sheep hunt

Han Ziling took Han Jinxuan, Han Junyan and Cangming out of the room, and before leaving, he closed the door carefully.

After closing the door, he knelt down and touched Han Jinxuan's head:

"Jinxuan, go to Zhu Grandpa's place with my younger brother, okay?"

Han Jinxuan nodded.

Han Ziling stood up, breathed a sigh of relief, and said to Cang Ming:

"Cangming, I'm going to see your elder brother Guyan. You take Jinxuan and Junyan to Uncle Zhu's place, okay?"

Cang Ming smiled and bent his eyebrows in an instant:

"it is good."

What he likes most in Guli are the two little dolls who don't like him very much. How can he not want to be able to exercise the rights and obligations of being an older brother openly and aboveboard.

Han Ziling watched them leave, but it was only a few rooms away, so he was not worried, and he believed that Hua Ranshuang and Mo Wentian would be back soon.

He heard from Qingxue that Qingxue's master, Mo Wentian, was known as the best swordsman in the world many years ago, that's why he was hailed as a sword master by the people of Jianghu. However, because his medical skills are too good, it conceals the brilliance of his martial arts.

And from the example of Feng Yang's paleness when he confronted Gu Yan, it can be seen that a person who knows martial arts and medicine can easily defeat some opponents whose martial arts are higher than his own.

Therefore, Hua Ranshuang and Mo Wentian, the two powerful combination, did not need to worry about him at all.

He raised his footsteps and walked to the front of Gu Yan's house, but he hesitated a little.

He only knew that Gu Yan's mood fluctuated a lot just now, and he seemed very sad, but... his body didn't know, would he be a little reckless in coming to Gu Yan so impulsively now? ? ?

Although he hesitated for a while, in the end, Han Ziling reached out and knocked on the door.

Unlike usual, what responded to him was silence, because there was no one inside—or, Gu Yan didn't want to talk to him?

Han Ziling frowned, the former was almost impossible...but why didn't Gu Yan want to talk to him?

Is it because you want to be alone?

However, someone who is indifferent, withdrawn, and self-repressed like Gu Yan can easily get into a dead end.

No!

He still couldn't let Guyan stay inside alone.

Han Ziling ignored the etiquette, pushed the door open and walked in.

Fortunately, Gu Yan didn't come to the door.

The sun was shining outside, but it was dark inside the house. The strong light contrast even made Han Ziling blind for a while, and he was slightly stunned before he could react.

He didn't forget that Gu Yan once said that he didn't like the sunshine outside the door, so he turned around and closed the door.

"Lonely goose?"

After adapting to the light in the room, Han Ziling saw Gu Yan sitting behind the window with thick curtains hanging beside the bed.

Gu Yan's back was facing him, he didn't see Gu Yan's expression, but he could tell that Gu Yan's back was very stiff.

He raised his foot and walked gently behind Gu Yan, and put his hand on his shoulder: "Gu Yan, are you okay?"

"take away!"

Lone Goose's voice was colder than ever.

Han Ziling's body stiffened slightly, he let go of his shoulders, stretched out his hand to pull the wheelchair, and turned Gu Yan to his side: "I have no other intentions, just... just worried about you."

Han Ziling lowered his head, staring at Gu Yan's expressionless handsome face seriously with gentle and bright eyes, the gloom on it made him a little startled.

"Worried about me? Han Ziling, you don't have to do this, you don't have to do anything, really."

Gu Yan feels that it is necessary to explain everything to Han Ziling today, so as not to become more entangled and confused in the future.

"As a friend, caring about you is the most basic."

The smile on Han Ziling's face faded away, he felt that Guyan's whole body was gray today, as if it had dimmed a lot all of a sudden.

Just now, what did his master and Gu Yan mean?

"Friend...don't be so sentimental, Han Ziling, I've never treated you as a friend! You can go, and don't bother me again. , you don't have to deliberately please me for this moment."

"...Is Feng Yang's life experience related to Gu Yan?"

Han Ziling didn't understand, he cared about Gu Yan, how could he get involved with Feng Yang again.

But thinking about Gu Yan's reaction carefully, and what he said now, could it be that Feng Yang's background is actually "Feng Yang...is a traitor???"

Han Ziling gasped, an ominous omen rose in his heart, and he was taken aback by his almost fantasy guess.

However, Gu Yan said that he would not hurt Feng Yang...

He didn't have any reason to hurt Feng Yang, and he specially emphasized this point today, it must be because of Feng Yang's life experience and Gu Yan's deep entanglement, and the hatred that Gu Yan cares about, it seems, is the revenge of the Yao clan's extermination?

Gu Yan looked at him quietly, taking in his surprise and disbelief, and felt a little warm in his heart.

Fortunately, Han Ziling was not one of the people who lied to him.

But what does this mean...

He has lived in Shuiyun Valley for such a long time, but he has not been able to integrate with the people of Shuiyun Valley, and no one has treated him sincerely. A person who has only been in Shuiyun Valley for four years and has only been conscious for one year can How important is he?

Gu Yan bent his lips, and a self-deprecating smile appeared on his face that had never smiled before.

"Yes, many years ago, Feng Yang was a traitor, and he was with the people who killed me, but... I know, he is innocent. So, I will not touch him, Han Ziling, don't worry, I won't hurt your little junior brother, you really don't have to come to spy on me or plead for him."

Han Ziling's breath was suddenly suffocated.

"I... didn't mean that, I just... you just looked sad, I was worried about you, really just worried about you..."

Of course Gu Yan knew that Han Ziling didn't mean that, because he already knew that before entering his house, Han Ziling didn't know Feng Yang's identity at all, so he couldn't be pleading for Feng Yang.

However, he just couldn't control his mouth, he just wanted to clear up the relationship between Han Ziling and him, and refused to believe that Han Ziling really cared about him.

Except for Yun Qiushui who rescued him, no one in this world should care about his life, his happiness, anger, sorrow and joy.

Han Ziling, you shouldn't care about him, because...

After the disappearance of his respected elder Yun Qiushui, he has been cold and lonely for a long, long time, and no one has cared about his emotions for a long, long time.

The people in Shuiyun Yougu only take his cloudy weather and his reticence as a matter of course, and never want to get close to him, trying to walk to the bottom of his heart...

He, whose body and mind are already cold, is very, very, very greedy.

Therefore, if a person cannot have a permanent, constant, and unreserved relationship with him and give him warmth, then don't approach him.

For example, Han Ziling.

If Han Ziling was kind to him just because he was grateful for a while, and then he got tired, tired of his withdrawn and reticent, he would hate Han Ziling!He will definitely hate Han Ziling very much!However, he didn't want to hate Han Ziling, he would rather treat Han Ziling as someone who knew a little bit more in Shuiyun Yougu, and he didn't want to hate him.

Therefore, it is better for him to break up with Han Ziling as soon as possible.

"Han Ziling, let's go."

Gu Yan said coldly, suddenly wanted to turn his wheelchair around, and stop facing Han Ziling's face that looked so real.

"Can't you share it? Guyan...why, you have to bury everything deeply in your heart, why don't you want to speak out, if, if someone helps you share your hatred, your hatred and your sorrow If you hadn't, you...wouldn't have been like this..."

"So what now?"

Gu Yan suddenly hated the doubts in Han Ziling's tone, the kind of questioning that was almost accusatory, Han Ziling would always ask questions that he didn't want to think about.

"Han Ziling, don't talk about me, what about yourself? Have you found that you seem to care too much about me? Could it be—"

Gu Yan frowned, suddenly tightened his hand holding the armrest of the wheelchair, and asked a question that seemed absurd to him, but made him unable to keep calm: "You—— fell in love with me???"

As soon as these words came out, there was an immediate silence between the two.

Gu Yan tightly grasped the armrest of the wheelchair, raised her eyes, and stared at Han Ziling in a daze.

Han Ziling didn't expect Gu Yan to ask this question at all, but his complexion suddenly changed, he staggered his eyes in extreme embarrassment, and staggered back a step almost to escape.

"how is this possible???"

With his mind in a mess, Han Ziling asked reflexively.

Regarding feelings, his fear and fear are not necessary for Gu Yan at all. Gu Yan is afraid that the relationship will not last long, but he has been hurt by feelings.

He doesn't want to touch those things even more than Guyan.

So... no, he won't fall in love with Gu Yan!No way!Although, although the feelings for Huang Yifan in his heart have faded a lot, but...he is by no means the kind of person who sees things differently and changes his mind, and besides, there is a little junior brother beside him who keeps trying to make sense of it.

Gu Yan never expected that Han Ziling would love him, but Han Ziling's unhesitating retort and evasion still made his already riddled heart ache.

"Han Ziling, in this world, no one is inexplicably kind to another person, so I can't believe you, I can't believe that you just care about me... So... Han Ziling, please stay away from me, don't worry about me anymore It's my business."

While speaking, a silver light flashed on his fingertips, and Han Ziling's acupuncture points were tapped by him again.

"No... Gu Yan, you can't do this, you can't always touch my acupuncture points..."

When Gu Yan turned the wheelchair and approached him, Han Ziling could see at a glance that Gu Yan wanted to force him to leave.

but……

No, absolutely not!

He had a premonition, if, if, if he was really pushed away by Gu Yan this time, he would never be able to get close to Gu Yan again...

"What do you want to stay for? Care about me? Comfort me? As a friend? How do you want to comfort me??? Want to induce me to tell you everything? Then, you use a few harmless words, Some illusory things that are almost promises make me feel at ease??? Is it possible? Han Ziling, do you think it is possible? Could I abandon everything because of your few words??? Han Ziling, you—— Don't you think everyone thinks the same as you? The same soft heart and ignorance?"

Han Ziling's breathing was suffocated.

His chest was stuffy, and he was very sad, but it was not Gu Yan's responsibility, because what Gu Yan said was very reasonable, but what he was sad about was... Gu Yan's defensiveness, and the situation of worrying about gains and losses, were more than he imagined. What's more serious, he really loves Gu Yan...

He couldn't even believe that the lonely goose who could take care of him for three years alone, that cold and strong guyan who looked like a cold sword, was so... fragile?disturbed?

The fragility makes people feel distressed, and the uneasiness makes him reluctant to leave him!

Gu Yan shouldn't be like this, because the fragility and anxiety in his heart are thick with ice, and his body is covered with a thorny coat-this is how Gu Yan is in the eyes of others, but he feels that Gu Yan shouldn't be like this , it should never be like this! "Gu Yan, you are right, I am soft-hearted, and I am not you, in your opinion, everything I do to you seems so ignorant, even ridiculous... But--to me, apart from doing that, what else can I do?"

The acupuncture points were still being tapped on his body, Han Ziling's face was filled with unconcealable melancholy and helplessness, and there was unconcealable pain in his eyes.

"What else can I do???"

This sentence, while Han Ziling was asking Guyan, he was also asking himself.

What else can he do?What else can I do for Gu Yan?

Gu Yan closed his eyes and lowered his head.

Yes!

As a bystander, an outsider, besides those, what else can Han Ziling do?

Han Ziling didn't know, didn't know what he was thinking in his heart, didn't know what he wanted, and what Han Ziling could do, in fact, was nothing more than that.

Because of Zhu Wuye's words and actions that broke his heart, because of the strong impact of Feng Yang's background, because of Han Ziling's contradictory closeness and some sharp words, Gu Yan was confused, for the first time in a long time.

He had never felt so vulnerable before.

there has never been!

When he was pressed down by his mother, when he heard the traitor's knife stab into his mother's body, and the blood splashed on his face, when he woke up from the corpses of all his clansmen, when he crawled from the burning house He had never been so vulnerable when he went out and was hit by a burning beam on his legs.

Really do not have!now it's like...

It seems that all the things that have been suppressed in my heart for these years have found a breakthrough today, and they swarmed out all at once, crushing him who was unprepared without warning.

He is like a confused child who doesn't know the meaning of what he has been enduring and suppressing. Yun Qiushui told him long ago that he should let go of all the hatred, didn't he?

Why bother with those meaningless things.

Yun Qiushui said that his parents never wanted him to live in hatred all the time, they definitely wanted him to be happy all his life, didn't they?

Gu Yan is very confused!

He doesn't know what he wants...or knows, but dare not ask for it, and has nowhere to ask for it?

The calmness on Gu Yan's face completely faded away, his black eyes were full of desire, he unconsciously rolled the wheelchair, approached Han Ziling who was standing on the acupuncture point, and suddenly stretched out his hand to release Han Ziling's acupuncture point.

But as soon as the acupoints were released, before Han Ziling could react, his waist softened, and Gu Yan quickly pulled him into his arms.

He was almost dragged in Gu Yan's arms, the excessive strength made the wheelchair back a little, and the two bodies were also tightly pressed together.

Gu Yan hugged Han Ziling's body tightly.

bury your head in his neck

The warmest!

This is the warmest thing for him.

During those three years, Han Ziling was an unconscious Han Ziling, even though he couldn't wake up and talk to him, but that Han Ziling was with him, always with him, those three years - not only he was with Han Ziling , Han Ziling also accompanied him.

Be with his body and his heart, and the latter seems to be more important.

When Han Ziling reacted, his body froze immediately, but when he noticed that Gu Yan's body seemed to be shaking, he immediately let go, let his body soften, and let Gu Yan hold him, and stretched out his arms to hug Gu Yan.

"Why...is it impossible to love me?"

After a long time, Gu Yan's slightly hoarse voice came from Han Ziling's neck.