Joy of Rebirth

As night fell, the street lights beside the cement road lit up one by one. From a distance, the lights were connected in two straight lines, as if to tell the prosperity and indifference of the city.

Le Xiaoyao walked away from Lei Shuo's house for nearly an hour to become a monk, and Lei Shuo's house was also an hour's drive away from the city. Le Xiaoyao swayed and thought, rich people are really sick. They moved away from the city center one by one.Maybe that's the difference between the poor and the rich, though.

Le Xiaoyao recalled the scene just now, he came out of the bathroom, Lei Shuo, who was still in love not long ago, stood in front of the window to answer the phone, his tall and slender body against the backdrop of night and dusk.He was going to make a cup of tea for his lover, but he vaguely heard Lei Shuo say, "Baby... don't worry, I'll tell him tomorrow that I broke up with him..." "...Well, baby, Xi PP is waiting for me at home... "...I won't let you get out of bed if I don't fuck you tonight."

Le Xiaoyao let go of the cup, and the teacup fell to the ground with a loud 'bump' sound. He didn't have the courage to look at Lei Shuo's expression, so he squatted down hastily to clean up the broken teacup.

In a hurry, his hand accidentally touched the edge of the disk, and the bright red blood seemed to find an outlet, scrambling to emerge from the wound.

He stared blankly at his index finger, blood was dripping drop by drop on the broken disk, and the scattered blood gave off a tempting and abstinent fragrance.With a blank mind, he had no idea what to do.

A hand stretched out in front of him, Le Xiaoyao just looked at that hand with clear bones, with a callus on the tip of the food, and he knew he had been using the computer for a long time.And his hands are black and rough, no matter how they are maintained, they are still the same.

Lei Shuo held the OK sticker. He didn't want to hurt the person in front of him. He remembered that when he first met Le Xiaoyao, those black eyes were written with innocence. His only thought after seeing it was to break those innocent eyes and see what else could be inside. .Now, he is a little impatient.

Le Xiaoyao didn't answer the OK sticker that Lei Shuo handed over.Just ask softly: "Really?"

It seemed like a long time before he heard Lei Shuo answer: "Let's break up!"

Le Xiaoyao stood up from the ground, stared at Lei Shuo with an expression of crying or laughing and asked, "When will I move out?"

Lei Shuo never had the heart to become angry, and Le Xiaoyao's indifferent attitude angered him.It was as if two people who had only met once saw each other on the road and greeted each other.He said indifferently: "If you can, you can move out now."

This made Le Xiaoyao couldn't believe that this man would be so determined after breaking up. Now that it was getting dark, where should he go to find a house.Le Xiaoyao laughed at himself silently in his heart.I am a stupid P, I just listen to what other people say, and now I am in such a mess that no one will sympathize with you.

He turned around and went to his and Lei Shuo's bedroom to pack up his things a minute ago. He was happy that when Lei Shuo asked him to throw away those rags, he couldn't bear to fold the clothes—all of them were from his previous work. worn from time to time.

It didn't take long for Le Xiaoyao to organize his belongings.He pulled the suitcase through the living room and glanced at Lei Shuo. His tall and handsome appearance was still fascinating.

It's just that after he went out, he didn't know that Lei Shuo in the room was staring at him with resentful eyes.

Along the way, Le Xiaoyao just kept laughing, laughing like a fool, he was not as strong as imagined, he just wanted to maintain the last bit of dignity in front of Lei Shuo.

He remembered all kinds of past.

In the early 80s, family planning was not popularized yet. In Le Xiaoyao’s father’s generation, there were seven or eight brothers and sisters. It is said that there were originally ten brothers and sisters, but two died of starvation.In Le Xiaoyao's generation, Le's father may have realized that having more children is not necessarily a good thing, so their family also has three children.

He is the youngest son of the Le family. It is said that the elders should like the youngest. Coke Xiaoyao is dark all over, and Le Xiaoyao has been naughty since he was a child. In contrast, Le father and Le mother prefer the eldest daughter and second son.

Before the age of seven, Le Xiaoyao's life was not good, but it was not bad either. Le father and mother went to work in the field during the day, and the family ate happily at night.

In [-], a few things happened in the country. Comrade Xiaoping's National Day military parade was held under the situation of great achievements in comprehensive reform and modernization after the turmoil of the "Cultural Revolution".

This year, Le Xiaoyao was five years old, Le Chuntian was 12 years old, and Le Xiaxia was eight years old.Le Chuntian is the elder sister of Le Xiaoyao, and Le Xia Tian is the second brother.

Why isn't Le Xiaoyao called Le Autumn or Le Winter?There are certain reasons for this.

Le's father has no culture, it just so happened that Le Xiaoyao was born in spring, and Le's father racked his brains and couldn't think of a good name. When Le's sister was full moon, a beggar passed by the door, saying "Happy Spring...Happy Spring... ...The season of the year lies in spring..."

As soon as Father Le listened to Le, he decided to call her Chunchun Le, so Sister Le's name was determined by Father Le's independent dictatorship, and she was called Chunchun Le.

No, Second Brother Le was born in summer, Father Le thought about it, since there is a spring, let's make another summer.The name of Second Brother Le was voted by the whole family (in fact, only Le’s father was alone. In those years, under the influence of the spring breeze of reform and opening up, the status of women in coastal cities was significantly improved, but the status of women in rural areas remained unchanged). It's called Le Xia Tian.

When he arrived at Le Xiaoyao's place, Le Xiaoyao was supposed to be born in autumn, but maybe Comrade Le Xiaoyao was dissatisfied when he heard that his name would be Le Qiu when he was in his mother's womb, so he ran out early.

It didn't matter that he ran out early, but he worried Father Le.Father Le thought to himself: Now that we have a summer, we can't take another summer now.Because of Le Xiaoyao's name, Le's father was so worried that he couldn't sleep. After thinking about it, he couldn't think of a good name.Finally, I heard from the neighbor that there is an old scholar in the neighboring village who is over 90 years old. You must ask him to name your son.

After hearing this, Father Le took a small bag of rice early the next morning and asked the way to find the old scholar.When I came to the old scholar's house, I explained Yuanwei, and said Le Xiaoyao's birth date. The old scholar pondered over and over again, and the word 'Xiaoyao' was very good.When Father Le heard "Xiaoyao", um...it was pretty good, and he went back cheerfully after thanking the old scholar.

When the old scholar finished saying 'Xiaoyao' and was about to turn around and explain the meaning of these two words to Father Le, he saw that Father Le had also gone far away, and the old scholar sighed: "Oh... this man..."

After Le's father arrived home in the evening, he told the whole family about the old scholar's acquisition of Le Xiaoyao. After eating, he went to bed happily.Le Xiaoyao's name has accompanied him for 25 years when Le's father hit him by mistake.

The military parade in [-] did not affect Le Xiaoyao's family. What affected this family was the village where Le's father lived. In July, all the middle-aged people in the village decided to go out to work, and Le's father was among them.

The 34-year-old Le father is in his prime, and he has enough strength to support himself when he goes out and finds a job.There were eleven of them in the group, and on the day they left, the whole village went to see them off.Some came to watch the excitement, some were genuinely worried about their son or husband, and some of them said that grapes were sour because no one in their family went out to eat grapes.

Mother Le told her husband beside her: "Be careful when you go out, I heard that there is chaos outside...don't worry too much by yourself, it's fine to eat at home..."

The three sons and daughters gathered around their father and watched with tears in their eyes. 5-year-old Le Xiaoyao is still naive, and he is very happy to hear that his father is leaving because no one cares about him anymore.But because of being infected by Sister Le and Brother Le, she also looked pitiful.

12-year-old Le Chuntian and 8-year-old Le Xia Tian vaguely know that their father will go out and may not come back for a long time.

Father Le lovingly patted his children's heads and said to the eldest daughter and second son: "It will take a long time for Dad to come back after going out this time. You should do more work for your mother, and look at your little brother, he is not sensible..."

Le Chunchun and Le Xiatian choked up and nodded, Le's father was very pleased.

When the ox cart arrived, Le's father told Le's mother to be careful with his luggage and boarded the ox cart with a look of reluctance. (This is based on the situation in my place, anyway, there was no traffic in my place at that time)

Le Xiaoyao doesn't remember most of the things before the age of five, but he still remembers the back of his father when he left.At that time, he didn't know how to describe his father's back, he just felt like crying.Now, he has learned a word - vicissitudes.

Le Xiaoyao thought, if his father hadn't gone out to work, would the fate of their family have been different?

This year's Chinese New Year, there are only four people in the family, and the ignorant Le Xiaoyao also vaguely understands that his father seems to have really gone out.

In the summer of the second year, a telegram came to the family, and an atmosphere of anxiety affected everyone in the family. Mother Le held the thin piece of paper tightly with trembling hands.Tears glistened in his dark eyes.

Le Chuntian looked helplessly at Le's mother who was about to collapse, ran over, and hugged her tightly.Mother Le hugged her daughter Hao's head behind her back like a paralyzed hand and cried.

A few lines of despair were written on the falling paper: Leyang's legs were amputated due to improper construction.Come to Guangzhou xxx soon.

In those days, the legal rights of workers were not guaranteed and there was no legal constraint.Father Le was working on a construction site, and his legs were broken by falling stones. If he was treated in time, he could still keep his legs.But the construction site didn't want to take responsibility, and refused to give treatment.

Everyone who went out together had no money, so they could only watch Father Le faint from blood loss.The foreman was a bit conscientious, and his superiors organized the workers to donate some money without giving them any money. Father Le saved his life, but not his legs.

After crying, Le's mother packed up her clothes, took all the money of the family and went to Guangzhou, and never came back.

Le's father was sent back by a group of villagers. On that day, it was raining heavily, and the three siblings were weaving bamboo baskets at home. During the conversation, they heard someone knocking on the door. Outside the door, Second Brother Wang gasped and said, "Quick...let me in quickly, I'm exhausted."

Le Chunchun and Le Xiaxia also ran out after hearing the commotion. Second Brother Wang went into the room and put Le's father on the bed, and said, "Didn't you send a telegram asking you to pick him up?"

Le Chunchun said at a loss: "Didn't my mother go?"

Second brother Wang wiped the rain from his face: "Where are you going! No one saw it, so it must have run away?"

The indifferent sentence was like a thunderbolt from the blue sky, and the four members of the Le family were startled speechless.Seeing this, Second Brother Wang seemed to understand something, and said uncomfortably: "I'll go home first, the construction site is busy, and I have to go back tomorrow." After speaking, he disappeared in a flash.

Father Yue recovered from the blow, and shouted heartbreakingly: "What did I, Leyang, do to others, God wants to punish me like this."

The Le family, big and small, also shed tears. Compared with the father's legs and the mother's departure, they were more desperate.

Le Xiaoyao, who was already six years old, hated Le Mu very much at this time, she took away all hope from the whole family.

After Le's father broke his leg, all the burdens of the Le family fell on the three young children. Le Chuntian and Le Xiatian also dropped out of school this year.Le Chunchun never forgot about studying until his death. Of course, this will be a matter of the future.

It was already one o'clock in the morning when we walked to the city center, Le Xiaoyao found a small hotel, planning to spend the night first, and think about the future tomorrow.

Le Xiaoyao, who was obviously very tired, couldn't fall asleep. He was thinking of Lei Shuo.When I met Lei Shuo once after get off work, Le Xiaoyao changed his clothes and went out, and bumped into Lei Shuo who was in a hurry at the gate, Le Xiaoyao hurriedly said sorry.

The man didn't say anything, he just raised Le Xiaoyao with his hands and lowered his head and said, "It's so beautiful." Then he walked inside again.

The second time was when Le Xiaoyao got off work, Lei Shuo's car was parked outside the hotel, and he saw Le Xiaoyao come out and waved to him.Le Xiaoyao hurried over and asked, "Sir, what's the matter?" These were the trainings Le Xiaoyao had trained before entering the hotel.

Le Xiaoyao couldn't remember what Lei Shuo said, but he only remembered that he had a relationship with Lei Shuo not long after.After the relationship, Lei Shuo asked Le Xiaoyao to quit that job, but he didn't agree, because he needed that job very much.

When he went to work again, the foreman told him that he was fired.It was also very late when we returned to Lei Shuo's residence. Lei Shuo didn't ask him where he was going, but only asked him to eat.

They were doing crazy things that night, on the dinner table, on the floor, in the bathroom, on the bed.He also barked very vigorously, in Lei Shuo's words, 'You are so fucking coquettish! '

Having been with Lei Shuo for two years, Le Xiaoyao couldn't remember what else they did besides sex.In those two years, they licked more times than they ate.There are their footprints everywhere in the house, offices, public toilets, outdoors, swimming pools, bars, cars, movie theaters... He and Lei Shuo have done everything they can think of.All these made Le Xiaoyao feel sad and ridiculous.And he—it was a joke in itself.

Half awake and half asleep, Le Xiaoyao thought, he'd better go home.

The author has something to say: If the place names appearing below do not conform to the situation at the time, please don’t be so serious, because I don’t know, I just wrote it according to my own understanding.In addition, some of the backgrounds that will appear in the future may be found on the Internet, and some are also written based on the situation in our place at the time.Dear friends, if you like Luohua's article, please leave a message to support Luohua. With everyone's support, Luohua has the motivation to write down. The message is everyone's affirmation and support for Luohua.thank you all……