say, Lazy stood up straight and walked towards the darkness, the black gradually engulfed his figure: "I must sleep, don't wake me up, I can't restrain myself anymore ..."

Lust looked at the disappearing figure of laziness, and then looked at the information about the auction in his hand, and his mood suddenly became extremely bad.Gluttony is not on Norton now, and the heartbroken Gothic Mrs. decided to vent his grievances with gluttony. For Gluttony, his gluttony must use the planet as the unit; arrogant to monitor the last three areas, recently Because of the Interstellar Auction, there was an endless stream of people coming to Norton Star, a mixed bag of fish and dragons, which caused some riots in the fifth, sixth, and seventh districts.For a while, even the air was much lonely.

The silver-haired young man gently circled the red mole at the corner of his eye with his fingertips, and whispered softly:

"father, 'Sin lies at the door. It will desire you, but you will subdue it.'" (Genesis 4:7)