personal lover

What if Eunhyuk leaves one day?This question was once asked by Jin Yul when he was looking for Eunhyuk that day, but in this silent night, Jin Lu couldn't help asking himself again.

Uncle Wang has passed away, and now he doesn't have any leverage to keep Yin Hyuk in his hands.Suddenly, Jin Lu felt very sad. For so many years, the person he tried so hard to keep wanted to leave all the time, but he had to take measures and rely on bargaining chips to keep him.

In fact, now I can take extraordinary measures again to keep Eunhyuk, but do I really want to do this?

This idea was immediately vetoed by Jin Lu, he can no longer be so selfish, and should give Eunhyuk the freedom he has always longed for!

I remember, one year when Eunhyuk celebrated his birthday, Kim Yul asked him, "What birthday present do you want?"

Yin Hyuk smiled lightly, with a bit of sadness in his smile, and said softly: "You can't give me what I want."

free!

Kim Yool knew that what Eunhyuk wanted was freedom, but he kept taking him as his own selfishly.For so many years, I have been loving Eunhyuk in my own way, ignoring Eunhyuk's feelings and needs, imprisoning him in my own world, and never letting him really fly into the blue sky.

Now is the time to let go and set Eunhyuk free!

Although I am very sad in my heart, I must let go.

Jin Lu plucked up his courage and pushed open the connecting door. In Jin Lu's eyes, this door was just a decoration all the time, and he could shuttle back and forth at will. It has never been as heavy as today. It will probably be empty.

Yin Hyuk was about to turn off the lights and go to bed, when he saw Jin Lu who had opened the door with a dignified expression, he couldn't help being slightly surprised, "What happened?"

Jin Lu spoke slowly with some difficulty, "He, in fact, some words have been buried in my heart for a long time, but I have never had the courage to say them to you." I was afraid that after I said it, I would lose you, completely lose you.

Eunhyuk was completely stunned, and then regained his normal expression, and said softly, "Speak."

Jin Lu sat down by the bed, didn't dare to look at Yin Hyuk, lowered his head and said: "He, after all these years, you actually hate me, right?"

The answer to the golden law is the depth and silence of midnight.

Eunhyuk responded silently, his dignity and happiness had been trampled on by Jin Lu recklessly, if he said he didn't hate him, he never hated him, then he was deceiving himself and others.

"I used that extreme method to keep you by my side, completely disregarding your wishes, and forcing you to be with me. I know that you hate me in your heart. But do you know? In fact, at that time I really Terrified, afraid that one day you will leave me and I will be all alone, so I can't wait to make you mine and mine alone. I'm so selfish! I'm such a jerk!" Jin Lu revealed deep sadness and strong regret, but unfortunately, the end of the day is too late for regret.

Eunhyuk was quite shocked, because like himself, Jin Lu is a person who likes to hide his thoughts in the bottom of his heart. He didn't expect Jin Lu to say such a thing, and he didn't understand why Jin Lu was so abnormal tonight, so he opened his heart to himself , and admitted his mistake, Eunhyuk couldn't help but look up at Kim Ryul, because he was surprised and puzzled by Jin Ryul's intentions, so he didn't speak rashly.

"Back then, I ignored your wishes and forced you to be with me. Now I give you the right to choose, the right to choose freedom. If you want to leave, you can leave at any time. I will never stop you."

Eunhyuk's calm face showed no joy or sorrow, "Are you really willing to let me go?"

Jin Lu nodded lightly, and said with a bit of unspeakable sentimentality: "Although I wish so much to keep you by my side forever, I can't continue to be selfish regardless of your wishes. I have already selfishly occupied You should be free for ten years."

"Do you know how long I have been waiting for this day?" Yin Hyuk asked calmly, but there was an unspeakable sadness in his eyes, vast and deep, shocking.

Jin Lu nodded heavily, with endless remorse, "I'm sorry for you, I dare not ask you to forgive me."

Eunhyuk sat there quietly, the freedom he had been longing for all this time suddenly came at this moment, without any warning or preparation, and Eunhyuk was a little caught off guard. On the surface, he remained calm and calm as usual because he was too shocked. In fact, he His inner world is being turned upside down.

Eunhyuk turned his head to look at the dark and vast night sky, always saying to himself: Only after experiencing the darkness of night can we see the dawn of hope.After countless dark nights, tonight, on such an ordinary night, the moment I was looking forward to day and night finally came!

I am finally free!

From the bottom of his heart, Eunhyuk felt an impulse to cry out for joy, and this joy slowly spread outward from his heart, and the depth in Eunhyuk's eyes was gradually replaced by joy.

After several hesitation, Jin Lu finally said, "Actually, I..."

Eunhyuk turned his head back, looked at Jinru with bright eyes, and waited for the next sentence.

Jin Lu could tell that it was a feeling of joy spontaneously, and Yin Hyuk's joyful and bright eyes were like the twinkling stars in the sky, which could not be blocked by the deep night.

Jin Lu lowered his head in discouragement. Facing such shining eyes, the words he wanted to say could only be swallowed back in his stomach. In fact, I really love you.

Then, Jin Lu thought that he had sent Eunhyuk to a training school to force him to learn the methods and techniques of serving men, disregarding his will, and pressing him under him, and he had threatened him, humiliated him, and hurt him more than once , Injured him to pieces, only obedience.Does it make sense to say that now?Can all my actions be erased with one sentence?Do I have the right to say this to Eunhyuk?

Jin Yu once said to himself: Let Eun Hyuk leave because he has a chance to love him again.I hope that time can wash away the hatred in Eunhyuk's heart, and hope that one day I can meet him again, get to know him again, and start over again.

In fact, this idea is just a kind of self-comfort, a secret prayer, an extravagant hope, and self-deception.

Jin Lu was overwhelmed with grief and couldn't bear it, so he stood up and said in a low voice: "I'm going back, you can rest."

Eunhyuk nodded with a smile, "Good night."

"Good night."

After Jin Lu went out, Eunhyuk still maintained the original posture, indulged in his own thoughts, and after a while, he came back to himself and turned off the light, lying on the bed relaxedly.

Jin Lu was tossing and turning on the bed, unable to sleep at night, thinking that he might not see Eunhyuk when he opened his eyes tomorrow, his heart was pierced like a knife.

Unable to restrain the impulse in his heart, Jin Lu pushed the connected door again.