I have known love for many years

Fei Lian was a little absent-minded on the way back to work. When he was waiting for the traffic light, he took out the glass bottle from his bag, and rubbed the smooth body of the bottle repeatedly with his slender fingers. He didn't notice that the car in front of him had already left, but he was slammed by the car behind. trumpet.

When Fei Lian was crossing the intersection, a Mercedes-Benz squeezed past him. The front of the car slightly turned away from Fei Lian. Fei Lian yelled in the direction: "Good dogs don't get in the way! Stupid!"

Fei Lian has always had a much better temper than Bai Xuecheng, and he was not angry when he heard the words, but he thought of Bai Xuecheng instantly.The one who is going to drive is Bai Xuecheng, so I guess it will be a lot of trouble today.

Back then when their school basketball team played, the opponent was not reconciled to losing, and blocked several of their teammates in the waiting room after the game. Bai Xuecheng went to the bathroom and happened to miss the opponent. When he came back, there was a quick game The quick fight and scolding was over, and Bai Xuecheng chased after him at that time, he just chased him to the school gate, and knocked the person who made the first move in front of the school bus in front of the opponent's coach.

In fact, the opponents fought quickly at that time, and they didn't fight very hard. The two sides were basically not injured, except for Fei Lian who blocked the front, and his nose was wiped. Nosebleeds.

But at this moment, Bai Xuecheng's anger was ignited, and he was so beaten up that his nose was bruised and his face was swollen, and several people couldn't stop him.

For this matter, Bai Xuecheng was banned from the game, kicked out of the school basketball, and recorded in the file; not to mention that he was escorted to apologize to the other party in private, and was scolded by the other party's parents in the hospital corridor He was bloody and paid for all the medical expenses.

It's just not getting any benefit.

Fei Lian tried to explain that Bai Xuecheng was always emotional and too impulsive countless times, but Bai Xuecheng's nature was hard to change. Later, the two had more disputes, and most of them were because of these trivial matters.

Feelings are something that can’t stand the test. Big winds and waves may be able to bear it together. Unforgettable feelings can generate enough enthusiasm and courage, but long streams, blandness and trivial trivialities can crush any "unforgettable" feelings. .

The campus relationship in the youth is always fresh and exciting, kissing and touching each other secretly in the dormitory, going to the hotel on weekends to get a cheap room, and always thinking that the other party is good wherever they are, even those who are emotional and impulsive. At the time, there seemed to be a bright spot-he valued me so much, he didn't want anyone to hurt me, and everything became very interesting with him.

But later, as the years and age grow, those impulsive straightforwardness with shining points has become a hindrance.

Why is he out of his mind?He lost my face.Doesn't he think it's not worth it at all?Didn't he see any benefit in doing so?

Slowly, there will always be one person who finds out that this is a problem, and then their frequencies become no longer tacit, and even a small matter can become a spark for a quarrel.

At the end of the day, liking is still liking, but it just doesn't fit anymore.

really weird.

Fei Lian parked the car at the entrance of the unit, loosened his seat belt, thinking about the expressionless face of that man during the day.

The first time he saw him, his heart still moved, and he still felt his heart beat faster. At that time, he thought: This person is indeed the type I like.

But he is no longer the same impulsive boy back then. If he likes it, he must get it. If he likes it, he wants to be together all the time.

At the age of 30, he has been able to sensibly put his likes and reality into different categories, and he can clearly hear his rationality saying without any waves: "You are no longer suitable, and liking is only limited to liking. It has passed."

Like liking cats and dogs, liking a painting, liking a flower, liking a certain movie.

Just like it.

Fei Lian looked at the glass bottle left on the co-pilot for a while. The shells inside were picked up by himself at the beach the year after he broke up with Bai Xuecheng.

He went alone to the ends of the earth to take pictures, picked up shells, bought pearl necklaces, and drank coconut juice for a few days until he almost vomited.

He didn't go looking for any old memories, nor did he go there with a tragic mood, he just went to say goodbye.

If you have to bring this bottle full of shells, it is just a commemoration of your first love.

After all, they still liked each other when they broke up, and no lover turned into an enemy, and the trouble did not embarrass both parties.

After all, Fei Lian was more sensible than Bai Xuecheng, and before things could be salvaged—he meant, before they got to the point where they hated each other, he stopped everything in time.He just hoped that this relationship would always be the best in his memory.

Fei Lian rubbed the center of his brows, suppressing the unsuspecting emotion of meeting his ex-boyfriend in his heart.

That's it, he said to himself: that's it.

If Bai Xuecheng could hear Fei Lian's heart at this moment, he might not know what expression to make.

When he was eager to redeem, the other party had already drawn a clear dividing line between each other.

"Have you ever thought about it?" Chen Xin asked Bai Xuecheng for dinner at noon, and the two ordered three dishes and one soup in a small restaurant on the bustling street.Chen Xin picked up the twice-cooked pork that was sautéed with chopsticks, and said, "Sometimes memories are the best, I think it's better to forget it? After tossing and tossing to the end, maybe the goodness in the memories will be gone, why bother?"

Chen Xin is also a person who has experienced it, and he sighed and persuaded: "I talked to a girl after graduation. At that time, I really thought it was good. It was good everywhere. It was good to act coquettishly and self-willed. When I heard her talk, my legs and waist softened."

Bai Xuecheng ate and drank soup in silence, and when he heard this, he raised his eyes and gave him a sideways glance, which meant - look at how promising you are.

Chen Xin patted the table: "What kind of eyes do you have? Do you dare to say that you were not like this when you were with Fei Lian? Virtue."

Bai Xuecheng made a gesture of "Everything you say is right, please continue".

Chen Xin then murmured: "But after the freshness is over, it's not right. It's fun to act coquettishly and self-willed once in a while, who can bear being coquettish and self-willed every day, and going online every now and then? The problem is that you can't say it. I just cried, crying until I was in the dark..." Chen Xin sighed, "We broke up later, but I always felt reluctant after we broke up. She came to me a few times, and every time she was pitiful, saying that she would never do it again. It will be changed. In the future, the two of you will be good, communicate more if there is anything wrong, and give way to each other. Hey, this was said very well at the time, and I also agreed to get back together without holding on for a while. It's better to just break it off so simply, at least not to the point of being an enemy."

Bai Xuecheng rarely inquired about other people's affairs, he was not interested in gossip, but since Chen Xin said it, he asked, "What's the matter?"

Chen Xin took a sip of the tasteless tea, and said: "Say more communication, make it easier, and finally I have to take the initiative to communicate with her more, I have to take the initiative to give way, say a few more words, and she will say ' You don’t like me anymore, you don’t love me anymore. I knew you pity me when you promised me, so why did you promise me?” If you talk too much, your heart will become numb. That bit of reluctance and liking really We couldn't keep it up anymore, and in the end we became a pair of enemies, looking at each other and hating each other."

Chen Xin sighed faintly: "But back then I really liked her little temper and pettiness, man..."

Bai Xuecheng frowned: "I'm not a big girl, I think so much every day..."

Chen Xin waved his hand to signal him not to speak such big words.

"It's the same in the relationship, what's the difference between men and women?" Chen Xin saw it more clearly than he did, and said, "You want to get back together, is it that easy to get back together? When the other party agrees, you also worry about gains and losses. If you don't agree, you feel sad. As long as you really care about it, it is impossible for you not to magnify those details frame by frame. At that time, what was not a big deal before will be a big deal. You can tell a "he doesn't like it" with every look and tone of someone's eyes. My' conclusion. Why? Because you asked to get back together, and from the day you got back together, you have a knot in your heart, "Is he pitying me, or is there no partner for the time being, so let's just let it go?" What do you think? There will be, little brother..."

Chen Xin looked at Bai Xuecheng and asked, "You haven't talked about friends in all these years?"

Bai Xuecheng shook his head.

Chen Xin sighed: "That's even worse."

Chen Xin looked at Bai Xuecheng and said, "The best choice is to come out completely, to have a new relationship, to meet new people, to find a new relationship. I'm serious, don't think about it It's time for Fei Lian, you are already in the past tense, let him pass."