My Xiangshan

Gu Xi went south by train, and it was another year of Spring Festival rush.He and Xiangshan took the train for 13 hours in a row, so this time, he deliberately chose the green leather car, as if every part of the car has the shadow of Xiangshan.

In the crowded carriage, people from all over the world were chatting freely. Gu Xi was sitting by the window. If he got on the train at 12 o'clock at night, he would arrive at noon the next day.

In the early hours of the morning, the carriage gradually quieted down. The three or five players who played cards also lowered their voices. Those who sat on the ground and waited to go home closed their eyes, half dreaming and half awake.

The uncle next to him avoided the people in the aisle and walked forward cautiously. After filling the instant noodles with hot water, he walked back slowly step by step.

"Young man, are you going home to visit relatives too?"

Gu Xi couldn't sleep, it was pitch black outside the window, his sight drifted far away, but was pulled back again.

"At the end of the year, it's time to go home."

After hearing this, Gu Xi just smiled habitually.

"By the way, I didn't see your lover, so I went back alone?"

Gu Xi thought for a while, then shook his head:

"I'll go find him, and then we can be together."

After getting off the train, Gu Xi realized that he was not familiar with this place that he hadn't been to for nearly 20 years.When I got out of the platform, I didn't know where to go.

How could he be sure that Xiangshan would be here, standing on the same land as him.

But he just got on the train resolutely, without any extra thoughts.

Sometimes Gu Xi felt that Xiangshan was far away from him, he couldn't see it or touch it, and every minute and every second was a torment.Sometimes I feel that he is actually very close to me, and I seem to be able to feel him when I breathe.

At the end of the new year, this southern provincial capital city is extremely busy, pedestrians look hurried, and occasionally someone speaks, speaking the local dialect that he barely understands.

Gu Xi found a small restaurant, sat down and ordered a bowl of beef noodles, and the heat rushed over his face.

The pace of life here seems to be relatively slow. The boss was chatting with regular customers, and asked Gu Xi by the way: "Your accent is from the north."

Gu Xi smiled and said:

"I'm here to find someone, and if I find someone, I'll go back to celebrate the New Year together."

The boss shook his head:

"It's not easy to wander outside, I'll add some soup for you." After speaking, he scooped up a spoonful of broth and added it to Gu Xi.

Gu Xi thanked him, and after eating the noodles, his body began to warm up, and he embarked on the journey again.

He thought that Xiangshan must be somewhere in this city.

After inquiring all the way, he went to the factory where the two of them practiced. This is a branch factory under the state-owned enterprise, and the scale is larger than before.

In fact, Gu Xi also has a subsidiary here, but he didn't tell anyone, even He Ping didn't know the whereabouts of the boss.

He wanted to find Xiangshan quietly by himself.The initial anxiety in Gu Xi's heart has dissipated, and it seems that this kind of escape and pursuit has become a passion. He wants to travel all over the city and find Xiangshan slowly.Gu Xi had an urge to rub him into his body.

He inquired at the security office of the factory, but no one had come in recently.

As the Spring Festival approached, every household was busy buying new year's goods. Gu Xi, an outsider, walked on the street, looking out of place.

He went to the rental house where he lived temporarily. It was close to the city center and in an inconspicuous alley, but it had not been demolished for a long time.

The owner of the house was a middle-aged man at the time, and now he is in his early sixties. The little grandson followed at his feet, and when he saw a stranger, he immediately shrank behind his grandfather.

"You mean the room upstairs? I haven't rented it for ten years. It's used to store groceries. It's no good. It has been in disrepair for a long time, and it leaks every time it rains. I can't rent it to others, so I have to use it myself."

Gu Xi looked up, the hut was covered with green vines, it should be a unique scenery in summer, cool and pleasant.

Although the wall is mottled, it is not like what the owner said, it cannot be repaired and can only be piled up with sundries.

Gu Xi lost his target and strolled through alleys one after another. These places may have been preserved as urban features, but they are not quite the same as before.

He couldn't even find the street where he held hands with Xiangshan for the first time, it was near here in his impression.

It was raining heavily that day, Xiangshan wore few clothes, neither of them had an umbrella, so when they walked across the road, they were inevitably drenched in the rain.Gu Xi asked him, "Are you cold?"

Before he could answer, he held Xiangshan's hand, which was cold.Gu Xi wrapped it in his palm, rubbed it lightly, then lowered his head to breathe.Gu Xi still remembers these things clearly until now, but in reality, it is difficult to find that street and that person.

Walking in front of the Song family's old house without knowing it, Gu Xi looked up. The first time he was surprised, but after another 20 years, he just felt barren.

This is a typical old house in the south of the Yangtze River, with three entrances and three exits. There was originally a pair of stone lions at the entrance, and there were carved beams and painted buildings inside.Xiangshan said that it originally extended from West Street to the east corner, covering a wide area.In the past six years or so, a part was dismantled, and it was reduced to a simple framework with three inputs and three outputs.

After the Song family moved to the north, they have been asking distant relatives to take care of the ancestral house, but they don't know what its future fate will be.

Gu Xi still remembered that there was an aunt here who sold roasted sweet potatoes for a living. After the rain stopped that day, Gu Xi rushed out and bought two big sweet potatoes, and held them in Xiangshan's arms to keep warm.

After searching for a long time, he finally saw the sweet potato stand in the alley behind the mansion. After nearly 20 years, the aunt became an old woman.

"Grandma, weigh me two big ones."

The old man's ears are not good, and his movements are slow. He dug out two big hot sweet potatoes from the stove, slowly opened the bag, and put them in.

Gu Xi took out a whole sheet and stuffed it into the old man's hand:

"You don't need to look for it, go back early to celebrate the New Year after closing the stall."

Turning around, I vaguely saw a long furry tail at the end of the alley, shook it left and right twice, and then disappeared.

Gu Xi stepped forward quickly, and quickly walked through the long alley. One person and one dog hadn't gone far. The little chubby dog's pointed ears were erect. It hadn't been bathed for a few days, and its body was quite dirty. At this time, it seemed to smell The smell of roasted sweet potatoes made me unable to walk.

"day by day……"

Gu Xi called them to stop, the little guy didn't understand why, he paused for a while, then turned around.This was the first time in Gu Xi's memory that Tian Tian smiled at him.

The little guy was listless, and followed Xiangshan with his head down. When he saw Gu Xi, his black eyes sparkled, he raised his head and barked twice, and then tugged at Xiangshan's trousers.

In fact, the little chubby dog ​​loves to smile very much. He grins and sticks out his tongue. The arc of his smile makes people feel relaxed and happy, but it seems that he likes to show his sharp teeth to Gu Xi more.

Gu Xi didn't think that this troublemaker would be so cute, maybe it was the one who brought Xiangshan to him again and again.Xiangshan also turned back, it seemed that he had not left the sweet potato stand for a long time, and the roasted sweet potato in his hand was still steaming.

Gu Xi walked over, didn't speak, looked down first, and sure enough, there were two big ones, he raised his hand, and handed him something that proved the tacit understanding between the two: "Don't tell me it's just a coincidence, or you're hungry , happened to pass by there."

Xiangshan nodded:

"Well, but Tiantian and I can just finish off two big sweet potatoes."

Xiangshan took Gu Xi to his rented house, he guessed right, it was still the same room, entwined with green vines all year round.

The owner was quite embarrassed, so he had to explain to Gu Xi:

"It's true that the house hasn't been rented out for many years. This gentleman insisted on living in it, so I had to rent it to him for a few days."

Gu Xi understood, smiled and said:

"I'm giving you trouble."

The two went up the old iron stairs outside the house. The little chubby dog ​​was timid, and his little paws stuck to the steps of the stairs, for fear of stepping on air and falling.

Gu Xi picked it up, the little guy was like a rabbit, folded its ears, closed its eyes and shivered.

Xiang Shan stroked the little chubby dog's tail reassuringly, and followed behind.

After returning home, there was not much communication. The two of them and the dog shared the hot sweet potatoes. The little chubby dog ​​tilted his head to look at Xiangshan, then at Gu Xi, and then sat down at his master's feet contentedly hugging his stomach.

Gu Xi stretched out his hand habitually, wrapping Xiang Shan's hands in his palms:

"Cold?"

Xiang Shan put his hand on Gu Xi's face, warming him in turn:

"not cold."

Gu Xi took him into his arms and leaned his head on Xiangshan's shoulder. At this moment, he couldn't control his voice: "Why did you leave without saying a word?"

Xiangshan was not feeling well, he couldn't hide it, so he had no choice but to keep silent.

"I've been looking for you in many places, and I'm afraid you won't come back if you go far away. You don't want me anymore, what should I do?"

Tian Tian's pointed ears moved and then drooped down, as if he also felt lost for Gu Xi.

Xiangshan patted him on the back lightly, comforting him silently.

"I don't know why, but I have a hunch that you are here. I took the train all night, and then I searched aimlessly on the street. But this city is so big, the chance of meeting you is really too small .”

After Gu Xi calmed down a bit, Xiang Shan asked him to sit down and talk.

"In the beginning, Master asked me to come over to see a batch of new machines, which were developed by his old classmates. This was originally a business, but..."

"You went to see Song Yu that day, what did he tell you?" Gu Xi had already guessed that it probably had something to do with Xiangshan's visit to the prison.

He also remembered that one night, Xiangshan had a nightmare, shook off his hand, sweated coldly, and slowly recovered with the little chubby dog ​​in his arms.

"You have a lot of things you can't let go of, so you leave without saying goodbye?"

Xiangshan shook his head:

"I just want to use these few days to clear my mind." He held Gu Xi's hand, not knowing how to continue.

Gu Xi knew that what happened in the past few years could not be let go overnight, he sighed lightly: "Forget it, I'm tired, let's rest early."