mountains and deep sea

Lu Yuzhi was woken up by the heat. The heating in the room covered the whole room, which made him almost sweat from sleep.He touched his side, and the bed was already cold.

He opened his eyes suddenly, looked at the empty pillow for a while, then got up slowly, and opened his curtains.It was snowing all night, and the window panes were covered with frost, with thick ice on top, and the outside of the house was hazy.

Lu Yuzhi stood by the window for a long time, thinking for a while how he slept so soundly last night with other people around, and didn't even know he got up and left.

Suddenly, out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of a note on the table.He paced over, and there were delicate characters on it, the font was chic, and it was in thin gold.

Fu Wensheng swiped his pen, "I bought breakfast and it's in the kitchen. I have to leave early."

Lu Yuzhi pinched the note with his fingers, looked at the short line of words for a long time, and slightly raised the corner of his mouth—oh, he was much kinder than him, at least he left the note before running away.

The first time he saw Fu Wensheng in Wancheng, he didn't recognize anyone. That day in the theater, his mood turned bad because of Lu Quansheng's sudden phone call. There was no one else in his eyes. The man is pretty good-looking, but it's a pity that he was not interested in it because of his bad mood at the time.

Later, at Fu’s house, the man appeared out of nowhere at the corner of the stairs, wearing a sweater and smiling warmly, and he recognized him at that time. He was the protagonist of the one-night stand he met in Paris.It's just that he wasn't sure, because what he heard about Fu Wensheng in the yard was all outstanding among his peers, a role model, and he was so much better than an illegitimate child like him.

He didn't expect that the leader was gay just like himself.

It seems that he is still a gay who likes himself.

It's just that I don't know how much seriousness there is in this liking.

The ice hanging on the eaves couldn't bear the weight, and fell off with a snap, smashing a hole in the thick snow below.

Lu Yuzhi woke up from the sound, folded the note carefully, and threw it on the table casually.

At this time, the vibrating mobile phone buzzed on the table. Lu Yuzhi glanced at it, and when he saw a series of unfamiliar numbers on the screen, he immediately picked up the phone.

However, within a few seconds, the call came in again.

Lu Yuzhi stared blankly at the lit phone screen for several seconds before finally picking it up.

The other end must have just woken up, and the voice was still lazy, "Hey, Lu Yuzhi, why did you hang up on me?"

"what's up?"

"Don't be so indifferent, I'm your elder brother anyway." Gu Yihua smiled on the other end, "This blood relationship is beyond the reach of others."

"Oh?" Lu Yuzhi laughed, "I don't think so, why don't you go back and ask your own father, how many illegitimate children like me are there outside?"

Gu Yihua's mocking smile suddenly dissipated, replaced by faint anger, "What are you talking about?!"

"Young Master Gu still can't understand what I said? Or did you already know how many women your father fooled around with?"

"Lu Yuzhi! That's your father too." Gu Yihua yelled sharply, "It's the father you want to recognize after losing your face!"

Lu Yuzhi laughed instead, "Oh, Young Master Gu admits that I am the Gu family now?"

"You!" Gu Yihua was furious over there, not understanding why he called Lu Yuzhi early in the morning to be angry.

Lu Yuzhi yawned, "Forget yours and mine, tell me what's wrong."

This time, Gu Yihua really remembered why he came here. After thinking about it, he put aside the anger he had received just now, and immediately spoke nicely again, "Come back to Gu's house for the Chinese New Year."

Through the phone line, he could guess that Lu Yuzhi on the other end must have frowned.

Although Lu Yuzhi has returned to the Gu family these years, his relationship with the Gu family is indeed not good. He doesn't go back home on weekdays, and he only goes back when there is something urgent or he thinks about it.But usually when he goes back to the Gu family, he will be restless for a few days, and no one in the Gu family expects him to go back.

He didn't want to go back either.

But Gu Yihua, who always hated him the most, called him to go back this time, because the sun really came out from the west.

Lu Yuzhi always only did his own thing, so he simply replied with two words, "No reply."

"It's your dad, oh no, it's my dad who told you to come back, you'd better come back, don't make the New Year unhappy, the theater is hard, and neither are we."

These words are clearly a threat, but the threat has weight.

As time goes on, the thoughts and hobbies of young people are also changing day by day. Not many people are willing to go to the theater to watch a performance.If the theater wants to survive and the dance troupe needs to eat, it depends on people's sponsorship.Du Mengqiu was poor all his life and didn't have so much money to support the whole theater, and so was Lu Yuzhi.

But Mrs. Gu can, Wancheng Theater depends on Mrs. Gu, the "financial master" to survive.

Lu Yuzhi on this side was silent for a long time, while Gu Yihua on the other side was proud for a long time, "It's just a New Year's reunion dinner, what about it?"

Lu Yuzhi didn't answer, just asked, "Is there anything else?"

Gu Yihua knew that he had agreed, and was about to hang up the phone when he suddenly remembered something, "Do you know Fu Wensheng?"

Lu Yuzhi, who had just been threatened, didn't know why he suddenly talked about Fu Wensheng, a little impatiently, "Not familiar."

"Unfamiliar? I had dinner with him last night because you made a face for me. You are not familiar?"

Lu Yuzhi froze for a moment, but still said, "I'm not familiar with you, get out."

The phone was cut off violently by him, and he remained sitting still, staring at the note on the table that he had thrown casually. After a long time, he sighed and got up, and threw the note into his drawer.

The end of the year was approaching, and the university was on vacation. When Fu Wensheng was free, he went back to the yard and helped Shen Yanqing tidy up the house.

During the Chinese New Year, the Chinese pay attention to dust removal and new cloths, and they must thoroughly clean the inside and outside of the house.Shen Yanqing always likes to do things by herself, but her family is big, so she always has to be busy for a long time.Furthermore, the aunt at home was going home for the New Year, and Fu Qian was also busy with the company's year-end affairs. Fu Wensheng was the most free, and was called back by Shen Yanqing early to help.

Fu Qian's study was the last to be cleaned. Fu Wensheng stepped on the high chair to organize the things on the bookshelf, and accidentally found a photo album.

The photo album is very old, it is estimated to be several decades old, and the cover has turned yellow. Fortunately, the photos are well preserved and people can still be seen clearly.Fu Wensheng turned over a few pages with interest, and found that they were all photos of Shen Yanqing in the theater when he was young.

Shen Yanqing used to tell him about being a dancer in the theater when he was a child, but this was the first time he saw this photo album about the theater. In it, Shen Yanqing was young and energetic, who liked to wear two braids and wore All kinds of performance costumes, smiling faces.

Time flies, and the dancing girl in the photo has become the worrying mother of today.

Suddenly Fu Wensheng flicked through his hands, and his eyes fell on a photo of two people. In the photo, one was Shen Yanqing, and the other was a girl who could feel the word "beautiful" through the lifeless withered photo.

The girl is in her twenties, with coiled hair, no make-up, and pale eyebrows like autumn water, but it is probably because of the deep eye sockets. When Shui Ling's eyes are staring at the camera, they seem to hook your soul, very much like someone.

Fu Wensheng gently stroked the woman's face with his fingers, this is...

"Hear the sound?" Shen Yanqing just came out after cleaning the room, and when she entered the study, she saw Fu Wensheng looking down with her head down, not knowing what she was looking at, so she stepped forward and called him, "What are you looking at?"

Fu Wensheng raised his head, looked at Shen Yanqing, and pointed to the woman in the photo to show her, "Mom, this is..."

Shen Yanqing took a look, "Oh, this is Yu Zhi's mother, Lu Jiaruan."

Fu Wen knew it was his mother.

"Isn't this the old photo album?" Shen Yanqing sat down in front of him, took the photo album in his hand, and was pleasantly surprised, "Where did you find it?"

"On the bookshelf." Fu Wensheng didn't know what to think, and asked again, "Do you know Lu Yuzhi's mother?"

"Why don't you know each other? In the past, Jia Ruan was in the same dance troupe as me, and we were classmates." Shen Yanqing said, "Speaking of which, she is a girl with a lot of personality. Even a girl like me would be tempted, no wonder so many people chased her back then, it's a pity..."

In the end, Shen Yanqing sighed, feeling regretful.

Fu Wensheng remembered what Gu Yihua and his group had said about Lu Jiaruan at the dinner that day, and immediately frowned, "What kind of person is she?"

"Her..." Shen Yanqing's eyes drifted away, as if recalling the past.

Lu Jiaruan is different from each of them, with a distinct and unique personality. In that feudal age, he was never constrained by his identity as a woman.She always likes to wear heavy makeup, curly hair in big circles, nails painted in red or other bright colors, her eyes are always bright, and she will never forget them when she sees them.Lu Jiaruan is so beautiful, so beautiful.

What Shen Yanqing remembers most is the way Lu Jiaruan danced. She had a solo dance of her own, and she would change into a wine red dress. A beam of light chased her on the stage. She is the only one in the eyes of herself and the audience.

"When she was young, she was like a flirtatious rose. She attracted many people to chase after her. It is no exaggeration to say that she could line up a street. We were joking at that time, who could cure her. Unexpectedly, Gu Yunping and Gu Yunping Together."

Shen Yanqing sighed again, "It's also a crime. It was your Uncle Gu who was pursuing her from the beginning, with all kinds of tricks. Jia Ruan also really liked him, and they were together for a while. Then, for some reason, your Uncle Gu suddenly announced Engaged, but not to her."

"Although I knew Jia Ruan well at the time, I didn't know Jia Ruan well enough to inquire about his personal feelings. I only heard that Jia Ruan left for a while and brought back a child when he came back. When I heard about it again, it was Yu Zhiyuan. It's Gu Yunping's child, and then there's the news of her suicide."

"Suicide?" Fu Wensheng frowned.

"Yeah," Shen Yanqing sighed, "I thought Jia Ruan had let go of her after so many years, but she didn't. She still remembered this relationship, maybe she committed suicide because of love, or something else, I don't know, I just feel sorry for Yu. One of the children, the mother does not love and the father does not recognize, poor."

Fu Wensheng looked at the woman in the photo in silence, recalling Lu Quansheng's harsh words to Lu Yuzhi that night, his eyes deepened - he didn't seem to be expected by everyone when he came to this world, if so, then Lu Yuzhi So, how did you grow up?

That night in Hutong Street, the morning light was quietly blooming on one side of the sky, Fu Wen silently half-raised himself up, and secretly looked at the sleeping Lu Yuzhi under the dim light.

Like a small animal, he curled himself up a little, with a distance between him and him, with his back tightly against the wall, half of his face buried in the quilt.Maybe it was a nightmare, Lu Yuzhi didn't sleep well, his brows were raised high, and his hand holding the corner of the quilt trembled from time to time.

When Fu Wensheng was studying, he had studied psychology for one semester, which was about children's psychological problems caused by their parents when they were young.Because of the unhappy relationship of their parents, they lack the care they deserve, and they will be extremely insecure and sensitive in their hearts during the growth process. What's more, they will have a tendency to depression.

Lu Yuzhi that night was like such a child.

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Zuo Erdong Chen

early morning~~~