my son blue

What is death?

Even though the memory is so fuzzy that it is almost impossible to remember, Aizen can vaguely remember some important things in his lifetime.

Like my own mother.

He remembered that life was not very good at that time. His father died early, and his mother took him to live in exile. He didn’t have enough food and clothing every day. Because of the corrupt government, he could see people who were hungry because of the corrupt government. There are also those who were beaten to death for grabbing food, and those who died of illness due to lack of money for medical treatment.

At that time, he was only about ten years old, because his stomach was growling and his mother was also seriously ill. In the end, he gave him the last piece of dirty steamed bun, which was only half a piece short, and closed his eyes forever.

He ate that piece of steamed bun and finished it crying. In the snowy weather, shivering from the cold, he dug a shallow hole and buried his mother in the cold snowflakes. Finally, he kowtowed three times and wiped his mother. Dry your tears and leave.

In less than ten days of wandering, he was finally hungry, and under a dead tree with no heating, he stopped breathing. With resentment for this world, he was buried by the god of death in Liuhun Street, Eighty District .

The god of death told him that he would become a Buddha. He thought he would not have to starve, but he never thought that the Eighty District was no different from the present world, and it was still full of bloody death and brutal beatings.

There is only despair here, for him who is only ten years old.

Crying is useless, it's just a sign of weakness.

Kindness will only harm oneself, weakness is an incompetent person, he can only survive by being a bad person, learn from those brutal people, pick up the knife, move forward, and kill all the way to the end.

Those who hold the blade in their hands will surely die by the sword.

He has no regrets, even if someone kills him with a knife in the future, he will not regret it, at least, he has worked hard, because he wants to live, but he will do his best, when others want to kill him with a knife Before, stabbing the blade into someone else.

Step by step, stepping on other people's bloody corpses, they walked out.

Everything was just a fantasy, how he wished it was just a dream at the time, when the dream woke up, his mother was still there, holding him and sitting in the corridor, looking at the door expectantly, waiting for his father who came home together.

However, this is not a dream.

In this world, no one is born a bad person. He is born pure and flawless, and then changes with the environment.

In order to survive, deceit is common, hypocrisy is common.

He has been lied to many times, and was almost killed because of his useless kindness and soft heart, especially that time.

So he decided to change himself, instead of others lying to him, hurting him, and getting all bruised, it would be better for him to lie to others, hurt others, and live a good life, so he learned to pretend.

Deceiving people with a gentle appearance, deceiving people with gentle words, like a mirror in water, making everyone unable to see the real him clearly.

This is the world of the dead, the same world as the present world, just as pedantic, but different from the present world. Here, it is possible for a poor man like him to pass Mao, pass the fan team, step by step, climb up, and be superior to others. The place.

He is fed up with this immutable world, so he wants to change it.

If he wants to change the world, he must stand higher than anyone else in terms of power, status, identity, and strength.

In that way, there will be no more hunger, sickness and death, and the country will be peaceful and the people will be safe. This is a place for the real dead to become Buddhas.

Enrollment, graduation, joining the team.

Step by step, climb up slowly, don't show your sharpness, otherwise you will be envied by others, the wood is more beautiful than the forest, the wind will destroy it, he understands, he must bear it.

Zanpakuto is a great help for him. It is worthy of the Zanpakuto born from the soul of the god of death. He knows what he wants and what to do, and always perfectly follows his requirements and does the best.

Mirror Flower Water Moon is the Zanpakuto that suddenly appeared in his hand when he vowed to change himself.

It's a really good knife, so good... almost against the sky.

I still remember that when I was walking under the blood-red sunset, I was so desperate that I was about to lose blood because of the serious wound on my body. On the calm lake, there was another full moon in the lake, exuding a cool brilliance.

It was pitch black all around, and I raised my head to look at the sky inexplicably, and found that there was a huge mirror with no side to see on the top, and there was a bright red flower in the mirror, and he in the mirror was looking up at himself, but there was no lake, month.

Then he lowered his head, and found that the flowers were at his feet, and then looked up, the top was still calm, but there were no flowers, but a crescent moon.

The flower in the mirror, the moon in the water.

You can see him in the mirror and in the lake, but you can't see the flowers and the moon reflected in each other.

Blinking his eyes, the two switched again.He knelt down and stretched out his hands to stir the lake water. The water surface was rippling, and the moon followed.

He suddenly understood, then stood up, and said with a smile: "Break it! It's a mirror image!"

Then I saw that the lake was swaying violently, the moon could not be seen, the mirror suddenly broke, and the flowers were broken into pieces.

If you want to pretend to be deceitful, you have to deceive yourself first, and let yourself think that your deception is the real fact.

He chuckled, opened his eyes, leaned against a dead tree, looked at the extra Zanpakuto in his hand that he held tightly, and clutched his shoulder that had no wound at all.

It turned out that this scene was just a trial for himself by the mirror.

Shi Jie has such a strong power, and he is very much looking forward to how strong it will be when it is swastized.

Ten seats... six seats... three seats, and the vice-captain.

They all come from their own pretense, forbearance, hard work, and deception.

The sky is actually colorless, it is not he who deceives you, it is your eyes that deceive yourself.

Everything is based on deceit, so he doesn't need to be honest, even God is lying, so why should he treat people with sincerity?

He thought that if he continued to develop according to his own plan, he would definitely win, but he didn't expect that his Zanpakuto suddenly made him have a... more realistic dream.

In the dream, he became the one-year-old son of a man.

Without power, there is another soul boarder who seems to be as unlucky as him.

If you want to talk, you will just babble, if you want to walk, you will fall when you stand up, if you go to the [-]th district, you will not be able to survive even an hour.

This is very dangerous, a danger that he cannot control, and he does not like this sense of crisis that cannot control everything.

He wanted to change all this, but he had no choice, so he had no choice but to be on guard, to adapt slowly, and then accept, and finally found that this dream brought him a big surprise that Jinghua Shuiyue wanted him to understand.

Ha ha ha ha...

He wanted to laugh.

He discovered that what he insisted on and what he hated was actually a fictional world created by a person in order to dream and survive, and he was just a villain in his writing that was doomed to fail?

Hahahaha...

what is this?

Sure enough, everything is only based on deceit, his name is fictitious, he is a fictitious person, the world he lives in is non-existent, what he resents, what he wants to change, in the eyes of others, is just a period for the protagonist to grow up. The plot! !

So what is all that he wants to do?

Useless, useless, doomed, killed by others, useless, poor thing?

In the end, it was locked up for 2 years?

This is what happened to him, really...

Angry enough to make people want to destroy the world.

Although it was only four short years, it far surpassed everything he had done in this world and the world of corpses and souls.

Although he didn't want to admit that this person was his father in this life, the bond of blood could make Yang Yang like his mother, who would rather sacrifice himself than let him live a good life, which moved him. (It’s so broken...)

This is the father, just like the original mother, everything is only for the child.

But it is not his father, because he is just a boarder, not his real son, and he knows this, but he still treats each other with sincerity. Although the process is a bit speechless, he cannot veto it. for their own good.

His family business, his property, were all given to them after his death, leaving nothing behind. For them, he could turn against his relatives, and for them to live well, he had already arranged everything, just for them, She can still live a good life without the protection of her father, but she doesn't know that this method is also another kind of protection.

His mother died for him, and after she died, she could only rely on herself, but after Yang Yang died, she still thought about them and used everything he left to protect them all the time.

They lived under his protection from life to death.

Money, company, relatives...

It's all arranged by him.

Although I don't like being weak, it's really good to be protected by others.

Not bad, it made him hard-hearted, indifferent and heartless, gradually softened and became a bit unlike himself, but he didn't hate it, and they couldn't even hope to live in this kind of environment , so to enjoy, while there is still time, you can live like ordinary people.

...and then to death.

Death is not the end, just another beginning.

They always understood that when he woke up, he thought it was a relatively real dream, but he didn't expect that it was indeed a real dream. It was true that the Jade Guanyin worn by Yang Yang on his neck followed him when he woke up. Come on, still hanging on the spot, reminding him warmly that a dream is not a dream.

It really is a very sturdy knife.

What the dream meant was unknown.

Since everything is a lie and a deception, then he will pretend to the end.

If God deceives the whole world, then he will deceive the whole God.

Fictional pedantry, he no longer wants to change, the only thing he wants to do now is to play games with God, until the plot is about to end, he must give it a big gift.

He wants it to know that even if this world is fictional, he will fight to the end to make it real.

This is the world he lives in, and it is definitely not something that can be changed by that person. His life must never be controlled by him.

Your own life is only in your own hands.

His fate does not require anyone to write, modify and intervene! !