hate farewell thirteen

Song Shuman stood at the same spot from a distance and did not step forward, watching Shen Tao and Zhou Ru enter the pear garden from afar, unable to hear what they said.

Song Shuman followed into the garden, Zhou Ru was surprised when she saw her, and wrote on her face, "Why are you back, the play is over?"

Song Shuman shook her head, "No, I don't want to hear it anymore, so I'm back."

"You slipped out like this, does Miss Lin know?"

"she knows."

"When I went to the theater today, Lin Dailan told me, no wonder she was married when she came back from the same period, and I was still so alone. She blamed me and said that I didn't know how to show love, so she drove me out."

Zhou Ru looked at the serious Song Shuman and laughed. Zhou Ru always smiled gently.The doors and windows were closed, and a gust of spring breeze suddenly blew through Song Shuman's heart, and the wind chimes collided and jingled.

"What are you laughing at, sister?"

"When I was a child, I often listened to operas at home. I hadn't been to Liyuan at that time. When I heard it, I couldn't understand it. I fell into my mother's arms and slept all afternoon."

"Looking back now, it was a good show right off the wall."

"Then next time I will go with my sister to listen to the Immediately Above the Wall."

"Don't listen to it anymore. I keep the operas I listened to in the past, and if I listen to them now, they will lose their taste and I won't be able to keep them in my heart." Zhou Ru picked up her pipa, "You can't listen to operas, I'll play the pipa Here you go."

Zhou Ru sang Jiangnan ditties again, the cicadas kept singing outside the window, the curtain couldn't cover all the light, and half of it poured out.

"Sister, there are so many rules in these rules and regulations, won't you be out of breath if you are trapped in so many rules?"

"Instead of wandering outside, it's better to be trapped here, and it's safe."

"Besides, there are no rules. There are family rules in the family, and the laws of the country. There are rules everywhere. There is no rule without rules. Don't you live by the rules? Missy also has her own rules to abide by."

"So I didn't want to live by those rules. That year in England, for a moment, I suddenly didn't want to be an obedient daughter. I wanted to follow my own heart, so I switched to medical school. But when I came back, I still had to pretend."

"Freedom is never an easy thing."

"Does my sister want to be free? Instead of staying in Jiangning Mansion, go to another place, where no one knows."

Zhou Ru thought for a while, "I came to Jiangning Mansion that year, and no one in Jiangning Mansion knew me." She smiled at Song Shuman and shook her head, "If Liberty would have no home, then I For the rest of my life, I don’t need this illusory, invisible and ungraspable things.”

About Zhou Ru's past, Song Shuman only heard bits and pieces, but couldn't piece it together, and couldn't always connect it.She was curious about that period of the past, but she would not ask Zhou Ru openly, it was just a period of the past.

If she could go back to the past, Song Shuman's first thought was not to save the country. Most people are selfish. She was never that great, but she wanted to be an ordinary person.But she wanted Zhou Ru in the past to feel better, so that his wife and children would not be separated and he would not have a home.

What does it matter if you just know or don't know about the past, no matter what, you can't go back to the past, and who can change the past?

Things that today's Qing emperors can't do.

Immediately on the wall, which they had never heard together, became a Jiangnan ditty sung by Zhou Ru. That ditty, like the sound of cicadas and frogs, echoed in Song Shuman's ears for the whole summer.

In midsummer, the weather is hot, which makes people's hearts feel dry, the sun is very hot, and sweat often sticks to the forehead. Song Shuman shakes the cattail fan in her sister's room and falls on the bamboo and rattan recliner.

Zhou Ru went upstairs with two bowls of mung bean soup, "Let it cool to relieve the heat."

The mung bean soup cooked by my sister was placed in a ceramic bowl. The spoon hit the wall of the bowl, and the mung beans sank to the bottom of the bowl.Song Shuman scooped up a spoonful, put it to her mouth and took a big mouthful.

Zhou Ru stared at her and asked, "Is it delicious? Is it too sweet? When I was cooking, my hands shook and I poured a lot of sugar."

"No, it's just right, it's delicious and refreshing."

"It's fine if you like it, I'm afraid you don't like it."

"Sister cooks, how can I not like it."

"Then I'll add half a bag of sugar next time, it'll kill you."

Song Shuman emptied the mung bean soup, leaving only the bottom of the bowl, she held the bowl high and handed it to Zhou Ru, "Sister, I still want to drink it."

Zhou Ru took the bowl, "Okay, I'll get you another bowl."

Song Shuman was lucky enough not to be able to drink the bowl of mung bean soup that Zhou Ru threatened to add half a bag of sugar for the whole summer.

August [-]th is another mid-autumn night of the year.

Although the moon is sixteen round on the fifteenth day, after looking at it for a long time, Zhou Ru did not see which part of the moon was missing. She picked up the blank porcelain plate on the table and stacked it on the moon outside the window. So come here.

Song Shuman was carrying the moon cake box, and seeing Zhou Ru's appearance as soon as she entered the room, she was a little funny, "What are you doing?"

Zhou Ru turned around when she heard the laughter, her hands were still moving, and the plate was still hanging on the moon. Compared with Shiliu's, how can it be said that Shiliu's moon is rounder."

Song Shuman put the box in her hand on the round table, stretched out her hand to take the plate from Zhou Ru's hand, her fingers inadvertently touched Zhou Ru's temperature, "Why are you so entangled with this now, how could you be surprised by these things before?" Pay attention to weird things." As he spoke, he took out the mooncake and put it on the plate.

Zhou Ru turned her body facing the moon to Song Shuman, "It's because I've been with you girl for a long time, and it's all because of you."

Song Shuman stopped what she was doing and pretended to leave, "Then I'm leaving?"

"Suman!"

"I was joking with you, but you always take it seriously."

Chen Ningshu held the chessboard and yelled as he pushed the door open, "Zhou Ru! I know where I made a mistake in that move. If you play another game with me, I will definitely win you this time."

When Chen Ningshu walked in, he saw Song Shuman was there, and asked with a smile, "Excellent student, are you there?"

Song Shuman looked up at Chen Ningshu, "Sister Ningshu, I brought mooncakes, do you want to eat them together?"

"Who doesn't have mooncakes yet? I won't eat yours, Zhou Ru, you must play with me again, just one, and I will definitely win you."

Zhou Ru packed up the things on the table, "Come on."

The chessboard was placed on the table, and the two played chess. Song Shuman could only sit aside, watching with her hands on her cheeks.

Song Shuman didn't like Go since she was a child, and she felt sleepy when she was a child. She only learned a little, and always lost to her father and Liao Shenyan.Liao Shenyan was complacent when he won, and laughed at Song Shuman for a long time, Song Shuman was annoyed, and she didn't like Go anymore.

Song Shuman looked at her sister's decision making, and saw that the number of chess pieces on the chessboard increased step by step. Looking at it, her eyes moved from the chessboard to her sister's face.

Song Shuman was getting closer and closer, and she was about to stick to her sister's face. Zhou Ru tapped her index finger on Song Shuman's forehead, "What are you doing?"

Song Shuman pouted, and obediently sat down again, watching the two play chess, playing chess for too long, watching Song Shuman sleepy, nodding her head like a chicken pecking at rice.

Song Shuman leaned close to Zhou Ru's ear and asked in a low voice, "Sister, when will it end?"

"almost."

Zhou Ru said it was almost time, the chess game was on the fifth move, Chen Ningshu jumped up excitedly, awakening Song Shuman's sleepy mind, "I said I can beat you."

"Okay, okay, I'm leaving, you two continue to eat your mooncakes crookedly, I can't stand the two of you."

"Why did my sister lose? I watched it earlier. My sister always has the advantage."

"Deliberately lose to her, otherwise she will pester me for the next game later."

Zhou Ru looked at Song Shuman, "With you here, this year's Mid-Autumn Festival is quite lively. Since my sister left, I rarely have anyone to accompany me during the Mid-Autumn Festival. During the lively times, I was mostly called by Mr. Zhang to play the pipa. They were happy , but I’m not happy after all.”

"Then I come to accompany you to celebrate the festival today, do you feel happy?"

"It's more than just joy. The previous Mid-Autumn Festival was just an ordinary day for me. A person can't be reunited. Only after you came here did you know what a festival is and what a reunion is."

"Last year's Mid-Autumn Festival, you also spent it with me."

Song Shuman corrected her, "You are confused, last year was the fourteenth, and this year is just the Mid-Autumn Festival, and it is the first Mid-Autumn Festival we have spent together."

Zhou Ru shook his head and said, "It's all the same."

In Zhou Ru's eyes, eating moon cakes and looking at the moon that day is the Mid-Autumn Festival.

During the Mid-Autumn Festival last year, I never imagined that I could really be with Zhou Ru today.But one year feels like a long time. After a whole century, sometimes I even think about what to do in the next century.

Zhou Ru took out the wine, Song Shuman kept her eyes on Zhou Ru, Zhou Ru held the wine jar tightly to her chest, "Don't stare at me, this is not for you to drink."

"Just drink a little." Song Shuman pressed her thumb and index finger together, gesticulating with her hands, "How about it, sister."

Zhou Ru was always soft-hearted, and she did not respond to Song Shuman's request, "Then I will only pour you this cup, no more."

The moon cakes were cut into four and placed on the plate, and the moon was still round, because no one had enough to look at the moon.

Being able to sit with my sister to eat moon cakes, watch the moon, and drink two glasses of wine, such a simple Mid-Autumn Festival, is the greatest satisfaction for the two of them.

"Why are there two older sisters? No, there are so many older sisters, two, three, four..." Song Shuman shook her head, counting Zhou Ru in front of her, there were too many shadows, Song Shuman couldn't count .

Zhou Ru sat next to Song Shuman and helped Song Shuman who was drunk, "Let you drink less, you see, you are drunk again."

Song Shuman leaned on Zhou Ru's shoulder and pointed to the ceiling, "Sister looked up, the sky was full of stars, twinkling like my sister's eyes."

"You're talking nonsense again."

Song Shuman raised her hand to touch Zhou Ru's eyelashes, and the moment she touched her, Zhou Ru trembled.

"Sister, I think..."

Zhou Ru didn't hear what she said, "What?"

"I love you."