go with the wind

After walking with the wildlife film crew for more than half a month, I took a lot of good photos, and got to know the people in the film crew very well. Cao Yiran also learned a lot from the photographers in it. The crew had to stay in one place for shooting, but Cao Yiran couldn't stay still, so he parted ways with the crew.

The two who were separated from the film crew continued their journey, and one night they accidentally helped volunteers from the Wildlife Conservation Association catch two poachers, and were persuaded to join the Conservation Association as volunteers.

The work of being a volunteer is tough, but the two of them also enjoy themselves, and Cao Yiran also got a lot of opportunities to take some rare photos of the harmony between animals and nature.

However, before Cao Yiran got tired of this job, a call came from home to urge the two to go back.

It wasn't that something bad happened in the family, but his uncle was getting married and asked him to go back to attend the wedding.

Since they were only attending the wedding, there was no need to quit the volunteers here. They asked for leave from the organization and said they would come back after attending the wedding.

To get from the organization's base to the airport, it takes a long time to drive, and you have to stay one night in a small town on the way.

At night, the small town is very quiet, the night sky is pure, the moonlight shines brightly, and the earth is quiet and peaceful in the moonlight.

During this time, they spent most of their time sleeping during the day and working at night. They formed a habit. Cao Yiran couldn't sleep much at night. Because of the nature of his previous work, Bai Shu formed the habit of being able to sleep as long as he wanted. habit, so the situation is better.

In the hotel, Cao Yiran lay down for a while and got up again, while Bai Shu slept soundly.

With the moonlight coming in from the window, he could see Bai Shu's peaceful sleeping face. He stretched out his hand to help Bai Shu pull up the quilt on his body, and touched his face with his fingers, because he had been running in the wild for so long. , Bai Shuzhai's white skin raised at home has turned dark again, but it is healthy and handsome black. Cao Yiran thinks he looks good like this, but it is his own skin that is not too dark no matter how tanned it makes him feel very strange .

Cao Yiran sat there staring blankly at Bai Shu for a long time. He really liked living with Bai Shu. In this kind of life, it seemed that there were only the two of them in this world.

In the Conservation Association, there are only two of them Chinese, no one else can speak Chinese, and only one Frenchman who likes China can say a few words such as "Hello", "Have you eaten", "Cheaper", These words made Cao Yiran hold back his laughter every time he said them.

Cao Yiran also deliberately taught him some misleading things. For example, when the French asked him how to say breakfast, he said that the translation of "early" means to hurry up, which means that Chinese people have a special sense of time, and they need to be quick in everything. Point, especially things like breakfast that will delay sleep for a while, the sooner the better...

Bai Shu who came over slapped him on the head, explained it to the Frenchman, and dragged Cao Yiran away.

The French knew that Cao Yiran always lied to him, but he seemed to let Cao Yiran lie on purpose, and always went to him to listen to his nonsense.

Cao Yiran also deliberately explained to him that China uses "things" to refer to non-living objects, and then added, "For example, you are alive, so you are not things."

Bai Shu heard it again, and then slapped Cao Yiran away again.

The French looked behind with a smile and asked Bai Shu, "I think what he said is right, is there something wrong?"

Bai Shu just smiled and said, "Nothing went wrong."

When they left this time, it was the Frenchman who drove them off.It's just that he is sleeping in the next room, while Bai Shu and Cao Yiran have requested a standard room, but they still sleep on the same bed.

Cao Yiran felt that in this country far away from home, even though he sometimes had some language problems, he still felt good, because Chinese had become a unique language between him and Bai Shu, and only he could understand what Bai Shu said. Only Bai Shu can understand what Bai Shu expressed, and he likes this feeling.

Bai Shu said that he was wrong, they didn't need to restrain the two of them in this way, as long as the hearts are connected, there will be no problems, and he also criticized Cao Yiran, "You don't want to learn foreign languages ​​on purpose, don't you, even if you say such sweet words to me? , It’s useless, you must learn what you should learn.”

So Cao Yiran raped her on the bed.

Cao Yiran thinks that Bai Shu is born with a very strong language function. He learns languages ​​very quickly and never forgets them. Cao Yiran was very surprised that he was able to use very strong Spanish after a long time.

Cao Yiran has no choice but to admire Bai Shu for being excellent. He has never shown this kind of admiration to anyone in his life from birth to the present. In the past, he was not willing to admit the excellence of others, although he verbally Although he does not recognize Baishu's excellence and all-roundness in all aspects, he is convinced in his heart.

And this excellent person loves him so much, which makes him even more satisfied. Looking at the moonlight outside the window, this moonlight seems to be different from what he saw in China, but by Bai Shu's side, he feels that any place in the world It makes no difference to him, as long as this person is there.

After sitting for a while, he felt that he couldn't fall asleep, so he carefully got out of bed and went out to take a look.

Behind the hotel is a very spacious lawn. There are trees at the far end of the lawn. Under the moonlight, the branches and leaves of the trees show a kind of snow white against the light, and the shadows drawn on the ground follow the wind and shadows. , shaking, with the sound of sharara.

Cao Yiran stood there, blowing the night wind, looking at the moon.

In the 20-odd years since he was born, before he met Bai Shu, he always felt that it was a time spent in vain. Those pains that he had never forgotten—maybe they couldn’t be called wounds either. Pain, he doesn’t regard the experience when he was a child as pain, but just feels disgusting and painful, he doesn’t want to face it at all, he always does all kinds of things to forget what happened at that time, and he once felt that he had forgotten, no I will think about it again, but that incident is engraved in his bones, forming a large buried iceberg in his subconscious, which is usually invisible at all, unless the water level drops, and a little iceberg will be exposed. And when it is well covered up, although it is not revealed, it has affected him a lot in the future, his character, behavior pattern...

When he thought of that incident, it was as if black and sticky dirt was coming up in his heart, making him feel sick and uncomfortable, and he couldn't restrain himself from wanting to destroy everything...

But after being with Bai Shu for so long, he is willing to think about what happened at that time, and he seems to be relieved, thinking that even if it was like that at that time, so what.

He is him, no matter what happened at that time, he is still him now, who knows what he will look like when he grows up without going through what happened at that time.Maybe it's not like this, then, if he's not like this, why should he admit him.Moreover, if he is not the present, will he still meet Bai Shu, will he be with him, everything is uncertain, then, he would rather be like this, this is the life experience he has gone through.

When Bai Shu woke up, he found that Cao Yiran was gone.

After looking around, I felt a little uneasy, so I put on my clothes and went downstairs to find him.

It didn't take much effort to spot him on the grass behind the hotel.

Cao Yiran stood there alone, but stood upright, like an elf absorbing the moonlight into a spirit in the moonlight.

Bai Shu walked over step by step, Cao Yiran knew it was him just by the sound of footsteps, so he didn't move.

Bai Shu reached out and hugged him from behind, kissed his ear lightly, and asked, "What are you doing standing here if you don't sleep?"

Cao Yiran said softly, "I can't sleep."

Bai Shu smiled, "I've been sleeping in the car during the day, it's normal if I can't sleep. But it's quite cold outside, let's go in."

Cao Yiran gave a low hum, but didn't move, but said, "Bai Shu, there is actually one thing I've always wanted to tell you. I wanted to tell you, but I haven't thought about how to say it before."

Bai Shu was stunned for a moment, hugged Cao Yiran even tighter, and said, "Since you want to tell me, then tell me. No matter what it is, it belongs to you, I want to know, and I am willing to bear it with you. "

When Cao Yiran said that, he already understood what Cao Yiran wanted to say.

If the thorn in Cao Yiran's heart can't be pulled out, the thorn that made him grow up with pain, let it melt.

Cao Yiran leaned his head on Baishu's shoulder, looked at the distant forest, the moonlight was bright, and the earth was peaceful, he said, "It's not a big deal, it's just something that happened when I was a child."

Bai Shu didn't intervene, but just held his cool hand in his own, waiting for his next words.

Cao Yiran paused for a long time, his eyes were far away, as if traveling through time and space, and returned to the past.Wanting to say, he hesitated to speak, Bai Shu's body temperature made him feel warm, he shook his head for a while, and then continued, "I don't know what other people were like when they were young, so it's hard for me to say that I am It was good or bad at that time. I don’t really remember how old I was at that time, and I don’t remember many things at that time. That thing was also vague and I can’t remember clearly. I don’t remember that person very much. What does it look like..."

He spoke very vaguely and messily, but Bai Shu listened quietly, his warm breath was on Cao Yiran's neck, Cao Yiran knew that he was listening, he was here, he was with himself, now, There is a future.

Then I had the courage to continue, "He is the tutor my grandfather found. He said he was a tutor. At that time, he gave me a deeper feeling than my parents. Although he was at home almost every day, every day With me, but I don't like him, not because he is very strict with me, but because I know that he is just a tutor, not my parents, no matter how close he is, he is just a cousin That's all... I don't like him, and I don't want him to control me..."

Bai Shu gave a low "hmm", indicating that he had been listening carefully.

But Cao Yiran was completely immersed in the events of the year, the world reflected by the moonlight made him feel that everything was in a trance.

"I don't know what he thinks of me, maybe he doesn't like me, I always feel that he does those things because he doesn't like me. But it's probably because he has to be governed by my rules in my house, plus his previous It is also an army with extremely strict management in all aspects. He must suppress himself and do a good job in all aspects on the surface, so that is why he is like that in his heart..."

Speaking of this, Cao Yiran frowned, but his voice was still light and fluttering, as if it was blown away by the night wind, he was not excited, nor did he seem to have any other emotions, he was even worried about the one that made him suffer people find a reason to do so.

"I always feel that people who look very bright and outstanding on the outside must be ugly on the inside. There is a devil living there, probably because he is like that, so I think all those people are ugly on the inside. I later found out , it’s not like that, you’re not.”

Bai Shu was praised by him, and his heart was touched, because what Cao Yiran said was something deep in his heart. He hugged Cao Yiran tightly, and there was a kind of tenderness in his heart, which made him feel Love him so much that it is as uncontrollable and unbearable as life and death.

"I feel like he vented his anger on me, he...I...at that time..." Cao Yiran frowned even tighter, but he didn't know what to say. There was an inexplicable filthy pain in his heart, Let him squeeze his hands tightly, and Bai Shu kissed him gently on the cheek, saying, "I will love you forever."

Cao Yiran trembled, fell silent, and then smiled again, "Hey, me too."

Bai Shu also smiled, kissed him again, and said, "No matter what it is, what happened at that time is in the past. If others say that what happened in the past, then forget it. We all know that, but we can't forget it." I'm just deceiving myself. But no matter what happened at that time, I am willing to bear it with you... I can't make it happen at that time, but I am willing to walk with you from what happened at that time Come out... let's go out together..."

Cao Yiran turned his head and stared quietly at the white tree, his dark eyes glowed with the deep and crystal-like light of black crystals that had been tempered for thousands of years under the moonlight, he asked softly, "Do you know what happened at that time?" something?"

Bai Shu's gaze was deep and gentle, like warm water that could contain everything, "Well, I know. I knew it before, but I couldn't let you understand my heart."

Cao Yiran blushed again after being surprised, as if he was about to get angry, but Bai Shu's tight hug made him unable to get angry, so he could only ask, "How do you know?"

Bai Shudao, "I went to ask Zhou Yan, and he told me, a long time ago, when we were just together."

Cao Yiran then muttered, "Then...you still like me."

Bai Shu's voice was gentle and thick, "Why don't you like me? I knew I liked you when I saw you. I only regret that I didn't meet you sooner. If we knew each other when we were very young, maybe we could prevent you from meeting That's it."

Cao Yiran smiled because of this, and said, "Don't you feel embarrassed?"

Bai Shudao, "I love you, I love you all. The growth of a person shapes his image in the future. If I love you, I will accept all of you in the process of growing up. You will remember that event for the rest of your life. Then, I will accompany you. I want you to make up for the pain at that time, and make up for it with happiness, okay?"

Cao Yiran bit his lip, but did not answer, his wide eyes were wet in the moonlight, and tears rolled down from his eye sockets.

Bai Shu kissed his cheek and didn't speak again.

Cao Yiran turned around and hugged him, and kissed his lips. The salty taste of tears spread between his lips and teeth, and the gentle and warm breath entangled him. Cao Yiran thought, what did he care about at that time? Yes, he got everything from the white tree.