Panda's Postmodern Life

After eating, Shen Shen felt a little dizzy, looked at the time and simply got up and went to the bathroom to take a shower and plan to go to bed. He closed the bathroom door, and saw a vague but familiar figure outside the frosted glass door, Shen Chen unscrewed the shower with his right hand, and the water droplets followed the graceful curve of his back. He looked outside the door again and found that Zhu Qing was still standing there. He couldn't help but said, "Why don't you go back to your room ? What are you doing standing there?"

Zhu Qing's voice came slowly through the steam: "You are pregnant, I don't worry about you taking a bath alone."

Shen Shen shook the goosebumps on his body, and said in a muffled voice, "I'm a man, not as fragile as you think."

"You said the truth, but I always feel a little uneasy in my heart, Shen Shen, do you know how happy I was when I knew you had my child? I always feel that you don't like me that much, this The appearance of a child is like a shackle that binds you and me together. This relationship is even stronger than marriage, but... I always feel that your thoughts are not on me, and I always feel that the next moment I will I can't catch you... Shen Chen, do you know?"

It was the first time Zhu Qing said such a thing. He suddenly felt that he felt a little more relaxed after saying these things that were usually stuffy in his heart. His voice was a little blurred by the sound of running water. The expression on his face changed again and again. His feelings for Zhu Qing were far more complicated than Zhu Qing's for him. Zhu Qing looked exactly like Feng Yan. When he looked at Zhu Qing, he couldn't help feeling He will be replaced by the man who always abandoned him. He still has resentment towards Feng Yan in his heart, but he just thinks about Zhu Qing's clear eyes like two clear springs, and he feels that Zhu Qing and Feng Yan are really very different. On the other hand, Zhu Qing was the bamboo that he wholeheartedly planned to raise and eat. Although the way of raising it later was deviated, in his heart, he always regarded Zhu Qing as his pet or son or something. The relationship with Zhu Qing made him very angry at first, but after a long time he finally figured it out, isn't it just the last time he was raped by a man?He is not a chaste and strong woman so caring about what?But now that he has Zhu Qing's child, when he thinks of a child, he will inevitably think of the child who died young. If his first child is still alive, he wonders what it will be like.

Zhu Qing saw that Shen Chen didn't answer him for a long time, his heart sank, and he couldn't help asking: "Chen Chen? What's wrong with you, Chen Chen? Are you feeling unwell? Why don't you speak, Shen Chen?"

Zhu Qing's long-winded questioning not only didn't make Shen Shen feel bored, but made him feel a little warm in his heart, and Shen Shen still agreed impatiently: "I'm fine, you don't have to worry about it." Too much, I find it too noisy."

Zhu Qing closed her mouth obediently, waited for a while, and couldn't help saying: "Shen Chen, do you want to eat later? Tell me what you want to eat."

Shen Chen was brushing his teeth, couldn't help rolling his eyes, he bit his toothbrush and said, "Didn't I just eat it, I'll go to bed later, if you have nothing to do, go to sleep, good night."

The next day, before Zhu Qing left, he told Shen Shen to take good care of himself at home, but Shen Shen kicked him out of the gate impatiently. As soon as Zhu Qing left, Shen Shen immediately changed his ferocious expression and wrinkled Raising his handsome eyebrows, he sat on the sofa for a while, touched his slightly protruding belly, then got up suddenly and pushed open the door.

Feng Yan is like the deepest wound in Shen Shen's heart. Thousands of years have taught Shen Shen to forget, but forgetting is just a kind of self-deception. When the fragile scab on the wound is lifted again, After rubbing, I found that the original wound had not healed, and was still dripping with blood.

Shen Chen originally planned to never forgive that person again in his whole life, never to see him again, maybe in his dream, just like what Zhu Qing said, he would still unconsciously be attached to Feng Yan and even call out Feng Yan. Yan's name, but intellectually he clearly told himself that it was impossible for him to be Shen Chen with Feng Yan.

Shen Shen walked on the misty mountain road. He spent a lot of magic points from his home to this forbidden mountain where Feng Yan was imprisoned. He felt a little bit relieved while complaining. This is a problem, but escaping is not the solution after all, one day he still has to face it, if Zhu Qing is really Feng Yancheng, then he has no choice but to escape from this city where he has lived for decades, and find a new place and stomach The children in the house live a quiet life, if Zhu Qing is not Feng Yan...

If it wasn't for Feng Yan, would he try to accept Zhu Qing's feelings?

Shen Shen's mind was full of confusion, until he unknowingly walked into the cold cave and looked at the deep and clear pool of water in the cave, and then suddenly regained his senses.

nobody.

There is a long and wide crack on the top of the cave, so the light in the cave is very abundant, the mountain wall is covered with soft moss, and two long chains protruding from the rock with cold light are submerged in the pool water. Shen Shen moved a few steps, and when he reached the place where the chain disappeared, he bent down and looked down, his eyes suddenly opened wide.

Looking at the bottom of the clear pool water, a human skeleton with a chain pierced through the chest was lying there, half leaning against the smooth stone wall quietly, with a snow-white face on his heavy face, he stared blankly at the sentence that did not know the silence The bones of so many years suddenly couldn't help laughing while covering their faces, tears unconsciously left between the fingers, and passed along the nails and wrists to the ground little by little.

dead... actually dead...

That's right, I heard that Feng Yan volunteered to come here to be punished, and even shaved his bones, and ran here in a chic suit, but now he died and ended up with such an ugly face, he is really more fragile than ordinary people.

Shen Shen fell down on the ground in a daze, his eyes were slack and he scanned the cave where Feng Yan was once imprisoned, he was sitting at the place where Feng Yan once took him, looking at the little scenery he had once seen .

On the cold mountain wall, there were traces, deep or shallow, that seemed to be writing something. Shen Shen's expression changed slightly, and he immediately chanted a spell, and the whole cave became brighter in an instant.

When the light was sufficient to illuminate every place in the dark cave, Shen Shen finally saw those handwriting clearly.

'Bicheng, if...one day you come here, does it mean that you have forgiven me?I know I'm sorry for you, but besides being sorry, I still want to say something to you, that is, I really love you, maybe it will be a little hypocritical in your ears, maybe you don't believe me anymore, I admit that I still had nostalgia for Mingjin at that time...but...when I was locked up here, I really didn't think of her at all, and what I saw every day whether I opened or closed my eyes was Your face...Only you, I know that I am no longer worthy of looking for you, I just wait for one day you can forgive me and come to see me, but after thinking about it for a long time, I realized that I was wrong. It's too cowardly, I should go to you immediately, even if you beat me and scold me, I will cling to you, instead of hiding here and repenting with peace of mind... Unfortunately... my celestial power is not enough, and I am about to My soul is gone... Does this mean that my guilt has also been cleared?But after all, I am not reconciled... I am not reconciled to never seeing you again... Even if I am hated by you... I also...'

The writing became lighter and lighter until it suddenly broke here.