Absolutely love

But he didn't realize that the water dripping on his face and body from time to time following Su Yinzhao's movements were Su Yinzhao's tears...

Su Yinzhao beat Liang Yuqing hard for a day and a night, during which Liang Yuqing fainted several times, until the sky fell into darkness again, Su Yinzhao withdrew from Liang Yuqing's body, grabbed his clothes, snatched the door and fled.

I can't help it anymore, I can't help but want to do it for my own sorrow, for my own despair, for the ruthlessness of the people under me...

while lamenting...

The moment he turned around, the tears that had long since ceased gushing out uncontrollably again, trickling down his cheeks.Scattered in the wind, hidden in the air, hidden in the darkness...

It's just a pity that Liang Yuqing, who had fainted at this time, still didn't see this scene. If he saw it, maybe everything would be different.

However, for Su Yinzhao, he didn't have the courage to let Liang Yuqing see that kind of desperate fragility.That would make him feel even more humble and powerless.

What is the reason for all this?

Maybe, when they think back again in the near future, they just smiled slightly, laughing at their frivolity and naivety back then, laughing at their own self, laughing at their lack of confidence in the person they love...

Love, without any reason.Love, there is no excuse.

When it comes, you don't feel it, when it goes, you feel pain...

It's just that none of us have learned to face our hearts bravely...

Sometimes, just one sentence can... turn everything upside down.

It's just that they still have to suffer and torture each other because of their selfishness and delusions.

When I woke up, I suddenly felt...

For flowers to bloom, there must be a process...

Phoenix, if you want to be reborn, you have to go to nirvana after ashes...

People, to grow, have to experience suffering...

Only then will I realize that many things are, in fact, originally, very simple...

Su Yinzhao never knew that there would be a day when he would escape in such embarrassment.And life is constantly creating 'miracles', whether you like it or not, and whether you like it or not.The 'surprises' one by one will still make people dizzy.

At this time, Su Yinzhao was "drinking" to the moon in front of the lake in his courtyard.Alas, isn't it just pouring alcohol!That obviously the best spirits in the world, in Su Yinzhao's feeling at this moment, is no different from plain boiled water.No matter how you drink, you will not get drunk, and no matter how you drink, you will have no taste.Why did he hate himself so sober?It is because he is sober that he suffers!

In fact, he really wanted to rush back to the courtyard where Liang Yuqing was, and tear that 'scum' who had collapsed at this moment into pieces!But as long as I think about it, my heart will stop beating and my hands will tremble.

In fact, he really wanted to tear himself to shreds, but he was not reconciled, he was not reconciled to waiting for so many years, only in exchange for his own ridiculous.In that case, if he really left this world like this, Su Yinzhao laughed loudly, in the silent night, like the scream of a ghost.If that's the case, then what is the reason for walking through this world like this?

Born, brought nothing, nothing to worry about.

Death can take nothing away, even if it is only a trace of comfort in the depths of the soul...

In this world, he came and went in a hurry, without gaining any sincerity.

Really...

The soul is so sad, the body is so humble...

Him, what is left?

He had nothing left but that hopeless delusion...

Even if he dies, he still wants to carry someone's love, someone's concern, someone's...

nothing... nothing...

"Why?" Su Yinzhao looked at his own reflection in the lake, and couldn't help asking himself, "Why? Why is my Su Yinzhao's life destined to be just a tragedy? Why? Hehe, wine is better. I will never betray, and I will always be so pure. I'm already tired of that kind of complexity, I'm already tired of guessing a person's mood, but that person has never put me in his heart, even the slightest... Haha, ridiculous... Come on, let's have a toast! "

The reflection in the lake was also doing the same gesture of toasting, with the same sad and ugly expression.This is Su Yinzhao's life all along.If he hadn't met Liang Yuqing more than ten years ago, maybe his whole life would only be with him, right?It was a sense of loneliness that no matter what kind of busy city you were in, you only had yourself.For everyone, there is a natural alienation.Just besides clearing...

Of course, there's that guy...

That person is the same in his heart...

Su Yinzhao smiled wryly, the current self, even Liang Yuqing, couldn't love, how could he have the mood to think about other things?

I am really greedy.

Su Yinzhao pulled her thoughts back to Liang Yuqing's question again.

Is it true that nothing I do can arouse Liang Yuqing's reaction now?This kind of powerlessness is tormenting.How can I not get the feeling of 'deep love'?This kind of despair makes people crazy.

Liang Yuqing became a living dead for Lin Xuanyi, while he was nothing but a condiment, a foil.Looking at the protagonist's love, the kind of cannon fodder character you envy and never get?hehe.

That's how it is, that's how it is.I really overestimated myself.That day was indeed a dream.

Perhaps, one person is humbled to the extreme in front of another person, is this the case?Even in my dreams, I dare not express my true emotions.On that day, one day in that month, he fell into a coma, and his mind was full of chaos.In the dream, he came, and he also came... But the funny thing is, he can actually feel it, it may be real, but it's more like a dream.A fantasy in a dream.

At that moment, he said to himself in his heart, this is a dream, don't believe it, don't think about it, but still, involuntarily, there is such a glimmer of hope.It turned out, really, it was just a dream.He just said, how could God be so kind to him?

At that time, he actually heard his Qing, saying "love him" to him, at that moment, he actually felt his Yi, kissing his cheek lightly?

Haha, is it really me who is so self-indulgent? !There is nothing more humiliating than that.Even now, he still hopes that such a dream will come true...

What kind of sadness is it when even dreams are a luxury?Really, what are you doing alive?Such a broken body, such a broken heart...

So frustrating! !

I was tortured like that by him, but woke up because of such a nonsense dream, God, how can you make me feel so bad? !Su Yinzhao suddenly stood up unbearably, and threw the wine glass into the lake. There was a "plop".

Liang Yuqing usually has a little bit of his place in his heart, so he wouldn't treat him like this right now, would he?hehe.

The body seemed to be out of strength, the next moment Su Yinzhao sat back on the stone pier slumped, and continued to pour himself a drink.

The more he drank the more wine, the sky was gradually getting brighter, his body was a little out of control, but his mind was still sober.Who said that 'one drunk can solve a thousand worries'?

Why can't I get drunk when I'm really depressed and sad?It just makes my heart feel more depressed, and my head feels more painful...

Back and forth in my mind, that is, things that have happened for more than ten years, with myself, with clarity, with ease... After thinking about it, it turned out to be an indescribable feeling, which filled the whole chest, pain, pain.No matter how much he pressed on the position of his heart, he couldn't relieve it one iota.

Maybe, the next moment, I will vomit blood due to alcoholism, right?Su Yinzhao smiled wryly.At this time, I am still in the mood to joke.

No, Liang Yuqing can't be made comfortable, he wants Liang Yuqing to have a good taste of his feelings during those three days!He must force Liang Yuqing to face himself, even if it requires some extraordinary means.Yesterday, it was because I didn't want that person to see my tears, and also... my heart was not at peace.Will be at a loss for a while.This time, really, no matter what, he also asked for a result. He didn't want to see Liang Yuqing like that, he would not be able to bear it and would collapse.He, think about it...

Well, it's just a delusion...

That kind of love between two people... Really, can I not get it even if I live forever?Still, there is still a chance?However, right now, what he needs to do is to bring Liang Yuqing back to life.

So Su Yinzhao, who was planning in this way, stood up, staggered towards Liang Yuqing's courtyard.

It is said that Liang Yuqing had gone through the "baptism" of Su Yinzhao yesterday, and now he was lying on the bed as if paralyzed, and even breakfast was half-forcibly fed by servants.

Just when he was wandering there in a daze, there was a sound from the door, and then, yesterday, he let himself truly experience what is called a 'nightmare', just like that, appeared in his life without warning. in front of.

To be honest, at this moment, many thoughts flashed through Liang Yuqing's mind, some were sour, some were astringent, some were ashamed, some...

Overwhelmed.

After the contact like yesterday, Liang Yuqing really couldn't adjust his mood for a while.However, he quickly put away the redundant expressions, he has told himself more than once that from now on, when he faces Su Yinzhao, he will only have that one expression.

deadpan expression.

It is a kind of protective color, and it is also a kind of screen boundary that can prevent each other from misunderstanding.Like a mountain, like a layer of yarn...all so insurmountable.

The eyes are so intertwined, but neither of them can see into each other's heart.So close, so far...

For a long time, Su Yinzhao did not move, and Liang Yuqing did not move away.Just look at it.Maybe there is a trace of probing in each other's eyes, but they both try their best to cover up the affection in their hearts so perfectly, so... Tired...

When did Su Yinzhao start to move?he does not know.In fact, Liang Yuqing didn't pay attention either.They just looked at each other, and when they came back to their senses, Su Yinzhao had already 'shared' Liang Yuqing's big bed with a large set of training tools...