Absolutely love

It makes people think that they still have hope,

That makes people think that everything still has a chance.

That is actually a kind of despicability and selfishness, but we keep humblely thinking that it is that person who loves us in another way...

Haha, that's ridiculous.

Self-righteousness to the point of collapse.

To be alive, if only pain and injury are left...

So, what's the point?

Alive, if only suspicion and helplessness are left...

Well, it would be better to die.

It was so painful, so painful.If that person is willing to tell himself the reason for everything, maybe Liang Yuqing can adjust his mood and live another life.At least, you have to die to understand.

Perhaps, the reason why that person didn't tell you was not that he had any difficulties, but that he also had some kind of luck!Maybe, just out of selfish instincts.

He doesn't want you to forget him...

Selfish!

What others want, he can't give, but in this way (an invisible hand), he holds on tightly and won't let go...

Liang Yuqing thought, based on what he knew about that person, such a possibility...

haha, I do not know.He doesn't know anything now.

In the past four years, every day, every hour, and every moment, he firmly believed in one idea and said to himself:

That person had his reasons, but he refused to say them.

That person loves himself, but what he spits out is hurtful words.

That person was suffering, but he lifted his sword with a smile, and pierced Liang Yuqing's chest.

That person, who endured everything, fled to an independent space, where all the secrets rotted and deteriorated...

That person, why? !

Painful and suffocating.

The heart is bleeding even more.

Liang Yuqing?Hehe, almost crazy...

Liang Yuqing thought, what about herself?What are you doing yourself?And what did you do?

Compared with Lin Xuanyi, the things he did were even worse.If Lin Xuanyi is ruthless, then what is the difference between Liang Yuqing and him?

Isn't it all about imposing your own pain on others?And that person is still his own...

own what?In Liang Yuqing's heart, really, Su Yinzhao was never just his friend...

One of the two people he cares about the most.

The rest of those people, those souls under his body, can be ignored, because he has reserved his eternity to repay those debts.He is not afraid, not afraid to face those dead souls...

Who said Liang Yuqing was heartless?

Hehe, he just lost his mind, that's all.

That's right, Liang Yuqing was sober at this time, looking at Su Yinzhao who had been beaten to the point of fainting by himself, with that haggard look, between the legs...the seemingly invisible blood on his body, and the scattered piles of "fun" around him. The supplies were stained with red and white liquid, and he had a wry smile on his face.Does he really have no impression at all?

no.

On the contrary, no matter when he was awake or when he lost control intermittently, he still clearly remembered the feeling of Su Yinzhao sucking his things tightly, as if it was still going on now...

And these were just things about Su Yinzhao, he remembered them all.As for those women?He was just awake looking at their corpses or their bodies that were almost mutilated by him, being dragged out by his servants.

The Liang Mansion had already become a hell on earth.

Every night, it is filled with countless lonely souls and wild ghosts, crying and howling...

He didn't want to live like this anymore.It's been so long, it's enough.His sin has already been paid off.He just waits...

He thought that his waiting, one day, could wait for that person to appear, and then, everything would be revealed.

Four years is long enough.for him.One-fifth of his life.

He doesn't want to be hurt anymore, and he doesn't want to be hurt anymore.

Such a vicious circle doesn't make any sense.You just make yourself miserable and make those around you even more miserable.

The once hope, under the tempering of time, gradually turned into despair.

In four years, he only learned a little bit.

Also completely gave up that tiny hope.

Although he didn't want to believe it, Liang Yuqing knew that that person would never come again.At least if there is a chance to meet again, it will not be for reminiscing about the old days, let alone to continue the relationship.But...at that time...it must have been a sign of the separation of yin and yang.

And he, Liang Yuqing, even if he went against the sky, he would try his best to force that person to come.Force him to come to see him, or be seen by him.

This is his sad persistence, ridiculous persistence.

In fact, he also knew that he became what he is today just because of that sentence, really, it's not worth it.

But if others are not me, how can they understand?Those things that are insignificant in other people's eyes, in my Liang Yuqing's eyes, are the curse of extinction.I don't want to do this either.

If death can bring everything to an end, then I am very happy.

Perhaps, that is the best relief for me.

Liang Yuqing is really not afraid of death.

He was afraid that he would not get that answer even if he died, then he would never feel at ease.

That's right, everything is just because of unwillingness!

He is not willing!

Persistence, sometimes, is also a very scary thing.

But who can really be that free and easy? ?

Can afford it?Let go again? ?

Ha ha!That's a myth!

But he, Liang Yuqing, was just an ordinary person who couldn't be more ordinary!

He is desperate to die, he is betting, betting on whether that person still has a trace of humanity!Is there still such a trace of affection for myself...

Oh, it's ridiculous!I have lost even my humanity, and I still hope that the person in my heart can still have some humanity, and give him back what he wants.

What he wants is a redemption.

Redemption of the heart.

body?He has long since given up.

He is willing to pay any price, just want to be free.

The day of judgment is not far away.

He was waiting, waiting for that day to come.

Maybe, it is tomorrow.

Lin Xuanyi!I don't believe that you can be so heartless.

I don't believe that my death is nothing to you.

If that's really the case, then I can see you and the world clearly.

I would like to be wiped out, never to be reborn!

Yes, I'm still waiting,

Wait, maybe hope.

Wait, maybe utter despair.

He was content with the whole night of joy, no matter when he was awake or when he was out of control, he always had a strong desire for this person beside him.

He asked himself more than once, really, has nothing to do with love?

Hehe, how is that possible?

Perhaps, man is a greedy animal.

Perhaps, man is a despicable animal.

Maybe... Hehe, man, why is he so pitiful and pathetic?

Hehe, at least, he Liang Yuqing was.

He is such a person.

He clearly knows what kind of feelings this person beside him has always had for him.But he still chose to turn a blind eye, but he couldn't resist that fatal attraction...

Clearly knowing that the person who abandoned himself may have already found a new love, maybe no one even remembers his own name, and he still clings to that distant dream.

The person who has the heart to hurt, who is more important to him than his life, is unwilling to admit, that kind of true feelings...

Just love!

Outside the window, it was already dimly lit.

There is no darkest moment, only a gray chaos.This is reality, this is the true portrayal of this gray world.

That black-and-white theory is just an excuse for those who have dreams to escape reality.

Looking out of the window, the full moon that made him transform into a beast had already disappeared from its figure at some point.I don't know, whose heart is it going to illuminate?

And he, Liang Yuqing, took advantage of this introduction and used such despicable means to hug the unconscious person beside him to his heart's content.Even if I am a beast.

Zhao, don't blame me, don't blame me for being mean, don't blame me for being selfish.I just, just, want to leave something in your life.Really, that's all.

Although, I did it too much.

Zhao, you who are so kind, would you care about me as a dying person?

Remember me, please remember me.

Also must, must, give up on me.

Sorry for being so mean and so selfish.

I am not worthy of you, so, with deep affection.

Yes, I know, I always, always, know.

But you know what?While you love me, I, actually...

Liang Yuqing leaned down and lay side by side with Su Yinzhao.This is the first time they have shared the same bed in the 15 years since they met.In memory, when they were young, they had never been so close.

He stretched out his arms and wrapped them around Su Yinzhao's chest.As expected of a martial arts practitioner's body, it is very strong, not like the kind of muscles that train the muscles and bones, but so well-proportioned, strong and slender.It's comfortable to hold.Liang Yuqing hugged Su Yinzhao's body, found a comfortable position, and stuck it up, sticking to Su Yinzhao's body.

Su Yinzhao, who had been sleeping very restlessly, was so exhausted from the tossing and tossing before that she didn't have the strength to wake up. After Liang Yuqing made such a move, she felt a little uncomfortable, but she didn't have the strength to raise her hand to drive away, so she could only narrow her eyes and feel uneasy. trembling.Immediately, he fell asleep peacefully again.

Looking at such a lovely Su Yinzhao, Liang Yuqing couldn't help but smile, his smile could overwhelm the country.

Liang Yuqing brought his lips to Su Yinzhao's cheek, and kissed Su Yinzhao's face.

A kiss without a hint of lust.

Pure consolation.

Perhaps, this is the last time that he and Su Yinzhao can get along so peacefully.

After dawn, it will already be the next day, and in his plan, the intersection, the real intersection, between him and Su Yinzhao is only for these three days.

After looking at Su Yinzhao's profile for a long time, Liang Yuqing shifted his gaze to the ceiling, and stopped disturbing Su Yinzhao's peaceful sleep.

Thoughts, flying.

Zhao, please allow me to call you like this again in my heart.

Maybe, tomorrow, I will no longer have the courage to face you.

This is me you love deeply.

This is me who loves you deeply.

So humble, cowardly, and selfish.

For the past, I still remember that I was only 20 years old, and I am not old and dull.

I often think, how can a person's heart be divided into two halves?

The ridiculous thing is, I am a living example.

When I love him, I miss you in my heart.

When I look at you, my mind is full of him again.

I know it shouldn't be, but I can't control it.

Maybe, because of this, God punished me like this?

I admit, I love you very much, how long have I been in love?a long time.I can't tell either.

Maybe, from the time when I was a child, the first time I went to your house with an adult, and you kissed me, the bad relationship between us began.For you, maybe, you really shouldn't know me.

At that time, a boy named "Su Yinzhao" lived in my heart.He, silly, he, looks good, he, very cute.

Seeing you wiping my tears in a hurry and trying to make me smile with all your might, I have the idea of ​​crying harder for you.

Want to see, what other "stupid things" can you do?

Hehe, it's funny to think about it.

Also, very sweet.

But I will never tell you how much I love you.At least when you are sober, I will not say the word "love" to you.

That word, now, has become synonymous with ridiculousness, both for you and me.

Actually, I hope you will hate me.

Then, you won't suffer because of my death.

You will always keep me in your heart, even if, after a long, long time, I am no longer in the most important position in your heart.

As long as there is still such a small corner in your heart, just leave it to me.

This is my humble wish, can you help me fulfill it?

I believe that you are so kind, it's okay, right?

I'm so selfish, to the extreme.

I don't want to give a little bit, but I am infinite, I just want to ask for it.

The sky was getting brighter, but Liang Yuqing didn't feel sleepy at all.

How long, do not know.

All I know is that he, except for the daytime, except for the bright sun, he can't sleep, can't fall asleep.

He is afraid of when there is no light, especially at night, and what he fears most is the night of the full moon.

At times like that, other than doing something to keep himself from thinking, he would tremble to the point of a heart attack.

It's all because of that day, on the edge of that cliff...

That night, the moon was full.

Liang Yuqing just opened those big watery eyes, embraced the sleepy Su Yinzhao, and lay on the bed for more than an hour. If possible, he would like to live with him like this, but he felt that something was missing.

He didn't do anything, not because he didn't have the strength to do it, nor because he didn't want to do it, but because the atmosphere at this moment was so good that he didn't want to destroy it.So, he just quietly enjoyed such a peaceful moment with Su Yinzhao, without any inappropriate actions.Even the scene of the two of them at this time is absolutely fascinating.

Body and body are like two magnetic poles.

He must remember every minute and every second of these times, and every detail of everything, must be clearly remembered.If possible, he hopes to never forget it.

Some people said that Liang Yuqing abused people, hehe, that's right.

But while he was abusing others, he was also deeply abusing himself.

He wants to remember all of this firmly, perhaps, this will be some of the last memory fragments in his life.

He didn't want to leave regrets after his death. Is such a request too much?

At least, in his life, there are a few things that people can always remember.

enough.

If he doesn't die, then he can also support him and live on.

The answer he exchanged his life for may no longer be important, he has always been persistent, maybe even Liang Yuqing himself can't tell what it is, but he is still persistent.

For those they love deeply, they don't know how to treat, how to cherish, and how to treat each other well.

A good way to treat each other?Is it all right as long as there is sincerity?

Don't you need to let the parties know?

Who said that love cannot be used in such a drastic way?

Maybe, it looks cruel.

But he has exhausted all he can and used all his life's enthusiasm in these few days.

If possible, he also welcomes Su Yinzhao to treat him like this.If Su Yinzhao wishes so, he can really cooperate with all his strength.Until he is satisfied, until he dies.

Let everything, everything, shatter.

Never go back to the beginning.

It will never be perfect again.

This is his purpose.

Outside the window, it was already bright.The sun is dazzling.

Su Yinzhao, who was lying beside him, was sleeping soundly and sweetly, with a smile on his lips.

Liang Yuqing saw that smile, and couldn't help smiling too.

Zhao, is there me in your dream?Liang Yuqing really wanted to wake this person up and ask, but he was just thinking about it.Even if you know, what can you do?

It is daytime now, there is no "shield" for him to cover up, everything is so straightforward, and he doesn't want Su Yinzhao to see anything.He didn't want Su Yinzhao to be an obstacle to his plan.That's it, it's good for everyone.

As long as I die, grievances, no matter what...

Su Yinzhao's baby-like quiet face made Liang Yuqing want to cherish it.

It's just that there is no time.

His heart, perhaps, is more inclined to that person, perhaps, what he is inclined to is not that person, but the answer that he has been struggling with for a long time.

As for what exactly?Liang Yuqing couldn't tell.

By now, even if it can be said clearly, everything is already too late.It's better not to think about it.

In fact, perhaps, among these three people, the one who regretted the most was Lin Xuanyi who loved Liang Yuqing deeply.

If he could think that one day, his love would push the person he loved so much to a desperate situation, how would he face himself? ?Of course, that's something for later, so I won't show it for the time being.

Liang Yuqing was just not reconciled.

Not reconciled to the point of exchanging your life, what a deep obsession is this?

The "person in front of me" whom I love so deeply is right in front of me, and I can't make up for the deep gap and regret in my heart.

I'm sorry, saying "I'm sorry" in a thousand or ten thousand sentences can't express his mood at this moment.

Reluctant, a little bit.

Regret, a little.

……

They can't resist the strongest desire deep in their hearts!

Maybe, he just wanted to see that person again.

Perhaps, this is the deepest extravagant hope that he has bet his life on.

……

It was getting late, and he still had a lot to do.

There are still many things to arrange.

He had to arrange everything properly before facing the coming of death.

He has to stand in front of that person intact and refreshed, and see what kind of expression that person will show.Is it still as unfeeling as before...

He knew it wasn't worth it.

Indeed, not worth it.

That person has given up on himself.

But I can't learn to let go, who else can be hurt besides myself?

There is a poem that says it well: "Whoever abandons me, can't keep the day of yesterday."

But how many people in the world can really do it?

We are just mortals.

We are too ordinary.

We, have our thoughts.

But we, forgot, when we are self-righteous and treat the other person well, we should ask that person, is he willing to accept it?Are those so-called good things what he wants?

Deceit, sometimes, is a kind of love.

Love, sometimes, is a kind of hurt.

Liang Yuqing stood up, pulled the clothes to put them on, and then carefully looked at Su Yinzhao's face.

Those eyebrows, those eyes, those lips, that...

He has been watching for no less than 15 years.They met for the first time when they were five years old.

He got out of bed and wanted to leave like this, but Liang Yuqing was a little reluctant.

He has already got what he wants, and in the next time, he will leave here to let Su Yinzhao recover from his injuries.

He didn't want to hurt him any more. As for the affair, in fact, he wasn't keen on it.

Such enthusiasm is because the person under him is someone he has wanted for a long time.

He is very special.

All the time, in Liang Yuqing's life.

Turning around, she once again focused her gaze on Su Yinzhao's cheeks, those half-closed lips attracted him, approached, approached again.

Gently pushed Su Yinzhao, and saw that he was sleeping soundly.

Liang Yuqing called "Zhao" a few more times, but Su Yinzhao didn't respond.

Therefore, Liang Yuqing no longer cared about other things, obeyed the desire in his heart, leaned over and pressed a kiss on Su Yinzhao's lips, and said, "Zhao, I love you. Although, I hurt you. Please remember me, Please forget me too."

The voice was already choked up.

I'm afraid that if I stay here again, I won't be able to control myself from wanting to...

Liang Yuqing turned around, but this time, she didn't look back.