I have known love for many years

There are many people in the restaurant, and the time set early cannot be changed.The two turned upside down in the hotel room. Only then did they realize that it was too late for dinner when they went to the spa, so they had to give up.

"Go tomorrow morning," Fei Lian coaxed the lover in his arms, "Do you want to sleep for a while? Or pack up and let's go to the beach?"

"...Let's go, go to the beach." Bai Xuecheng stretched, pinched Fei Lian's waist again, and said with a smile, "Do you still have energy?"

With a smile in his eyes, Fei Lian lifted his hips and pushed him up: "You underestimated me?"

"Don't dare. Who doesn't know that you are so hot on the bed... Tsk tsk, I'm just worried that you are getting older and not as good as before."

Fei Lian said uncomfortably, "Only you know."

Bai Xuecheng originally said it casually, but he didn't react when he heard the words: "Huh?"

Fei Lian coughed, put his arms around Bai Xuecheng's waist and rubbed him affectionately, and said in a low voice, "I said, only you know that I'm on the bed...cough cough. There's no one else."

Bai Xuecheng understood, his face was as thick as he felt embarrassment at the moment, he stammered "Oh" twice, followed Fei Lian to cough, and the two fell silent for a while.

Bai Xuecheng's toes rubbed against Fei Lian's, and Fei Lian's arms were still around his waist. He just stared at the sheets for a while, until his body became a little stiff before sitting up and watching with his legs crossed and wrapped in the sheets. Fee Lian.

"Actually, I asked Jiang Fan a question before." Bai Xuecheng touched his neck and said.

Fei Lian: "?"

"Jiang Fan asked me not to ask too much, saying that I was looking for trouble for myself. I don't think I should ask too much, but people... are just greedy." Bai Xuecheng licked his lips, and said a little embarrassedly, "It was not a misunderstanding before. Did you bring someone to stay overnight? I really wanted to know, do you... still like my style?"

Fei Lian: "..."

Fei Lian never expected that Bai Xuecheng, who is as straightforward as he is, would think about this kind of question?It's not that he thinks there's something wrong with this problem, but that Bai Xuecheng is not someone who cares about such small things.

In fact, to be honest, the reunion of the two was very sudden, and they had been estranged from each other for several years.During this period of time, each other's physical and mental changes have changed a lot, but like stubborn cows, they refused to listen to others' advice and wanted to try again. The temporary sweetness suppressed many problems that each other did not face up to.They all knew that it was not suitable to break the casserole and ask the bottom line. They all paused the pace of moving forward and tried hard to walk side by side with each other for a certain distance, even if they didn't know what was waiting ahead.

After the panic, bewilderment and confusion passed, the relationship between the two has rapidly heated up recently. Bai Xuecheng has seen Fei Lian's change, and Fei Lian has also seen Bai Xuecheng's change.

One of them is no longer a coward who is afraid of the pressure of reality, and the other is no longer an impetuous guy who insists on showing so-called evidence if he wants to love.They are both willing to give each other space and time, and have shown a lifetime of patience and courage. This may be the best time to be open and honest with each other.

Fei Lian understood what Bai Xuecheng meant, and he also sat up, thinking about it and suddenly wanted to laugh.

If it was Bai Xuecheng in the past, he might have asked bluntly: "Do you love me?" But now Bai Xuecheng would no longer ask such sharp questions, but would say "Do you still like me?" money?"

Fei Lian took two cigarettes from the bedside and shared them with Bai Xuecheng. The two lit their cigarettes head to head. Fei Lian said, "I can't forget you. I only care about you. That's the key. But if I say only If you like this one of yours, you won’t believe it if you tell me, right?”

Bai Xuecheng lowered his head and stared at his hand holding the cigarette, and said, "Then after all these years, haven't you found a suitable person?"

Fei Lian grinned, did he actually laugh: "No, I don't want to look for it."

Bai Xuecheng took a puff of cigarette and narrowed his eyes: "When I decided to come back, I always wanted to contact you. But I don't know what to do to contact you. Maybe you are married, maybe you have someone else, I I want to know your news, but I am afraid to know."

Fei Lian understood his feeling, and he hummed in a low voice.

"When I agreed to see Jiang Fan, I wanted to try to move forward."

Fei Lian tightened his hand holding the cigarette.

"I didn't expect to run into you at the movie theater," Bai Xuecheng smiled, "Maybe it's fate. Otherwise... Maybe I will and Jiang Fan..."

If he hadn't seen Fei Lian distracted, Jiang Fan wouldn't have noticed anything, and he wouldn't have said something like "You have someone in your heart, we have nothing to do with you".Getting along with Jiang Fan is actually very pleasant and has no burden. Two mature adults get along with each other. They know what the other wants, and they don't mess around like they did when they were teenagers.

If Fei Lian hadn't rented his house, if it hadn't been for the sudden reunion, he and Jiang Fan might have gotten together.

"Emotions, it's hard to say what comes first and then comes first." Bai Xuecheng's face was a bit hazy after the sunshine and green smoke, "Maybe I have always had your thorn in my heart, but I don't have the courage to say goodbye to you." Go find out something, and we'll never see each other like this."

"Isn't it strange that you said fate?"

Fei Lian felt a pain in his heart, just thinking about that scene, he felt that he couldn't breathe.

Who is not surprised?After Bai Xuecheng left, he turned himself into a walking dead, he would no longer be emotional, and he didn't want to harm anyone anymore.He didn't know any news about Bai Xuecheng, time seemed to stop in a certain corner, let him pass six years numbly and deceiving himself.

It doesn't seem to think what will happen, the earth will not stop turning, and the end of the world will not come.

But after meeting this person again, all the frozen time resumed, making him clearly realize how desolate and lonely the six years of losing this person were, and how satisfying and happy the time we spend together in just one month is now.With this layer of contrast, he can no longer accept any separation, even if it is only imagined.

Fei Lian grabbed Bai Xuecheng's hand: "No, there is no such possibility!"

Bai Xuecheng was startled, seeing that Fei Lian's eyes were red, he hurriedly pulled him over and hugged him, patting him on the back like a baby: "It's all right, all I'm saying is, don't be afraid, my husband is here. "

Fei Lian exhaled tremblingly: "From now on... I will agree to whatever you say, and I will listen to you. Don't...don't leave me again."

Bai Xuecheng felt sad for a while, and hugged his lover vigorously: "Don't say that, you can listen to me? Am I so authoritarian? Our family still wants to be democratic and reasonable... Well, let me think about it, Taking advantage of this opportunity, why not talk about your family? You know the situation of my family, it’s just that, it’s not complicated, our family doesn’t like to quarrel, and we are very harmonious.”

Fei Lian never mentioned family affairs to Bai Xuecheng, and he always said "you don't understand" annoyedly back then.In fact, at that time, he hid a deep inferiority complex. He envied Bai Xuecheng's family, so he didn't want to tell his own situation.It's hard to say whether he is afraid of scaring Bai Xuecheng, or he is afraid of making Bai Xuecheng pity him.

But it must be made clear now, for a better future.

Fei Lian nodded: "Okay, I'll tell you everything."

……

The evening sun falls on the beach, and the end of the sea level shows a psychedelic color.The reflection of the sea overlaps with the scene of the sky, and the sea surface seems to be floating with a huge fish scale, reflecting golden light spots.There were still a lot of people on the beach at this time, and the shore was also crowded with people. The noise was louder than the waves, but it couldn't disturb the peaceful atmosphere between Bai Xuecheng and him.

The two are on the beach under a large red and white checkered umbrella with blue cushions next to it.Bai Xuecheng buried Fei Lian in the sand, only Fei Lian's head was exposed, and then he used the sand to reshape Fei Lian's body, piled a giant bird under his crotch, and two heavy round ball.

After Fei Lian finished talking about the family affairs, he looked at the top of the umbrella blankly, not knowing what expression he should make at this time.

Bai Xuecheng built Fei Lian's strong chest muscles again, patted hard and said, "Then your mother won't go back to live in Nancheng?"

"Probably not, she is also a very stubborn person, so she can't say it easily." Fei Lian moved, and found that he couldn't move, and was even more helpless for a while, "Don't take pictures."

Bai Xuecheng stood up and took out his phone.

Fei Lian: "..."

Bai Xuecheng turned on the video and took pictures of Fei Lian in a circle. A child passed by with a small bucket and a shovel in his hand, looking at them blankly.

Fei Lian blushed and said, "Don't, you push that first!"

Bai Xuecheng asked playfully, "Which one?"

Fei Lian said, "It's indecent!"

Bai Xuecheng stood in front of his "big bird", stretched out his hand and shook it: "Everyone listened to me before? Huh?"

Fei Lian was in so much pain that he couldn't tell.

Bai Xuecheng put away the phone, propped his chin and spoke to Fei Lian in front of the big bird: "Do you think your mother knows your sexual orientation?"

"Maybe she knows," Fei Lian said after a while, "I think she knows, so she always wants me to get married as soon as possible. I guess she thinks that this problem will be fine if she gets married."

Bai Xuecheng laughed: "It's not easy."

"What?" Fei Lian looked up at him with difficulty, "This thing is deadly, should you push it away?"

"Okay," Bai Xuecheng stretched out his hand, first pushed the two very sizeable balls apart, then clicked his tongue unfortunately, and then said, "Your mother's temper... I don't think she can accept it, or it's better gone."

In his early years, Bai Xuecheng may still have many puzzles, such as: You are looking for a lover, not your mother!You don't spend your whole life with your mother!This is your own life!and so on.

But now he can somewhat understand Fei Lian's difficulty back then.A child who has only had his mother by his side since he was a child, that is his only source of security. He can't bear it, let alone let alone push his mother away, otherwise he might not even have the only safe haven.

This way of thinking continued until he grew up. Subconsciously, he couldn’t refuse many requests from Fei’s mother, so he kept suppressing himself. In that case, all his anxiety, fear and restlessness were natural. Instinctive reaction.

Bai Xuecheng really wanted to go back to the beginning and hug Fei Lian who was afraid of the future.I also really want to say to my original self: If you are more patient, if you can make him trust more, maybe at that time you can accompany him to overcome obstacles instead of leaving him.

The current Bai Xuecheng would not be demanding anymore, Fei Lian had already overcome that obstacle by himself.In his opinion, this is enough, and he thinks the same as Fei Lian once again at this time. He is not willing to be the thorn between Fei Lian and his mother—as Fei Lian used to be. I would like to be the thorn between myself and my family.

"No!" Fei Lian suddenly became excited, "What do you mean forget it? You can't forget it. You promised not to leave me, you promised..."

"Shhh!!" Bai Xuecheng moved to a position where Fei Lian could see him, and poked his forehead with his hand, "Forget it, I mean, you don't have to let your mother know. I won't mind, Don't embarrass her, and I don't want to embarrass you either."

"It's not difficult, I've made up my mind, I'll take you back to meet them when they come back from this trip, I..."

Before he finished speaking, there was a terrified cry from a distance, and the voices suddenly became chaotic, and many people ran towards a certain place.

Bai Xuecheng stood up and turned his head. After looking carefully for a while, his pupils shrank.

Fei Lian couldn't see, and asked anxiously: "What's the matter? Bai Xuecheng? What's the matter?"

Bai Xuecheng hurriedly said: "I'll be right back!" After saying that, he actually ran away.

Fei Lian struggled hard, but Bai Xuecheng dug too deep a hole, the sand on his body became heavier and heavier, Fei Lian struggled for a long time and couldn't get out for a while!

I only heard people running past shouting: "God, a child was swept away by the waves!"

"Where's the lifeguard? Call the lifeguard!"

"Hit 120!!"

"I remember that there is a life jacket here, who is going to get it?!"

Fei Lian was taken aback for a moment, and then his whole body became cold instantly.He didn't doubt at all that Bai Xuecheng's character would go directly to save people. He panicked, and with a swipe he pulled out a hand, and then pushed the sand off his body with great effort.At this moment, a woman's voice asked curiously from the side: "Brother Fei? You..."

Fei Lian pushed away the sand on his upper body and sat up. The huge bird was still under his crotch. Standing next to him was the woman brought by Minister Fang, who was taking off his sunglasses and looking at him in surprise.Usually, Fei Lian wished he could bury himself back, even his head.But now he couldn't care about these things anymore, he stood up with his hands on his hands, and rushed directly to the place with the most people.