God doesn't want me to be human

Life is plain and beautiful.

Carrying a schoolbag and taking the bus to school every day, and eating and watching TV with mom and dad after school, Lu Jia lived a happy life.

Occasionally sitting on the bus and looking at the passing scenery outside the window, Lu Jia would also feel a little dazed.

It seems... It has been a long time since I have been so leisurely.

After arriving in the school class, you can see the deskmate who looks like a bad boy but is actually a nice person.

"Lu Jia."

Roy was lying on the table, his bony and slender hands were rolling the water glass on the table boredly, and when Lu Jia stepped into the classroom, he raised his head and greeted with a smile.

Lu Jia nodded, then walked to the seat with his schoolbag on his back and sat down.

After putting down the schoolbag, Lu Jia hesitated for a moment, and took out a pink letter from the schoolbag.

This is what the neighbor's sister asked him to help forward to Roy.

Roy is good-looking, and he is at the crushing level in this high school. Not long after he transferred to another school, he received love letters one after another.

"Ok?"

Roy looked at the love letter Lu Jia handed over, and suddenly his face burned a little, just like when he saw Lu Jia take off his shirt in the toilet before.

He knew it was very possible...

"Someone asked me to hand it over to you." Lu Jia said.

"Oh." Roy took it with a smile, and stuffed it into his schoolbag casually.

He was lying on the table with his arm pillowed, only the upper half of his face was exposed, his long white hair was hanging by his ears, and he looked at Lu Jia with his glass pupils.

"Don't you want to send me a love letter?"

Lu Jia, who took the textbook out of the schoolbag, didn't hear clearly, and turned to look at him: "What?"

The white long-haired boy lying on the table looked at him with glass pupils, looked at him for a while, and then bent his eyes.

"It's nothing."

So Lu Jia continued to take out his textbooks to prepare for morning reading, while the boy with long white hair looked at him quietly.

On Friday, when school is over in the afternoon.

Roy left behind Lu Jia who was about to go home.

After dawdling until the classmates had almost left, Roy looked at Lu Jia and asked with a smile, "Do you want to go to the playground together tomorrow?"

After asking, he looked closely at Lu Jia with his glass pupils.

Lu Jia, who thought Roy had something important to do: ...

"Okay." Lu Jia agreed. Although he basically never went out with his classmates, he promised that Roy would have a very good weekend.

After agreeing, Lu Jia was suddenly in a daze.

For a long time, in order not to be bullied by the school, he worked hard to be a top student, did he miss too many things?

Roy looked at him, his glass pupils curled up, and the corners of his lips curled up.

"Okay then, see you tomorrow."

Lu Jia came back to his senses.

"okay, see you tomorrow."

The next day, Lu Jia woke up very early.

It was the first time he made an appointment with his classmates to hang out, and he was a little nervous.

After checking his clothes and schoolbag, Lu Jia left early.

When the bus stopped at the amusement park platform and Lu Jia got off, he saw Roy already waiting at the entrance of the amusement park.

Tall, with long white hair and glass pupils, he was extremely handsome. Even in school uniform, Roy stood out from the crowd.

Seeing Lu Jia, he smiled and waved.

Lu Jia walked over.

"Sorry to keep you waiting."

"No, I just came here." Roy hugged Lu Jia's shoulders, glanced at Lu Jia quietly, and found that he was not impatient and wanted to slap him away, so he retracted his gaze and raised the corners of his lips.

"What do you want to play?" Roy asked.

playing what?

Lu Jia really didn't think about it, he looked at the gate of the amusement park.

He hasn't been to the playground for a long time.

"Merry-go-round horse?" Lu Jia said a little uncertainly and embarrassedly.

It seems childish.

"Then let's go to the merry-go-round first." Roy walked towards the merry-go-round with his arm on Lu Jia's shoulder.

Because they came too early and there were not many tourists, buying tickets and queuing up were quick. Lu Jia and Roy quickly got on the carousel.

So grown up, it's really a bit embarrassing to ride a merry-go-round.

Lu Jia firmly grasped the standpipe of the merry-go-round horse, pursed his lips and did not look sideways.

"Lu Jia." Roy's voice sounded beside him.

Lu Jia looked at Roy next to him, and Roy stretched out his bony hand to him.

"Do you want to hold hands?"

Roy is making the game even more childish.

However, I don't know if it was the reason why the negative became positive, but Lu Jia actually felt that it was not so embarrassing.

"Hmm." He couldn't help but raise the corners of his lips, stretched out his hand, and was held by that hand with sharp bones.

Joyful tunes began to play, the merry-go-round began to rotate, and two childish ghosts sat on the merry-go-round hand in hand.

Sitting on the merry-go-round, Lu Jia felt like returning to his childhood.

He turned his head and looked at the white long-haired boy who was holding his hand.

"Thank you."

He was very happy.

After the merry-go-round, the two played the playground all over.

The last project is the Ferris wheel.

Sitting on the Ferris wheel, you can see the scenery outside through the bright windows. When you reach the highest point, you can have a panoramic view of all the nearby scenery.

"Lu Jia."

Lu Jia, who was looking at the scenery, looked back at Roy.

Roy and him looked at each other, silent for a long time, and finally only asked.

"are you happy?"

Lu Jia felt a little strange, but nodded anyway.Are you asking if you are having fun together today?

"That's good." Roy smiled.

Reciprocity.

"Are you happy?" Lu Jia asked.

Roy curled his lips into a smile.

Their carriage descended slowly, and the wind blew in through the windows, blowing Roy's long white hair slightly.

"happy."

Lu Jia had a great time on the playground trip.After having fun, life returns to the line that the third party should have in high school.

Lu Jia still studies hard.

I don’t know if it’s his own delusion, but he seems to study less out of fear of school violence, and more for a better future.

Soon, it will be winter vacation.

After the stressful final exam, all the students breathed a sigh of relief.

After the last subject, the head teacher left me for a class meeting, encouraging the students to study hard during the short few weeks of vacation, don't relax, and get ready for the college entrance examination!

Most of the students' eyes were empty, and the left ear went in and the right ear went out.

"Jingle Bell!"

It's finally school break.

Lu Jia packed her schoolbag and said goodbye to Roy.

"See you next year!" he said with a smile.

After the new year is next year.

"Hmm." Roy looked at Lu Jia and responded softly.

It was midnight on the night of the holiday.

"Boom."

There was a sound from the glass window.

Lu Jia rubbed his eyes and looked towards the window.

"Boom." Something seemed to hit the window again.

Lu Jia got out of bed and walked to the window, looking down.

Someone is standing downstairs.

It's Roy.

He raised his head, and looked at Lu Jia through the window and a long distance away.

Lu Jia was a little surprised, then quickly took the key, slipped out of the house lightly, and then ran down the stairwell from the third floor without waiting for the elevator.

Running out of the building, Lu Jia saw Roy under the moonlight at a glance.

The moonlight illuminated his figure, his long white hair was like snow, his glass pupils were slightly dark, and his handsome face made him appear here like a nighttime illusion.

"Roy?" Lu Jia who ran downstairs was still panting.

"Yeah." Roy responded softly.

Why are you here - before Lu Jia asked this sentence.

Roy had already stepped forward and took him into his arms.

"Lu Jia... big brother... I'm very bad."

Lu Jia was a little confused, reached out to pat him on the back, and comforted him softly: "What's wrong?"

I won't do the bad things bad boys should do.

Roy hugged him tighter.

"Brother...I can't control it anymore."

What?Lu Jia was at a loss.

The gods who have always done whatever they want can hardly bear to control themselves.

For the gods who feel unbearable to control themselves, they did not find out that the point is actually that he learned to endure for a human being.

"I want to see Big Brother..." God whispered, "I want to see Big Brother even during the holidays... It's been too long..."

Lu Jia, who was caught off guard by a wave of sincere words of friendship, blushed a little.

"... I want to see you on vacation... I want to see you every night..."

I know what to do, and I know how to give space and freedom, but...

?

Lu Jia suddenly felt something was wrong with the development.

The person hugging him tightened their hugs, causing Lu Jia's ribs to hurt a little.

"Roy..."

"I'm sorry." Roy buried his head on Lu Jia's shoulder.

Lu Jia suddenly didn't care so much about the development that was wrong. He could feel Roy's pain.

"Roy." Lu Jia hugged him back, "I really want to meet you too." After thinking about it, he added, "You are my best friend."

Lu Jia, who has no friends at all, said so.

"After our college entrance examination is over, we can apply for the same university. If we really want to meet, we can rent a house together."

"After graduating from university, we can go to work in the same city or rent a house together."

"When we are old, we can buy two adjacent houses to support our elderly together."

Lu Jia paints a picture of a good life.

Like every child who talks about never being separated from a good friend.

"Hmm." Roy hugged Lu Jia loosely, but still hugged Lu Jia tightly.

"Will we be together forever?" he asked.

"Yes." Lu Jia patted him on the back, "As long as we want, we will be together forever."

"I am willing." Roy buried his head on Lu Jia's shoulder, "...how about you?"

I don't know why, Lu Jia's face is a little hot, it may be that these three words often appear in certain important ceremonies.

But hugging his only and best friend, he still opened his mouth and said:

"I am willing."

The moonlight quietly fell on the two embracing teenagers, softening into a gentle painting.

From that night on, during the winter vacation, Roy came to Lu Jia downstairs to check in every day, and went to the library with him to study.

Faced with such an enthusiastic friend, Lu Jia could only accept it completely.

The winter vacation is over soon, and the third party of senior high school starts school a lot earlier than other grades, and they have not tasted what winter vacation is like before they start studying again.

On the first day of school, Lu Jia went to school by bus, watching the scenery outside the window as usual.

Suddenly, he sat up straight and looked at a waste collector who kept going away because of the moving bus.

Is that... barter for sugar?

There was a large round sugar dish on the cart of the waste collector who had just glanced past.Trading things for sugar was one of Lu Jia's favorite things when he was a child. Every time he saved up scraps at home, he could exchange a lot of sweet candy for him to eat.

Is there still barter for sugar now?

Lu Jia was a little strange.

It's like a corner of a picture scroll in a new era, adding outdated, old, and old things that the painter personally likes very much.

Maybe someone is still exchanging things for sugar.Not seeing does not mean not existing.

Lu Jia shook his head and stopped thinking about it, the station will be there soon.

The bus stops and we arrive at the school.Lu Jia got out of the car with his schoolbag on his back.

Entering the school and entering the class, Lu Jia looked at the white long-haired boy who could be seen at a glance, and smiled: "Good morning, Roy."

"Morning, Lu Jia." Roy smiled brightly.