Through 1979

"Wake up... get up..."

Li Ran opened his eyes, his mind was still a little confused, turned over and picked up the mobile phone next to the pillow, and looked at the time displayed on it: 6 o'clock sharp, it was time to get up and make breakfast for Xiao Gang.

He quickly turned on the light and got up, the summer morning was still not hot, walked to the living room, took out the milk from the old refrigerator, warmed it up and put it aside.

Then I came to my son Xiaogang's room. The whole room was not big, and the furniture only had a bed and a desk.

The child still took the lead in burying himself in the bed, sleeping soundly, without any sign of getting up.Seeing this situation, Li Ran couldn't help showing a smile on his face, and after tossing and saying good words for a while, he pulled the child out of the bed.

Taking advantage of the time when the child went to the bathroom to wash up, Li Ran hurried to the kitchen. Taking advantage of the dim light outside the window, he cooked a hot meal. After thinking about it, he took out an egg from the refrigerator. Eggs are small, but they are twice as expensive as foreign eggs.But no one can suffer for the child. Li Ran knows that he is useless, so he can barely save the money he earns so that the two can survive. But for the sake of the child's health, he must not let him lack nutrition.

Seeing the child coming out of the bathroom, Li Ran quickly put the meal on the dining table, and hurried to the bathroom to wash up.Brushing his teeth, washing his face, and combing his hair, Li Ran looked at the young man in the mirror. He was 31 years old this year, and he already had a nine-year-old child in the fourth grade of primary school. The young man in the mirror still looked like he was in his 20s, because of his baby face. Because of this, he has always looked younger than his actual age.

Speaking of Li Ran, everyone I know thinks that there is really nothing to boast about. He has no car or money, and he doesn't even have many relatives. He even divorced his wife two months ago.

The only thing he can say is that he has this house in the suburbs not far from the city. It is not very big, but although it is small, it has all internal organs and convenient transportation. There is a bus station in front of the house. Or a colleague who is still repaying the mortgage, in this matter, he is really "successful".

After washing, as expected, the child left early. Li Ran went to the low cabinet in the living room, opened the drawer, there were a few dollars left in it, and took out another twenty from his pocket. Li Ran put the money away and closed the drawer , and then went to the kitchen to eat some fried rice, ready to go to work.

The son hasn't spoken to him recently, and the atmosphere in the whole family is cold and dull. Li Ran understands that this is his son's resistance to the divorce of his parents and his inability to have a complete family.

Children are the most sensitive, Li Ran felt that he was really not a competent father.

After wiping his face, Li Ran rolled out his bicycle and rode towards the work place.

When he came to the supermarket, he said hello to the boss. Li Ran walked to the door of the warehouse, pulled up the shutter of the warehouse, picked up the cleaning tools and started cleaning.

He works as a warehouse manager in a supermarket. He earns 1500 yuan a month. He doesn’t have to pay a mortgage. He cooks his own meals for breakfast and dinner, and provides meals for lunch. As long as he doesn’t spend extra money on clothes or travel in January, he can still save some money every month.Li Ran saved all the money. The children will spend too much money in junior high school, high school, and university. He has to start making preparations now.

After packing up, other employees of the supermarket also came to work one after another.When passing by him, everyone smiled and said hello to him.

Li Ran nodded with a smile, and responded one by one. As a good old man, he can't even think about his popularity.

At 6 o'clock in the evening, close the door and leave work on time.Passing by the vegetable market, I bought the vegetables to be prepared for the evening, and rode home.

Li Ran's daily life is like this. To put it nicely, it is calm, but to put it badly, it is a piece of stagnant water.Li Ran felt that there was nothing wrong with such a day, stagnant water was stagnant water, he was used to it, and for him, this was the long-awaited peace.

Go home and prepare the meal, go to the room and call the child out to eat.Looking at his son who was going to go to the room after a few mouthfuls, Li Ran felt that he should communicate with the child and speak up.

"Xiao Gang", Li Ran called his son to stop him, and he couldn't help showing a cautious expression, "We haven't talked for a long time, can we chat with Dad?"

Li Gang's figure paused for a moment, and then he sat down, his whole face twitching tightly.

Li Ran looked at his son's face. This child looked like him, with white and tender skin, and black and white eyes. For this reason, just like when he was a child, he was often pinched in the face.

The child used to be smiling all day long and was extremely cute. Li Ran and his wife Wu Yan also put him in their hands and held him in their mouths, spoiling him so much.

Since Li Ran and his wife divorced, the child seemed to be a different person. Li Ran didn't blame his wife. He did something wrong. It was normal not to want to live with a gay man. He had no right to force it.

"We'll wait for your holiday this weekend. Daddy asks for leave. Let's go to the playground with you, okay?" Seeing that the child didn't respond, Li Ran then added: "Call mom to come with you, okay?"

This is something that Li Ran has planned for a long time. In the past, when it was the festival's turn, Li Ran and his wife would bring their children and go out to have a meal together.Wu Yan has always been a conscientious wife. Although she has no money, she actually gave him the warm life Li Ran expected.

After the divorce, his son never laughed. He was already in the fourth grade. In this precocious age, he already knew what divorce meant.Li Ran knew that even if he wanted to lie, he would not be able to. He only hoped that the hard work with his ex-wife would make him happy again.

Seeing his son nodding, Li Ran exhaled lightly, and the stone in his heart fell steadily.

"How is the school? Is there anything new?" It was rare that his son was willing to respond, and Li Ran was unwilling to let go of this opportunity, so he hurriedly talked about other matters with his son.

Tucking the quilt lightly, Li Ran carefully looked at his son's resemblance to himself, and the joy overflowing from his heart couldn't help but make him smile.

Today's son's response is a good sign, as long as you work hard, the previous son will definitely come back. After making a gesture of cheering, Li Ran rubbed his face hard, smoothed his smiling lips, and then left his son's room go out.

When he came to his room, Li Ran turned on the computer, and there was a "buzzing" sound. This computer is too old, and the noise it makes is really annoying.But as long as it can be used, he doesn't have high requirements for the computer, and he doesn't have the money to buy a new one.

After clicking on my computer, Li Ran searched for Yingzang's folder in the computer. After clicking on it, the photo of the handsome man with dark eyes staring at the front was revealed.

Li Ran looked at the man and slowly leaned back on the chair.

He has liked this man for 16 years, and he will continue to like this man. Even if he loses his parents and wife because of him, Li Ran knows that this love will still be maintained.

16 years ago, Li Ran was poisoned by him, and there was no cure.

But it doesn't matter, Li Ran comforted himself, there is no need to explain, and there is no need to change, now it is very good, he still has a son, a family that will never leave, with him, it doesn't matter if he lives like this.