occupy

Not long after New Year's Day, Yan Zuer came back from England, and within a few days, the school began to go on winter vacation, Ling Shuo moved back to his home so that he could be with Yan Zuer, as for the engagement, it was not the two of them to worry about of.

Although Ling Shuo was with Yan Zuer, he would still call Gu Yu every day, just to remotely monitor Gu Yu's eating situation.

This made Yan Zuer feel "jealous". She really wanted to see the "nanny" Ling Shuo dated with her but was rejected by Ling Shuo with a sullen face.

Yan Zu'er left a small lump in her heart, she smiled and didn't mention it anymore.

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Shi Li has a feeling that this time, she will really have trouble getting through it, even this year that is so close at hand, she doesn't know if she can get through it.

Gu Yu wants to send her to the hospital, but she refuses to go, because it costs money to go, and the disease cannot be cured, otherwise, she would not have relied on Gu Yu for so many years. If she could be cured, she would have died. There is no need to wait until now to go to the hospital.

It's just that she can't worry about her Yu'er, and there is still a secret buried in her heart.

She was afraid to say it out, her Yu'er was already suffering enough, what would happen to Yu'er if she heard the secret she told?It will become more bitter.

"Cough cough." Shi Li covered her mouth with a handkerchief and coughed lightly. When Gu Yu came in with a bowl of steaming traditional Chinese medicine in one hand and opened the curtain with the other, she hurriedly hid the handkerchief under the quilt, raised her head and smiled softly. , Said: "Yu'er, be careful, don't burn yourself."

Gu Yu put the medicine on the small table next to his mother's bed before speaking: "It's okay, it's not hot. Mom, what do you want to eat today, I'll buy it later."

Shi Li gently lifted the hair on Gu Yu's forehead with her skinny fingers, and said, "I want to eat roast chicken and tofu."

"Okay, I'll buy it after Mom finishes drinking the medicine, and now I'll go outside to do my homework." After speaking, Gu Yu turned around.

Shi Li hurriedly grabbed Gu Yu, let him sit by the bed, and said, "Yu'er, talk to mom for a while."

"En." Gu Yu responded lightly, seeing his mother's pale and ugly face, he felt very sad, so sad that he wanted to shed tears, but he couldn't.His mother refused to go to the hospital, and always looked at him with a very reluctant look. He vaguely knew that his mother's illness was dying.

He is the same as his mother, he does not point out, the mother is reluctant to bear him, and he is also reluctant to bear the mother, it seems that as long as he smiles, the heaviness that weighs people down will disappear.

But they all know that this is just self-deception!

Death dwells under their roof.

Shi Li asked: "Yu'er, why don't you go to your classmate Ling Shuo during this time? Is it...?"

Gu Yu also knew what his mother didn't ask, and said with a light smile: "Mom, don't worry, Ling Shuo didn't fire me, it's just winter vacation, he wants to go back to live at his house, he just told me to go there for a week Just clean the house once. And, mom, you can see that he calls me every day."

Shi Li also laughed, and a thought suddenly came to her mind, but there was no way to do it, maybe the child would agree, she had to try, didn't she?

"Yu'er hasn't even told mom, what does Ling Shuo call and talk to Yu'er every day?"

"Mom, why didn't I tell you that he was urging me to eat more every day."

"Hehe, seeing that Yu'er has friends who care about her, my mother is very happy! If one day my mother really leaves, Yu'er will still have friends."

"Mom, you'll be fine." Gu Yu heard Shi Li's words, his eyes turned red, his voice became hoarse, and he couldn't continue talking. He hurriedly picked up the medicine on the table, and said in a relaxed tone: " Mom, I've taken the medicine, it's not hot anymore."

Shi Li took the medicine and drank it, put the bowl back on the table by herself, then took the clear water brought by Gu Yu and rinsed her mouth. Seeing that Gu Yu was about to leave the room with the empty cup and medicine bowl, she said, "Yuer, What Mom said is true. My own body knows it. I can still speak while I am in good spirits. Yu’er grows up, now I know, Yu’er is a strong child, so even if mom is gone, don’t be afraid of Yu’er, mom will watch you in the sky.”

Speaking of this, Shi Li paused for a moment before continuing: "Besides, Yu'er, your mother is gone, and you are not alone. In fact, your father is still here."

When she finally said it, Shi Li breathed a sigh of relief, but looking at her son's stiff back, she couldn't imagine the sadness on his son's face.

There was silence in the air.

Shi Li watched her son's stiff back tremble slightly, the corners of her eyes sparkled, her throat was choked, and she opened and closed her lips a few times before she spoke: "Yu'er, come here, listen to what Mom has to say, If I don’t speak out now, I’m afraid that I won’t have the courage and determination to speak out again.”

Gu Yu wiped his face with his sleeve a few times, took an empty cup and bowl, turned around and sat down beside the bed, sniffed lightly, forced a smile and said: "Mom, tell me, I'll listen. As long as Mom, don't say those words that have no chance, I feel sad. Mom will live a long time and watch me get married and have children in the future. "

"Well, of course mom wants to. Mom also wants to see Yu'er's girlfriend, but mom doesn't want to lie to Yu'er because Yu'er is getting older." Shi Li raised her hand and gently stroked Gu Yu's face. The words have been hidden in Mom's heart for more than ten years, and Yu'er should know about it. It's just that Mom hopes that Yu'er will not blame Mom after hearing it."

"Mom, no, I won't blame mom." Gu Yu said hastily.

"Hehe, Mom felt relieved when she heard Yu'er say that. Yu'er, you have been sensible since you were a child, and Mom also knows that you have suffered a lot of grievances outside. Several times you came back crying and asked me why I didn't have a father, while others Yes, I still remember beating you hard and spanking your ass. Afterwards, you never asked again. In fact, it was your mother and your father who were sorry for you and made you suffer with us. Me and yours Dad is a cousin by blood, and because they were in love with each other, they were discovered by their family members, so they eloped, and then they changed their names and settled down in a corner of the city."

"Our family is not a big family, but a small family in the countryside. After so many years, or we are no longer here, even if we are here, we will be forgotten. Think about it, your father and I are really unfilial! Whether it is In the past or now, an unethical relationship like that between me and your father is regarded as an outrageous thing in the countryside; we fled from the countryside to the city for our own love, and we lived a very hard life without education and experience. But we have love, and everything doesn’t feel bitter.”

"Not long after I came to this city, I became pregnant with you. I was in a panic at the time. Children born to close relatives are too prone to problems. However, your father liked your arrival and was looking forward to your birth. He said, no matter you are Anyone who is deformed or mentally handicapped will love you. There is no woman who will not be moved by such words. "

"Because of this, life is even more difficult. In order to let me eat better and make you look better, your father did everything. At that time, your father was the only one. Later, when you were born, your father Dad was overjoyed, because apart from a dark scar on your forehead, your intelligence is completely normal, and your body is also..." Shi Li suddenly stopped, and the words [body is also completely normal] stuck in her throat. not coming out.

But Gu Yu didn't recognize it, and asked instead: "Is it my leg?" Gu Yu thought that his leg was born with a disability, but at this moment, hearing from his mother, it seems that there are other reasons for the disability of his left leg.

A deep sadness quickly passed away from Shi Li's eyes, and the hand that gently touched Gu Yu's face also dropped down, put it on the quilt, and continued to say softly: "Your left leg is your father's careless hand." Broken."

"Yeah." Gu Yu whispered in shock, his eyes widened, full of puzzlement.

"Yu'er, your father loves you very much. Every time he came back from working outside, he said that seeing the cute Yu'er, he would forget all the hard work. At that time, Yu'er was only one and a half years old, and he liked to cling to you very much. My father, as long as it is evening, Yuer will wait at the gate of the courtyard to wait for your father. Because he will always bring back some snacks for Yuer, hehe, I think Yuer must be bought by those good-looking snacks Yes. Your father likes to tickle Yu'er the most, who makes Yu'er smile beautifully and nicely. What Yu'er likes most is to let your father hold you and fly high."

Speaking of this, Shi Li's eyes darkened, and almost all the sadness buried in her heart welled up.

Gu Yu suddenly also felt a throbbing pain in his left leg, and various chaotic images seemed to flash before his eyes...