bad-hearted lover

I couldn't say I was in a very happy mood, and I obviously got another good subordinate.

The hands were still wrapped in thick gauze, and the pain was no longer there, but there was always an uncomfortable lump in my heart.

I tried to contact Shou again, but the phone was not connected, and I stood at the desk a little lonely.

I was really not in the mood to practice calligraphy, so I put the lake pen dipped in high-quality ink on the rim of a white porcelain cup, watched the ink on the tip of the pen gradually gather, and then dripped into the clean water below, and soon the bottom was white and clear The font of the book was instantly dyed black.

These inks are like me, filthy in itself, trying to pollute the world around me.

However, if I were ink, at least there would be a porcelain like this to restrain my blackness and prevent it from spreading, or, someone, just pour out my basin of sewage.

I myself feel tired.

Unfortunately, this tiredness has become a habit.

A habit that started a long, long time ago.

My throat felt a bit uncomfortable, as if there were many ants crawling in my throat, it was very uncomfortable.The scratching sensation can only be ignored by constant coughing.

Sho hasn't contacted me all this time, and I don't feel anything, after all, it's just a relationship of having slept a few times, and the relationship hasn't been so deep that if we don't see each other for a moment, I feel burning in my heart and become ill.

When I stood in front of the desk and lost my mind, my stomach was already growling. I didn't plan to do it myself, so I ordered takeaway again.I ordered a pizza that I hadn't eaten for a long time, and the pizza came fairly quickly. Looking at the rather large bread, I didn't have much appetite.

My stomach is already screaming with hunger, but I just lost my appetite.

It should just be that the pizza looks bad.

While eating pizza, I turned on the TV and tuned to the entertainment channel for no reason. I saw Sho, who was filming an MV in a foreign country, and a young model who was filming with his colleagues. There were also photos posted on it.

The two leaned together and whispered, cheek to cheek, without any gap.The photo was taken from a good angle, and it looked like an idol drama. I joked while watching it, "This reporter must have worked hard during his stay, and he is dedicated."

Sho's hair seemed to be straighter, not as fluffy as it used to be, but still brown in color. He was wearing bright clothes, with a smile on his face, and against his blue and transparent clear eyes, he was full of youth and vitality.

With such a good appearance and being popular, it is normal to have many temptations around her.

We are just bed partners, so at most I just joked and complained about him very understandingly. After a while of silence, I sighed slightly and vented my little dissatisfaction in my heart.

This kind of gossip is really nothing to watch. I quickly tuned to the sports channel next door to watch a football game. It was broadcasting tennis women’s singles. low.

I live a little far from the casino, and it’s not very convenient to go to and from get off work. I have to get up early every day to get to the bus station. After getting off the bus, I need to transfer to the subway. When I get out of the subway station, I still have to walk for a while until I get to the casino. More than half of the time has passed.Although it takes a long time on the road, fortunately there are many people on the subway and bus. I don't like noise, but I like popular places.

This kind of psychology is contradictory, and it is somewhat similar to my attitude towards Sho. I am not used to his talkative and frivolous, but I like the fulfilling feeling of him next to me.

I think I've just been alone for too long and need someone to accompany me, and it doesn't really matter who that person is.

I don't need to be attached to him.

Shen Feng asked me if I needed a car. I didn't refuse this time, and he acted quickly. The next day, he asked Bie to deliver the new car and the new car keys to me. Bie stared at me with big Shuiling eyes. The gauze-covered palm studied for a while, and then asked me as if afraid of pain:

"What does it feel like to be stabbed by a knife? Is it more painful than being raped for the first time?"

I was a little surprised, so I asked:

"It hurts so much for a man to be fucked for the first time?"

Bie nodded vigorously:

"very painful."

Unnaturally, I took out the lighter, lit a cigarette, and held it to my mouth.

He took a deep breath and adjusted his facial expression:

"I don't know."

Bie once again made a naive gesture of contempt, and this time he added facial movements, sticking out his tongue to make a grimace, which shows that the degree of contempt has obviously increased.

"Don't let me inhale second-hand smoke, I still have to sing."

I tousled his hair, put out the cigarette, and got in the new car for a test drive.

Shen Feng has always been generous, giving him a car casually is worth a lot, and Bie also likes this new car very much, so he insists that I take him for a ride.

This kid is still very cute when he behaves. He only acted coquettishly a few times, and I couldn't resist, but he has too many criminal records, and I don't have a comfortable place to be alone with him, so my nerves are always Stretched.

In the end, Bie couldn't see it by himself, so he uttered amazing words in a cool way:

"The imported electric wands purchased by mail a few days ago are too rubbish. The advertisement said that they will only be so cool that they won't hurt. My butt is still blooming. Even if you want to sneak attack me, I have to think carefully."

I:"……"

A look of panic.

Because of the injury, I got two days off. My palm was not so injured that I couldn’t move it. Although the wound would be involved while driving, and I would occasionally gasp in pain, it was not serious.I drove to the store and bought a Fuji Polaroid and some special photo paper.

I parked the car outside the villa of the mayor Siming, on a fork road not far away, connected the Bluetooth to the car, and then leaned on the car seat to listen to music.

It's Sho's new song. I bought it at a video store. The cover of the CD is also pure blue, with a blue ocean and beautiful dark blue eyes.

It was conspicuously placed on the shelf, surrounded by several little girls. When I picked it up, I was paid special attention. I coughed twice in embarrassment, concealed it, and ran to pay the bill.

It's not that I suddenly became interested in Sho's music, but that I supported him purely as a bedmate. Who made piracy rampant now, and the record market is getting less and less optimistic, although his music seems to be selling well.

More or less me, it doesn't matter at all.

It happened to be the weekend, and Qian Hui seemed to be back from shopping. She and Siming's daughter walked out of the car affectionately. They were about the same height and looked like sisters. where I am.

I lowered the car window a little and picked up the Polaroid that was at hand.

The photo has a lomo effect, but it is still very good-looking. Qian Hui is very thin, and she looks photogenic no matter what angle she looks at.

In the end, I took out my mobile phone and took a picture of the distant view, which was set as the desktop of the mobile phone.

Lonely leaning in the car smoking a cigarette, the smoke burns quickly, and my heart is cold.

In the earphones is an episode of a popular idol drama, with a clear male voice, very light and warm, without much emotion mixed in, but it is quite comfortable to listen to.

Half of the mood is cold, and the other half is warm.

I seem to be in a mixed zone of ice and snow and magma, which is contradictory and strange.

Before I knew it, the cigarette had burned my fingers, and I was so hot that I shuddered. I snuffed out the cigarette butt into the ashtray, and reversed the car back to the intersection.

Sho is still abroad and has not come back, but there are more negative news about him on the Internet. I probably scanned it, and it was all about beating reporters and the like, and there were also rumors about him having sex with men.

Sho's company also responded, claiming that these are not true, so that fans should not be credulous.However, someone from the other party immediately jumped out to testify and released photos as evidence.

I recognized the witness who was the one whose SLR camera I took away.

I looked at the photo he used to testify, it was extremely blurry, but I could still see the people in the photo, one was Sho, and the other was also a man.

not me.

This circle is chaotic, I glanced at the aggressive reporter in the video, and sighed, this kind of person really cannot be offended, there is no guarantee when they will jump out and bite you suddenly, you have nothing to guard against.

This incident was not a big deal at first, because Sho is already very popular, and the scandal has never stopped, and it is impossible for fans to abandon their idol just because of these inaccurate hearsay.It's just that the paparazzi reporter who came out to testify had an accident the next day, his arms and legs were broken, and he lay in a vegetable state in the hospital.

The matter was escalated all of a sudden, and there was an uproar on the Internet.

Sho was quickly called back by his company, and all jobs were left out.I still saw this news from the blog homepage of one of his fanatic fans.

There was a lot of excitement on the Internet, everyone wondered if Sho bought the murderer, and Sho's popularity was in jeopardy for a while.

Sho hasn't contacted me since he came back. I can only pay attention to his news on TV and online. I saw him standing in front of the reporter with a stiff expression, and his face was sullen when asked some deliberately difficult questions. Only then did I know that he has a good temper. It turned out that it would be like this because of anger.

When the angry face turned and left, it was replaced by indifference and loss, which made people feel distressed inexplicably.

Bie very proudly called to tell me the good news that Sho was frozen by the company. He always regarded Sho as an imaginary enemy. Although the other party didn't seem to think so, now that something happened to Sho, he was naturally very proud.

It's just that this kid is also strange today, he hesitated while speaking, as if he wanted to tell me something, but he kept biting his mouth and restraining himself.

Under my coaxing, Bie only held back for a moment, and soon he couldn't hold back his quick talk. He told me in a low voice, with his mouth pressed against the receiver:

"Master Shen sent someone to do it. It's the reporter who turned into a vegetative state."

I was silent for two seconds and asked:

"What do you mean?"

Bie immediately yelled:

"It's his own meaning of 'frigidity', and it has nothing to do with me." Then he smirked again, "But he also helped me by doing so."

The so-called people are refreshed on happy occasions, don't be so refreshed that they directly call Shen Feng "frigid", which shows how happy he is now.

"By the way, I'm very likely to win those endorsements he was in charge of, haha, I'm so tall...high...high..."

He read the word "Gao" N times in a row, but the following "Xing" just didn't come out.Then I heard Shen Feng's low voice coming from the opposite side coldly:

"Who are you talking to that I'm frigid?"

The other side was silent for a while, and then Bie said in an aggrieved voice that was weaker than a mosquito and said aggrievedly:

"When did you come here..."

I decisively cut off the call.

When Sho was lazily leaning against my door in a khaki casual suit, I was taken aback for a moment. Seeing me standing there stupidly, he raised his hand frivolously to say hello, with a nice voice, "Hi! Long time no see."

He didn't carry a guitar this time, but only a backpack, with his hands crossed on his chest, looking extremely relaxed.The straight hair seems to be a little fluffy again, with a hair gel-like airy feel, the ends of the hair are very soft and slightly curled, and the beautiful dark blue eyes are looking at me without blinking.

His darkening eyes blinked suddenly, and he smiled mischievously at me, the sunshine was so handsome that it was dazzling.

I opened the door for him, and he stepped in immediately and easily.

"I've been on vacation for a while, and you don't mind taking me in for a while." He put the backpack on my sofa, then sat on it lazily like a boneless one, resting his head on the back of the sofa.

He is so familiar, if I answer "mind" or "don't mind", it seems redundant.

Sho was like returning from a trip. He took out a few strings of beautiful accessories from his bag, saying that they were gifts for me, and asked me to use them as accommodation expenses by the way.

He put those gorgeous things around my neck childishly, squinted his eyes and looked at me for a while, then looked at me with his chin in one hand thoughtfully, after a while, he asked seriously:

"What happened to your hand? Was it hurt?"

His good mood just now really made it hard for me to see that he is someone who is being frozen by the company.

"I lost Jingzhou carelessly, I won't do it next time."

Sho shrugged:

"Don't be mean to me. I grew up abroad, and I prefer you to be straightforward."

With all these trinkets on my body, I feel like I've turned into a Native American, taking off the trinkets I can't taste and putting them straight in the window.

I wanted to ask him if he was hungry, but when I turned around, I saw Sho was looking at the Polaroid and photos I put on the coffee table, with surprise on his face, one eyebrow raised slightly, as if he recognized something.

The photos and Polaroids were quickly put back on the coffee table, he pursed his lips and said nothing.

I only have one bed here, but fortunately, the bed is big enough for two big men to sleep together without being crowded.

Although Sho has a cleanliness, he doesn't seem to be against me. He even takes the glass of water I drank and drank it naturally. Before I brush my teeth and go to bed, he comes to kiss me. I can't help but wonder if he is really a cleanliness .

After going to bed, it was inevitable that we would get entangled again. I hadn't vented for a long time, so naturally I couldn't restrain myself, and I wanted to swallow him alive like a wolf.But his situation is similar to mine, he looks like he has been hungry for a long time, so I teased him, maybe the young model before couldn't satisfy him.

Sho frowned, his beautiful eyes deepened:

"I have nothing to do with her."

I only put 50% trust in this statement because I think this guy seems to like men more than women, he is a double plug.

In fact, I don't mind that he still has a physical relationship with others while maintaining a relationship with me, but safety is always needed. I took out the newly bought condom from the drawer, unpacked it, and brought it to myself.

There is no need to discuss who is above and who is below. The position of the condom has already explained what I mean.

Sho frowned at me, seemingly unhappy.

I thought he was dissatisfied with the upper and lower positions, so I looked at the condom that □ was wearing and joked with him:

"Don't you like this, I bought it specially for you?"

I picked up the condom package and studied it.Well, the one with the swirls, the one that gets in should be able to enjoy the pleasure.

Sho still looked at me with a frown, and there was more coldness in his eyes, but this coldness only lasted for less than two seconds. He quickly put on a lazy smile and hugged me.

"I didn't compromise to let you be on top. I just feel that the position doesn't mean anything at all. It's comfortable anyway. I don't need to worry about it."

It's not so much that he is talking to me, but more like convincing himself.

He is open-minded and doesn't care about these things with me.

He was very enthusiastic on the bed, and his body was also very tight. I enjoyed a good orgasm.

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